noah's pov
i had never feel this pain, this desperation
how could it be that i had to leave the only person i had ever love leave her to stay with the dog jacob a person that i dispise so much
but i had to i know that i had to i only had a month with my love with renesmee
renesmee
i knew that the best way was to start to get away slowly but i couldn't imagine letting go of her in my last month with her
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jake's pov
my heart froze when nessie hug the blood sucker but i feel such joy when i realize that he was going away finally !!!!
it hurt me that nessie cried so much over this but i knew she would want to be with the bloddsucker last days so i wiill stay away and in a month everything would be perefect the way it was suppose to be
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nessie's pov
i spend every second with noah in our last days
i even sleep in the same room but not in the same bed noah wouldn't allowed that...
today it was the last day
the last night
"don't go noah please" i said
"its going to be ok you are going to be ok" noah said while we were going to his room well our room he was holding me by the waist
we arrived to the room and he went to lay down on the couch i went slowly to the bed but then i went for the couch
"Nessie please i told you many times that" noah started saying
i just look at his green sad eyes
"No noah this is not your decision is mine ok" i said and kiss him
he hadn't kiss me in all thise 30 days and he was suddenly as eager and urgent as i was he carry me while he kiss me to the bed
i rip his clothes and he said
"no nessie this is wrong" noah started but i started to kiss him and the fire was inevitable
he rip my clothes then
........
........
........
when i woke up i was in noah's arms i had never felt this happy in my life i kiss his neck
then i remember he was....
saddness surounded me
noah was already awake he touch my cheek and then he saw my sad expresion
"noah please dont go " i murmure
he sigh heavily brokenly triyng not to cry
"i have to im sorry i should have stop this will only make things harder for you " noah said in agony
i look at his eyes
"noah i don't regret any second i spend with you ok "i said serouly
he smile an kiss me fiercly again
i kiss him back we were going again when alice tap the door
"emmm nessie im sorry but noah it is time " alice said with the lifeless voice she used since aro came. jasper was also staying here
noah get up from the bed and started to get dress
"no noah don't go" i cried
noah look at me in agony he kiss my forehead
"im so sorry renesmee, i love you " he said
"i love you too noah please stay"
"be happy ness don't think of me forget me ok" noah said pleading
i touch his cheek
i show him all our memorys
"never noah" i whispered
he hug me and kiss me in my forehead my cheeks and my lips and before i could stop him he run to the door
i ran but they were already gone
i had never feel this pain, this desperation
how could it be that i had to leave the only person i had ever love leave her to stay with the dog jacob a person that i dispise so much
but i had to i know that i had to i only had a month with my love with renesmee
renesmee
i knew that the best way was to start to get away slowly but i couldn't imagine letting go of her in my last month with her
***
jake's pov
my heart froze when nessie hug the blood sucker but i feel such joy when i realize that he was going away finally !!!!
it hurt me that nessie cried so much over this but i knew she would want to be with the bloddsucker last days so i wiill stay away and in a month everything would be perefect the way it was suppose to be
****
nessie's pov
i spend every second with noah in our last days
i even sleep in the same room but not in the same bed noah wouldn't allowed that...
today it was the last day
the last night
"don't go noah please" i said
"its going to be ok you are going to be ok" noah said while we were going to his room well our room he was holding me by the waist
we arrived to the room and he went to lay down on the couch i went slowly to the bed but then i went for the couch
"Nessie please i told you many times that" noah started saying
i just look at his green sad eyes
"No noah this is not your decision is mine ok" i said and kiss him
he hadn't kiss me in all thise 30 days and he was suddenly as eager and urgent as i was he carry me while he kiss me to the bed
i rip his clothes and he said
"no nessie this is wrong" noah started but i started to kiss him and the fire was inevitable
he rip my clothes then
........
........
........
when i woke up i was in noah's arms i had never felt this happy in my life i kiss his neck
then i remember he was....
saddness surounded me
noah was already awake he touch my cheek and then he saw my sad expresion
"noah please dont go " i murmure
he sigh heavily brokenly triyng not to cry
"i have to im sorry i should have stop this will only make things harder for you " noah said in agony
i look at his eyes
"noah i don't regret any second i spend with you ok "i said serouly
he smile an kiss me fiercly again
i kiss him back we were going again when alice tap the door
"emmm nessie im sorry but noah it is time " alice said with the lifeless voice she used since aro came. jasper was also staying here
noah get up from the bed and started to get dress
"no noah don't go" i cried
noah look at me in agony he kiss my forehead
"im so sorry renesmee, i love you " he said
"i love you too noah please stay"
"be happy ness don't think of me forget me ok" noah said pleading
i touch his cheek
i show him all our memorys
"never noah" i whispered
he hug me and kiss me in my forehead my cheeks and my lips and before i could stop him he run to the door
i ran but they were already gone
Preface
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the heart which will stop beating soon, the heart which was the reason for me to live, the heart which she had given to me to keep safe just like how I had given her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the heart which will stop beating soon, the heart which was the reason for me to live, the heart which she had given to me to keep safe just like how I had given her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
Okay so I was just looking through my pictures, and I found this:
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what you think- does it help at all??
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what you think- does it help at all??
Okay so here's a little game that I found. Just like the real bingo, but for when you say one of the comments -and you've probably said one of the comments more then once lol.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure you can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so popular if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my friends just don't understand lol). How many do you think you can fill, comment below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what you think please.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure you can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so popular if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my friends just don't understand lol). How many do you think you can fill, comment below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what you think please.
So these are, by far, my favorite quotes from the first 3 books. (I haven't read breaking dawn yet :P)
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I love you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I love you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD