Have you ever wake up one day and wonder
why bother to wake up and start my day ??
why bother and go to school do homework etc etc..
well today i was thinking about that while i took i shower.
i heard my mother in the kitchen probably looking for something to eat. Yesterday she had a rough night she arrived really drunk and probably wasted...
My mother and i had never been friends or had any bond of mother and daughter, she was almost never home because she was a stripper.. yes a stripper... but where i live kids don't bother me with that some of there mothers work with my
mom and others well visit her...
My dad leave us when my brother was 8 he said one day that he had to go buy some cigarettes and never came back
well he come back once only to leave again but this time with my mother pregnant with me
my chilhood was a happy one well i love my brother but he was sick of living here so he took off withought saying good bye i was 12
i was heart broken but i learn that if you don't let anyone in yoour heart you will never be hurt just lonley and well lonly i could deal with
this was one of the days i thought
god my life is crappy
but i had always been an optimistic person or at least i try to be
i get ready for school i grab some jean and a tank top this is what i usally wear.
i take a look at me in the mirror
i was pretty i guess i had big green eyes my face was slightly tan and i had brownish-dark hair my mother when she isn't working or drunk she says that i could be beautiful if i smile...
i was slender now , when i was a kid i was chuby but my mom prefere to die before she had a chuby kid so she put me on diets and excercies and well now im really thin some say too much but i just don't eat that much and i do i lot of sports
like running i love to run i fell free and i love to dance tap although my shoes are too big
i walk to school it was really near
the school day pass really quick i wasn't miss popular but i like it that way i had 2 years ago a best friend Samantha Weller but she move to texas so i still miss her
i walk back to my house like always and clean up then when to a cofeshop i work like always
i arrive home and went to sleep my mom wasn't home yet but she was always late
when i wake up my mom wast there i got i little worrid but not too much some days she didn't came back until the other night ...
then another day pass and nothing
so i decieded to skip school and go to the strip club to go look for her
when i arrive another stripper monica saw me
"Hey beautiful looking for you mom?" monica ask sadly
i laugh
" no Mon i just decieded to join the club" i said smling i like monica she was always joking with me but she didnt replay she look really down
"Monica is everything ok?" i ask worry
"no Jane your mother died because of an overdose" mon said quietly
"what? , why nobody told me sonner?" i ask
"they didn't want to be the ones to give you the news i thought you would already know i mean we call the children department to go and help you? she said
i was shook they call the place where the orphance go and they send them to foster homes i shiver
"no mon now they are going to get me " i whisper to her
"run to your house grab some clothes money and you can stay with me" monica said
i was already running toward my house
i arrive to my house and grab the most essential thigs as fast i could
faster jane faster i thought
but i heard i knock at teh door i look thorugh my window and saw i lady looking like the foster home type
not fast enough i thought
but then i got and idea jump down the back window
i run to the window and jump it was only one floor
but i land on my foot
"its not broken but you twist it pretty badly you can't run" i voice said i look up and saw i man elegant dress
damn i thought he was one of the social services
"come little lady" he look at some paper
"jane , jane tucker you are 17 years old "
"yes" i whispered
it wasn't true i was 16 years old but my mom mess up something and my gift certificate said i had 1 more year
well it was helpfull now because i was out of the foster home in just 1 year
"you are luck you are going to a very nice in
forks, washington your foster partens will be esme and carlilse"
the man said mater- factly
i just look straight ahead and got in the car i sigh
why bother to wake up and start my day ??
why bother and go to school do homework etc etc..
well today i was thinking about that while i took i shower.
i heard my mother in the kitchen probably looking for something to eat. Yesterday she had a rough night she arrived really drunk and probably wasted...
My mother and i had never been friends or had any bond of mother and daughter, she was almost never home because she was a stripper.. yes a stripper... but where i live kids don't bother me with that some of there mothers work with my
mom and others well visit her...
My dad leave us when my brother was 8 he said one day that he had to go buy some cigarettes and never came back
well he come back once only to leave again but this time with my mother pregnant with me
my chilhood was a happy one well i love my brother but he was sick of living here so he took off withought saying good bye i was 12
i was heart broken but i learn that if you don't let anyone in yoour heart you will never be hurt just lonley and well lonly i could deal with
this was one of the days i thought
god my life is crappy
but i had always been an optimistic person or at least i try to be
i get ready for school i grab some jean and a tank top this is what i usally wear.
i take a look at me in the mirror
i was pretty i guess i had big green eyes my face was slightly tan and i had brownish-dark hair my mother when she isn't working or drunk she says that i could be beautiful if i smile...
i was slender now , when i was a kid i was chuby but my mom prefere to die before she had a chuby kid so she put me on diets and excercies and well now im really thin some say too much but i just don't eat that much and i do i lot of sports
like running i love to run i fell free and i love to dance tap although my shoes are too big
i walk to school it was really near
the school day pass really quick i wasn't miss popular but i like it that way i had 2 years ago a best friend Samantha Weller but she move to texas so i still miss her
i walk back to my house like always and clean up then when to a cofeshop i work like always
i arrive home and went to sleep my mom wasn't home yet but she was always late
when i wake up my mom wast there i got i little worrid but not too much some days she didn't came back until the other night ...
then another day pass and nothing
so i decieded to skip school and go to the strip club to go look for her
when i arrive another stripper monica saw me
"Hey beautiful looking for you mom?" monica ask sadly
i laugh
" no Mon i just decieded to join the club" i said smling i like monica she was always joking with me but she didnt replay she look really down
"Monica is everything ok?" i ask worry
"no Jane your mother died because of an overdose" mon said quietly
"what? , why nobody told me sonner?" i ask
"they didn't want to be the ones to give you the news i thought you would already know i mean we call the children department to go and help you? she said
i was shook they call the place where the orphance go and they send them to foster homes i shiver
"no mon now they are going to get me " i whisper to her
"run to your house grab some clothes money and you can stay with me" monica said
i was already running toward my house
i arrive to my house and grab the most essential thigs as fast i could
faster jane faster i thought
but i heard i knock at teh door i look thorugh my window and saw i lady looking like the foster home type
not fast enough i thought
but then i got and idea jump down the back window
i run to the window and jump it was only one floor
but i land on my foot
"its not broken but you twist it pretty badly you can't run" i voice said i look up and saw i man elegant dress
damn i thought he was one of the social services
"come little lady" he look at some paper
"jane , jane tucker you are 17 years old "
"yes" i whispered
it wasn't true i was 16 years old but my mom mess up something and my gift certificate said i had 1 more year
well it was helpfull now because i was out of the foster home in just 1 year
"you are luck you are going to a very nice in
forks, washington your foster partens will be esme and carlilse"
the man said mater- factly
i just look straight ahead and got in the car i sigh
9: Send him love letters and sign them “You dearest Victoria”.
8: Constantly think about kissing Bella. Run!
7: Lock him in a room with Mike, Tyler, Eric, and Jacob. Give everyone except him a picture of Bella.
6: Tell him the relationship he is having with Bella is practically paedophilia and he could be sent to jail for it.
5: Whenever he leaves a room or says goodbye, get down on your knees and beg him not to go, not again.
4: Make him go out with you to a fancy restrant for his Birthday when it isn’t his Birthday. Get all offended when he won’t eat anything. Start crying.
3: Whenever he complains or argues, reply with “What are you gonna do Edward? Go to Italy?”
2: Buy him a dog. Name it Jacob.
1: Don’t think.
Oh... one more thing.... RUN!!!
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I felt bad for leaving without one word to Nathen, but I knew I couldn't leave without one word so I said;
Look, I'm sorry I made you mad, but... I couldn't even finish my sentence.
No, I shouldn't have gotten so mad it was stupid of me anyways to know if you cared where I lived. Nathen said.
Its ok. I said with a yawn.
I think someone needs to go to bed. Nathen said with his oh so perfect grin that I loved.
Nathen carried me up to my room, like he usually did. I fell asleep against his warm chest. It was great to know that me and Nathen had made up. I didn't like to be mad at anyone. It is hard sometimes for me to forgive people but its usually not that long till I do forgive them.
I told Nathen goodnight and that I loved him and he said the same back to me.
I felt bad for leaving without one word to Nathen, but I knew I couldn't leave without one word so I said;
Look, I'm sorry I made you mad, but... I couldn't even finish my sentence.
No, I shouldn't have gotten so mad it was stupid of me anyways to know if you cared where I lived. Nathen said.
Its ok. I said with a yawn.
I think someone needs to go to bed. Nathen said with his oh so perfect grin that I loved.
Nathen carried me up to my room, like he usually did. I fell asleep against his warm chest. It was great to know that me and Nathen had made up. I didn't like to be mad at anyone. It is hard sometimes for me to forgive people but its usually not that long till I do forgive them.
I told Nathen goodnight and that I loved him and he said the same back to me.