I am falling.
Down a dark hole.
An unseen hole.
A dark cold hole.
I feel the cold air around me.
I feel the cold hands reaching for me.
The cold eyes learing at me.
The smell of death in the air.
Not knowing where to turn.
Not knowing who to trust.
I am falling.
I feel the death aproaching me
I can smell it.
I can feel it.
I can almost taste it.
I know its near me.
Yet I am not afraid.
I do not care.
I welcome it with open arms.
I long for it.
I need it.
I want it very badly.
I deserve it.
I know this.
Yet I cry and scream.
I need to be and to feel loved.
All this hatred around me.
I cant take it anymore.
I am done.
I know I will not be messed.
I do not care.
I know that they will live one and forget me.
I do not care.
They will be better without me.
I care so much.
I love them all.
I need them all.
But in the end I will lose them.
I know this.
But I know they will be better off forgetting me.
I am sorry.
I never should have told anyone.
I needed someone to lean on.
I needed a kind word.
But all I did was hurt the people i love and care about.
The end is near I know this.
I just want to be heard
To be understood.
To be loved and wanted.
I love with monsters.
I am beaten.
I am broken.
I cry.
Kick.
Screams.
And yearn for my freedom.
I know I will never get that.
But I am grateful for every kind and loving word I receive.
The darkness is getting colder.
I can hear them calling me.
I can feel them getting closer.
I am getting scared.
I am crying.
I am screaming.
I am falling in to this darkness.
I reach out.
But no one is there to take me hand.
I am falling.
In to darkness.
I can feel the end as it aproaches.
The coldness.
I welcome it.
With open arms.
Down a dark hole.
An unseen hole.
A dark cold hole.
I feel the cold air around me.
I feel the cold hands reaching for me.
The cold eyes learing at me.
The smell of death in the air.
Not knowing where to turn.
Not knowing who to trust.
I am falling.
I feel the death aproaching me
I can smell it.
I can feel it.
I can almost taste it.
I know its near me.
Yet I am not afraid.
I do not care.
I welcome it with open arms.
I long for it.
I need it.
I want it very badly.
I deserve it.
I know this.
Yet I cry and scream.
I need to be and to feel loved.
All this hatred around me.
I cant take it anymore.
I am done.
I know I will not be messed.
I do not care.
I know that they will live one and forget me.
I do not care.
They will be better without me.
I care so much.
I love them all.
I need them all.
But in the end I will lose them.
I know this.
But I know they will be better off forgetting me.
I am sorry.
I never should have told anyone.
I needed someone to lean on.
I needed a kind word.
But all I did was hurt the people i love and care about.
The end is near I know this.
I just want to be heard
To be understood.
To be loved and wanted.
I love with monsters.
I am beaten.
I am broken.
I cry.
Kick.
Screams.
And yearn for my freedom.
I know I will never get that.
But I am grateful for every kind and loving word I receive.
The darkness is getting colder.
I can hear them calling me.
I can feel them getting closer.
I am getting scared.
I am crying.
I am screaming.
I am falling in to this darkness.
I reach out.
But no one is there to take me hand.
I am falling.
In to darkness.
I can feel the end as it aproaches.
The coldness.
I welcome it.
With open arms.
MUSIC
by: Charles Baudelaire
MUSIC doth uplift me like a sea
Towards my planet pale,
Then through dark fogs or heaven's infinity
I lift my wandering sail.
With breast advanced, drinking the winds that flee,
And through the cordage wail,
I mount the hurrying waves night hides from me
Beneath her sombre veil.
I feel the tremblings of all passions known
To ships before the breeze;
Cradled by gentle winds, or tempest-blown
I pass the abysmal seas
That are, when calm, the mirror level and fair
Of my despair!
by: Charles Baudelaire
MUSIC doth uplift me like a sea
Towards my planet pale,
Then through dark fogs or heaven's infinity
I lift my wandering sail.
With breast advanced, drinking the winds that flee,
And through the cordage wail,
I mount the hurrying waves night hides from me
Beneath her sombre veil.
I feel the tremblings of all passions known
To ships before the breeze;
Cradled by gentle winds, or tempest-blown
I pass the abysmal seas
That are, when calm, the mirror level and fair
Of my despair!
life lights up
your luscious eyes
lips that seem as soft
as a rose petal
yet they have
never graced mine
a heart this filled
with care and love
and a mind that is
filled with wonder
things i can not
figure out
but draw me in
just the same
only time can tell
how long of it
we can spend together
so every second is dear
i am happy
with you near
with you
everything is bright
and not even the
darkest abyss
could ever rip
away the light
in your
luscious eyes
comment please...:)and i wrote this just in general so if want tell me who it reminds you of. maybe a love or a crush who ever they are boy and girl alike tell me if you like
your luscious eyes
lips that seem as soft
as a rose petal
yet they have
never graced mine
a heart this filled
with care and love
and a mind that is
filled with wonder
things i can not
figure out
but draw me in
just the same
only time can tell
how long of it
we can spend together
so every second is dear
i am happy
with you near
with you
everything is bright
and not even the
darkest abyss
could ever rip
away the light
in your
luscious eyes
comment please...:)and i wrote this just in general so if want tell me who it reminds you of. maybe a love or a crush who ever they are boy and girl alike tell me if you like
keep it up
will bring u back up. The stars
and the heavens of earth will
put u in the right place at all times.
Keep your head up an evil friendship,a foney
smile will try to bring u down
but as long as u keep your head up, u will
be happy for miles around.
Life is strong,life is good, the most power will
will bring u upon the sky that will reach the heavens on earth.
Catch your dreams high in the sky, fight back and express your love, don let nobody tell u wrong. U have to keep your head up at all times. U are the next greatest leaders. Fight for education and keep your head up.
In my core my blood runs slowly and quietly.
Like water, gently gliding down a stream.
In the center of Summer.
All it takes is a look.
Not a look of gentleness, sweetness, or pride.
It's a look of disappointment.
They make my veins stop solid.
Like Winter among the earth.
I am never seen radiant, fiery, blessed.
Just a feeling of emptiness.
I need to die away and fall to the ground.
Like the leaves of Fall.
Never ever wanting to be reborn
In Springs bliss.
Like the birds flying free above me.
Just to start the lonely agony once again.
Like water, gently gliding down a stream.
In the center of Summer.
All it takes is a look.
Not a look of gentleness, sweetness, or pride.
It's a look of disappointment.
They make my veins stop solid.
Like Winter among the earth.
I am never seen radiant, fiery, blessed.
Just a feeling of emptiness.
I need to die away and fall to the ground.
Like the leaves of Fall.
Never ever wanting to be reborn
In Springs bliss.
Like the birds flying free above me.
Just to start the lonely agony once again.
As I sprint through the hall, he follows.
As my heels clack against the marble floor, he follows.
As my breath comes faster, he follows.
As I turn around slowly, I continue to run, he follows.
He is close to me now, he whispers my name.
He breathes heavily, and laughs maniaclly.
He stomps against the floor, harder, as he reaches for his pocket.
He smiles, small, straight white teeth gleam with insanity.
I begin to slow, my ribs are burning, my muscles ache, my mind is spinning, my eyes are crying...
He embraces me softly, gently, lovingly.
I tense, my muscles can't take much more, he's too strong, I'm too weak.
His grip tightens now, as he holds a switch blade to my throat, he begins to cry.
I also begin to cry, as his grip loosens, I fall to the marble floor, still sobbing.
He also falls, still sobbing, he drops the blade, and screams.
As my heels clack against the marble floor, he follows.
As my breath comes faster, he follows.
As I turn around slowly, I continue to run, he follows.
He is close to me now, he whispers my name.
He breathes heavily, and laughs maniaclly.
He stomps against the floor, harder, as he reaches for his pocket.
He smiles, small, straight white teeth gleam with insanity.
I begin to slow, my ribs are burning, my muscles ache, my mind is spinning, my eyes are crying...
He embraces me softly, gently, lovingly.
I tense, my muscles can't take much more, he's too strong, I'm too weak.
His grip tightens now, as he holds a switch blade to my throat, he begins to cry.
I also begin to cry, as his grip loosens, I fall to the marble floor, still sobbing.
He also falls, still sobbing, he drops the blade, and screams.
This is a little poem I wrote. I wrote it from my heart, mind, body, and soul. I hope you like it. Comment if you can. :)
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I’m supposed to be happy.
I’m supposed to smile.
I’m supposed to laugh.
Yet, I can’t.
I can’t forget that he’s not here.
I can’t forget that he never was.
I can’t forget that he didn’t care.
You were supposed to be a father to me.
You were supposed to love me.
You were supposed to care.
Yet, you didn’t.
Forgive me if I don’t understand.
I thought father’s were supposed to love their little girls.
I thought they were supposed to be the dad that beat up their boyfriends.
I thought that I would have a father that loved me.
But, I don’t.
He doesn’t care.
He never will.
I’ve learned to forget him.
He’s no father to me.
He never was.
I’m happy now.
I can laugh and smile.
Even without you.
Dad.
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I’m supposed to be happy.
I’m supposed to smile.
I’m supposed to laugh.
Yet, I can’t.
I can’t forget that he’s not here.
I can’t forget that he never was.
I can’t forget that he didn’t care.
You were supposed to be a father to me.
You were supposed to love me.
You were supposed to care.
Yet, you didn’t.
Forgive me if I don’t understand.
I thought father’s were supposed to love their little girls.
I thought they were supposed to be the dad that beat up their boyfriends.
I thought that I would have a father that loved me.
But, I don’t.
He doesn’t care.
He never will.
I’ve learned to forget him.
He’s no father to me.
He never was.
I’m happy now.
I can laugh and smile.
Even without you.
Dad.
"Grains of sand slip through your hands..."
Life's like a rollercoaster,
Don't waste the ride.
Live it up all the way,
because today's your last day
What would you do?
Would you cry a little, scream a little, think it's all pretend.
Or go into silence until the very end...
Would you love the ones you hate the most or be the person you hide?
Would you pretend that you're ok but really scream inside?
Would you try and keep the sun from setting as your last day ends?
Knowing you'll never see it rise...
Tomorrow I'll be somewhere else you say as you close your eyes.
"Test the sea rising at your feet, how far can you go..."
"Let the rain falling on your face, run into your eyes. Can you see the rainbow now, through the stormy skies?"
