Have you ever wake up one day and wonder
why bother to wake up and start my day ??
why bother and go to school do homework etc etc..
well today i was thinking about that while i took i shower.
i heard my mother in the kitchen probably looking for something to eat. Yesterday she had a rough night she arrived really drunk and probably wasted...
My mother and i had never been friends or had any bond of mother and daughter, she was almost never home because she was a stripper.. yes a stripper... but where i live kids don't bother me with that some of there mothers work with my
mom and others well visit her...
My dad leave us when my brother was 8 he said one day that he had to go buy some cigarettes and never came back
well he come back once only to leave again but this time with my mother pregnant with me
my chilhood was a happy one well i love my brother but he was sick of living here so he took off withought saying good bye i was 12
i was heart broken but i learn that if you don't let anyone in yoour heart you will never be hurt just lonley and well lonly i could deal with
this was one of the days i thought
god my life is crappy
but i had always been an optimistic person or at least i try to be
i get ready for school i grab some jean and a tank top this is what i usally wear.
i take a look at me in the mirror
i was pretty i guess i had big green eyes my face was slightly tan and i had brownish-dark hair my mother when she isn't working or drunk she says that i could be beautiful if i smile...
i was slender now , when i was a kid i was chuby but my mom prefere to die before she had a chuby kid so she put me on diets and excercies and well now im really thin some say too much but i just don't eat that much and i do i lot of sports
like running i love to run i fell free and i love to dance tap although my shoes are too big
i walk to school it was really near
the school day pass really quick i wasn't miss popular but i like it that way i had 2 years ago a best friend Samantha Weller but she move to texas so i still miss her
i walk back to my house like always and clean up then when to a cofeshop i work like always
i arrive home and went to sleep my mom wasn't home yet but she was always late
when i wake up my mom wast there i got i little worrid but not too much some days she didn't came back until the other night ...
then another day pass and nothing
so i decieded to skip school and go to the strip club to go look for her
when i arrive another stripper monica saw me
"Hey beautiful looking for you mom?" monica ask sadly
i laugh
" no Mon i just decieded to join the club" i said smling i like monica she was always joking with me but she didnt replay she look really down
"Monica is everything ok?" i ask worry
"no Jane your mother died because of an overdose" mon said quietly
"what? , why nobody told me sonner?" i ask
"they didn't want to be the ones to give you the news i thought you would already know i mean we call the children department to go and help you? she said
i was shook they call the place where the orphance go and they send them to foster homes i shiver
"no mon now they are going to get me " i whisper to her
"run to your house grab some clothes money and you can stay with me" monica said
i was already running toward my house
i arrive to my house and grab the most essential thigs as fast i could
faster jane faster i thought
but i heard i knock at teh door i look thorugh my window and saw i lady looking like the foster home type
not fast enough i thought
but then i got and idea jump down the back window
i run to the window and jump it was only one floor
but i land on my foot
"its not broken but you twist it pretty badly you can't run" i voice said i look up and saw i man elegant dress
damn i thought he was one of the social services
"come little lady" he look at some paper
"jane , jane tucker you are 17 years old "
"yes" i whispered
it wasn't true i was 16 years old but my mom mess up something and my gift certificate said i had 1 more year
well it was helpfull now because i was out of the foster home in just 1 year
"you are luck you are going to a very nice in
forks, washington your foster partens will be esme and carlilse"
the man said mater- factly
i just look straight ahead and got in the car i sigh
why bother to wake up and start my day ??
why bother and go to school do homework etc etc..
well today i was thinking about that while i took i shower.
i heard my mother in the kitchen probably looking for something to eat. Yesterday she had a rough night she arrived really drunk and probably wasted...
My mother and i had never been friends or had any bond of mother and daughter, she was almost never home because she was a stripper.. yes a stripper... but where i live kids don't bother me with that some of there mothers work with my
mom and others well visit her...
My dad leave us when my brother was 8 he said one day that he had to go buy some cigarettes and never came back
well he come back once only to leave again but this time with my mother pregnant with me
my chilhood was a happy one well i love my brother but he was sick of living here so he took off withought saying good bye i was 12
i was heart broken but i learn that if you don't let anyone in yoour heart you will never be hurt just lonley and well lonly i could deal with
this was one of the days i thought
god my life is crappy
but i had always been an optimistic person or at least i try to be
i get ready for school i grab some jean and a tank top this is what i usally wear.
i take a look at me in the mirror
i was pretty i guess i had big green eyes my face was slightly tan and i had brownish-dark hair my mother when she isn't working or drunk she says that i could be beautiful if i smile...
i was slender now , when i was a kid i was chuby but my mom prefere to die before she had a chuby kid so she put me on diets and excercies and well now im really thin some say too much but i just don't eat that much and i do i lot of sports
like running i love to run i fell free and i love to dance tap although my shoes are too big
i walk to school it was really near
the school day pass really quick i wasn't miss popular but i like it that way i had 2 years ago a best friend Samantha Weller but she move to texas so i still miss her
i walk back to my house like always and clean up then when to a cofeshop i work like always
i arrive home and went to sleep my mom wasn't home yet but she was always late
when i wake up my mom wast there i got i little worrid but not too much some days she didn't came back until the other night ...
then another day pass and nothing
so i decieded to skip school and go to the strip club to go look for her
when i arrive another stripper monica saw me
"Hey beautiful looking for you mom?" monica ask sadly
i laugh
" no Mon i just decieded to join the club" i said smling i like monica she was always joking with me but she didnt replay she look really down
"Monica is everything ok?" i ask worry
"no Jane your mother died because of an overdose" mon said quietly
"what? , why nobody told me sonner?" i ask
"they didn't want to be the ones to give you the news i thought you would already know i mean we call the children department to go and help you? she said
i was shook they call the place where the orphance go and they send them to foster homes i shiver
"no mon now they are going to get me " i whisper to her
"run to your house grab some clothes money and you can stay with me" monica said
i was already running toward my house
i arrive to my house and grab the most essential thigs as fast i could
faster jane faster i thought
but i heard i knock at teh door i look thorugh my window and saw i lady looking like the foster home type
not fast enough i thought
but then i got and idea jump down the back window
i run to the window and jump it was only one floor
but i land on my foot
"its not broken but you twist it pretty badly you can't run" i voice said i look up and saw i man elegant dress
damn i thought he was one of the social services
"come little lady" he look at some paper
"jane , jane tucker you are 17 years old "
"yes" i whispered
it wasn't true i was 16 years old but my mom mess up something and my gift certificate said i had 1 more year
well it was helpfull now because i was out of the foster home in just 1 year
"you are luck you are going to a very nice in
forks, washington your foster partens will be esme and carlilse"
the man said mater- factly
i just look straight ahead and got in the car i sigh
-Renesmee-
I terminate the call, and scream at the top of my lungs. It takes Carlisle and Rosalie thirty two seconds to reach me. The other Cullens are out hunting.
I find I can only speak in short bursts, so I focus only on Carlisle's voice, asking me what happened. I try to answer, but then, oh joy, more pain.
* * *
I've been in labour for the past eight hours now. Imagine, just for a moment, that Rosalie is capable of PMS. And that simultaneously, someone's hidden her hair products, her iPod, her BMW, and her laptop. I was currently in a mood that would make that look like a kitten having a tantrum.
I broke Jacob's wrist by accident.
I terminate the call, and scream at the top of my lungs. It takes Carlisle and Rosalie thirty two seconds to reach me. The other Cullens are out hunting.
I find I can only speak in short bursts, so I focus only on Carlisle's voice, asking me what happened. I try to answer, but then, oh joy, more pain.
* * *
I've been in labour for the past eight hours now. Imagine, just for a moment, that Rosalie is capable of PMS. And that simultaneously, someone's hidden her hair products, her iPod, her BMW, and her laptop. I was currently in a mood that would make that look like a kitten having a tantrum.
I broke Jacob's wrist by accident.
Materials:
Petroleum Jelly
small microwavable bowl (discardable)
Stirrer (discardable spoon or skewer)
Eyeshadow or body shimmer or pigment (the color you want your lipgloss)
Lipgloss container w/ lid
Procedure:
1.scoop some petroleum jelly in the small microwavable bowl (more petroleum more lipgloss!)
2.Microwave for 5minutes or until completely melted.
3.Take out the melted petroleum jelly (carefull it's hot) and scoop in some eyeshadow for color. Put eyeshadow until you reach your desired shade.
4.Mix the mixture well. Then carefully pour the mixture into the container.
5.put the lipgloss in the container in the freezer for 15-30 minutes.
Enjoy!!
Tip: To make flavored lipgloss mix in kool-aid to the melted petroleum instead then continue regularly.(careful WILL stain lips)
Petroleum Jelly
small microwavable bowl (discardable)
Stirrer (discardable spoon or skewer)
Eyeshadow or body shimmer or pigment (the color you want your lipgloss)
Lipgloss container w/ lid
Procedure:
1.scoop some petroleum jelly in the small microwavable bowl (more petroleum more lipgloss!)
2.Microwave for 5minutes or until completely melted.
3.Take out the melted petroleum jelly (carefull it's hot) and scoop in some eyeshadow for color. Put eyeshadow until you reach your desired shade.
4.Mix the mixture well. Then carefully pour the mixture into the container.
5.put the lipgloss in the container in the freezer for 15-30 minutes.
Enjoy!!
Tip: To make flavored lipgloss mix in kool-aid to the melted petroleum instead then continue regularly.(careful WILL stain lips)
yahhh!!
consider me warned i have been scorn to breach a life i envisioned for us
i will not mourn anymore. my heart conflicting a war a rage inside i cant deny what you have taken from me im in a blissful state of insanity i will not wake on my own i have lost all my rights to humanity i am so torn.walking away as you did i wasnt your equal i felt like a kid i wanted to die right there lay down my tears no longer did i care how could you leave did you not feel the pull.another of my delusions i am such a fool.why couldnt i be enough.i will always love you
i will not mourn anymore. my heart conflicting a war a rage inside i cant deny what you have taken from me im in a blissful state of insanity i will not wake on my own i have lost all my rights to humanity i am so torn.walking away as you did i wasnt your equal i felt like a kid i wanted to die right there lay down my tears no longer did i care how could you leave did you not feel the pull.another of my delusions i am such a fool.why couldnt i be enough.i will always love you
