"I think he knows."I told my Uncle Emmett...He knew I wasn't a virgin because he caught us having sex once.
"He was gonna have to find out one day or another."He told me, we pulled up in my driveway. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and got out.
I walked into the kitchen where my parents were waiting for me. I looked at my dad and could feel the guilt wash over me.
"I'm sorry."I said to him, my head down.He came over to me and wrapped his arms around me.I started to cry, not because of saying sorry, but what it meant....I'm sorry for losing my virginity to someone who treated me like his doormat.
I got up and got ready for school. Ryan was coming to pick me up since my car wouldn't be out the shop till tomorrow. I heard his horn beep and I ran outside.
I got into his car and he smiled at me and I smiled back. We rode in silence until we pulled up to another house.
"Where are we?"I asked him. He smiled at me.
"At my girlfriends, Gia's house."He said. A girl with blonde hair and green eyes came running towards the car, but stopped short when she saw me in the passenger seat.She smiled at me and I smiled back as best I could.
All day, I thought about Ryan and his girlfriend, how she wasn't me..I was sad but happy because he's happy.I wonder if he knows how I feel for him.I needed to leave, go somewhere where I can concentrate.
We where eating dinner..I needed to tell them now...or it would never happen.
"Mom, Dad....I want to go to boarding school."I told them. They both looked up at me.
"Why?"The both asked in unison. I shrugged my shoulders.
"It's just something I feel like I need to do."I said to them.They shook their head ok..and called the Dean of a private school not to far from here.
I was at the airport with Ryan,He was trying so hard not to cry.
"I'll come visit you...and we can talk or Skype each other...I'm gonna miss you."He said.I nodded, a tear coming down my cheek.He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me on the cheek.
"I love you."I told him and let go, walking towards my gate.
It's been three weeks since I left..Boarding school is okay, but too many guys are douche bags,I don't talk to Ryan everyday because of Gia...I hate her,she took him away from me. Today would be the first day I have been home. I haven't told my anyone about the tattoo I got...It is stars and swirls wrapping around the side and leads to a lily.
I opened the door to my house, it was like I never left...my parents don't know I'm back. I walk into the living room to find them sleep. I walk over to them and gently nudged them,They didn't move so I took my things upstairs,left my parents a note and left, going to surprise Ryan.
I knocked on the door, no body answered.The wind blew and the door opened slightly.I walked in and looked around on the first floor, no one was there,so I walked upstairs and opened Ryan's door.
What I saw made me gasp,I never wanted to vomit so badly. Ryan was on top of Gia's half naked body.They turned and looked at me. I looked at Ryan who was looking at me with shock written over his face.
I turned around quickly, running down the steps and out into the pouring rain. I let the tears come down. I started to run and couldn't stop running. I felt someone grab me by the arms and pull me into their chest, I just stood their letting the sobs come. I looked up and saw my father's face. He looked somewhat angry, knowing that someone or something upset me.
"Shhh,it's okay Kameron, everything is okay."He told me. I wanted to believe him, but everything was not okay.Everything was ruined the boy I loved was in Love with someone else.
"He was gonna have to find out one day or another."He told me, we pulled up in my driveway. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and got out.
I walked into the kitchen where my parents were waiting for me. I looked at my dad and could feel the guilt wash over me.
"I'm sorry."I said to him, my head down.He came over to me and wrapped his arms around me.I started to cry, not because of saying sorry, but what it meant....I'm sorry for losing my virginity to someone who treated me like his doormat.
I got up and got ready for school. Ryan was coming to pick me up since my car wouldn't be out the shop till tomorrow. I heard his horn beep and I ran outside.
I got into his car and he smiled at me and I smiled back. We rode in silence until we pulled up to another house.
"Where are we?"I asked him. He smiled at me.
"At my girlfriends, Gia's house."He said. A girl with blonde hair and green eyes came running towards the car, but stopped short when she saw me in the passenger seat.She smiled at me and I smiled back as best I could.
All day, I thought about Ryan and his girlfriend, how she wasn't me..I was sad but happy because he's happy.I wonder if he knows how I feel for him.I needed to leave, go somewhere where I can concentrate.
We where eating dinner..I needed to tell them now...or it would never happen.
"Mom, Dad....I want to go to boarding school."I told them. They both looked up at me.
"Why?"The both asked in unison. I shrugged my shoulders.
"It's just something I feel like I need to do."I said to them.They shook their head ok..and called the Dean of a private school not to far from here.
I was at the airport with Ryan,He was trying so hard not to cry.
"I'll come visit you...and we can talk or Skype each other...I'm gonna miss you."He said.I nodded, a tear coming down my cheek.He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me on the cheek.
"I love you."I told him and let go, walking towards my gate.
It's been three weeks since I left..Boarding school is okay, but too many guys are douche bags,I don't talk to Ryan everyday because of Gia...I hate her,she took him away from me. Today would be the first day I have been home. I haven't told my anyone about the tattoo I got...It is stars and swirls wrapping around the side and leads to a lily.
I opened the door to my house, it was like I never left...my parents don't know I'm back. I walk into the living room to find them sleep. I walk over to them and gently nudged them,They didn't move so I took my things upstairs,left my parents a note and left, going to surprise Ryan.
I knocked on the door, no body answered.The wind blew and the door opened slightly.I walked in and looked around on the first floor, no one was there,so I walked upstairs and opened Ryan's door.
What I saw made me gasp,I never wanted to vomit so badly. Ryan was on top of Gia's half naked body.They turned and looked at me. I looked at Ryan who was looking at me with shock written over his face.
I turned around quickly, running down the steps and out into the pouring rain. I let the tears come down. I started to run and couldn't stop running. I felt someone grab me by the arms and pull me into their chest, I just stood their letting the sobs come. I looked up and saw my father's face. He looked somewhat angry, knowing that someone or something upset me.
"Shhh,it's okay Kameron, everything is okay."He told me. I wanted to believe him, but everything was not okay.Everything was ruined the boy I loved was in Love with someone else.
hey twi-fans, after seeing New Moon in theaters we all want 2 see it again right? well now there is a release date for the New Moon DVD: March 24, 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the prediction date not an official one, it is positive that it will be released early 2010. it is said that it may be early cuz of the demand!!!!!!! right now some sites have New Moon available for pre-order!!!! so as of today-November 26, 2009-we have 119 days till New Moon is on DVD!!! oh and 217 days till Eclipse is in theaters!!!!
Preface
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the heart which will stop beating soon, the heart which was the reason for me to live, the heart which she had given to me to keep safe just like how I had given her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the heart which will stop beating soon, the heart which was the reason for me to live, the heart which she had given to me to keep safe just like how I had given her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
Okay so I was just looking through my pictures, and I found this:
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what you think- does it help at all??
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what you think- does it help at all??
Okay so here's a little game that I found. Just like the real bingo, but for when you say one of the comments -and you've probably said one of the comments more then once lol.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure you can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so popular if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my friends just don't understand lol). How many do you think you can fill, comment below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what you think please.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure you can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so popular if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my friends just don't understand lol). How many do you think you can fill, comment below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what you think please.
So these are, by far, my favorite quotes from the first 3 books. (I haven't read breaking dawn yet :P)
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I love you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I love you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD