just a short thing I typed up
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I had decided that I would never truly be happy. It was an impossibility not only because I was a vampire, after all Peter and Charlotte seemed happy. In her own way, even Maria was happy. My situation was something else. My past? My abilities? Peter and I had slimier pasts but it had been worse for me. I’d been sucked in further. I had believed Maria’s lies. And I had felt the pain of my victims. Peter could ignore that. I couldn’t.
I was preparing to feed when I realized my victim was no longer alone. He was joined by a girl his age and they smiled at each other. I could feel their love and it was stronger than average. The girl walked away (she had to buy some last minute ingredients for dinner tonight) and the man sighed quietly. I could have attacked but I didn’t. Attacking this man, feeding, wouldn’t make me any happier whereas this man, if he lived, had a decent chance at real happiness. Part of me felt bitter: if I can’t be happy why should he? But I still decided not to. Me being uncomfortable was a sacrifice for the greater good. The one for the many. I was thirsty though. My eyes were black. Yet I decided to try not to destroy anyone’s world in an effort to make mine more bearable. My world would never be worth living in and maybe I could achieve some degree of pleasure, or rather escape from my pain, just by watching others happiness. Not a lot of escape just a small distraction. But it didn't last long. Two days. I had to feed. It was my very nature. So I tried to feed only on the depressed. Those who would rather not be alive anyway. I fed only when I had to, but I found my willpower was not as strong as I'd thought. Not as strong as it should be. That only added to my misery.
I had gone awhile now: almost three months of trying to deny myself only to fail. My eyes were black again. My plan to borrow happiness had failed. I would gravitate toward a happy human, but human emotions change all to soon. People were staring at me now. I’d been so lost in my thoughts that I hadn’t realized that it was now pouring rain. I walked hesitantly into a diner, wondering if I would cave.
As soon as I stepped inside I had bigger problems. Another vampire. She walked right to me. An attack? I could win. She was tiny. I didn't want to fight the little thing though. Then I caught her emotions. It felt like walking out of a storm and into a sunny place. This was more than the highs humans sometimes felt. Her lower lip pouted out slightly "You've kept me waiting a long time" she scolded. Well, it had been more. Now I'd ruined it and though I didn't know how I felt deeply ashamed. I must have done something terribly wrong. My head fell and I felt sick "I'm sorry ma'am" I managed. Wait! Her emotions hadn't changed. She wasn't truly angry, she was even amused by my response. She wasn't angry, she wasn't angry, she wasn't angry! I hadn't destroyed this lovely girl even for a moment. She held out her hand to me and I took it. I wondered too late if that was overly bold on my part. Yet I knew she would not scold me again and for that I was grateful. Her happiness climbed slightly when I touched her. Was it possible that I could in any way make her happy? Make this beauty happy? Life had meaning. I had hope.
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I had decided that I would never truly be happy. It was an impossibility not only because I was a vampire, after all Peter and Charlotte seemed happy. In her own way, even Maria was happy. My situation was something else. My past? My abilities? Peter and I had slimier pasts but it had been worse for me. I’d been sucked in further. I had believed Maria’s lies. And I had felt the pain of my victims. Peter could ignore that. I couldn’t.
I was preparing to feed when I realized my victim was no longer alone. He was joined by a girl his age and they smiled at each other. I could feel their love and it was stronger than average. The girl walked away (she had to buy some last minute ingredients for dinner tonight) and the man sighed quietly. I could have attacked but I didn’t. Attacking this man, feeding, wouldn’t make me any happier whereas this man, if he lived, had a decent chance at real happiness. Part of me felt bitter: if I can’t be happy why should he? But I still decided not to. Me being uncomfortable was a sacrifice for the greater good. The one for the many. I was thirsty though. My eyes were black. Yet I decided to try not to destroy anyone’s world in an effort to make mine more bearable. My world would never be worth living in and maybe I could achieve some degree of pleasure, or rather escape from my pain, just by watching others happiness. Not a lot of escape just a small distraction. But it didn't last long. Two days. I had to feed. It was my very nature. So I tried to feed only on the depressed. Those who would rather not be alive anyway. I fed only when I had to, but I found my willpower was not as strong as I'd thought. Not as strong as it should be. That only added to my misery.
I had gone awhile now: almost three months of trying to deny myself only to fail. My eyes were black again. My plan to borrow happiness had failed. I would gravitate toward a happy human, but human emotions change all to soon. People were staring at me now. I’d been so lost in my thoughts that I hadn’t realized that it was now pouring rain. I walked hesitantly into a diner, wondering if I would cave.
As soon as I stepped inside I had bigger problems. Another vampire. She walked right to me. An attack? I could win. She was tiny. I didn't want to fight the little thing though. Then I caught her emotions. It felt like walking out of a storm and into a sunny place. This was more than the highs humans sometimes felt. Her lower lip pouted out slightly "You've kept me waiting a long time" she scolded. Well, it had been more. Now I'd ruined it and though I didn't know how I felt deeply ashamed. I must have done something terribly wrong. My head fell and I felt sick "I'm sorry ma'am" I managed. Wait! Her emotions hadn't changed. She wasn't truly angry, she was even amused by my response. She wasn't angry, she wasn't angry, she wasn't angry! I hadn't destroyed this lovely girl even for a moment. She held out her hand to me and I took it. I wondered too late if that was overly bold on my part. Yet I knew she would not scold me again and for that I was grateful. Her happiness climbed slightly when I touched her. Was it possible that I could in any way make her happy? Make this beauty happy? Life had meaning. I had hope.
two weeks befor he visit
All I could think about was visiting my dad. His name is Charlie. I hadn't visted him in over three years. I would visit him for the whole summer scince I was little. Until I was old enough to make my own decisions, I was about fourteen and a half whe I stoped visiting. Im seventeen now. I live with my mom and her fiance. Her fiance's name is Phil.
I planned on visiting Charlie in two weeks. He was so happy when I phoned him, he said he bought me a present for when I come over. To be honest I was a little worried about what it was. But I kept my head held high, maybe he got me a neclace with earings and a bracelet too. I couldn't wait to see what the 'presnt' is.
All I could think about was visiting my dad. His name is Charlie. I hadn't visted him in over three years. I would visit him for the whole summer scince I was little. Until I was old enough to make my own decisions, I was about fourteen and a half whe I stoped visiting. Im seventeen now. I live with my mom and her fiance. Her fiance's name is Phil.
I planned on visiting Charlie in two weeks. He was so happy when I phoned him, he said he bought me a present for when I come over. To be honest I was a little worried about what it was. But I kept my head held high, maybe he got me a neclace with earings and a bracelet too. I couldn't wait to see what the 'presnt' is.
Edward Cullen
As we all remember from last year, the cast went on a nationwide Hot Topic tour hitting up malls across the nation. As the film grew in popularity, the cast appearances became unruly as thousands of people waited to catch a glimpse of the brooding Pattinson. So keep in mind, that New Moon is ten times more popular than Twilight was last year, so be prepared and forewarned!
twilight is the most awsome movie ever made! I think edward so hot! Before all of you can judge twilight read the book! so if you freakin judge twilight just because its about vampires. your freakin wrong! and edward NOT GAY! if you keep saying that ill kick your freaking head off!
please stop doing that. or your deadddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
please stop doing that. or your deadddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
Due to an overwhelming demand for the New Moon Soundtrack by fans, it is now being released this Friday, October 16th! It was to be released on October 20th. The news came via the official Twilight Twitter (with recent tweets by New Moon director Chris Weitz).
TWILIGHTERS ISNT THIS GREAT NEWS.I LOVE TO GET THE SOUNDTRACK BEFORE THE MOVIE SO I ALREADY KNOW THE WORDS.OK PUT THE NEW PARAMORE UP AND START LEARNING THE NEW MOON SOUNDTRACK(DONT WORRY PARAMORE ILL STILL LISTEN TO YOU)
ALSO DONT FORGET THE LISTENING PARTY AT HOT TOPIC ON OCTOBER 15 NATIONWIDE.
TWILIGHTERS ISNT THIS GREAT NEWS.I LOVE TO GET THE SOUNDTRACK BEFORE THE MOVIE SO I ALREADY KNOW THE WORDS.OK PUT THE NEW PARAMORE UP AND START LEARNING THE NEW MOON SOUNDTRACK(DONT WORRY PARAMORE ILL STILL LISTEN TO YOU)
ALSO DONT FORGET THE LISTENING PARTY AT HOT TOPIC ON OCTOBER 15 NATIONWIDE.
