Today was Saturday. It had been 3 days since Ethan’s and Thor’s night of fun and ever since then everyone has been laying off the whole fall in love thing so today I decided to give the pendant thing ago.
But this time something was different
This time when I closed my eyes and the pendant went up in the air and I saw the man with the woman she looked sad.
Like she was hiding something
I tried to get into her thoughts tried to see what her feelings where but it stopped again. I got up and ran down stairs, Thor was the only one that was home and with him was Ethan. I was panting, Ethan got up, and from the couch he looked alarmed.”Sade? What’s wrong?” he said putting his hand on my shoulder, usually when he touched me I would flinch or slap his hand away but this time I didn’t I couldn’t. “I tried it again, there’s something different about his time” I said, he shocked with his smile and slight giggle. “Always the persistent one, now sit down” he said he had control and power in his voice, he slid his hand onto my upper back and stirred me to the couch.”How was this time different?” he asked, I looked at his hand now sitting on my shoulder he then quickly moved it away. “Ah, I usually see the same thing, but this time the girl she looked sad” I said, I looked up at his face expecting a smile, but there was no expression. “But I thought the pendant only changed when Mocaloo’s changed it” he said, now worry in his eyes. “What? Moca what? I asked. “Never mind” he said now he was smiling, I liked I was glad when he smiled again I hated seeing him upset. Then we heard a thump.
It was Thor; he took one look at us and smiled. “Seriously, just go out already” he said walking over and sitting in the couch opposite to us we both looked at each, Ethan smiled. “nah, man looks like she’s still denying it” he said, I was going to say something else but instead something else came out.”Ethan? Can I talk to you for a second” I said, as soon as I did I saw the shock on both their faces, Thor’s especially.
Ethan nodded and we both walked into the kitchen. For a while we just stood there until he finally said something. “Well?” he said raising an eyebrow. “We can’t tell Thor” I said, he gave me a confused look. “Why?” he said, looking at Thor who was trying to consecrate on the game without the corner of his eye slipping.”When I came out, I was totally freaking out! It would just worry him” I said. Now I was looking at Thor. “Fine, but if he asks I’m not lying” he said walking off toward Thor.
For the rest of the weekend me and Ethan didn’t speak, in fact he didn’t even come over. That Monday morning I got up extra early. As I walked down the halls I recognized Thor, he was cooking pancakes. I walked over to the table and sat down; he then turned around and raised his eyebrows. “You’re up early” he said putting the pancakes on a plate. “I could say the same thing to you” I said taking a pancake and taking a bite out of it. “I’m trying to stay in mom’s and dad’s good books” he said sitting down. “Yeah, about that where did you go?” I asked. “I told you, a club” he said taking a bite out of his pancake. “Before that, Ethan said you were going somewhere” I said, taking another bite out of my pancake. “Ethan, eh” he said in a mocking tone. “Shut up!” I said punching him in the arm. “Ouch, Okay, okay, but come on, you’re saying you don’t have any feelings for him” he said, rubbing the part of the arm where I punched him. “I don’t know” I said.
At school my first period was gym. Half way through it we were called in a circle and then I noticed standing next to the teacher was a young boy about my age. He had Light Brown hair, green eyes and was very tall. “Alright everyone this is Remi Martin” The teacher said. As soon as he did I heard chatter, I realised that his name was familiar, Adam had said something about having a brother. This tall boy was Adams brother.
After that class no one had stop talking about the cute boy and it wasn’t just the girl’s the boys were talking about inviting him to join the football team. The next period was Math and like every other day Adam was sitting next to me. I could hear all the other students talking about the new guy Remi and how he and Adam had the same last name. I wanted to say something to him but what was I meant to do? Just walk up to him and say ‘hey are you that new guy’s brother? You did mention once in class that you had one. So for most of the class I just sat there staring at him. “Sorry, you don’t mind if I sit here?” said Remi. He had the most perfect green eyes. “No, sure go ahead” I said putting on a girly smile. He got his book out and started reading I was now looking at him he notice this and looked back then he smiled.
Just as the bell went Remi got up and I saw a glimpse of Adam’s face it was filled with fury pure hate. As I walked to my locker I noticed that Adam was talking to Remi, they were huddled together I couldn’t hear or see their mouths moving. I saw Remi roll his eyes and walk off.
When I got home I saw Dawn sitting on the couch. She was texting on her phone I went over and sat next to her. “Hey” I said. “Hey” she said and nodded at me, I watched her as a smile lit up on her face. “You and Ethan, eh” she said turning to me with a smug smile. “What? How did you?” I said the look on my face was shocked. “Thor told me” she said. “Well it’s not true” I said giving her a mocking look. “Okay, but you should give him a chance” she said, dropping the smile and putting on a begging look. “No” I said giving her a glare. “If you worried about him hurting you, he will get his justice” she said, now giving me a smile. I returned the smile and got up.
That night I had a lot to think about. My first thought was would I give Ethan a chance; I mean it’s like I don’t like him. Oh god, I do like Ethan, so that means wait, what does it mean? I don’t have to go out with him, Does it? I kept thinking about what would happen with us and together it just doesn’t seem right. I was still going on like this until I heard a tap at my window.
But this time something was different
This time when I closed my eyes and the pendant went up in the air and I saw the man with the woman she looked sad.
Like she was hiding something
I tried to get into her thoughts tried to see what her feelings where but it stopped again. I got up and ran down stairs, Thor was the only one that was home and with him was Ethan. I was panting, Ethan got up, and from the couch he looked alarmed.”Sade? What’s wrong?” he said putting his hand on my shoulder, usually when he touched me I would flinch or slap his hand away but this time I didn’t I couldn’t. “I tried it again, there’s something different about his time” I said, he shocked with his smile and slight giggle. “Always the persistent one, now sit down” he said he had control and power in his voice, he slid his hand onto my upper back and stirred me to the couch.”How was this time different?” he asked, I looked at his hand now sitting on my shoulder he then quickly moved it away. “Ah, I usually see the same thing, but this time the girl she looked sad” I said, I looked up at his face expecting a smile, but there was no expression. “But I thought the pendant only changed when Mocaloo’s changed it” he said, now worry in his eyes. “What? Moca what? I asked. “Never mind” he said now he was smiling, I liked I was glad when he smiled again I hated seeing him upset. Then we heard a thump.
It was Thor; he took one look at us and smiled. “Seriously, just go out already” he said walking over and sitting in the couch opposite to us we both looked at each, Ethan smiled. “nah, man looks like she’s still denying it” he said, I was going to say something else but instead something else came out.”Ethan? Can I talk to you for a second” I said, as soon as I did I saw the shock on both their faces, Thor’s especially.
Ethan nodded and we both walked into the kitchen. For a while we just stood there until he finally said something. “Well?” he said raising an eyebrow. “We can’t tell Thor” I said, he gave me a confused look. “Why?” he said, looking at Thor who was trying to consecrate on the game without the corner of his eye slipping.”When I came out, I was totally freaking out! It would just worry him” I said. Now I was looking at Thor. “Fine, but if he asks I’m not lying” he said walking off toward Thor.
For the rest of the weekend me and Ethan didn’t speak, in fact he didn’t even come over. That Monday morning I got up extra early. As I walked down the halls I recognized Thor, he was cooking pancakes. I walked over to the table and sat down; he then turned around and raised his eyebrows. “You’re up early” he said putting the pancakes on a plate. “I could say the same thing to you” I said taking a pancake and taking a bite out of it. “I’m trying to stay in mom’s and dad’s good books” he said sitting down. “Yeah, about that where did you go?” I asked. “I told you, a club” he said taking a bite out of his pancake. “Before that, Ethan said you were going somewhere” I said, taking another bite out of my pancake. “Ethan, eh” he said in a mocking tone. “Shut up!” I said punching him in the arm. “Ouch, Okay, okay, but come on, you’re saying you don’t have any feelings for him” he said, rubbing the part of the arm where I punched him. “I don’t know” I said.
At school my first period was gym. Half way through it we were called in a circle and then I noticed standing next to the teacher was a young boy about my age. He had Light Brown hair, green eyes and was very tall. “Alright everyone this is Remi Martin” The teacher said. As soon as he did I heard chatter, I realised that his name was familiar, Adam had said something about having a brother. This tall boy was Adams brother.
After that class no one had stop talking about the cute boy and it wasn’t just the girl’s the boys were talking about inviting him to join the football team. The next period was Math and like every other day Adam was sitting next to me. I could hear all the other students talking about the new guy Remi and how he and Adam had the same last name. I wanted to say something to him but what was I meant to do? Just walk up to him and say ‘hey are you that new guy’s brother? You did mention once in class that you had one. So for most of the class I just sat there staring at him. “Sorry, you don’t mind if I sit here?” said Remi. He had the most perfect green eyes. “No, sure go ahead” I said putting on a girly smile. He got his book out and started reading I was now looking at him he notice this and looked back then he smiled.
Just as the bell went Remi got up and I saw a glimpse of Adam’s face it was filled with fury pure hate. As I walked to my locker I noticed that Adam was talking to Remi, they were huddled together I couldn’t hear or see their mouths moving. I saw Remi roll his eyes and walk off.
When I got home I saw Dawn sitting on the couch. She was texting on her phone I went over and sat next to her. “Hey” I said. “Hey” she said and nodded at me, I watched her as a smile lit up on her face. “You and Ethan, eh” she said turning to me with a smug smile. “What? How did you?” I said the look on my face was shocked. “Thor told me” she said. “Well it’s not true” I said giving her a mocking look. “Okay, but you should give him a chance” she said, dropping the smile and putting on a begging look. “No” I said giving her a glare. “If you worried about him hurting you, he will get his justice” she said, now giving me a smile. I returned the smile and got up.
That night I had a lot to think about. My first thought was would I give Ethan a chance; I mean it’s like I don’t like him. Oh god, I do like Ethan, so that means wait, what does it mean? I don’t have to go out with him, Does it? I kept thinking about what would happen with us and together it just doesn’t seem right. I was still going on like this until I heard a tap at my window.
I needed more, more! I threw the book across the dimly lit, wooden attic. The book hit a stack of old newspapers. I tore open yet another book. Nothing would give me my answers.
Why did I feel the need to care for Lucy? Why could I not get Alexander out of my head?
There were pages, and pages of the thought process, but nothing to explain what I felt! Why could no one manage to capture these feelings, and explain them?
A knock on the door interrupted me. “What?” I snapped.
“It is past midnight, Damien. Come to bed,” said Grey through the door.
“I’ll come when I want to. Now, go away!” Could she not understand I was confused, and angry? She possessed such naivety.
“Fine!” Grey yelled. I heard her storm down the steps. Then I heard her bedroom door slam. I let out a puff of air.
Then I threw another book against the wall. I kicked the whole stack of books, and watched as they toppled over. I threw myself onto the floor, and began crying.
Why did I feel the need to care for Lucy? Why could I not get Alexander out of my head?
There were pages, and pages of the thought process, but nothing to explain what I felt! Why could no one manage to capture these feelings, and explain them?
A knock on the door interrupted me. “What?” I snapped.
“It is past midnight, Damien. Come to bed,” said Grey through the door.
“I’ll come when I want to. Now, go away!” Could she not understand I was confused, and angry? She possessed such naivety.
“Fine!” Grey yelled. I heard her storm down the steps. Then I heard her bedroom door slam. I let out a puff of air.
Then I threw another book against the wall. I kicked the whole stack of books, and watched as they toppled over. I threw myself onto the floor, and began crying.
upset
and so many thoughts
circling around
your head,
you try to make
this right,
to find the best way
so you could feel better,
so you could be free.
Pain will never
go away,
it always stays
to remember you
that life is not a dream,
life is unpredictable.
Endless questions,
so many "Why",
but the answer
we will
never find!
The strength within
will not let us crack,
life is unpredictable,
who's to say?
Today you're happy,
and yet
despair waits
stealthily
to engulf you.
But,
you need to be prepared.
Not only bad things
happen to bad people.
Unfortunately,
so many pure,
honored hearts
have been broken for
so many times,
in so many pieces,
and yet
they live,
they live with
their agony,
they live with
their groan,
but they live,
tho their eyes are
always sad,
their hearts are
still softly.
Therefore
they know...
Therefore
they are...
The brightest star
that shines
in the dark,
that spark of hope
for all of us
who deserve better.
When you look at the night sky, what do you see?
In my eyes,
I see the moon as a peaceful spirit,
watching over me.
When you stop and listen to the wind, what do you hear?
In my eyes,
The wind sings to me and tells tales.
When you feel the sun on your back, what do you think?
In my eyes,
The sun reaches out and gives me a warm smile.
When you hear a flowing stream, how does it sound?
In my eyes,
The stream is floating in my heart and soul, drifting on and on.
When you look at me, what do you see?
In my eyes,
I see an average girl who is silently struggling inside.
But that's all in my eyes.
In my eyes,
I see the moon as a peaceful spirit,
watching over me.
When you stop and listen to the wind, what do you hear?
In my eyes,
The wind sings to me and tells tales.
When you feel the sun on your back, what do you think?
In my eyes,
The sun reaches out and gives me a warm smile.
When you hear a flowing stream, how does it sound?
In my eyes,
The stream is floating in my heart and soul, drifting on and on.
When you look at me, what do you see?
In my eyes,
I see an average girl who is silently struggling inside.
But that's all in my eyes.
Its too dark
Too dark to see what is going on
Tripping over the couch
Slamming into the wall
stepping on the remote
It was too dark
The undone dishes
The scattered roses
The broken picture
My broken heart
It was too dark
Believing it would change
That he would change
A Waste
A waste of my time
My Effort
The “No Messages” left on my phone
It was too dark
It was too dark to see what had happened
Too dark to try to fix things
Its just too dark
Someone turn on the light
That light bulb in my head of what Ive done wrong
Its too dark
Too dark to see what is going on
Tripping over the couch
Slamming into the wall
stepping on the remote
It was too dark
The undone dishes
The scattered roses
The broken picture
My broken heart
It was too dark
Believing it would change
That he would change
A Waste
A waste of my time
My Effort
The “No Messages” left on my phone
It was too dark
It was too dark to see what had happened
Too dark to try to fix things
Its just too dark
Someone turn on the light
That light bulb in my head of what Ive done wrong
Its too dark