"I think he knows."I told my Uncle Emmett...He knew I wasn't a virgin because he caught us having sex once.
"He was gonna have to find out one day or another."He told me, we pulled up in my driveway. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and got out.
I walked into the kitchen where my parents were waiting for me. I looked at my dad and could feel the guilt wash over me.
"I'm sorry."I said to him, my head down.He came over to me and wrapped his arms around me.I started to cry, not because of saying sorry, but what it meant....I'm sorry for losing my virginity to someone who treated me like his doormat.

I got up and got ready for school. Ryan was coming to pick me up since my car wouldn't be out the shop till tomorrow. I heard his horn beep and I ran outside.

I got into his car and he smiled at me and I smiled back. We rode in silence until we pulled up to another house.
"Where are we?"I asked him. He smiled at me.
"At my girlfriends, Gia's house."He said. A girl with blonde hair and green eyes came running towards the car, but stopped short when she saw me in the passenger seat.She smiled at me and I smiled back as best I could.

All day, I thought about Ryan and his girlfriend, how she wasn't me..I was sad but happy because he's happy.I wonder if he knows how I feel for him.I needed to leave, go somewhere where I can concentrate.

We where eating dinner..I needed to tell them now...or it would never happen.
"Mom, Dad....I want to go to boarding school."I told them. They both looked up at me.
"Why?"The both asked in unison. I shrugged my shoulders.
"It's just something I feel like I need to do."I said to them.They shook their head ok..and called the Dean of a private school not to far from here.

I was at the airport with Ryan,He was trying so hard not to cry.
"I'll come visit you...and we can talk or Skype each other...I'm gonna miss you."He said.I nodded, a tear coming down my cheek.He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me on the cheek.
"I love you."I told him and let go, walking towards my gate.


It's been three weeks since I left..Boarding school is okay, but too many guys are douche bags,I don't talk to Ryan everyday because of Gia...I hate her,she took him away from me. Today would be the first day I have been home. I haven't told my anyone about the tattoo I got...It is stars and swirls wrapping around the side and leads to a lily.

I opened the door to my house, it was like I never left...my parents don't know I'm back. I walk into the living room to find them sleep. I walk over to them and gently nudged them,They didn't move so I took my things upstairs,left my parents a note and left, going to surprise Ryan.

I knocked on the door, no body answered.The wind blew and the door opened slightly.I walked in and looked around on the first floor, no one was there,so I walked upstairs and opened Ryan's door.

What I saw made me gasp,I never wanted to vomit so badly. Ryan was on top of Gia's half naked body.They turned and looked at me. I looked at Ryan who was looking at me with shock written over his face.
I turned around quickly, running down the steps and out into the pouring rain. I let the tears come down. I started to run and couldn't stop running. I felt someone grab me by the arms and pull me into their chest, I just stood their letting the sobs come. I looked up and saw my father's face. He looked somewhat angry, knowing that someone or something upset me.
"Shhh,it's okay Kameron, everything is okay."He told me. I wanted to believe him, but everything was not okay.Everything was ruined the boy I loved was in Love with someone else.