Black moon
Edward left me. edward left me. I couldn’t cope with it how could he leave me? he loved me didn’t he? I was subbing so hard that I couldn’t breath I was picturing his hard emotionless face when he told me he never loved me or wanted me every time I thought about him I subbed harder, my hole body was shaking, it was raining and my hole body was wet I was freezing but I didn’t care I rather die than live without him.im crazy the guy left me and I don’t want to live without him!
My body was freezing and my head was about to explode when I heard someone calling my name
-Bella,Bella,Bella…..
I didn’t recognize the voice but I got up to go to the voice my legs gave out they hurt pretty bad I tried to answer but my voice didn’t came out the voice got closer
-Bella,Bella
I saw a tall man running toward me he looked me in the eye
-are you alright?
I wanted to laugh at what he said “yeah my bf left me and I'm great” I kept it to myself cause he would think I'm crazy I just shook my head .he helped me to get up but it was like I didn’t have control of my feet it was disconnected! So he picked me up and put me on his shoulders I wanted to object but I still couldn’t talk all i could think of was edward and every moment we had together so I broke into subs again
-its ok Bella don’t think about him its ok
How did he know? Was he spying on me? Is he…………………………………
-I found her but she doesn’t stop crying
-oh Bella honey are you ok? Lets take you home ok?
I still couldn’t talk Charlie took me home, dr. snow checked me and said I had a cold so I went upstairs to change.
10 days later
I was so depressed i wouldn’t talk to anyone I, wouldn’t eat I couldn’t even sleep! I wasn’t who I was before, I was a different person I tried to pretend in front of Charlie that I'm ok but I think I failed . every day after school I went by the Cullen's house to check if their back ,but nothing. in school everyone tried to be nice to me and invite me over but I just ignored them, I lost 13 kg in 10 days ,under my eyes were black and Charlie doesn't talk to me he thinks it only make things worse dr. snow visited me twice and wants me to see a shrink! And if I visit a shrink they would probably chain me up if I tell them the truth: “did you know my bf is a vampire and his vampire brother attacked me cause I got a paper cut and he wanted to drink my blood so my bf left me because 1. He thinks he's dangerous 2.the most imp reason he doesn't love me”
Charlie tried to protect me from dr. snow and told him that I’ll snap out of it in a few days at least Charlie was hoping, he didn’t give up on me.
2 days passed and I was still crying I felt my other half was missing or my heart isn’t beating.
I woke up and got ready for school when I heard Renées voice I went to see what's going on
-oh Bella honey are you ok look at you! Your so skinny…………….. she broke into subes I hugged her to calm her down then Charlie came with a bag in his hands
-Bella your going back with your mother you cant be here anymore your not you anymore I don’t want to be the one………………
I cut him off
-I don’t want to go! Dad why are you doing this to me?
i screamed at him then I grabbed the bag out of his hand and threw my clothes every where then I went in my room and started crying why does Charlie wants me to leave? Thousand questions ran into my mind then I heard a knock on my door Charlie opened the door and came in
-Bella you know I don’t want you to leave you know he's not coming back he's not calling he's not sending letters Bella he's not coming back you have to accept that!
-well I cant!!
- Bella your moping around your lifeless is he worth this?
Moping around that stung .
-I want to get ready for school.
I said and and closed the door in his face I got ready and went to school in school no one talked to me not that I mind I liked it or at least Angela asked how I feel and stuff ….
Today school was boring like always and in biology I would just stare at Edwards empty seat and imagined what would it be like if he was still here seconds passed like hours when school ended I drove to la push. I parked my car and walked on the beach when I got to the cliff I went and stood on the edge of the cliff trying to imagine what would it be like when I jump I was standing there fore 30 min or more when someone touched my shoulder I turned around to see who it was
-Bella? What are you doing here?
-hi jake I was just watching the sunset .
and imagining how would it be like if I jumped
-How are you Charlie is worried about you , Billy is bugging me to come and see you and I just thought you need some space to figure this out
-figure what out.
I asked suspicious
-um_um you know edward I mean I know he left you but its not worth it Bella look at you ,your not that happy fun person that I knew, your lifeless
-why does everyone tells me that, there is nothing wrong with me and I'm fun and happy. My voice broke at the last word
-Bella wake up he is not here your destroying yourself . he whisperd
I crossed my hands trying to hold my self then I glanced at the cliff again maybe I should wait when he's gone then I’ll jump and rest in peace he followed my gaze and frowned
-what where you doing at the edge of the cliff?
he asked still frowning oh god he's on to me then he's going to stick around here and, I cant rest in peace
-nothing, j-just watching the sunset and feeling the cool breeze on my face like I said!
- ok , um if you ever needed to talk to anyone you know I will always be there fore you, don’t you?
-yeah thanks jake
he hugged me it was kind of weird and he's skin was hot like he had a fever
-are you alright? I thing you have a fever ,your skin is so hot
-um yeah yeah sure I should go bye
-bye.
That was weird what's wrong with him?! I standed there for a few more minutes and then I went back to my car.
When I went home Renée was still here talking with Charlie I ignored them and went up stairs to do my home work
When my home work was done I took a shower to relax myself and then dressed in my pj
-Bella honey I made dinner come eat with us
- I'm not hungry mom!
then she came up stairs and came in my room
-Bella you didn’t even had lunch! Please come eat!
Then she came and hugged me and kissed my forehead, then grabbed my hand and took me downstairs .
-hey bells how was your day?
-the usual and um I saw Jacob black
-that's good ,he's a sweet kid
- yeah
-mmmm something smells good! Renée cooked pasta for you, your favorite !
Charlie said smiling hoping I would eat something tonight
-great but I'm not hungry
Charlie frowned
-Bella why…um why…. Never mind
He sighed I knew what he wanted to ask Bella why are you doing this to your self?
I watched Renée and Charlie eat and then went to my room my life was empty it didn’t even mattered if I died .I brushed my teeth and went to bed
I was in the forest running and I kept falling down trying to chase edward no matter how fast I ran I kept losing him then it started raining I was all wet but I didn’t give up cause I knew if I didn’t chase him my life would be useless I kept running and finally I caught him I went to talk to him but then Jacob came and grabbed me by my wrist and dragged me away from him no matter how hard I hit him he just kept running and saying some nonsense about edward and his family being dangerous. I woke up crying it was 3:00 AM I wanted to sleep but I couldn’t 3 hours passed I got up and got ready to go to school I was really hungry so I had pancakes and decided to walk to school. while I was walking I thought about edward I really didn’t want to think about him cause it hurt too much but I couldn’t help it I didn’t had anything else to think about , I was trying to imagine what he was doing right now he could be hunting ,be with another vampire perhaps Tanya Alice told me how much she loved edward that made me very angry and jealous I stopped walking and leaned on a tree I couldn’t walk anymore cause i couldn’t breath it was like I had no longs whenever I think about them this happens its like I'm being ripped in two pieces when I heard someone behind me some part of me wished it was edward when I turned around I frowned it was Jacob I hate him so much I think its because of the dreams I was having he always tried to take me away from edward
-hi
Jacob said with a grin I didn’t like him but some part of me did, god what's wrong with me I wish I didn’t have that some part its making me crazy!!!
-hi
I said coldly trying to avoid that some part
-are you ok? Your white
-yeah I'm great just walking to school
-I thought your school starts at 8:00 AM
-yeah I didn’t feel like driving so I wanted to walk slowly
(end of chapter 2)
I was in the forest running and I kept falling down trying to chase edward no matter how fast I ran I kept losing him then it started raining I was all wet but I didn’t give up cause I knew if I didn’t chase him my life would be useless I kept running and finally I caught him I went to talk to him but then Jacob came and grabbed me by my wrist and dragged me away from him no matter how hard I hit him he just kept running and saying some nonsense about edward and his family being dangerous. I woke up crying it was 3:00 AM I wanted to sleep but I couldn’t 3 hours passed I got up and got ready to go to school I was really hungry so I had pancakes and decided to walk to school. while I was walking I thought about edward I really didn’t want to think about him cause it hurt too much but I couldn’t help it I didn’t had anything else to think about , I was trying to imagine what he was doing right now he could be hunting ,be with another vampire perhaps Tanya Alice told me how much she loved edward that made me very angry and jealous I stopped walking and leaned on a tree I couldn’t walk anymore cause i couldn’t breath it was like I had no longs whenever I think about them this happens its like I'm being ripped in two pieces when I heard someone behind me some part of me wished it was edward when I turned around I frowned it was Jacob I hate him so much I think its because of the dreams I was having he always tried to take me away from edward
-hi
Jacob said with a grin I didn’t like him but some part of me did, god what's wrong with me I wish I didn’t have that some part its making me crazy!!!
-hi
I said coldly trying to avoid that some part
-are you ok? Your white
-yeah I'm great just walking to school
-I thought your school starts at 8:00 AM
-yeah I didn’t feel like driving so I wanted to walk slowly
…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….
After chit chatting with jake I started walking again when I got to school the parking lot was full, so I hurried to class.
At lunch break I sat with Angela and Jessica they were talking about this sale at port angels .Angela asked me if I wanted to go with them but Jessica wasn’t happy with that Idea and I really wasn’t in the mood to hang out with them so I said no.
After school I went to la push again and sat on the edge of the cliff thinking about my life about edward, Charlie ,Renée , jake ,myself………………………… my head was spinning I stood up but my feet slid of the edge and I was falling I screamed then a hot hand caught me and turned me around it was jake.
-oh god um ,um thank you
I said panting
-y-your welcome
-I thought I was really going to die !! I never thought jumping from here is that scary i………………
-have you been planning to jump of this cliff?
Jake asked what have I told him I recalled are conversation ,ooooh I think I told him too much
-no , no why should I ever do that ??? I mean I'm not crazy!
And he might come back some day I added in my mind
-OK
He said suspicious
-I, um I should go now , bye
And I ran to the street and walked back to home when I got home I went and took a shower and cooked fried fish fore Charlie and called him at work to see what took him so long
-hi dad where are you
-hey Bella, there was an animal attack and some hikers are missing were trying to find out some clues I will be home in one hour okay?
- sure be careful
-always am bye
-bye
Then I hung up the phone and went to my room I was thinking about today when an idea popped in my mind it wasn’t a very good idea but still it might work I took my phone out of my pocket and called edward I was hoping he would answer when a musical voice said
-hello?
This wasn’t edward or any of his family members it was a females voice
-could I talk to edward?
-sure, edward honey phone!!
Did she call him honey then she laughed and there was a kissing sound WHAT????? Edward was kissing another vampire???
-hello?
Edward said I couldn’t take it so I throw my phone at the wall and it broke in two pieces I was so shocked I was here sitting not able to move on crying all day and there he was sleeping around with female vampires I was so furious that I didn’t know what to do?
When the phone down stairs rang I thought it was Charlie but then a musical voice said
-Bella Bella can you hear me? Sor…………
I screamed at the phone and throw on the ground I was subbing so hard that my legs gave out and I fell on the ground then the phone rang again didn’t that stupid thing broke I answered the phone still subbing but it wasn’t edward
-hello
I said still subbing
-hey bells its Jacob………..
I really wasn’t in the mood to talk to jake I screamed again subbing harder I was hanging up the phone when jake said
-Bella r you okay?
He asked worried
-NO!!!!!
I screamed and hung the phone I got up and throw everything on the ground I broke every glass dish the table and lots of other stuff that the house looked like a junk yard then I fell on my knees and started crying that I couldn’t breath all I could think about was how much I hated edward then the door flew open and jake and his friend sam came in they were both shocked when they saw what I did to the house
-Bella are you okay what happened did you do this????????????
-get out !!!!!!
I shouted and punched the floor with my two hands and I kept saying get out , get out
- Bella please stop we want to help!
Sam said worried that I lost my mind I wasn’t thinking I just opened my moth and started shouting
-you want to HELP huh how can you help me??? No one can help me!!!!!
Tears raced down my cheek
-is it about edward or the cullens? Bella we know what they are just tell us! please
They both asked I wasn’t thinking and opened my big mouth again
-yes it is why do you care?
I said and then added in a whisper
-I want to be alone and die
(end of chapter 3)
And I ran to the street and walked back to home when I got home I went and took a shower and cooked fried fish fore Charlie and called him at work to see what took him so long
-hi dad where are you
-hey Bella, there was an animal attack and some hikers are missing were trying to find out some clues I will be home in one hour okay?
- sure be careful
-always am bye
-bye
Then I hung up the phone and went to my room I was thinking about today when an idea popped in my mind it wasn’t a very good idea but still it might work I took my phone out of my pocket and called edward I was hoping he would answer when a musical voice said
-hello?
This wasn’t edward or any of his family members it was a females voice
-could I talk to edward?
-sure, edward honey phone!!
Did she call him honey then she laughed and there was a kissing sound WHAT????? Edward was kissing another vampire???
-hello?
Edward said I couldn’t take it so I throw my phone at the wall and it broke in two pieces I was so shocked I was here sitting not able to move on crying all day and there he was sleeping around with female vampires I was so furious that I didn’t know what to do?
When the phone down stairs rang I thought it was Charlie but then a musical voice said
-Bella Bella can you hear me? Sor…………
I screamed at the phone and throw on the ground I was subbing so hard that my legs gave out and I fell on the ground then the phone rang again didn’t that stupid thing broke I answered the phone still subbing but it wasn’t edward
-hello
I said still subbing
-hey bells its Jacob………..
I really wasn’t in the mood to talk to jake I screamed again subbing harder I was hanging up the phone when jake said
-Bella r you okay?
He asked worried
-NO!!!!!
I screamed and hung the phone I got up and throw everything on the ground I broke every glass dish the table and lots of other stuff that the house looked like a junk yard then I fell on my knees and started crying that I couldn’t breath all I could think about was how much I hated edward then the door flew open and jake and his friend sam came in they were both shocked when they saw what I did to the house
-Bella are you okay what happened did you do this????????????
-get out !!!!!!
I shouted and punched the floor with my two hands and I kept saying get out , get out
- Bella please stop we want to help!
Sam said worried that I lost my mind I wasn’t thinking I just opened my moth and started shouting
-you want to HELP huh how can you help me??? No one can help me!!!!!
Tears raced down my cheek
-is it about edward or the cullens? Bella we know what they are just tell us! please
They both asked I wasn’t thinking and opened my big mouth again
-yes it is why do you care?
I said and then added in a whisper
-I want to be alone and die
Chapter 4:
Jake came closer and helped me to get up then sam came in and started to push the broken dishes out of my way I stood up not meeting his eyes and looked at the mess I made ,and I was sure that someday I will get my revenge from edward
-Bella do want us to take you to a hospital??or do you want to talk about this ?
Then sam spoke
- Bella we can help you with anything and as jake said ,we know about the Cullen's ,what they are.
I looked at him and said
-if someday you saw the Cullen's tell them how much I hate them
Jake and sam looked at me confused And I stormed out of the house not caring where I
Was going I ran as fast as I could deep into the jungle and to my surprise I didn’t even tripped once I continued running when I saw a boy he was 16 or 17 with blond hair he came closer when I noticed his red eyes I gasped and took a step back
-hello I'm matt
He said with a musical voice he took a step closer I didn’t know what to do I just stood still and looked at him I didn’t want to die I wanted to face edward someday and take my……………………..
-you don’t look scared ,now why is that?
Does always vamps want their victims to be scared? I shuddered at the memory of James and sighed
-why do you care don’t you want to suck my blood and kill me??
I asked bored what a stupid vampire!
-actually no , I have been alone for so long maybe 100 years or more I'm really not a fan counting years……….
I cut him off
-so you don’t want to kill me?
-no
-so what do you want to do with me?
-I don’t know if your lucky and I could control my thirst I will like to change you and by some miracle you know what I am , how do you know did you know others?
-yes my BOY FRIEND that I HATE very much and his family
I said my voice full of anger and hatered
-wow your bf was a vampire?
He asked stunned
-so why do you hate him?
I told him the story and when the story ended there was sadness in his eyes
-Why are you sad?
I asked him but he changed the subject
-First of all I don’t know your name? now that's more important than my sadness
-I'm Bella ,Bella swan
-I love your name its Italian isn’t it?
-yes but you didn’t answer my question?
-your stubborn aren’t you?
He laughed
-I am, so answer my question !
I demanded
-you know you should be scared of me but here you stand arguing with me!!!
He said stunned again
-I'm really not like everyone else , and I know I cant escape from you if I wanted to , now answer my question why were you sad?
I groaned under my breath
-Bella I was like you 100 years ago I lived in London I had 3 sisters and 2 brothers we lived together then one day I saw this beautiful girl in the woods I went closer to see who she was we talked and talked and talked every day then she told me the truth , what she was but I didn’t care I really loved her one night she came into my room and said she wanted to change me into a vampire after 3 days I was like her but we were so happy together we lived in Alaska years passed and then….. then one day a big army of vampire attacked her I tried to save her but I couldn’t my gift wasn’t useful enough……………..
He looked so sad then he looked at me and forced a smile on his face and continued
-after searching fore years to see why they killed her I discovered why.
He stopped and sighed I really wanted to know why?
-why did they kill her?
I asked sadness in my voice
-long before I was born she used to live with this coven um, sherry , Sarah, Mary, Alex, Christopher ,carol ,Irina and her.
-what was her name?
I asked maybe I’ve heard of her
-Suzan , she had red ……. She was so beautiful but now I have moved on not going to ruin my life cr…………
I cut him off
-I know what you mean
I sighed
-Bella would you stay with me foreve?r we could be together you know you’re the first person I told ypu this
-me too you just know my story
I said and moved closer to him something inside me told me his not dangerous
-will you ??
He asked again hoping I would say yes I thought about it I felt kind of complete with him ,not like edward that I hate now, like I could tell him anything and besides I had nothing to lose edward had moved on so should i.
-yes.
I said a little happy and sighed he moved closer to me took in my sent and said
-thank you I really didn’t like being alone.
And he moved on to my neck still taking in the sent then he pulled over
-what if I cant do it??
He said pain in his eyes he wasn’t as good as edward in holding an emotion less face I liked it at list I could be sure what he was feeling
-I know you can do it , some have confidence
I smiled trying to comfort him
-you act like like I don’t know what to say!!?
He said frustrated
-just do it please
Then he bite me
(end of chapter 4)
I ran as fast as I could deep into the jungle and to my surprise I didn’t even tripped once I continued running when I saw a boy he was 16 or 17 with blond hair he came closer when I noticed his red eyes I gasped and took a step back
-hello I'm matt
He said with a musical voice he took a step closer I didn’t know what to do I just stood still and looked at him I didn’t want to die I wanted to face edward someday and take my……………………..
-you don’t look scared ,now why is that?
Does always vamps want their victims to be scared? I shuddered at the memory of James and sighed
-why do you care don’t you want to suck my blood and kill me??
I asked bored what a stupid vampire!
-actually no , I have been alone for so long maybe 100 years or more I'm really not a fan counting years……….
I cut him off
-so you don’t want to kill me?
-no
-so what do you want to do with me?
-I don’t know if your lucky and I could control my thirst I will like to change you and by some miracle you know what I am , how do you know did you know others?
-yes my BOY FRIEND that I HATE very much and his family
I said my voice full of anger and hatered
-wow your bf was a vampire?
He asked stunned
-so why do you hate him?
I told him the story and when the story ended there was sadness in his eyes
-Why are you sad?
I asked him but he changed the subject
-First of all I don’t know your name? now that's more important than my sadness
-I'm Bella ,Bella swan
-I love your name its Italian isn’t it?
-yes but you didn’t answer my question?
-your stubborn aren’t you?
He laughed
-I am, so answer my question !
I demanded
-you know you should be scared of me but here you stand arguing with me!!!
He said stunned again
-I'm really not like everyone else , and I know I cant escape from you if I wanted to , now answer my question why were you sad?
I groaned under my breath
-Bella I was like you 100 years ago I lived in London I had 3 sisters and 2 brothers we lived together then one day I saw this beautiful girl in the woods I went closer to see who she was we talked and talked and talked every day then she told me the truth , what she was but I didn’t care I really loved her one night she came into my room and said she wanted to change me into a vampire after 3 days I was like her but we were so happy together we lived in Alaska years passed and then….. then one day a big army of vampire attacked her I tried to save her but I couldn’t my gift wasn’t useful enough……………..
He looked so sad then he looked at me and forced a smile on his face and continued
-after searching fore years to see why they killed her I discovered why.
He stopped and sighed I really wanted to know why?
-why did they kill her?
I asked sadness in my voice
-long before I was born she used to live with this coven um, sherry , Sarah, Mary, Alex, Christopher ,carol ,Irina and her.
-what was her name?
I asked maybe I’ve heard of her
-Suzan , she had red hair ……. She was so beautiful but now I have moved on not going to ruin my life cr…………
I cut him off
-I know what you mean
I sighed
-Bella would you stay with me foreve?r we could be together you know you’re the first person I told ypu this
-me too you just know my story
I said and moved closer to him something inside me told me his not dangerous and if he was I had nothing to lose!
-will you ??
He asked again hoping I would say yes I thought about it I felt kind of complete with him ,not like edward like jake kind of, like I could tell him anything and besides I had nothing to lose edward had moved on so should i.
-yes.
I said a little happy and sighed he moved closer to me took in my sent and said
-thank you I really didn’t like being alone.
And he moved on to my neck still taking in the sent then he pulled over
-what if I cant do it??
He said pain in his eyes he wasn’t as good as edward in holding an emotion less face I liked it at list I could be sure what he was feeling
-I know you can do it , some have confidence
I smiled trying to comfort him
-you act like like I don’t know what to say!!?
He said frustrated
-just do it please
Then he bite me
(chapter 5)
(Edwards pov )
Me and my family were staying with the denalis Tanya as always was flirting with me well that helped a little to get distracted from Bella just a little bit everyone picked a room and got settled everyone but me they were a room short so Tanya suggested I could stay in here room until they built another room 2 weeks passed but she always made an excuse not to make that extra room so we decided not to
Still weeks passed and became months and Tanya never gave up! She was trying to make me forget Bella and be with her rosali bugged me like always thinking about the benefits being with a vampire like Tanya and how after years Bella will move on and marries someone that she could be with, Alice and jasper went to London for their 23 honey moon .
One day I was thinking maybe rosali was and is right I should forget Bella and move on I talked with Carlisle and he thought it would be better not to intrude in bellas life again so one day I walked up to Tanya and told her I have made my mind she was so happy jumping around singing and……………..
This was the first time I kissed a vampire it wasn’t as good as it was with Bella how she kissed me and didn’t want to let go I didn’t either but I was scared I would hurt her and if I ever hurt her I will never forgive myself I just needed to forget her and not go back to her so she could have a normal life and have a family.
Alice hated me for this she thought I’ve cheated on Bella so she wasn’t as nice as she waswitrh me and Tanya in the past.
One day when I was playing chess with Emmett Tanya called me from our room
-edward,honey phone!
Who can it be? !maybe Alice or rose calling from their shopping
I ran to are room Tanya laughed at my face I was worried and surprised my emotions were mixed then she handed me the phone and I kissed her on the lips
-hello?
I asked seriously
Then someone screamed and threw the phone on the ground. was that Bella??
I called her home maybe she would answer Bella answered the phone subbing
-Bella,Bella can you hear me?sor…………………………..
Then she screamed again and threw the phone on the ground I was so worried what have I done to her??
Tanya came to comfort me
-edwa………..
Then Alice came in the room shouting at me
-I told you ,you idiot !!how could you do this?? huh huh ?????? what happened to your love for Bella?? huh??
What happened to my love to Bella? I left her so she could be happy! Did she have any idea how much it hurts to think of her being with someone else in the future? How much it hurts to think I will never see her again?
-Do you know what this phone call is going to do to her??? there she sits crying all day! And here you are being all lovy- dovy with Tanya!!!??
Everyone came to see what is going on jasper trying to comfort her
-what's going to happen to her??
Esme asked worried for Bella. Alice looked at me disgust ,and turned around to esme
-i don’t know! She's changing her mind every second! One second she wants to jump of that damn cliff and the other………..
She trailed of
-and know she's trashing out the kitchen! breaking everything!
She showed me her vision Bella subbing and breaking everything like, like I couldn’t describe it she was broken how could I?!
Alice grabbed jasper and left the room
-where are you going?
Emmett asked Alice
-since no one here cares about Bella I'm going to help her! if she's still alive !!
-I’ll come with you, you comin rose?
Emmett turned around to face rose she really wasn’t happy to go anywhere near Bella but she didn’t want to be without him here
-ok ,for you
-were coming to
esme said, taking Carlisle hand now she even hates me I'm a real monster now!
Carlisle looked at me are you coming son? you know its your choice.
I just nodded then Irena and Carmen came in and asked jasper what happened I didn’t want to listen to the rest so I ran outside and stopped beside Alice she turned her back on me trying to see bellas future but she couldn’t see anything and that made her more frustrated
-Alice, I didn’t want this to happen I thought if I live her she could have a normal life, get married have kids, ……………………..
I sighed I hated myself the only thing I wanted now was that Carlisle shouldn’t have bothered to change me I don’t deserve this life I wish I was dead and Bella would have a normal life maybe dating mike or Eric I have ruined her life
-lets go Alice called everyone apparently she made an reservation
We drove in silence everyone thinking about Bella and what will happen to her
We got to the airport and got are tickets on the plane I heard jasper trying to reason with Alice
-Alice you don’t know how much pain edward is in its making me miserable! He did the right thing they weren’t meant to be he couldn’t just change her……………..
-but she was his soul mate they were meant to be I saw her like us they were both happy…..
She remembered her vision thinking what a jack ass I am from ruining her life my life and every thing this pain was worse than the venom changing me driving me crazy jasper tried to calm me but he couldn’t, I even broke my seat!
We got to forks in 6 hours and took a taxi to bellas house Charlie's car wasn’t there maybe he was at the station trying to find Bella but there was someone in the house Emmett went in first then Alice ,jasper, esme, Carlisle, me and rose I recognized who it was one of bellas childhood friends Jacob black and to my surprise he was a shape shifter when he saw us he stood up too face us jasper was comforting him and it worked then he walked towards me and said
-how could you do this to her!
Filthy bloodsucker
-and before she disappears to god knows were she told me to tell you something
-what?
I whispered
He showed me every thing how she broke everything what she said well I cant judge her if she hates me I hate myself my family hates me everyone hates me!
Alice came and asked Jacob what happened jake told everyone then we decided to go and search fore Bella Emmett,Rosalie went south esme,Carlisle went northalice and jasper went west and I went east I really wanted to find her and explain to her everything that happened….
After 3 hours of searching no one found anything we all gathered around to talk
-its been raining before we came so we cant follow her sent and we didn’t find anything
-we didn’t find anything either
-me to
So we explored the city she was nowhere Alice and I searched the sea but still nothing so we went back to Alaska and I went away to be alone I deserved it.
(end of chapter 5¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬)
We got to forks in 6 hours and took a taxi to bellas house Charlie's car wasn’t there maybe he was at the station trying to find Bella but there was someone in the house Emmett went in first then Alice ,jasper, esme, Carlisle, me and rose I recognized who it was one of bellas childhood friends Jacob black and to my surprise he was a shape shifter when he saw us he stood up too face us jasper was comforting him and it worked then he walked towards me and said
-how could you do this to her!
Filthy bloodsucker
-and before she disappears to god knows were she told me to tell you something
-what?
I whispered
He showed me every thing how she broke everything what she said well I cant judge her if she hates me I hate myself my family hates me everyone hates me!
Alice came and asked Jacob what happened jake told everyone then we decided to go and search fore Bella Emmett,Rosalie went south esme,Carlisle went northalice and jasper went west and I went east I really wanted to find her and explain to her everything that happened….
After 3 hours of searching no one found anything we all gathered around to talk
-its been raining before we came so we cant follow her sent and we didn’t find anything
-we didn’t find anything either
-me to
So we explored the city she was nowhere Alice and I searched the sea but still nothing so we went back to Alaska and I went away to be alone I deserved it.
(chapter 6)
Bella pov
The pain was was to much, I couldn’t understand what was happening , my neck was burning , the burning took over my body it changed minute by minuet it grew it rose I wanted to scream this pain out but that probable isn’t a good option ppl will think I'm weak! I clenched my teeth together wishing I never existed suddenly the burning changed! it left my neck! I was relived that the pain had lessen but a new pain started in my chest my heart was was ripping its way out of my chest the sound of my heart filled my ears it was getting on my nerves the sound continued for hours or days ,maybe years? Then finally my heart stopped! i felt stronger better then I heard light footsteps coming towards me
I opend my eyes every thing was bright I could hear the high way………….
-Bella?
I stood up and looked at him he was so hot! And beautiful!
-wow!
-are you ok? Do you need anything?
I shook my head and walked closer to him I saw every line of his face he had a scar on his neck when I saw it I gasped!
-got that when I wanted to protect suzi
-does it hurt?
-it did! but know I I don’t even feel it
-do you feel thirsty?
-no
-so why are you acting weird?
-it just…to much to take in…………………..you know???
-yes at first your confused. I was to
he said comforting patting my arm wow! now he didn’t felt cold ,he felt kind of warm
-do you think I have a power?
I asked him wishing I had one
-I dont know I discovered my power years after I was created
-what's your power?
-um I can teleport
Wow teleport that's so cool
-like you could teleport every where?
-yes like I teleported us here from forks
-where are we?
I asked curios
-in London
-wow I’ve never been to London before!
We talked for an hour about every thing! It was weird that I could think so fast!
Then he asked
-Bella you should be thirsty you know? Its not normal! Every new born I knew even me when they ere changed they were crazy………….thirsty …I even forgot you are a new born!
-is that wrong?
I asked offended
-yes! its not normal! Aren’t you thirsty?
Now that he mentioned it my I could feel a burning
-now that you mentioned it,it does but I could ignore it
-you can ignore it!! Wow ! you knoe I'm nearly 1500 years old and when I smell blood its hard to control my thirst but I could control it because I have practiced! Your just 2 hours old!
-maybe that's my power
I said
He looked at me fore 5 seconds and said
-may be it is if you put it that way
-but you should hunt its important it gives you strength to live
-ok what are we hunting?
-humans
-humans!!!! Why?
-because there yummy and mouth watering and don’t worry these humans are kind of dead…
-you drink dead humans blood! ugh!
-no! no! they are not dead I just said that to comfort you
-so you lied to me!
Oooh I hate liars so much how can he do………………….
-I didn’t lie look I hunt old people and the ones that are going to die or some hikers…..
-well that's better! so you don’t hunt animals?
-no! they taste awful!
-really they are that bad?
-you could taste it fore your self!
-ooookay
-so lets go and hunt!
-kay! but were are we going?
-To the forest there should be some hikers there and animals if you like!
-lets go
I could run so fast we raced when we got to the jungle there was no sent of humans so I wanted to taste animal blood I followed a dears sent and caught it poor thing couldn’t run faster then I sank my teeth in its neck it was warm and good but it stinked! I just liked the warmth but it wasn’t pleasant matt was right!
-how was your dear?
-ugh!you were right it tasted awful I just liked the warmth.
-Told you!
Then he paused
-what do you smell?
I took in the air around Mmmmmmmmmm
-hikers
I liked my lips suddenly I was so thirsty when he saw me like that he said
-so go for it!
I followed my instincts and saw two hikers one of them looked 60 and the other looked younger maybe45 or 50 I lunched for the older one and saw matt lunching for the younger one
When I sank my teeth in neck a frenzy beginned the blood was warm and DELICIOS! It just suited me well! When I was done I let go of him and faced matt he was already don and starring at me
-what?
-you were so fascinating!
-glad that I amused you
I hissed
-so do you want more or your done?
-I'm perched!
-so lets go!
-could you teleport us there?
I wanted to know how it was?
-sure take my hand and close your eyes
I took he's hand and closed my eyes when I opened them we were at the cottage!
-WOW!
-yeah its pretty good
-yeah it is pretty cool!
Edward left me. edward left me. I couldn’t cope with it how could he leave me? he loved me didn’t he? I was subbing so hard that I couldn’t breath I was picturing his hard emotionless face when he told me he never loved me or wanted me every time I thought about him I subbed harder, my hole body was shaking, it was raining and my hole body was wet I was freezing but I didn’t care I rather die than live without him.im crazy the guy left me and I don’t want to live without him!
My body was freezing and my head was about to explode when I heard someone calling my name
-Bella,Bella,Bella…..
I didn’t recognize the voice but I got up to go to the voice my legs gave out they hurt pretty bad I tried to answer but my voice didn’t came out the voice got closer
-Bella,Bella
I saw a tall man running toward me he looked me in the eye
-are you alright?
I wanted to laugh at what he said “yeah my bf left me and I'm great” I kept it to myself cause he would think I'm crazy I just shook my head .he helped me to get up but it was like I didn’t have control of my feet it was disconnected! So he picked me up and put me on his shoulders I wanted to object but I still couldn’t talk all i could think of was edward and every moment we had together so I broke into subs again
-its ok Bella don’t think about him its ok
How did he know? Was he spying on me? Is he…………………………………
-I found her but she doesn’t stop crying
-oh Bella honey are you ok? Lets take you home ok?
I still couldn’t talk Charlie took me home, dr. snow checked me and said I had a cold so I went upstairs to change.
10 days later
I was so depressed i wouldn’t talk to anyone I, wouldn’t eat I couldn’t even sleep! I wasn’t who I was before, I was a different person I tried to pretend in front of Charlie that I'm ok but I think I failed . every day after school I went by the Cullen's house to check if their back ,but nothing. in school everyone tried to be nice to me and invite me over but I just ignored them, I lost 13 kg in 10 days ,under my eyes were black and Charlie doesn't talk to me he thinks it only make things worse dr. snow visited me twice and wants me to see a shrink! And if I visit a shrink they would probably chain me up if I tell them the truth: “did you know my bf is a vampire and his vampire brother attacked me cause I got a paper cut and he wanted to drink my blood so my bf left me because 1. He thinks he's dangerous 2.the most imp reason he doesn't love me”
Charlie tried to protect me from dr. snow and told him that I’ll snap out of it in a few days at least Charlie was hoping, he didn’t give up on me.
2 days passed and I was still crying I felt my other half was missing or my heart isn’t beating.
I woke up and got ready for school when I heard Renées voice I went to see what's going on
-oh Bella honey are you ok look at you! Your so skinny…………….. she broke into subes I hugged her to calm her down then Charlie came with a bag in his hands
-Bella your going back with your mother you cant be here anymore your not you anymore I don’t want to be the one………………
I cut him off
-I don’t want to go! Dad why are you doing this to me?
i screamed at him then I grabbed the bag out of his hand and threw my clothes every where then I went in my room and started crying why does Charlie wants me to leave? Thousand questions ran into my mind then I heard a knock on my door Charlie opened the door and came in
-Bella you know I don’t want you to leave you know he's not coming back he's not calling he's not sending letters Bella he's not coming back you have to accept that!
-well I cant!!
- Bella your moping around your lifeless is he worth this?
Moping around that stung .
-I want to get ready for school.
I said and and closed the door in his face I got ready and went to school in school no one talked to me not that I mind I liked it or at least Angela asked how I feel and stuff ….
Today school was boring like always and in biology I would just stare at Edwards empty seat and imagined what would it be like if he was still here seconds passed like hours when school ended I drove to la push. I parked my car and walked on the beach when I got to the cliff I went and stood on the edge of the cliff trying to imagine what would it be like when I jump I was standing there fore 30 min or more when someone touched my shoulder I turned around to see who it was
-Bella? What are you doing here?
-hi jake I was just watching the sunset .
and imagining how would it be like if I jumped
-How are you Charlie is worried about you , Billy is bugging me to come and see you and I just thought you need some space to figure this out
-figure what out.
I asked suspicious
-um_um you know edward I mean I know he left you but its not worth it Bella look at you ,your not that happy fun person that I knew, your lifeless
-why does everyone tells me that, there is nothing wrong with me and I'm fun and happy. My voice broke at the last word
-Bella wake up he is not here your destroying yourself . he whisperd
I crossed my hands trying to hold my self then I glanced at the cliff again maybe I should wait when he's gone then I’ll jump and rest in peace he followed my gaze and frowned
-what where you doing at the edge of the cliff?
he asked still frowning oh god he's on to me then he's going to stick around here and, I cant rest in peace
-nothing, j-just watching the sunset and feeling the cool breeze on my face like I said!
- ok , um if you ever needed to talk to anyone you know I will always be there fore you, don’t you?
-yeah thanks jake
he hugged me it was kind of weird and he's skin was hot like he had a fever
-are you alright? I thing you have a fever ,your skin is so hot
-um yeah yeah sure I should go bye
-bye.
That was weird what's wrong with him?! I standed there for a few more minutes and then I went back to my car.
When I went home Renée was still here talking with Charlie I ignored them and went up stairs to do my home work
When my home work was done I took a shower to relax myself and then dressed in my pj
-Bella honey I made dinner come eat with us
- I'm not hungry mom!
then she came up stairs and came in my room
-Bella you didn’t even had lunch! Please come eat!
Then she came and hugged me and kissed my forehead, then grabbed my hand and took me downstairs .
-hey bells how was your day?
-the usual and um I saw Jacob black
-that's good ,he's a sweet kid
- yeah
-mmmm something smells good! Renée cooked pasta for you, your favorite !
Charlie said smiling hoping I would eat something tonight
-great but I'm not hungry
Charlie frowned
-Bella why…um why…. Never mind
He sighed I knew what he wanted to ask Bella why are you doing this to your self?
I watched Renée and Charlie eat and then went to my room my life was empty it didn’t even mattered if I died .I brushed my teeth and went to bed
I was in the forest running and I kept falling down trying to chase edward no matter how fast I ran I kept losing him then it started raining I was all wet but I didn’t give up cause I knew if I didn’t chase him my life would be useless I kept running and finally I caught him I went to talk to him but then Jacob came and grabbed me by my wrist and dragged me away from him no matter how hard I hit him he just kept running and saying some nonsense about edward and his family being dangerous. I woke up crying it was 3:00 AM I wanted to sleep but I couldn’t 3 hours passed I got up and got ready to go to school I was really hungry so I had pancakes and decided to walk to school. while I was walking I thought about edward I really didn’t want to think about him cause it hurt too much but I couldn’t help it I didn’t had anything else to think about , I was trying to imagine what he was doing right now he could be hunting ,be with another vampire perhaps Tanya Alice told me how much she loved edward that made me very angry and jealous I stopped walking and leaned on a tree I couldn’t walk anymore cause i couldn’t breath it was like I had no longs whenever I think about them this happens its like I'm being ripped in two pieces when I heard someone behind me some part of me wished it was edward when I turned around I frowned it was Jacob I hate him so much I think its because of the dreams I was having he always tried to take me away from edward
-hi
Jacob said with a grin I didn’t like him but some part of me did, god what's wrong with me I wish I didn’t have that some part its making me crazy!!!
-hi
I said coldly trying to avoid that some part
-are you ok? Your white
-yeah I'm great just walking to school
-I thought your school starts at 8:00 AM
-yeah I didn’t feel like driving so I wanted to walk slowly
(end of chapter 2)
I was in the forest running and I kept falling down trying to chase edward no matter how fast I ran I kept losing him then it started raining I was all wet but I didn’t give up cause I knew if I didn’t chase him my life would be useless I kept running and finally I caught him I went to talk to him but then Jacob came and grabbed me by my wrist and dragged me away from him no matter how hard I hit him he just kept running and saying some nonsense about edward and his family being dangerous. I woke up crying it was 3:00 AM I wanted to sleep but I couldn’t 3 hours passed I got up and got ready to go to school I was really hungry so I had pancakes and decided to walk to school. while I was walking I thought about edward I really didn’t want to think about him cause it hurt too much but I couldn’t help it I didn’t had anything else to think about , I was trying to imagine what he was doing right now he could be hunting ,be with another vampire perhaps Tanya Alice told me how much she loved edward that made me very angry and jealous I stopped walking and leaned on a tree I couldn’t walk anymore cause i couldn’t breath it was like I had no longs whenever I think about them this happens its like I'm being ripped in two pieces when I heard someone behind me some part of me wished it was edward when I turned around I frowned it was Jacob I hate him so much I think its because of the dreams I was having he always tried to take me away from edward
-hi
Jacob said with a grin I didn’t like him but some part of me did, god what's wrong with me I wish I didn’t have that some part its making me crazy!!!
-hi
I said coldly trying to avoid that some part
-are you ok? Your white
-yeah I'm great just walking to school
-I thought your school starts at 8:00 AM
-yeah I didn’t feel like driving so I wanted to walk slowly
…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….
After chit chatting with jake I started walking again when I got to school the parking lot was full, so I hurried to class.
At lunch break I sat with Angela and Jessica they were talking about this sale at port angels .Angela asked me if I wanted to go with them but Jessica wasn’t happy with that Idea and I really wasn’t in the mood to hang out with them so I said no.
After school I went to la push again and sat on the edge of the cliff thinking about my life about edward, Charlie ,Renée , jake ,myself………………………… my head was spinning I stood up but my feet slid of the edge and I was falling I screamed then a hot hand caught me and turned me around it was jake.
-oh god um ,um thank you
I said panting
-y-your welcome
-I thought I was really going to die !! I never thought jumping from here is that scary i………………
-have you been planning to jump of this cliff?
Jake asked what have I told him I recalled are conversation ,ooooh I think I told him too much
-no , no why should I ever do that ??? I mean I'm not crazy!
And he might come back some day I added in my mind
-OK
He said suspicious
-I, um I should go now , bye
And I ran to the street and walked back to home when I got home I went and took a shower and cooked fried fish fore Charlie and called him at work to see what took him so long
-hi dad where are you
-hey Bella, there was an animal attack and some hikers are missing were trying to find out some clues I will be home in one hour okay?
- sure be careful
-always am bye
-bye
Then I hung up the phone and went to my room I was thinking about today when an idea popped in my mind it wasn’t a very good idea but still it might work I took my phone out of my pocket and called edward I was hoping he would answer when a musical voice said
-hello?
This wasn’t edward or any of his family members it was a females voice
-could I talk to edward?
-sure, edward honey phone!!
Did she call him honey then she laughed and there was a kissing sound WHAT????? Edward was kissing another vampire???
-hello?
Edward said I couldn’t take it so I throw my phone at the wall and it broke in two pieces I was so shocked I was here sitting not able to move on crying all day and there he was sleeping around with female vampires I was so furious that I didn’t know what to do?
When the phone down stairs rang I thought it was Charlie but then a musical voice said
-Bella Bella can you hear me? Sor…………
I screamed at the phone and throw on the ground I was subbing so hard that my legs gave out and I fell on the ground then the phone rang again didn’t that stupid thing broke I answered the phone still subbing but it wasn’t edward
-hello
I said still subbing
-hey bells its Jacob………..
I really wasn’t in the mood to talk to jake I screamed again subbing harder I was hanging up the phone when jake said
-Bella r you okay?
He asked worried
-NO!!!!!
I screamed and hung the phone I got up and throw everything on the ground I broke every glass dish the table and lots of other stuff that the house looked like a junk yard then I fell on my knees and started crying that I couldn’t breath all I could think about was how much I hated edward then the door flew open and jake and his friend sam came in they were both shocked when they saw what I did to the house
-Bella are you okay what happened did you do this????????????
-get out !!!!!!
I shouted and punched the floor with my two hands and I kept saying get out , get out
- Bella please stop we want to help!
Sam said worried that I lost my mind I wasn’t thinking I just opened my moth and started shouting
-you want to HELP huh how can you help me??? No one can help me!!!!!
Tears raced down my cheek
-is it about edward or the cullens? Bella we know what they are just tell us! please
They both asked I wasn’t thinking and opened my big mouth again
-yes it is why do you care?
I said and then added in a whisper
-I want to be alone and die
(end of chapter 3)
And I ran to the street and walked back to home when I got home I went and took a shower and cooked fried fish fore Charlie and called him at work to see what took him so long
-hi dad where are you
-hey Bella, there was an animal attack and some hikers are missing were trying to find out some clues I will be home in one hour okay?
- sure be careful
-always am bye
-bye
Then I hung up the phone and went to my room I was thinking about today when an idea popped in my mind it wasn’t a very good idea but still it might work I took my phone out of my pocket and called edward I was hoping he would answer when a musical voice said
-hello?
This wasn’t edward or any of his family members it was a females voice
-could I talk to edward?
-sure, edward honey phone!!
Did she call him honey then she laughed and there was a kissing sound WHAT????? Edward was kissing another vampire???
-hello?
Edward said I couldn’t take it so I throw my phone at the wall and it broke in two pieces I was so shocked I was here sitting not able to move on crying all day and there he was sleeping around with female vampires I was so furious that I didn’t know what to do?
When the phone down stairs rang I thought it was Charlie but then a musical voice said
-Bella Bella can you hear me? Sor…………
I screamed at the phone and throw on the ground I was subbing so hard that my legs gave out and I fell on the ground then the phone rang again didn’t that stupid thing broke I answered the phone still subbing but it wasn’t edward
-hello
I said still subbing
-hey bells its Jacob………..
I really wasn’t in the mood to talk to jake I screamed again subbing harder I was hanging up the phone when jake said
-Bella r you okay?
He asked worried
-NO!!!!!
I screamed and hung the phone I got up and throw everything on the ground I broke every glass dish the table and lots of other stuff that the house looked like a junk yard then I fell on my knees and started crying that I couldn’t breath all I could think about was how much I hated edward then the door flew open and jake and his friend sam came in they were both shocked when they saw what I did to the house
-Bella are you okay what happened did you do this????????????
-get out !!!!!!
I shouted and punched the floor with my two hands and I kept saying get out , get out
- Bella please stop we want to help!
Sam said worried that I lost my mind I wasn’t thinking I just opened my moth and started shouting
-you want to HELP huh how can you help me??? No one can help me!!!!!
Tears raced down my cheek
-is it about edward or the cullens? Bella we know what they are just tell us! please
They both asked I wasn’t thinking and opened my big mouth again
-yes it is why do you care?
I said and then added in a whisper
-I want to be alone and die
Chapter 4:
Jake came closer and helped me to get up then sam came in and started to push the broken dishes out of my way I stood up not meeting his eyes and looked at the mess I made ,and I was sure that someday I will get my revenge from edward
-Bella do want us to take you to a hospital??or do you want to talk about this ?
Then sam spoke
- Bella we can help you with anything and as jake said ,we know about the Cullen's ,what they are.
I looked at him and said
-if someday you saw the Cullen's tell them how much I hate them
Jake and sam looked at me confused And I stormed out of the house not caring where I
Was going I ran as fast as I could deep into the jungle and to my surprise I didn’t even tripped once I continued running when I saw a boy he was 16 or 17 with blond hair he came closer when I noticed his red eyes I gasped and took a step back
-hello I'm matt
He said with a musical voice he took a step closer I didn’t know what to do I just stood still and looked at him I didn’t want to die I wanted to face edward someday and take my……………………..
-you don’t look scared ,now why is that?
Does always vamps want their victims to be scared? I shuddered at the memory of James and sighed
-why do you care don’t you want to suck my blood and kill me??
I asked bored what a stupid vampire!
-actually no , I have been alone for so long maybe 100 years or more I'm really not a fan counting years……….
I cut him off
-so you don’t want to kill me?
-no
-so what do you want to do with me?
-I don’t know if your lucky and I could control my thirst I will like to change you and by some miracle you know what I am , how do you know did you know others?
-yes my BOY FRIEND that I HATE very much and his family
I said my voice full of anger and hatered
-wow your bf was a vampire?
He asked stunned
-so why do you hate him?
I told him the story and when the story ended there was sadness in his eyes
-Why are you sad?
I asked him but he changed the subject
-First of all I don’t know your name? now that's more important than my sadness
-I'm Bella ,Bella swan
-I love your name its Italian isn’t it?
-yes but you didn’t answer my question?
-your stubborn aren’t you?
He laughed
-I am, so answer my question !
I demanded
-you know you should be scared of me but here you stand arguing with me!!!
He said stunned again
-I'm really not like everyone else , and I know I cant escape from you if I wanted to , now answer my question why were you sad?
I groaned under my breath
-Bella I was like you 100 years ago I lived in London I had 3 sisters and 2 brothers we lived together then one day I saw this beautiful girl in the woods I went closer to see who she was we talked and talked and talked every day then she told me the truth , what she was but I didn’t care I really loved her one night she came into my room and said she wanted to change me into a vampire after 3 days I was like her but we were so happy together we lived in Alaska years passed and then….. then one day a big army of vampire attacked her I tried to save her but I couldn’t my gift wasn’t useful enough……………..
He looked so sad then he looked at me and forced a smile on his face and continued
-after searching fore years to see why they killed her I discovered why.
He stopped and sighed I really wanted to know why?
-why did they kill her?
I asked sadness in my voice
-long before I was born she used to live with this coven um, sherry , Sarah, Mary, Alex, Christopher ,carol ,Irina and her.
-what was her name?
I asked maybe I’ve heard of her
-Suzan , she had red ……. She was so beautiful but now I have moved on not going to ruin my life cr…………
I cut him off
-I know what you mean
I sighed
-Bella would you stay with me foreve?r we could be together you know you’re the first person I told ypu this
-me too you just know my story
I said and moved closer to him something inside me told me his not dangerous
-will you ??
He asked again hoping I would say yes I thought about it I felt kind of complete with him ,not like edward that I hate now, like I could tell him anything and besides I had nothing to lose edward had moved on so should i.
-yes.
I said a little happy and sighed he moved closer to me took in my sent and said
-thank you I really didn’t like being alone.
And he moved on to my neck still taking in the sent then he pulled over
-what if I cant do it??
He said pain in his eyes he wasn’t as good as edward in holding an emotion less face I liked it at list I could be sure what he was feeling
-I know you can do it , some have confidence
I smiled trying to comfort him
-you act like like I don’t know what to say!!?
He said frustrated
-just do it please
Then he bite me
(end of chapter 4)
I ran as fast as I could deep into the jungle and to my surprise I didn’t even tripped once I continued running when I saw a boy he was 16 or 17 with blond hair he came closer when I noticed his red eyes I gasped and took a step back
-hello I'm matt
He said with a musical voice he took a step closer I didn’t know what to do I just stood still and looked at him I didn’t want to die I wanted to face edward someday and take my……………………..
-you don’t look scared ,now why is that?
Does always vamps want their victims to be scared? I shuddered at the memory of James and sighed
-why do you care don’t you want to suck my blood and kill me??
I asked bored what a stupid vampire!
-actually no , I have been alone for so long maybe 100 years or more I'm really not a fan counting years……….
I cut him off
-so you don’t want to kill me?
-no
-so what do you want to do with me?
-I don’t know if your lucky and I could control my thirst I will like to change you and by some miracle you know what I am , how do you know did you know others?
-yes my BOY FRIEND that I HATE very much and his family
I said my voice full of anger and hatered
-wow your bf was a vampire?
He asked stunned
-so why do you hate him?
I told him the story and when the story ended there was sadness in his eyes
-Why are you sad?
I asked him but he changed the subject
-First of all I don’t know your name? now that's more important than my sadness
-I'm Bella ,Bella swan
-I love your name its Italian isn’t it?
-yes but you didn’t answer my question?
-your stubborn aren’t you?
He laughed
-I am, so answer my question !
I demanded
-you know you should be scared of me but here you stand arguing with me!!!
He said stunned again
-I'm really not like everyone else , and I know I cant escape from you if I wanted to , now answer my question why were you sad?
I groaned under my breath
-Bella I was like you 100 years ago I lived in London I had 3 sisters and 2 brothers we lived together then one day I saw this beautiful girl in the woods I went closer to see who she was we talked and talked and talked every day then she told me the truth , what she was but I didn’t care I really loved her one night she came into my room and said she wanted to change me into a vampire after 3 days I was like her but we were so happy together we lived in Alaska years passed and then….. then one day a big army of vampire attacked her I tried to save her but I couldn’t my gift wasn’t useful enough……………..
He looked so sad then he looked at me and forced a smile on his face and continued
-after searching fore years to see why they killed her I discovered why.
He stopped and sighed I really wanted to know why?
-why did they kill her?
I asked sadness in my voice
-long before I was born she used to live with this coven um, sherry , Sarah, Mary, Alex, Christopher ,carol ,Irina and her.
-what was her name?
I asked maybe I’ve heard of her
-Suzan , she had red hair ……. She was so beautiful but now I have moved on not going to ruin my life cr…………
I cut him off
-I know what you mean
I sighed
-Bella would you stay with me foreve?r we could be together you know you’re the first person I told ypu this
-me too you just know my story
I said and moved closer to him something inside me told me his not dangerous and if he was I had nothing to lose!
-will you ??
He asked again hoping I would say yes I thought about it I felt kind of complete with him ,not like edward like jake kind of, like I could tell him anything and besides I had nothing to lose edward had moved on so should i.
-yes.
I said a little happy and sighed he moved closer to me took in my sent and said
-thank you I really didn’t like being alone.
And he moved on to my neck still taking in the sent then he pulled over
-what if I cant do it??
He said pain in his eyes he wasn’t as good as edward in holding an emotion less face I liked it at list I could be sure what he was feeling
-I know you can do it , some have confidence
I smiled trying to comfort him
-you act like like I don’t know what to say!!?
He said frustrated
-just do it please
Then he bite me
(chapter 5)
(Edwards pov )
Me and my family were staying with the denalis Tanya as always was flirting with me well that helped a little to get distracted from Bella just a little bit everyone picked a room and got settled everyone but me they were a room short so Tanya suggested I could stay in here room until they built another room 2 weeks passed but she always made an excuse not to make that extra room so we decided not to
Still weeks passed and became months and Tanya never gave up! She was trying to make me forget Bella and be with her rosali bugged me like always thinking about the benefits being with a vampire like Tanya and how after years Bella will move on and marries someone that she could be with, Alice and jasper went to London for their 23 honey moon .
One day I was thinking maybe rosali was and is right I should forget Bella and move on I talked with Carlisle and he thought it would be better not to intrude in bellas life again so one day I walked up to Tanya and told her I have made my mind she was so happy jumping around singing and……………..
This was the first time I kissed a vampire it wasn’t as good as it was with Bella how she kissed me and didn’t want to let go I didn’t either but I was scared I would hurt her and if I ever hurt her I will never forgive myself I just needed to forget her and not go back to her so she could have a normal life and have a family.
Alice hated me for this she thought I’ve cheated on Bella so she wasn’t as nice as she waswitrh me and Tanya in the past.
One day when I was playing chess with Emmett Tanya called me from our room
-edward,honey phone!
Who can it be? !maybe Alice or rose calling from their shopping
I ran to are room Tanya laughed at my face I was worried and surprised my emotions were mixed then she handed me the phone and I kissed her on the lips
-hello?
I asked seriously
Then someone screamed and threw the phone on the ground. was that Bella??
I called her home maybe she would answer Bella answered the phone subbing
-Bella,Bella can you hear me?sor…………………………..
Then she screamed again and threw the phone on the ground I was so worried what have I done to her??
Tanya came to comfort me
-edwa………..
Then Alice came in the room shouting at me
-I told you ,you idiot !!how could you do this?? huh huh ?????? what happened to your love for Bella?? huh??
What happened to my love to Bella? I left her so she could be happy! Did she have any idea how much it hurts to think of her being with someone else in the future? How much it hurts to think I will never see her again?
-Do you know what this phone call is going to do to her??? there she sits crying all day! And here you are being all lovy- dovy with Tanya!!!??
Everyone came to see what is going on jasper trying to comfort her
-what's going to happen to her??
Esme asked worried for Bella. Alice looked at me disgust ,and turned around to esme
-i don’t know! She's changing her mind every second! One second she wants to jump of that damn cliff and the other………..
She trailed of
-and know she's trashing out the kitchen! breaking everything!
She showed me her vision Bella subbing and breaking everything like, like I couldn’t describe it she was broken how could I?!
Alice grabbed jasper and left the room
-where are you going?
Emmett asked Alice
-since no one here cares about Bella I'm going to help her! if she's still alive !!
-I’ll come with you, you comin rose?
Emmett turned around to face rose she really wasn’t happy to go anywhere near Bella but she didn’t want to be without him here
-ok ,for you
-were coming to
esme said, taking Carlisle hand now she even hates me I'm a real monster now!
Carlisle looked at me are you coming son? you know its your choice.
I just nodded then Irena and Carmen came in and asked jasper what happened I didn’t want to listen to the rest so I ran outside and stopped beside Alice she turned her back on me trying to see bellas future but she couldn’t see anything and that made her more frustrated
-Alice, I didn’t want this to happen I thought if I live her she could have a normal life, get married have kids, ……………………..
I sighed I hated myself the only thing I wanted now was that Carlisle shouldn’t have bothered to change me I don’t deserve this life I wish I was dead and Bella would have a normal life maybe dating mike or Eric I have ruined her life
-lets go Alice called everyone apparently she made an reservation
We drove in silence everyone thinking about Bella and what will happen to her
We got to the airport and got are tickets on the plane I heard jasper trying to reason with Alice
-Alice you don’t know how much pain edward is in its making me miserable! He did the right thing they weren’t meant to be he couldn’t just change her……………..
-but she was his soul mate they were meant to be I saw her like us they were both happy…..
She remembered her vision thinking what a jack ass I am from ruining her life my life and every thing this pain was worse than the venom changing me driving me crazy jasper tried to calm me but he couldn’t, I even broke my seat!
We got to forks in 6 hours and took a taxi to bellas house Charlie's car wasn’t there maybe he was at the station trying to find Bella but there was someone in the house Emmett went in first then Alice ,jasper, esme, Carlisle, me and rose I recognized who it was one of bellas childhood friends Jacob black and to my surprise he was a shape shifter when he saw us he stood up too face us jasper was comforting him and it worked then he walked towards me and said
-how could you do this to her!
Filthy bloodsucker
-and before she disappears to god knows were she told me to tell you something
-what?
I whispered
He showed me every thing how she broke everything what she said well I cant judge her if she hates me I hate myself my family hates me everyone hates me!
Alice came and asked Jacob what happened jake told everyone then we decided to go and search fore Bella Emmett,Rosalie went south esme,Carlisle went northalice and jasper went west and I went east I really wanted to find her and explain to her everything that happened….
After 3 hours of searching no one found anything we all gathered around to talk
-its been raining before we came so we cant follow her sent and we didn’t find anything
-we didn’t find anything either
-me to
So we explored the city she was nowhere Alice and I searched the sea but still nothing so we went back to Alaska and I went away to be alone I deserved it.
(end of chapter 5¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬)
We got to forks in 6 hours and took a taxi to bellas house Charlie's car wasn’t there maybe he was at the station trying to find Bella but there was someone in the house Emmett went in first then Alice ,jasper, esme, Carlisle, me and rose I recognized who it was one of bellas childhood friends Jacob black and to my surprise he was a shape shifter when he saw us he stood up too face us jasper was comforting him and it worked then he walked towards me and said
-how could you do this to her!
Filthy bloodsucker
-and before she disappears to god knows were she told me to tell you something
-what?
I whispered
He showed me every thing how she broke everything what she said well I cant judge her if she hates me I hate myself my family hates me everyone hates me!
Alice came and asked Jacob what happened jake told everyone then we decided to go and search fore Bella Emmett,Rosalie went south esme,Carlisle went northalice and jasper went west and I went east I really wanted to find her and explain to her everything that happened….
After 3 hours of searching no one found anything we all gathered around to talk
-its been raining before we came so we cant follow her sent and we didn’t find anything
-we didn’t find anything either
-me to
So we explored the city she was nowhere Alice and I searched the sea but still nothing so we went back to Alaska and I went away to be alone I deserved it.
(chapter 6)
Bella pov
The pain was was to much, I couldn’t understand what was happening , my neck was burning , the burning took over my body it changed minute by minuet it grew it rose I wanted to scream this pain out but that probable isn’t a good option ppl will think I'm weak! I clenched my teeth together wishing I never existed suddenly the burning changed! it left my neck! I was relived that the pain had lessen but a new pain started in my chest my heart was was ripping its way out of my chest the sound of my heart filled my ears it was getting on my nerves the sound continued for hours or days ,maybe years? Then finally my heart stopped! i felt stronger better then I heard light footsteps coming towards me
I opend my eyes every thing was bright I could hear the high way………….
-Bella?
I stood up and looked at him he was so hot! And beautiful!
-wow!
-are you ok? Do you need anything?
I shook my head and walked closer to him I saw every line of his face he had a scar on his neck when I saw it I gasped!
-got that when I wanted to protect suzi
-does it hurt?
-it did! but know I I don’t even feel it
-do you feel thirsty?
-no
-so why are you acting weird?
-it just…to much to take in…………………..you know???
-yes at first your confused. I was to
he said comforting patting my arm wow! now he didn’t felt cold ,he felt kind of warm
-do you think I have a power?
I asked him wishing I had one
-I dont know I discovered my power years after I was created
-what's your power?
-um I can teleport
Wow teleport that's so cool
-like you could teleport every where?
-yes like I teleported us here from forks
-where are we?
I asked curios
-in London
-wow I’ve never been to London before!
We talked for an hour about every thing! It was weird that I could think so fast!
Then he asked
-Bella you should be thirsty you know? Its not normal! Every new born I knew even me when they ere changed they were crazy………….thirsty …I even forgot you are a new born!
-is that wrong?
I asked offended
-yes! its not normal! Aren’t you thirsty?
Now that he mentioned it my I could feel a burning
-now that you mentioned it,it does but I could ignore it
-you can ignore it!! Wow ! you knoe I'm nearly 1500 years old and when I smell blood its hard to control my thirst but I could control it because I have practiced! Your just 2 hours old!
-maybe that's my power
I said
He looked at me fore 5 seconds and said
-may be it is if you put it that way
-but you should hunt its important it gives you strength to live
-ok what are we hunting?
-humans
-humans!!!! Why?
-because there yummy and mouth watering and don’t worry these humans are kind of dead…
-you drink dead humans blood! ugh!
-no! no! they are not dead I just said that to comfort you
-so you lied to me!
Oooh I hate liars so much how can he do………………….
-I didn’t lie look I hunt old people and the ones that are going to die or some hikers…..
-well that's better! so you don’t hunt animals?
-no! they taste awful!
-really they are that bad?
-you could taste it fore your self!
-ooookay
-so lets go and hunt!
-kay! but were are we going?
-To the forest there should be some hikers there and animals if you like!
-lets go
I could run so fast we raced when we got to the jungle there was no sent of humans so I wanted to taste animal blood I followed a dears sent and caught it poor thing couldn’t run faster then I sank my teeth in its neck it was warm and good but it stinked! I just liked the warmth but it wasn’t pleasant matt was right!
-how was your dear?
-ugh!you were right it tasted awful I just liked the warmth.
-Told you!
Then he paused
-what do you smell?
I took in the air around Mmmmmmmmmm
-hikers
I liked my lips suddenly I was so thirsty when he saw me like that he said
-so go for it!
I followed my instincts and saw two hikers one of them looked 60 and the other looked younger maybe45 or 50 I lunched for the older one and saw matt lunching for the younger one
When I sank my teeth in neck a frenzy beginned the blood was warm and DELICIOS! It just suited me well! When I was done I let go of him and faced matt he was already don and starring at me
-what?
-you were so fascinating!
-glad that I amused you
I hissed
-so do you want more or your done?
-I'm perched!
-so lets go!
-could you teleport us there?
I wanted to know how it was?
-sure take my hand and close your eyes
I took he's hand and closed my eyes when I opened them we were at the cottage!
-WOW!
-yeah its pretty good
-yeah it is pretty cool!
I deny the truth,
But really,
That is nothing.
I do that just to protect myself.
I cannot let the truth overcome me
All at once,
I must let it come at me
Pieces by pieces.
The truth is always shocking,
At many times sad.
But I must accept the truth
Even after a while.
Because denying the truth
Is like lying to myself
Denying the truth hurts my soul
But it also protects my soul at the same time.
I don't know what to believe.
It's all too shocking for me.
I deny the truth.
I protect my soul.
I protect myself.
But I also hurt myself.
But really,
That is nothing.
I do that just to protect myself.
I cannot let the truth overcome me
All at once,
I must let it come at me
Pieces by pieces.
The truth is always shocking,
At many times sad.
But I must accept the truth
Even after a while.
Because denying the truth
Is like lying to myself
Denying the truth hurts my soul
But it also protects my soul at the same time.
I don't know what to believe.
It's all too shocking for me.
I deny the truth.
I protect my soul.
I protect myself.
But I also hurt myself.
I know what happened,
I know that your parents are divorced,
because I was the first
you told.
I want to help you,
but I don't know
what all that
pressure
and sorrow feels like.
Like you're drowning
in a pool of tears
and your friends
are just watching and
laughing,
like it's a joke.
But it's not a joke,
it's your life.
They aren't even
your friends,
they are just people
who say they earned
that title.
I don't understand.
My parents aren't
divorced,
they don't fight
every time when
they see each
others face.
I can't help.
But you're
my friend.
My best
friend.
And I will
try to help.
I will stand by
your side even when
we are miles away.
Because even though
it might not feel like it,
you are never
alone.
I know that your parents are divorced,
because I was the first
you told.
I want to help you,
but I don't know
what all that
pressure
and sorrow feels like.
Like you're drowning
in a pool of tears
and your friends
are just watching and
laughing,
like it's a joke.
But it's not a joke,
it's your life.
They aren't even
your friends,
they are just people
who say they earned
that title.
I don't understand.
My parents aren't
divorced,
they don't fight
every time when
they see each
others face.
I can't help.
But you're
my friend.
My best
friend.
And I will
try to help.
I will stand by
your side even when
we are miles away.
Because even though
it might not feel like it,
you are never
alone.
"Now who's gonna take care of Mike!" Jane screamed at the top of her voice. "Now how am I suppose to marry Dave! Now how am I suppose to become an archaeologist!" "Mike, marriage, archaeology?!" I said, confused. "Oh, I can't explain now! I just wish I listened to David." She sighed. "Don't beat yourself up. David has the gift, you can still talk to him." She forced a smile. "Gift?" Dave whispered as he entered the room. "More like a curse." "David, i'm so sorry I didn't listen! But I just never thought-" "Save it." He butted in. "Everyone I've ever loved ends up dead. I should have seen it coming." "But you did! You tried to save my life and I was to stupid and selfish to care." "Janet." He sighed. "I don't think I can talk to you anymore. Never again." She stared at him, her face appalled. "What are you saying?!" "I'm saying seeing you, like this, it just, it just breaks my heart."
