Chapter 1.
†Trigger Worning To Those Who Self Harm†
Nicole was born on March 3rd 1965 Nicole's childhood was great. Her mom and dad loved her very much. They went to Disney Land and a bunch of other places. But the fun and games came to a sad end one night.
Nicole has gone through a lot. In a short amount of time. Her parents died when she was seven due to a fatal accident on their anniversary. They were going to a restaurant for a romantic dinner. And since her grandparents didn't want to take care of her she lives in a foster home where everyone treats her as if she isn't there. The kids also make fun of her and they also do mean and awful things to her. She feels worthless and unloved all the time,she has depression.
She was diagnosed with depression on the one year anniversary of her parents death.
*1983*
Nicole is now 18. And she is working at a local diner. And from all of the money she saved up from previous jobs she had since she was 14 she got her first appartmant. Its not the greatest one but its a roof over her head.
When she got home from her long day at work she took a shower and while she was showering she looked at her legs and arms and all she saw were scars on top of scars. Nicole asked herself "Who would love a girl with scars?" Then she took a Razer and started to cut her left arm. She watched as her blood came out of her arm and washed away in the water. Then she whispered the cutters lullaby.
The Cutters Lullaby
Go To Sleep And Close Your Eyes
And Dream Of Broken Butterflies
They Tore Their Wings Against A Thorn
You Know The Pain They Have Bore
Silver Metal That Shines So Bright
Scarlet Blood That Feels So Right
Dream Of That Blood Trickling Down
And Wake Up Just Before You Drown
The Moonlight Shinning Off Your Tears
As You Bleed Out Your Own Worst Fears
So Tonight You Start To Cry
Whisper The Cutters Lullaby.
When Nicole said the last line she had tears in her eyes. Then she got out of the shower and dryed her self off. Then she put on her pj's and then she braded her long damped long hair and she went to bed and cried herself to sleep...
Nicole woke up the next morning to start another day of working and hiding her new wounds.
A/N Well This Is Chapter 1. Sorry In Advance If It Takes Me A Long Time To Update. This Is A Very Hard Story To Write. I Hope You Guys Understand!!! Credit Goes To Eternalmike For The Summary. I Hope I Will Be Able To Update This Story Often. And Ill Be Changing The Picture Of Michael To Match The Era.
†Trigger Worning To Those Who Self Harm†
Nicole was born on March 3rd 1965 Nicole's childhood was great. Her mom and dad loved her very much. They went to Disney Land and a bunch of other places. But the fun and games came to a sad end one night.
Nicole has gone through a lot. In a short amount of time. Her parents died when she was seven due to a fatal accident on their anniversary. They were going to a restaurant for a romantic dinner. And since her grandparents didn't want to take care of her she lives in a foster home where everyone treats her as if she isn't there. The kids also make fun of her and they also do mean and awful things to her. She feels worthless and unloved all the time,she has depression.
She was diagnosed with depression on the one year anniversary of her parents death.
*1983*
Nicole is now 18. And she is working at a local diner. And from all of the money she saved up from previous jobs she had since she was 14 she got her first appartmant. Its not the greatest one but its a roof over her head.
When she got home from her long day at work she took a shower and while she was showering she looked at her legs and arms and all she saw were scars on top of scars. Nicole asked herself "Who would love a girl with scars?" Then she took a Razer and started to cut her left arm. She watched as her blood came out of her arm and washed away in the water. Then she whispered the cutters lullaby.
The Cutters Lullaby
Go To Sleep And Close Your Eyes
And Dream Of Broken Butterflies
They Tore Their Wings Against A Thorn
You Know The Pain They Have Bore
Silver Metal That Shines So Bright
Scarlet Blood That Feels So Right
Dream Of That Blood Trickling Down
And Wake Up Just Before You Drown
The Moonlight Shinning Off Your Tears
As You Bleed Out Your Own Worst Fears
So Tonight You Start To Cry
Whisper The Cutters Lullaby.
When Nicole said the last line she had tears in her eyes. Then she got out of the shower and dryed her self off. Then she put on her pj's and then she braded her long damped long hair and she went to bed and cried herself to sleep...
Nicole woke up the next morning to start another day of working and hiding her new wounds.
A/N Well This Is Chapter 1. Sorry In Advance If It Takes Me A Long Time To Update. This Is A Very Hard Story To Write. I Hope You Guys Understand!!! Credit Goes To Eternalmike For The Summary. I Hope I Will Be Able To Update This Story Often. And Ill Be Changing The Picture Of Michael To Match The Era.
Today is the two-year anniversary of Michael Jackson's death -- and the saga has played out like a soap opera about betrayal, jealousy, love, greed and redemption.
When TMZ broke the news, it triggered a flood of stories about Jackson's struggles with drugs, the doctors who enabled him, the mystery surrounding his death, a little known drug called propofol, a family war against Michael's estate, a full court press to erase Michael's debt, and a posthumous marketing campaign to rival Elvis.
Take a look at TMZ's timeline from the moment we found something was terribly wrong with Michael.
When TMZ broke the news, it triggered a flood of stories about Jackson's struggles with drugs, the doctors who enabled him, the mystery surrounding his death, a little known drug called propofol, a family war against Michael's estate, a full court press to erase Michael's debt, and a posthumous marketing campaign to rival Elvis.
Take a look at TMZ's timeline from the moment we found something was terribly wrong with Michael.
In a lost world
I hear your voice
Calling for heaven
Cast away
Caught in memories
You must believe
Love will come through
I’ll be your angel
In your darkest night
I’ll be your destiny
Waiting by your side
I’ll be the sunshine
When you’re feeling blue
I’m always here
For you
Comes a day
Heart on fire
When all your faith
Seems to be missing
Go your way
And you’ll find there
A land of hope
A land of dreams
I’ll be your angel
In your darkest night
I’ll be your destiny
Waiting by your side
I’ll be the sunshine
When you’re feeling blue
I’m always here
For you
And when you lose it all
And nothing seems right
Just keep holding on to me
I’ll be your angel
In your darkest night
I’ll be your destiny
Waiting by your side
I’ll be the sunshine
When you’re feeling blue
I’m always here
For you
Michael my heart,
last night I dream of you,
you were embracing me from my back.
I heard your heartbeat and it beats so fast,
like our promise that our love will never end.
We had so much fun together,
that I wished to go on forever.
Talks and laugh ,kissing and cuddling,
like no other people existing.
Holding each others hands while we walked,
all your attention was just for us.
I can't think of anything when you talked,
but I love you more and more, you see.
We stopped walking and you looked at me sweetly,
then you leaned over and kissed me.
My heart popped out and I saw butterflies,
you said you love me truly. oh sorry and then, I awake up and my dream was to end.
It was still a memory to reminisce, your kiss was so tender and sweet.
Love and miss you !! ♥
last night I dream of you,
you were embracing me from my back.
I heard your heartbeat and it beats so fast,
like our promise that our love will never end.
We had so much fun together,
that I wished to go on forever.
Talks and laugh ,kissing and cuddling,
like no other people existing.
Holding each others hands while we walked,
all your attention was just for us.
I can't think of anything when you talked,
but I love you more and more, you see.
We stopped walking and you looked at me sweetly,
then you leaned over and kissed me.
My heart popped out and I saw butterflies,
you said you love me truly. oh sorry and then, I awake up and my dream was to end.
It was still a memory to reminisce, your kiss was so tender and sweet.
Love and miss you !! ♥
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
I care for Michael Jackson cause he made me believe that you can do anything if you set your mind to it he has made me happy rather its his smile or music the song "Cry" i would always listen to when i felt down or sad but i would look up and keep my head to the sky. I know Michael tried to change the world and he couldnt do it by himself. He needes help im wanting to help the world so bad and hope that people will never forget the King Of Pop. I have learned so many things if you compare my life with his. Well thats another story but i love michael hes my idol some one i look up to hes always made me smile and if haters cant see that. Let them hate we dont care right? if you will comet why you love and care for Michael Jackson our King of Pop