“Sleep, my love.” I whispered softly in her ear.
“Stay.” She pleaded like a child. My lifeless heart doesn’t seem so lifeless anymore. It swelled with hope. She still wants me to stay – with her.
A soft sob escaped her lips. She was trying hard to be tough.
“Shhh…I’ll be here with you, Bella, I promise.” I said soothingly – ALWAYS, FOREVER, As long as she wants me to. I won’t leave her anymore.
I brushed her hair away from her face and gently kissed her cheek. I hummed the lullaby I made for her. After a couple of bars, her breathing became even. Her lips slightly parted. I could feel her warm breath on my face. I smiled and gazed lovingly at the beautiful face of the girl I love with all my heart… with all I have.
I was hungry for every little line, every little crease of her beautiful face. I want to trace the lines of her lips with my fingers but I’m afraid she would waken. I’m also afraid of the powerful emotions, touching her lips would bring. I sighed. I’ve been without her long enough, I may not control myself and give in to…I shook my head. That could never happen to us. She’s too fragile. But how I wish I could love her too in that way. I shook my head once again.
“Get a grip, Edward. You just came back.” I chastised myself a little louder than I intended. I laughed quietly. I wonder how easy it is for me to laugh when I’m with her.
I stared once again at her lovely face. Her brows furrowed. What is she dreaming? I smoothed out her hair. How I missed its soft silky texture. I lifted a handful of strands to my nose and inhaled deeply. Intoxicating…as always. She stirred. I started humming again. My humming stopped – I was caught off guard. Then the lyrics and melody flowed clearly on my mind.
It took one look
And forever laid out in front of me
One smile and I died
Only to be revived by you.
I smiled and thought of the first time I saw her, the first time I heard her voice, saw her smile, blush, laugh…the very first kiss, the very first touch…
She snuggled closer to me, then shivered. I laughed quietly. I miss this. I miss her. I miss us. I wrapped the blanket around her even more tightly. I continued humming.
There I was
Thought I had everything figured out
Goes to show just how much I know
‘bout the way life plays out.
Fate doesn’t seem so ruthless for me anymore. Fate brought her to me. Fate allowed me to become what I am so that I could meet her, love her, be with her. I won’t fight Fate anymore.
I took one step away
But I find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you.
I know now that I was a fool to have left her. It didn’t bring me any good..didn’t do her any good, too, I realized as I traced the faint blue color under her eyes. I sighed. I always knew I have no strength to be away from her, no strength at all to be without her. I knew deep down I would come back to her. I knew then I would and could no longer endure. I would have crawled back to Forks, to her, even if the fateful telephone call didn’t happen, even if Alice didn’t see her jump off the cliff. I knew I would eventually come back to where my happiness is – with her.
Now I know that I know not a thing at all
Except the fact that I am yours
And that you are mine.
She has no idea of the power she has over me, no idea at all. I do not care whatever Fate decides to throw my way. I WILL BE WITH HER. I AM HERS. I pressed my cold cheek to hers. “I hope you are still mine.” I whispered. What if…?
I sighed. I’ll face all the consequences. All I know is I will gladly walk in the fiery pit of hell just to have her forgiveness, to have her love, her trust once again. I bit my lower lip – but if she decides she no longer loves me…I sighed.
They told me that this wouldn’t be easy
And no, I’m not one to complain.
Jacob Black. The name brought fresh venom inside my mouth. I could hardly stop myself from growling. I peeked at her face. Still sleeping…
I tried to calm myself. If she decides to be with him, I will let her go. Let her find happiness. I winced as wave after wave of pain stabbed my chest. I COULDN’T. The thought of losing her again….I wouldn’t give her up without a fight.
“Edward, please don’t leave me. Stay with me.” She mumbled in her sleep.
“I won’t…ever again.”
She sighed.
“Dream of me, love.” I whispered and gently kissed her lips. Again, I wish I could sleep – to dream, to dream of her, to dream of us.
“I took one step away but I find myself coming back to you, my one and only, one and only you.” I softly sang in her ear.
“Stay.” She pleaded like a child. My lifeless heart doesn’t seem so lifeless anymore. It swelled with hope. She still wants me to stay – with her.
A soft sob escaped her lips. She was trying hard to be tough.
“Shhh…I’ll be here with you, Bella, I promise.” I said soothingly – ALWAYS, FOREVER, As long as she wants me to. I won’t leave her anymore.
I brushed her hair away from her face and gently kissed her cheek. I hummed the lullaby I made for her. After a couple of bars, her breathing became even. Her lips slightly parted. I could feel her warm breath on my face. I smiled and gazed lovingly at the beautiful face of the girl I love with all my heart… with all I have.
I was hungry for every little line, every little crease of her beautiful face. I want to trace the lines of her lips with my fingers but I’m afraid she would waken. I’m also afraid of the powerful emotions, touching her lips would bring. I sighed. I’ve been without her long enough, I may not control myself and give in to…I shook my head. That could never happen to us. She’s too fragile. But how I wish I could love her too in that way. I shook my head once again.
“Get a grip, Edward. You just came back.” I chastised myself a little louder than I intended. I laughed quietly. I wonder how easy it is for me to laugh when I’m with her.
I stared once again at her lovely face. Her brows furrowed. What is she dreaming? I smoothed out her hair. How I missed its soft silky texture. I lifted a handful of strands to my nose and inhaled deeply. Intoxicating…as always. She stirred. I started humming again. My humming stopped – I was caught off guard. Then the lyrics and melody flowed clearly on my mind.
It took one look
And forever laid out in front of me
One smile and I died
Only to be revived by you.
I smiled and thought of the first time I saw her, the first time I heard her voice, saw her smile, blush, laugh…the very first kiss, the very first touch…
She snuggled closer to me, then shivered. I laughed quietly. I miss this. I miss her. I miss us. I wrapped the blanket around her even more tightly. I continued humming.
There I was
Thought I had everything figured out
Goes to show just how much I know
‘bout the way life plays out.
Fate doesn’t seem so ruthless for me anymore. Fate brought her to me. Fate allowed me to become what I am so that I could meet her, love her, be with her. I won’t fight Fate anymore.
I took one step away
But I find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you.
I know now that I was a fool to have left her. It didn’t bring me any good..didn’t do her any good, too, I realized as I traced the faint blue color under her eyes. I sighed. I always knew I have no strength to be away from her, no strength at all to be without her. I knew deep down I would come back to her. I knew then I would and could no longer endure. I would have crawled back to Forks, to her, even if the fateful telephone call didn’t happen, even if Alice didn’t see her jump off the cliff. I knew I would eventually come back to where my happiness is – with her.
Now I know that I know not a thing at all
Except the fact that I am yours
And that you are mine.
She has no idea of the power she has over me, no idea at all. I do not care whatever Fate decides to throw my way. I WILL BE WITH HER. I AM HERS. I pressed my cold cheek to hers. “I hope you are still mine.” I whispered. What if…?
I sighed. I’ll face all the consequences. All I know is I will gladly walk in the fiery pit of hell just to have her forgiveness, to have her love, her trust once again. I bit my lower lip – but if she decides she no longer loves me…I sighed.
They told me that this wouldn’t be easy
And no, I’m not one to complain.
Jacob Black. The name brought fresh venom inside my mouth. I could hardly stop myself from growling. I peeked at her face. Still sleeping…
I tried to calm myself. If she decides to be with him, I will let her go. Let her find happiness. I winced as wave after wave of pain stabbed my chest. I COULDN’T. The thought of losing her again….I wouldn’t give her up without a fight.
“Edward, please don’t leave me. Stay with me.” She mumbled in her sleep.
“I won’t…ever again.”
She sighed.
“Dream of me, love.” I whispered and gently kissed her lips. Again, I wish I could sleep – to dream, to dream of her, to dream of us.
“I took one step away but I find myself coming back to you, my one and only, one and only you.” I softly sang in her ear.
