Sadness...
It sometimes leaves you a mess..
Somedays wont rest..
Once, this person
Told me to be careful with love...
But,
Look were it got me.
It left me in the middle of nowhere.
All there was is hitting, controlling,
Slapping, and burn marks.
Everyday, I had to fear what was
Going to happen to me.
Was he going to hurt me even worse?
Or was I going to be soon a corpse?
I couldnt tell what was going to happen.
All I knew something was going to be painful,
Day by day,
Week by week,
Month by month,
Or even year by year.
All I had was fear.
I was controlled.
I was possessed.
I couldnt cry for help.
I couldnt even say a word to my family or friends.
If I said something,
It would have been over for me.
As he burned me,
Kicked me,
Slapped me,
Cut me,
I wanted to so bad die.
Once,
I tried to make a run for it.
But,
He caught me.
He said he would stop..
But I believed him somehow.
But once I turned around,
He beat me to the ground.
I Blacked out once he hit me too hard.
The next day,
I woke up to the sound of a familiar voice.
I abruptly opened my eyes to see what was going on.
Turned out,
My ears fooled me.
I saw no one but the dark.
I saw a shadow,
And I knew it was him.
I closed my eyes,
Waiting for what other horrible thing he could do,
But some how,
He didnt do nothing.
As turned around,
I saw blood come out of his chest.
Then I saw my friend.
He killed him to save me.
For the first time,
I finally got to smile again.
I was finally free
To be me
Again
It sometimes leaves you a mess..
Somedays wont rest..
Once, this person
Told me to be careful with love...
But,
Look were it got me.
It left me in the middle of nowhere.
All there was is hitting, controlling,
Slapping, and burn marks.
Everyday, I had to fear what was
Going to happen to me.
Was he going to hurt me even worse?
Or was I going to be soon a corpse?
I couldnt tell what was going to happen.
All I knew something was going to be painful,
Day by day,
Week by week,
Month by month,
Or even year by year.
All I had was fear.
I was controlled.
I was possessed.
I couldnt cry for help.
I couldnt even say a word to my family or friends.
If I said something,
It would have been over for me.
As he burned me,
Kicked me,
Slapped me,
Cut me,
I wanted to so bad die.
Once,
I tried to make a run for it.
But,
He caught me.
He said he would stop..
But I believed him somehow.
But once I turned around,
He beat me to the ground.
I Blacked out once he hit me too hard.
The next day,
I woke up to the sound of a familiar voice.
I abruptly opened my eyes to see what was going on.
Turned out,
My ears fooled me.
I saw no one but the dark.
I saw a shadow,
And I knew it was him.
I closed my eyes,
Waiting for what other horrible thing he could do,
But some how,
He didnt do nothing.
As turned around,
I saw blood come out of his chest.
Then I saw my friend.
He killed him to save me.
For the first time,
I finally got to smile again.
I was finally free
To be me
Again
I fell just before
I don't know why
Just couldn't walk anymore
Something in my way
Now my steps are smaller
a little smaller than before
So I will go to where the tea trees
turn to wine
I'll be just fine
it takes a believer sometimes
So I will go to where the tea trees are
Climbing over question marks
need to straighten some out
Take them off my shoulder
put some space between
So I will go to where
the tea trees turn to wine
I'll be just fine
it takes a believer sometimes
My best friend died because of a horrible situation,
My best friend died of lack of a friend not caring,
My best friend died cause of all the stuff he was bearing,
My best friend died of all the hatred,
My best friend died knowing that he was sacred,
My best friend died, My best friend died,
And he was heard worldwide,
My best friend died so soon,
My best friend died with the walk on the moon,
My best friend died with a never ending depart,
My best friend died leaving a hole in my heart,
My best friend died a fast one,
My best friend was Michael Jackson.
hope, for me, is a place uncharted
and extreamly over grown.
the world, it has chilled me,
frozen my very soul.
my little hope bird, it is gone
forbidden and forwarned.
all my faith and trust,
it flew away in the storm.
the fire, it can not warm me,
i do not feel the cold,
the sun doesn't shine,
my heart is numb.
and this is why,
my hope bird has died.
because the world has chilled me,
my heart can not ache,
nor can it brake.
the lie of a life
i'm suppose to live,
but, no one can give
an explination.
so i ask, Why?
why do we need
to belong in a group?
why can't i be me?
so this is why
hope for me is a place uncharted,
and my hope bird is gone.
i hope you understand...
and extreamly over grown.
the world, it has chilled me,
frozen my very soul.
my little hope bird, it is gone
forbidden and forwarned.
all my faith and trust,
it flew away in the storm.
the fire, it can not warm me,
i do not feel the cold,
the sun doesn't shine,
my heart is numb.
and this is why,
my hope bird has died.
because the world has chilled me,
my heart can not ache,
nor can it brake.
the lie of a life
i'm suppose to live,
but, no one can give
an explination.
so i ask, Why?
why do we need
to belong in a group?
why can't i be me?
so this is why
hope for me is a place uncharted,
and my hope bird is gone.
i hope you understand...
Eternal
Rock, there is no piercing
The rigid force of your defense
Withstanding all through every age
King
Ah, the eagle, how majestic
King of Avians and mentor to all
Displaying tenacity across zephyr skies
Hope
How strangely remorseful
this patch of sunlight peeking
down through the boughs with... hope?
What Lurks?
The sun illuminates for now
Deep within the forest, a mystery
Soon the moon will cloak
Winters Test
Frigid arctic waters meet rock
Pines man the cliffs like sentries
A lonely grizzly wanders the coast
Epic Horizons
Golden skies meet ground
The plains wave in unison
A tree stands upon the divide
Nature is upset with you...
A gray cloud of anger
rolling forth over everything
death and dust in wake
Ponderance
A lonely walking path
Through a haze of autumn lush
Stretching on.. not long enough
Rock, there is no piercing
The rigid force of your defense
Withstanding all through every age
King
Ah, the eagle, how majestic
King of Avians and mentor to all
Displaying tenacity across zephyr skies
Hope
How strangely remorseful
this patch of sunlight peeking
down through the boughs with... hope?
What Lurks?
The sun illuminates for now
Deep within the forest, a mystery
Soon the moon will cloak
Winters Test
Frigid arctic waters meet rock
Pines man the cliffs like sentries
A lonely grizzly wanders the coast
Epic Horizons
Golden skies meet ground
The plains wave in unison
A tree stands upon the divide
Nature is upset with you...
A gray cloud of anger
rolling forth over everything
death and dust in wake
Ponderance
A lonely walking path
Through a haze of autumn lush
Stretching on.. not long enough
I was sold down the river
And her warm heart
Would turn me forever
She's turned me round
A new flame has come
And nothing she can do
Can do me wrong
I am stern now
Petty words
Don't believe me
But her warm smile
Is never gonna leave me
She's turned me round
A new flame has come
And nothing she can do
Can do me wrong
Wrong oh no
Wrong oh no
She's made of real glass
She got real real emotion
But my heart laughs
I have that same
Sweet devotion
She's turned me round
A new flame has come
And nothing she can do
Can do me wrong
Wrong oh no
Wrong oh no
Nothing she can do
Can ever do me wrong
Thanks to awesome Mick Hucknall and Simply Red
Have a great caring day!
Practice kindness and gratitude everywhere every day, it's great for the soul!
--- LivHILuvAlwaiz♥jj9
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh, how far you are from home
Mornié utúlié (darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornié alantié (darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now
May it be the shadows call will fly away
May it be your journey on to light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun
Mornié utúlié (darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornié alantié (darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now
A promise lives within you now
Thanks to beautiful Enya
Have a great caring day!
Practice kindness and gratitude everywhere every day, it's great for the soul!
--- LivHILuvAlwaiz♥jj9
It was dark and i was alone
i had no where to go
i was sad and depressed
i needed a dollar to spark up real quick
to bad i was broke
luckily a friend walked by
he smelled fresh, just like weed
he had some on him
so got higher then the birds in the sky
we was all the way up there ^
i felt good after that
so i went to his house
i don't what happened after that but all my cloths were gone
my but was hurting so we must've did something,
um just playing don't smoke weed stay clean and don't report me it was just a joke (he-he)
OOO SHIT THIS IS A BAGIN POEM, I WAS HIGH WRITIN IT!
i had no where to go
i was sad and depressed
i needed a dollar to spark up real quick
to bad i was broke
luckily a friend walked by
he smelled fresh, just like weed
he had some on him
so got higher then the birds in the sky
we was all the way up there ^
i felt good after that
so i went to his house
i don't what happened after that but all my cloths were gone
my but was hurting so we must've did something,
um just playing don't smoke weed stay clean and don't report me it was just a joke (he-he)
OOO SHIT THIS IS A BAGIN POEM, I WAS HIGH WRITIN IT!
i looked into your eyes,
with a sudden hope of longment,
you stared back,
with the look of hatred and envy,
could it be that you are disgusted?
or could it be that you have such a hateful passion that you cannot stand me?
how could this have happened,
i was your joy,
your forever love,
no matter what the situation was,
you always cared,
how could my change, change us?
it wasn't mean to happen,
now all i bared was simply two sharp teeth,
and a broken heart,
that is if i had one..
love me darling,
and we can show the world whats truelly "meant to be,"
it will only hurt for a moment,
it'll give you an entire empire,
but first i must change you...
to a Vampire..
~Chelsea Gomez. AKA me(:
with a sudden hope of longment,
you stared back,
with the look of hatred and envy,
could it be that you are disgusted?
or could it be that you have such a hateful passion that you cannot stand me?
how could this have happened,
i was your joy,
your forever love,
no matter what the situation was,
you always cared,
how could my change, change us?
it wasn't mean to happen,
now all i bared was simply two sharp teeth,
and a broken heart,
that is if i had one..
love me darling,
and we can show the world whats truelly "meant to be,"
it will only hurt for a moment,
it'll give you an entire empire,
but first i must change you...
to a Vampire..
~Chelsea Gomez. AKA me(:
A lil' something about my feelings.
Amazing is
more than a word.
More than an adjective.
Something I'v never heard.
I'v never been loved
and I will never see how
My favorite boy will love me
Not then
not now.
My someone special
could never be him.
I'm too short or too gawky
And I'll never fit in.
Everyone can see
that sparkle in his eyes
just isn't for me.
To live and to die
or to stay in his arms.
My choice rings clear
but only from afar.
Chapped lips
dry hair.
Is not hip
is not fair.
Cannot fly
cannot act.
Relationships die
I don't have your back.
Deep blue eyes
a welcoming face.
Takes to the skies
delicate as lace.
Always kind
always tries.
Never mind
he cannot be mine.
Amazing is
more than a word.
More than an adjective.
Something I'v never heard.
I'v never been loved
and I will never see how
My favorite boy will love me
Not then
not now.
My someone special
could never be him.
I'm too short or too gawky
And I'll never fit in.
Everyone can see
that sparkle in his eyes
just isn't for me.
To live and to die
or to stay in his arms.
My choice rings clear
but only from afar.
Chapped lips
dry hair.
Is not hip
is not fair.
Cannot fly
cannot act.
Relationships die
I don't have your back.
Deep blue eyes
a welcoming face.
Takes to the skies
delicate as lace.
Always kind
always tries.
Never mind
he cannot be mine.
Today I had dance
Just like most days
But today was different
Today was the day I saw u
u where just standing there
with your black hair and cool boy
swagger
I didn’t know why u where at a dance studio
maybe that’s cause you are a guy
but then I noticed a girl run up to you
it was Katrina. I knew her
maybe I could know you too
me and Katrina are in the same line class
but we are years apart
I’m 12 and she’s 8
but where does that leave you
I never found out
I found out that your name was Anthony
I always tried to catch your eye
and during the last week of dance I noticed
that you came to the studio more often
I was delighted. I would always look for you
and sometimes I would catch you staring back.
I barely know anything about you
but I don’t care
Katrina always talks to me. She very outgoing
maybe you are to
so next time I see you
I’m going to be outgoing too (:
Just like most days
But today was different
Today was the day I saw u
u where just standing there
with your black hair and cool boy
swagger
I didn’t know why u where at a dance studio
maybe that’s cause you are a guy
but then I noticed a girl run up to you
it was Katrina. I knew her
maybe I could know you too
me and Katrina are in the same line class
but we are years apart
I’m 12 and she’s 8
but where does that leave you
I never found out
I found out that your name was Anthony
I always tried to catch your eye
and during the last week of dance I noticed
that you came to the studio more often
I was delighted. I would always look for you
and sometimes I would catch you staring back.
I barely know anything about you
but I don’t care
Katrina always talks to me. She very outgoing
maybe you are to
so next time I see you
I’m going to be outgoing too (:
my hero is my mother ,who i certainly cannot mistake for my brother,
her personality stands alone ,
she is seated at the top of the throne,
she wears a crown high and mighty,
in my heart i donot take lightly,
she is my role model, my light, my heart ,my all,
she was with me there when i had my first night mare ,when I wet the bed ,when we had our first fight,i thought she would leave ,but she is still with me after all
my hero is my mother,who i certainly cant mistake for my brother,
i do not like when she angry,
when she is angry she reminds me of crazy mandy,
she can be cheerful at times'
even sometimes when we play mimes,
she is my only hero,
so happy mothers day to my mother,who i certainly can not mistake for my brother
her personality stands alone ,
she is seated at the top of the throne,
she wears a crown high and mighty,
in my heart i donot take lightly,
she is my role model, my light, my heart ,my all,
she was with me there when i had my first night mare ,when I wet the bed ,when we had our first fight,i thought she would leave ,but she is still with me after all
my hero is my mother,who i certainly cant mistake for my brother,
i do not like when she angry,
when she is angry she reminds me of crazy mandy,
she can be cheerful at times'
even sometimes when we play mimes,
she is my only hero,
so happy mothers day to my mother,who i certainly can not mistake for my brother
