I closed my eyes.I hated when he did this.Why not just walk we could talk even more.I put my arms around his neck.He smelled really good,not like any cologne, but just really nice and inviting.I buried my nose in his shirt and inhaled deeply.
When we got to the meadow.I looked around and remembered our conversation the other day and many just a few years ago.It was beautiful and it hadn`t changed that much.
"So what do you want to talk about?"I looked at him hopeful I didnt know what we should talk about but I hopped he did."Nothing really."No luck,wait I know."How about how am I going to tell Jacob I want a divorce?"The word sent shivers down my spine 'divorce'.I was clueless on how to do this."I can`t just tell him 'i`m sorry I still love Edward and I now I know I want to be with you so im packing my bags and im gone' that would be cold and I cant do that to him."Edward sat down and motioned for me to come and join him.I sat down and put my head on his shoulder."Well what do you want to say?"The question I couldn`t answer either."I just want him to know that I do love him but not as much as I love you and that I don`t want him to think its his fault for me leaving.Does that make any sense?"He placed his head on mine "Yes it does.You don`t want to hurt him but you don`t want to be with him.Am I right?"I closed my eye`s and nodded.Thats all I could do because I was afraid if I opened my mouth I might cry.
I tried not to cry but a tear still slid down my cheek.I wiped it away before Edward noticed."I love you."I whispered his in ear."I love you too."He whispered back.He kissed my forhead. Suddenly I was tired I put my head in his lap and I closed my eyes.
When I opened them again I was in Carlisles room in his bed.Edward was beside me."What happened?"I was confused.Why was I back at the house and how did I get back?"You fell asleep,and I brought you back here and layed you down.You`ve been asleep for a while,are you sure your ok?"I looked at his face his eyes were filled with concern."Yeah I think so anyway,but my head hurts.I dont think it means much but do you have any advil or anything?"He looked at me for a minute before getting up."I`ll go see if Carlisle has any for you.Close your eyes Bella relax and i`ll be right back."
When he came back he brought two advil and some water.He wasn`t alone Carlisle came in behind him.I sat up but the blood rush to and from my head and I felt dizzy."Bella are you ok?Whats wrong?"I looked it was Carlisle this time that talked."I think i`ll live but my head is killing me and i`m really tired.""Lay down and take these if your still tired by tonight come and get me."The last part of his sentence was for Edward who sat on the edge of the bed and nodded.I took
the pills and went back to sleep.
I opened my eyes it was about5 pm.I looked at Edward who didn`t look like he had moved at all from the spot he was sitting hours before"How do you feel?Are you stil tired?"I closed my eyes"No im not tired but my head hurts still."I put my hand on my head and quickly moved it.I had a pretty bad fever.Edward leaned in to kiss me but when his lips met my forehead he almost jumped."I`ll be right back."He came back with Carlisle again"I said I was fine Edward I dont need a doctor."Carlisle put his hand on my head."Bella have you done anything to stress you out the last few days?"I looked at him."I`ve desided to file for divorce and now I have to wait two day`s before I can tell him."Carlisle looked at me and shook his head."Thats why your head hurts you waiting for something big and you are very stresed.You need rest and to eat so come with us down stairs and i`ll get you something for supper.OK?"
I didnt have much of a choise because Edward picked me up and brought me down stairs."Edward I still know how to walk so can you please put me down before I get sick."He put me down."Fine is that better?"We stayed there staring at each other untill Carlisle called me in to the kitchen to eat.
When we got to the meadow.I looked around and remembered our conversation the other day and many just a few years ago.It was beautiful and it hadn`t changed that much.
"So what do you want to talk about?"I looked at him hopeful I didnt know what we should talk about but I hopped he did."Nothing really."No luck,wait I know."How about how am I going to tell Jacob I want a divorce?"The word sent shivers down my spine 'divorce'.I was clueless on how to do this."I can`t just tell him 'i`m sorry I still love Edward and I now I know I want to be with you so im packing my bags and im gone' that would be cold and I cant do that to him."Edward sat down and motioned for me to come and join him.I sat down and put my head on his shoulder."Well what do you want to say?"The question I couldn`t answer either."I just want him to know that I do love him but not as much as I love you and that I don`t want him to think its his fault for me leaving.Does that make any sense?"He placed his head on mine "Yes it does.You don`t want to hurt him but you don`t want to be with him.Am I right?"I closed my eye`s and nodded.Thats all I could do because I was afraid if I opened my mouth I might cry.
I tried not to cry but a tear still slid down my cheek.I wiped it away before Edward noticed."I love you."I whispered his in ear."I love you too."He whispered back.He kissed my forhead. Suddenly I was tired I put my head in his lap and I closed my eyes.
When I opened them again I was in Carlisles room in his bed.Edward was beside me."What happened?"I was confused.Why was I back at the house and how did I get back?"You fell asleep,and I brought you back here and layed you down.You`ve been asleep for a while,are you sure your ok?"I looked at his face his eyes were filled with concern."Yeah I think so anyway,but my head hurts.I dont think it means much but do you have any advil or anything?"He looked at me for a minute before getting up."I`ll go see if Carlisle has any for you.Close your eyes Bella relax and i`ll be right back."
When he came back he brought two advil and some water.He wasn`t alone Carlisle came in behind him.I sat up but the blood rush to and from my head and I felt dizzy."Bella are you ok?Whats wrong?"I looked it was Carlisle this time that talked."I think i`ll live but my head is killing me and i`m really tired.""Lay down and take these if your still tired by tonight come and get me."The last part of his sentence was for Edward who sat on the edge of the bed and nodded.I took
the pills and went back to sleep.
I opened my eyes it was about5 pm.I looked at Edward who didn`t look like he had moved at all from the spot he was sitting hours before"How do you feel?Are you stil tired?"I closed my eyes"No im not tired but my head hurts still."I put my hand on my head and quickly moved it.I had a pretty bad fever.Edward leaned in to kiss me but when his lips met my forehead he almost jumped."I`ll be right back."He came back with Carlisle again"I said I was fine Edward I dont need a doctor."Carlisle put his hand on my head."Bella have you done anything to stress you out the last few days?"I looked at him."I`ve desided to file for divorce and now I have to wait two day`s before I can tell him."Carlisle looked at me and shook his head."Thats why your head hurts you waiting for something big and you are very stresed.You need rest and to eat so come with us down stairs and i`ll get you something for supper.OK?"
I didnt have much of a choise because Edward picked me up and brought me down stairs."Edward I still know how to walk so can you please put me down before I get sick."He put me down."Fine is that better?"We stayed there staring at each other untill Carlisle called me in to the kitchen to eat.
