The Left Hand Path Movement Article: Dieing inside

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posted by Cherry9090

I look out my window.
I prey for a worl full of love.
A world that would welcome me.
With open arms.
Not a world full of hate.
The tought of a hareful world.
Makes me die inside.
Makes me wish I was never born.

Sad lonely world.
A world that makes people kill eachother.
A world that makes people hate eachother.
A world I want nothing to do with.
I thought I found everything I need.
A love.
A family.
A home.
Even though it was threw a website.
I had it.
I had everything.

The light of a beatiful sun.
It was gone.
I was left.
I was alone.
I was deing inside.
Everything I loved and cared for was gone.
I am dead now.
I do not care.
They dont want me.
No one does.

They are right.
I should be dead.
I should be alone.
I am nothing.
I am worthless.
A red head.
Silvered eyed girl.
I deserve no love.
Only hate.

Scared.
Shaking.
Crying.
Cruled up in a dark corner.
Looking around.
So scared.
So alone.

I look around.
All I see is darkness.
I feel the pain everything.
In my head.
In my heart.
Invading my soul.
I cry harder.
NO one hears me.
NO one notices me.
I am alone.

I slowly rise.
I stand.
I walk.
I am in the bathroom.
I look around.
I grab the cool small peice of metal.
I climb in the bathtub.
I slide down the wall.
I look at my already scared wrist.
I cut.
I see the blood running.
I feel the heat.
It's sticky and dark..
I lay there.

I think about all the ones I care about.
All the ones whp have held my hand.
All the ones who said.
*I care and I love u*
Then all the ones who let go.
I love them no matter what.

I am cold.
I am crying.
I need them now.
I need then all now.
For I am scared.
I am weak.
I feel sick.
I look down.
I see the tub has alot of blood in it.

I think where did the blood come from?
Why am I in the bathtub?
Why am I crying?
Who are the tears for?
I cant remeber!
My wrist hurts.
I look down and see the wound.
I do not understand what is happening to me.

I lean back and close my eyes.
The wall is cold.
I take a deep breath.
I am so cold and weak.
I want my mom.
Why am I bleeding?

Dieing Inside..

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goodman8 I know how much you miss your mum but she spud what you to live your lfer and not end it to be withe here

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A black rose

posted by Cherry9090

So lost.
So alone.
In this cold dark world.
Scared to breath.
Terrified of what will happen to me.
He says it everyday.
Im stupid.
Im ugly.
I do not deserve to live.
I should be dead by now.

No will love me.
No one needs me.
They say I care.
They say I'll never leave u.
But I know they will.
Dads right.
I should be dead.
I am alone.
All I ever do is cuz pain
I am a black rose.

I am not specail.
I am no pretty.
I am useless.
A no body.
Not worth anything.
Noe will want me when they find out.
NO one wants me anyway so who cares.
I care.
I am hurting.
A black rose.

I am not innocnent.
I am not...

A Tale Of A Forlorned Angel

posted by HighwayCreature

Tale of A Forlorned Angel
~~~~~~~~~~

For once a time, there was a dreary forgotten angel
That was cast aside from the bliss of her heaven
And put upon these mortal plains
Left to defend herself in a precarious world
That feeds on the blood of all angel's pains

Raped and ravaged, beaten and bit she was
In our slimy city streets
And as it was when she climbed the steps of my train
And had herself a seat right next to me

O' Glorious, golden angel
Did rest her weary bobbing head
In comfort on my sturdy left shoulder
And told me the philosophy of her heaven
The order of her universe
And the nature of chaos and...

Magick star

posted by Cherry9090

If you're like me, you've made a wish at
least once in your life.

I remember as a kid, my grandma taught me
this one...

"Star light, star bright, first star I
see tonight.

I wish I may, I wish I might, have this
wish I wish tonight.

Four corners over head. Four posts upon
the bed.

Mathew, Mark, Luke, and John, grant my
wish, and I'll be gone."

We'd do that every night for a time, while
laying on our backs on the grass, waiting
for the first star to appear.

Try it... it works like Magick! :)

I've got a very special "Wish Spell" to
give you today.

I'll show you how to create your own
Magick star... light it on...

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Demons,faires,fallen angels

posted by Cherry9090

~Water~
Tiamat Mesoptamia
Mermaid Global
Merman Global
Kappa
Rusalka
Munuane
Wahwee
Madame White
Kelpie
Nixie Teutonic
Tikoloshe
Nuckekavee
Mbulu
Merrow
Ponaturi

~Mountain~
Huwawa Mesopotamia
Tengu
Huldrefolk
Abatwa
Yuki-Onna
Patupairehe
Tommy-Knockers
Kishi Anhola
Gwyllion
Mahisha-Asura
Yunwi-Djunsti
Duergar
Mountain faires
Akvan
Yaksas
White Monkey

~Forest~
Pan
Windigo
Kuru-Pira
Bori
Wood-Wives
Ravana
Leshii
Eloko
Oni
Kumbhakarna
Kayeri
Dodo
Shedim
Kitsune
Khabanda

~Desert~
Surem
Set
Azazel
Iblis
Djinn
Shaitan
Ghoul
Devalpa
Mimi
St.Anthonys Demon
Palis
Mamu
Ahriman
Namarrgon
Ho'ok
Satan

~Domicile~
Croucher
Asmodeus
Changing Bear
Domivoi
Hiranyakashipu
Lilith
Changelings
Pazuzu
Isitwalangcengce
Liderc
Al
Fox fairy
Mare
Kitchen fairies
Fair lady
Nisse

~Psyche~
Gerasene
Ancient Palestine
Werewolf
Loup
Leyak
Kitsune-Tsuki
Mara
Yezee Ha-Ra
Seven deadly sins
Mr. Hyde
Id
Shadow
Yamantaka
Quantum

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Red blood moon

posted by Cherry9090

~Month~

March

~Day~

Eighth

~Simble~

Fire
Feeling

South

~About The Red BlooD Moon~
Nuber Is 9 and the color is Red Blood,
its the beginning of a lunar eclpise.Lunar ecplise come every few years.

If born on a Lunar moon or A red Blood Moon Aires,Engery,ideas,beginnings.leadership,willpower and spiriitual conversion.

It is said this if born on a Red Blood Moon that you will have the ability to love and understand,very open mindness the abitity to survive threw the most difficult part of life.

~♥~Blesses Be~♥~

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Black heart black soul

posted by Cherry9090

I lay in a dark room.
On the floor.
Staring up at the cliening.
I can hear you walking above me.
I can hear you yelling my name.
You are not a person.
You are something differnt.
You are a walking yelling monster.
Black heart,Black soul.
I slowly get up.
I walk to the door.
I am already dieing in side.
Kinda like you.
Black heart,Black soul.
I walk up the stairs.
I know whats coming.
I am walking up stairs to my own Hell.
I take a deep breath and open the door.
There you are.
Standing there staring at me.
I can see the hate in your eyes.
Black heart,Black soul.
I hang my head.
I have already...

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ANGER!!

posted by Cherry9090

I LOOK IN THE MIRROR!
ALL I SEE IS MYSELF!
A NO BODY!
A LOST SOUL!
A UGLY HORRABLE PERSON!
SOMEONE WHO DOESNT DESERVE ANYTHING BUT HATERD!
I SCREAM AT THE PERSON IN THE MIRROR!
I KICK AND SCREAM AND YELL!
I AM COVERED IN BRUSEIES AND SCARS!
I AM NOT WANTED BY ANYONE!
I NEED TO BE DEAD!
I NEED TO SUFFER!
I KEEP STARING AT HER!
I HATE HER!
I WANT HER DEAD!
SHE LOOKS LIKE THR PERSON SHE KILLED 16 YEARS AGO!
SHE IS A MURDER!
SHE DESERVES NOTHING!
NO LOVE!
NO FAMILY!
NO FRIENDS!
SHE IS WORTHLESS!
A NOBODY!
SOMEONE THAT SHOULD HAVE BEED THE ONE TO DIE!
NOT HER POOR INNOCENT MOTHIER!
I HATE HER RED...

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Tap in to your true physic powers

posted by Cherry9090

Were you able to do the Halloween (Samhain)
ritual with me on Monday night?

It was an amazing experience joining energy
with thousands of my students all around
the world.

I felt every single one of you... and I
made contact with some of my dearest
loved ones who passed away long ago.

Halloween itself was absolutely wonderful!

The kids and I all dressed up, marching
through the neighborhood in the annual
push and pull parade.

Kids and parents of all shapes and sizes
enjoyed a full evening of trick or
treating, visiting with friends, and
eating yummy foods.

Now that it's over...what now?

For starters, it's a...

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Falling in to darkness

posted by Cherry9090

Darkness.
I am surrounded by darknees.
Theres nothing here.
I am falling.
I am reaching up.
There is no hands to grab.
No freindly face to smile at me.
No loving word to bounce me back.
From this darkness.
I am still falling.
I hair is cold.
There is no ground.
I cant not see.
The darkness is all around me.
I know this is right.
I know I will not be missed.
I am not loved.
I know when I am dead the world will be a better place.
For I am not worthly of this world.
I am alone.
I am dieing.
Theres no one there.
No one wants me.
For I am a murderer.
She died giving me life.
I do not deserve to...

Simple sweet love spell

posted by Cherry9090

Finding that special someone you completely
"gel" with can make your future more
beautiful than ever before.

Today I'm going to show you a sweet smell
you can use in my special "Soul Mate Searching"
spell that can do just that.

1. Your "soul mate" does NOT have to be
a romance... it can be a "once in a lifetime"
friend. We just don't know until we meet
them...

2. If you are already in a romantic relationship,
you may not want to cast this spell. It can
very easily attract a romantic soul mate into
your life... and this could obviously disrupt
your current relationship.

Do you want to unlock the inner...

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Impossible for someone to love

posted by Cherry9090

I look.
I see.
I cry.
All these people loveing eachother.
I see the hearts in their eyes.
I see them smile.
The kisses.
The huges.
The way they look in eachother eyes.
I hang my head and walk away.
IMPOSSIABLE FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE.
I sit in my room.
Holding my pillow.
Crying.
Soaking my pillow case.
The peopl.
The movies.
The books.
All the love in the world.
Everyone had someone.
But me.
No one understands this lonliness.
This pain.
I feel everyday.
No one to hold.
No one to kiss.
No one who cares.
I stare out my window.
Seeing the world pass me by.
I cry.
IMPOSSIABLE FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE.
Dieing inside.
Screaming on the outside.
This world.
Why am I here?
What kind of life it is?
Without love.
without compassion.
Without someone to hold you.
Threw this storm.
Someone to call my own.
Someone who falls for someone like me.
Someone to understand me.
Love me.
Be with me.
But I am just dreaming.
IMPOSSIABLE FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE.

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Sleepwalking

posted by Cherry9090

The darkness of the night falls.
I feel myself give in to the temptation of sleep.
I lay down and I fall into a deep sleep.
I dream of a wonder place.
Peacful peoeple.
Loving family.
A loveing world.
I look to the side.
I see a beatiful red head looking back at me.
I walk to her.
She hugs me.
She tells me she is fine.
She is safe.
I cry.
I begg.
I plead.
For her not to leave me.
I tell her I am sorry for what I did.
That I want to be with her.
She holds me close.
She tells me not to worry.
She says I forgive you baby.
She says I love you baby.
I do not believe her.
I hold on tight.
Not wanting...