Sadness...
It sometimes leaves you a mess..
Somedays wont rest..
Once, this person
Told me to be careful with love...
But,
Look were it got me.
It left me in the middle of nowhere.
All there was is hitting, controlling,
Slapping, and burn marks.
Everyday, I had to fear what was
Going to happen to me.
Was he going to hurt me even worse?
Or was I going to be soon a corpse?
I couldnt tell what was going to happen.
All I knew something was going to be painful,
Day by day,
Week by week,
Month by month,
Or even year by year.
All I had was fear.
I was controlled.
I was possessed.
I couldnt cry for help.
I couldnt even say a word to my family or friends.
If I said something,
It would have been over for me.
As he burned me,
Kicked me,
Slapped me,
Cut me,
I wanted to so bad die.
Once,
I tried to make a run for it.
But,
He caught me.
He said he would stop..
But I believed him somehow.
But once I turned around,
He beat me to the ground.
I Blacked out once he hit me too hard.
The next day,
I woke up to the sound of a familiar voice.
I abruptly opened my eyes to see what was going on.
Turned out,
My ears fooled me.
I saw no one but the dark.
I saw a shadow,
And I knew it was him.
I closed my eyes,
Waiting for what other horrible thing he could do,
But some how,
He didnt do nothing.
As turned around,
I saw blood come out of his chest.
Then I saw my friend.
He killed him to save me.
For the first time,
I finally got to smile again.
I was finally free
To be me
Again
It sometimes leaves you a mess..
Somedays wont rest..
Once, this person
Told me to be careful with love...
But,
Look were it got me.
It left me in the middle of nowhere.
All there was is hitting, controlling,
Slapping, and burn marks.
Everyday, I had to fear what was
Going to happen to me.
Was he going to hurt me even worse?
Or was I going to be soon a corpse?
I couldnt tell what was going to happen.
All I knew something was going to be painful,
Day by day,
Week by week,
Month by month,
Or even year by year.
All I had was fear.
I was controlled.
I was possessed.
I couldnt cry for help.
I couldnt even say a word to my family or friends.
If I said something,
It would have been over for me.
As he burned me,
Kicked me,
Slapped me,
Cut me,
I wanted to so bad die.
Once,
I tried to make a run for it.
But,
He caught me.
He said he would stop..
But I believed him somehow.
But once I turned around,
He beat me to the ground.
I Blacked out once he hit me too hard.
The next day,
I woke up to the sound of a familiar voice.
I abruptly opened my eyes to see what was going on.
Turned out,
My ears fooled me.
I saw no one but the dark.
I saw a shadow,
And I knew it was him.
I closed my eyes,
Waiting for what other horrible thing he could do,
But some how,
He didnt do nothing.
As turned around,
I saw blood come out of his chest.
Then I saw my friend.
He killed him to save me.
For the first time,
I finally got to smile again.
I was finally free
To be me
Again
I remember that girl.
She used to be stealing cookies.
She used to be so full of happiness.
But then, some thing happened that changed her life.
Its something that can't be reversed.
That girl was shattered.
What happened to that girl was so sad.
It was that bad.
One of her friends was her favorite person in the world.
She never was seperated from her friends.
They were like family to her
Until one day,
It was hard to say
But she was seperated from them.
She was so hurt
She didn't deserve it.
That's when she decided something that wasn't supposed to happen.
She was tortureing herself.
Everyday,
She saw people that looked like her friends.
She began to cry,
Inside, she was dying
Slowly.
It was hard to move on
She couldn't go on
It was all wrong
How do I know about this? Well, that girl in the story is me.Victoria.
She used to be stealing cookies.
She used to be so full of happiness.
But then, some thing happened that changed her life.
Its something that can't be reversed.
That girl was shattered.
What happened to that girl was so sad.
It was that bad.
One of her friends was her favorite person in the world.
She never was seperated from her friends.
They were like family to her
Until one day,
It was hard to say
But she was seperated from them.
She was so hurt
She didn't deserve it.
That's when she decided something that wasn't supposed to happen.
She was tortureing herself.
Everyday,
She saw people that looked like her friends.
She began to cry,
Inside, she was dying
Slowly.
It was hard to move on
She couldn't go on
It was all wrong
How do I know about this? Well, that girl in the story is me.Victoria.
All the wonders love can bring
Give us strength and understanding
Give us all one song to sing!
Let the music play
Play it loud and make it clear
It's time to stand up to a new world
That is now so near
From the bottom to the top
To the leaders of the land
We all have one heart
Everyone of us must lend a hand!
And let there be joy in the world
And let there be no sorrow
And let there be peace on earth
For all the worlds we've got to see
That love, oh love, what a blessed thing
Say it loud, make it clear today!
All the walls are falling down
No more children off to war
If we search in our hearts
All the suffering will be no more
And let there be joy in the world
And let there be no sorrow
And let there be peace on earth
For all God's children
Let them see!
jj9/1998
In a world of his
she unloads his gun
She and he waits for this
he releases his love
In blue and green orbs
she gives him more and more
A million miles away
A million years girl
In a black woven chest
he digs his nails deep
She trusts in him for what he does
live in a house in the suburbs
He kisses the pain with blood and light
sleeping it off in the morning
A million miles away
A million years girl
In her world of his
she unloads his gun
In a world of his
she covers the sun
A million miles away
A million years
A million years girl
she unloads his gun
She and he waits for this
he releases his love
In blue and green orbs
she gives him more and more
A million miles away
A million years girl
In a black woven chest
he digs his nails deep
She trusts in him for what he does
live in a house in the suburbs
He kisses the pain with blood and light
sleeping it off in the morning
A million miles away
A million years girl
In her world of his
she unloads his gun
In a world of his
she covers the sun
A million miles away
A million years
A million years girl
My sweetness, how your soul has been hurting.
My angel, how long have you been waiting?
My world, slowly crumbling to nothingness.
My loves, how long until we meet?
This pain in my chest is swelling.
I wish it would give in.
My patience, like a thread.
I wish would snap.
Our hearts, beating, I can't hear.
I wish would deafen me.
All your attempts, I could never feel.
I wish would cave in on me.
All voices.
Never to be tasted.
Never to be invited.
Never to be told.
All there is, is loneliness.
Aching in my bones.
Forever more, trying to grasp a cold wind
And make it warm.
My angel, how long have you been waiting?
My world, slowly crumbling to nothingness.
My loves, how long until we meet?
This pain in my chest is swelling.
I wish it would give in.
My patience, like a thread.
I wish would snap.
Our hearts, beating, I can't hear.
I wish would deafen me.
All your attempts, I could never feel.
I wish would cave in on me.
All voices.
Never to be tasted.
Never to be invited.
Never to be told.
All there is, is loneliness.
Aching in my bones.
Forever more, trying to grasp a cold wind
And make it warm.
Forget the memories
Good and bad
Put away the hope
That flew away
In your own soaked dust
Freeze in solitude
Break under pressure
Fracture and waste away
Get stomped on under the heaviness
Decorate the millions of pieces
Like you're solid
Hide behind a sunken chest
Wither away in the stillness
When no laughter is heard in your chamber
No warmth is encased
When love is no longer protecting
Wash away in the seas of icy tears
Be suffocated when the air is no longer there
Just stop
Just stop beating
TM
Good and bad
Put away the hope
That flew away
In your own soaked dust
Freeze in solitude
Break under pressure
Fracture and waste away
Get stomped on under the heaviness
Decorate the millions of pieces
Like you're solid
Hide behind a sunken chest
Wither away in the stillness
When no laughter is heard in your chamber
No warmth is encased
When love is no longer protecting
Wash away in the seas of icy tears
Be suffocated when the air is no longer there
Just stop
Just stop beating
TM
Torn and featureless.
Jaded words tangle.
Her worlds have been destroyed, mutilated.
Lifting from me, she sees no shine.
Just a morbid hanging light.
Blood coils around her wrists.
Struggling to emerge.
Calling out, but not even an echo.
Her mirror is my mind.
Seeing the outside.
She decides to stay a prisoner.
In My cell.
Her malice never seen.
But the darkness have witnessed the fangs.
Wanting to say she is careful and sane.
The beast is right under her skin.
Laughter is distant.
Now, it is forever tarnished.
You see and I see the neglect.
My untamed beauty.
tears fell down her face
i asked her what was wrong
for her sake
she said
"I'm just sitting here,
feeling sorry for myself for
believing him."
to which i replied:
fuck him.
he doesnt deserve your love
she says:
I know...
Hundreds
a hundred butterflies couldnt sweep me away
a hundred winds couldnt blow me farther from you
a hundred wrongs couldnt make what were doing right
a hundred people couldnt block my veiw
a hundred rights couldnt make me go left
a thousand oceans couldn't keep me away from you.
i asked her what was wrong
for her sake
she said
"I'm just sitting here,
feeling sorry for myself for
believing him."
to which i replied:
fuck him.
he doesnt deserve your love
she says:
I know...
Hundreds
a hundred butterflies couldnt sweep me away
a hundred winds couldnt blow me farther from you
a hundred wrongs couldnt make what were doing right
a hundred people couldnt block my veiw
a hundred rights couldnt make me go left
a thousand oceans couldn't keep me away from you.
every time i cry,
i ask myself why,
the blade that goes down my wrist,
the blood that goes down my fist,
the memories in my head,
the nightmares in my bed,
my heart falls to pieces,
as the tears run down my cheek,
now i know i am week,
i can't help but show,
i want to let my life go,
every second of the day,
i keep fading away,
my hope has gone,
but i will be alive for so long,
the knife will stay in my pocket,
the picture will stay in my locket,
the hurt and pain,
the lies and shame,
the regrets and sorrow,
just waiting for tomorrow.
i ask myself why,
the blade that goes down my wrist,
the blood that goes down my fist,
the memories in my head,
the nightmares in my bed,
my heart falls to pieces,
as the tears run down my cheek,
now i know i am week,
i can't help but show,
i want to let my life go,
every second of the day,
i keep fading away,
my hope has gone,
but i will be alive for so long,
the knife will stay in my pocket,
the picture will stay in my locket,
the hurt and pain,
the lies and shame,
the regrets and sorrow,
just waiting for tomorrow.
Her husband left her, he lied
She cried that time also and now also she’s crying
Nothing to ease her, nothing that people are trying
They just stand and talk about
But her pain and her sorrows scream loud and shout
She looks to her baby as if he’ll come back to life
She looks at the door as if her husband will come back to his wife
No one comes forward
Talking to that lady, they feel awkward
She cried, cried until her tears ended
Then she cried in absence of hand that no one lended
Oh! Merciful Lord why didn’t they show even false sympathy to lady of pain
There was no loss, just blessings’ gain
Alas!! The heartless and truthful human never speak lie
They left her alone to cry, to die
At last everyone left
The woman either died or drowned in her tears’ oceans’ depth….