His lifeless eyes look into the distant landscape of some new life.
Life that slipped away from his hands,
Joy that faded inside his weighted soul.

And I look at him with grief
Wondering why was his life so painful despite of my prayers.

Oh, I'm afraid to ask who is he talking to in this cruel loneliness
When only wind whispers a melody of sorrow...

His time has gone long ago,
But his eyes of blue ocean look toward a distant view of the unknown life...

Life he lost in so many defeats
Scourged by the waves of restlessness.

Within his eyes of blue ocean I see these scars
That will remain forever in my soul

In deadness

I will sink

Alone

With a picture of a martyr

Who lived his life as if it wasn't his,

A martyr with eyes of deep blue ocean

In which I sank...

The birds tweet
The cats stomp
The cars start to beep
The dragons romp
However, this is on the outside world
The one full of undying mischief

Pens Of Promise
They definitely mean well
They shall never send you to the awful hell
Pens Of Promise
Shall they tell you your destiny?
Mine is already planned out for me
No one knows
The glee and hope they brought me

Erica's dog has been killed
She grieved, she stood still
All I heard were the petrifying screams
While I was stuck in the endearing grief
But now that I found this pen
I write with it
I can tell chickens from hens
Painting out my life for me
It's all planned out
Don't you mortals see?

The ink they share
The lives they dare
No harm can become of you
If you follow them, only if you do
Can you become their leader?
Yes.
This can happen, but only at the rightful best
Because I have tamed these wild best
But they only serve
Me and only me.

I do recall mentioning this:
that of all the sports I have tried
running and jumping hurdles
did not sit well with me.

I simply cannot keep up with you
for your pace quickens after every hurdle
even as they get higher,
you seem to pass over with ease.

I really want to keep up but alas
I realized that you are stronger than me,
smarter than me, braver than me,
then it was made known to me: I had no chance.

I just want you to be happy
and see the smile that first captivated me
the smile you make whilst doing what you've wanted,
even if it meant leaving me behind.

Someone once said,
"Success is about moving forward"
while conquering every trial
and learning from them…

I'm happy that you're successful,
I'm happy that you're happy,
I'm happy that we've met,
and it would make me happier if you looked back.

Stuck
Alone in my prison
Tongue bitten to hold
my screams
Smile worn to conceal
my fear
Free me from
this deep abyss
Save me from
this Lunar Eclipse
Take my pale
shaking hand
Collapse my
bindings to this
petrifying land
Frantic
the walls are closing in
Heart beating slowly
so slowly
Pull me from this
cave of sorrows
Please I want to
see tomorrow
Take my pale
shaking hand
Collapse my
bindings to this
petrifying land
I can
pull at my hair
I can
claw at the ground
I can
yank on my chains
I can
cringe at the sound
of the crying souls
I don't wanna join them
I need your help
Will you take my pale shaking hand
and collapse my
bindings to this
petrifying land
-Nikki Fulfer

In science we learned about the Higgs boson,
In social studies, economics;
Math taught me trigonometry
But to me they all make more sense
Than do you

The mass of all your electrons
Does not add up to your essence –
Your smile in the summer,
Your eyes in the night,
The freckle below the corner of your left eye

And I heard once that maybe there were a billion Big Bangs
And only we survived –
I think it’s because the universe
Couldn’t bear to part with you

For as my fingers intertwine eternally with yours
And the cells of our bodies make love
I kiss that freckle and taste your matter –
The taste of infinity and rain –
And see that I don’t have to understand your composition
To love you as I do

your mood is like a thunderstorm,
it causes pain, but it seems so warm,
the destruction you cause fills your life with flaws,
it doesn't seem right for you to loose this fight,
you deserve much more after the fragile heart i tore,
the tornado is coming, preceded by the humming,
the humming of sorrow,
as you fear to face tomorrow,
your life is filled with dread,
and on the inside you are dead,
you have held the anger inside,
the tornados coming we need to hide,
your rage breaks out from under,
like the rubble of the thunder,
it carries on through the night,
this lightning keeps flashing so bright,
through the flash i see you are crying,
the second flash shows the dying,
has the world around us colasped,
or is this just a relap,
but now the storm has come to a stop,
perserverance came out on top,
you stayed alive despite the pain,
but i fear the loss out-weighted the gain.