Cover Page To This Story(Ill Fix It Later)
†Trigger Worning To Those Who Self Harm†
Nicole was born on March 3rd 1965 Nicole's childhood was great. Her mom and dad loved her very much. They went to Disney Land and a bunch of other places. But the fun and games came to a sad end one night.
Nicole has gone through a lot. In a short amount of time. Her parents died when she was seven due to a fatal accident on their anniversary. They were going to a restaurant for a romantic dinner. And since her grandparents didn't want to take care of her she lives in a foster home where everyone treats her as if she isn't there. The kids also make fun of her and they also do mean and awful things to her. She feels worthless and unloved all the time,she has depression.
She was diagnosed with depression on the one year anniversary of her parents death.
*1983*
Nicole is now 18. And she is working at a local diner. And from all of the money she saved up from previous jobs she had since she was 14 she got her first appartmant. Its not the greatest one but its a roof over her head.
When she got home from her long day at work she took a shower and while she was showering she looked at her legs and arms and all she saw were scars on top of scars. Nicole asked herself "Who would love a girl with scars?" Then she took a Razer and started to cut her left arm. She watched as her blood came out of her arm and washed away in the water. Then she whispered the cutters lullaby.
The Cutters Lullaby
Go To Sleep And Close Your Eyes
And Dream Of Broken Butterflies
They Tore Their Wings Against A Thorn
You Know The Pain They Have Bore
Silver Metal That Shines So Bright
Scarlet Blood That Feels So Right
Dream Of That Blood Trickling Down
And Wake Up Just Before You Drown
The Moonlight Shinning Off Your Tears
As You Bleed Out Your Own Worst Fears
So Tonight You Start To Cry
Whisper The Cutters Lullaby.
When Nicole said the last line she had tears in her eyes. Then she got out of the shower and dryed her self off. Then she put on her pj's and then she braded her long damped long hair and she went to bed and cried herself to sleep...
Nicole woke up the next morning to start another day of working and hiding her new wounds.
A/N Well This Is Chapter 1. Sorry In Advance If It Takes Me A Long Time To Update. This Is A Very Hard Story To Write. I Hope You Guys Understand!!! Credit Goes To Eternalmike For The Summary. I Hope I Will Be Able To Update This Story Often. And Ill Be Changing The Picture Of Michael To Match The Era.
Sani's constallatatoin
"I ended up crying myself to sleep on Michael's side of the bed"
As TMZ first reported, Jackson's declaration following the Arizona spa ordeal -- which came as part of her bid to obtain co-guardianship over Prince, Paris, and Blanket -- seemed to suggest she was tricked into going and had no idea MJ's kids were worried about her. As part of the declaration, Jackson said, "At the time, I trusted the people I was with to be honest with me."
But Katherine's attorney, Perry Sanders, tells TMZ she has "absolutely" no plans to press charges over the incident, telling us, "This chapter of chaos is closed and we are supportive of family unity in spite of recent events and arguably poor decisions."
some examples:
Why the finger tapes??
Michael Beardon (Musical Director of This Is It) has to answer:
"I asked him one day" MJ why you have this tape in your hands? "I always wanted to know, and I could ask him personally afterwards. If you can ask someone like Michael need something, what would you ask him?
And so great was Michael, he has replied to me.
"You want to really know you?" The tape around his fingers, he said, well, that feels good. And you see it, the white tape, your eyes follow him automatically. This is one of the show-biz things he learned when he was a child.
