Shadowfan here!
In case you all didn't know, today is my birthday. (Well, when i wrote this, it was still Aug 13th, now it's the 14th) 25 years ago today, I made my way into this fascinating, yet dark and mysterious world we call: Earth. Over the years, I have learned a lot about the world around me. I've learn that there is not only evil here, but also good--even when it seems so lost and buried. Now, although today was a pretty good birthday, I'd like to take a moment out of this day to talk about someone I know. Someone that left me too soon.
I don't talk about him much, but now I think it's time to. 25 years ago, my mother gave birth to twin boys--Me and Jeremy. He was born pretty healthy, while I was the one with a lot of health problems. We were born 3 months early, but somehow, Jeremy turned out OK for the most part. However, it seemed like one of us were just destined to leave rather quickly. 2 months after birth, my twin brother sadly passed away. Granted, he had problems, too, but not as bad as mine were. I basically got the crappy end of the stick....
And so, I grow up without a twin--and I often wonder what it would have been like, you know? Now, also granted, I have 3 other siblings (two bro's and a sis) and I'm grateful for them. But it still gets to me at times, especially since I was raised by my grandmother, practically being in an "only child environment" my whole life, which stunk most of the time.
Sometimes, I do actually wonder what it would have been like to have a twin--would we have been exactly alike? Extremely opposite? Guess I'll never know. For the past few years, I went through that depression phase I talked about in my other article, and at that time (and sometimes even now) I wonder why I couldn't have joined Jeremy. Why couldn't I die with him? Why was it that I had to stay here while he left before he could even understand what world he was born into? *sighs* I ask questions I may never know the answers to, but it's OK. As for my depression, I am trying my very best to move forward. I have a few days like I use to, but I manage. But one thing I know is that I do actually miss him. I mean, I can't really cry over him, because I never even knew him. But I wish I could have at least knew what it would have been like to have him around. Well, anyway, I have said all I wanted to say, so....
Jeremy, if you're out there anywhere, just know I'm thinking about ya. I may not have known you, but I hope to see you in Heaven. Love, your older twin, Joshua.
In case you all didn't know, today is my birthday. (Well, when i wrote this, it was still Aug 13th, now it's the 14th) 25 years ago today, I made my way into this fascinating, yet dark and mysterious world we call: Earth. Over the years, I have learned a lot about the world around me. I've learn that there is not only evil here, but also good--even when it seems so lost and buried. Now, although today was a pretty good birthday, I'd like to take a moment out of this day to talk about someone I know. Someone that left me too soon.
I don't talk about him much, but now I think it's time to. 25 years ago, my mother gave birth to twin boys--Me and Jeremy. He was born pretty healthy, while I was the one with a lot of health problems. We were born 3 months early, but somehow, Jeremy turned out OK for the most part. However, it seemed like one of us were just destined to leave rather quickly. 2 months after birth, my twin brother sadly passed away. Granted, he had problems, too, but not as bad as mine were. I basically got the crappy end of the stick....
And so, I grow up without a twin--and I often wonder what it would have been like, you know? Now, also granted, I have 3 other siblings (two bro's and a sis) and I'm grateful for them. But it still gets to me at times, especially since I was raised by my grandmother, practically being in an "only child environment" my whole life, which stunk most of the time.
Sometimes, I do actually wonder what it would have been like to have a twin--would we have been exactly alike? Extremely opposite? Guess I'll never know. For the past few years, I went through that depression phase I talked about in my other article, and at that time (and sometimes even now) I wonder why I couldn't have joined Jeremy. Why couldn't I die with him? Why was it that I had to stay here while he left before he could even understand what world he was born into? *sighs* I ask questions I may never know the answers to, but it's OK. As for my depression, I am trying my very best to move forward. I have a few days like I use to, but I manage. But one thing I know is that I do actually miss him. I mean, I can't really cry over him, because I never even knew him. But I wish I could have at least knew what it would have been like to have him around. Well, anyway, I have said all I wanted to say, so....
Jeremy, if you're out there anywhere, just know I'm thinking about ya. I may not have known you, but I hope to see you in Heaven. Love, your older twin, Joshua.
Ok so here is a bunch of Random Moments i will be writting. All are true.
I was at my locker getting ready for after lunch and my firends stopped to talk. It was Joe, Ben, Jack, Lilly, and Shelly.
Joe: Sukki, we're Lilly's man firends (not all were guys but Lily, Shelly, and me.)
Me: LOL ... *thinks* HEY!
Lilly: *laughing* OMG you needed to think?
Jack: Wow Sukki. we didn't mean you. but that was funny.
Shelly: *laughing*
Hope you liked this ramdom moment!!!
p.s. real names not used!!!!
I was at my locker getting ready for after lunch and my firends stopped to talk. It was Joe, Ben, Jack, Lilly, and Shelly.
Joe: Sukki, we're Lilly's man firends (not all were guys but Lily, Shelly, and me.)
Me: LOL ... *thinks* HEY!
Lilly: *laughing* OMG you needed to think?
Jack: Wow Sukki. we didn't mean you. but that was funny.
Shelly: *laughing*
Hope you liked this ramdom moment!!!
p.s. real names not used!!!!
1 = 90% of girls dont watch family guy, robot chicken etc so don't talk about it much.
2 = tomboys will show more affection than girlie girls.
3. Some girls get frustrated when you interrupt their video game. This rarely happens to a gu texting a girl
4. Girls don't like it when you interrupt their convo with their friends. To them it's R.U.D.E
5. Don't tease a girl if she likes Twilight Harry Potter etc........it hurts their feelings.
6. Please, don't hit on every girl in the school if you still have a girlfriend do you know how much that annoys us???
7. Don't text a girl in the middle of the night. We like to get our sleep. Otherwise, she'll just keep you up for a hour.
8. Girls like the guy that likes her to be jealous. Shell usually plan it out overnight.
9. Girls just adore attention like fat kids adore chocolate cake.
10. A girl I'll call a guy cute not hot. Shell only call him ht around her girlfriends.
2 = tomboys will show more affection than girlie girls.
3. Some girls get frustrated when you interrupt their video game. This rarely happens to a gu texting a girl
4. Girls don't like it when you interrupt their convo with their friends. To them it's R.U.D.E
5. Don't tease a girl if she likes Twilight Harry Potter etc........it hurts their feelings.
6. Please, don't hit on every girl in the school if you still have a girlfriend do you know how much that annoys us???
7. Don't text a girl in the middle of the night. We like to get our sleep. Otherwise, she'll just keep you up for a hour.
8. Girls like the guy that likes her to be jealous. Shell usually plan it out overnight.
9. Girls just adore attention like fat kids adore chocolate cake.
10. A girl I'll call a guy cute not hot. Shell only call him ht around her girlfriends.
1.always let him talk to you about stuff he likes
2.always see what you have in common (if you do)
3.never wear make up around him let him see your true beauty
4.DON'T TELL HIM HOW YOU FEEL AROUND HIM UNTILL HE ASKS YOU OUT THIS IS A RULE!
5.ALWAYS ask questions about him like his favorite color, his favorite movie or his favorite t.v show
6.never ever talk about your ex boyfriend they hate it (i've had experience) trust me it isn't cool
7.Always wear your favorite clothes and some cute clothes
8.let him do all the hand holding and arm gestures don't do a thing( if u don't then that will make him think your interested)
9.talk about your favorite movies and songs
10.always make him happy no matter what mood he's in
thank you for reading i hope this helps :)
2.always see what you have in common (if you do)
3.never wear make up around him let him see your true beauty
4.DON'T TELL HIM HOW YOU FEEL AROUND HIM UNTILL HE ASKS YOU OUT THIS IS A RULE!
5.ALWAYS ask questions about him like his favorite color, his favorite movie or his favorite t.v show
6.never ever talk about your ex boyfriend they hate it (i've had experience) trust me it isn't cool
7.Always wear your favorite clothes and some cute clothes
8.let him do all the hand holding and arm gestures don't do a thing( if u don't then that will make him think your interested)
9.talk about your favorite movies and songs
10.always make him happy no matter what mood he's in
thank you for reading i hope this helps :)