Chapter 4: Waking Up
“Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget”
But not really. Bella is never truly awake, she continues to be in the same lifeless downward spiral and who can blame her? Her very core of existance has abandoned her. “It will be as if I never exisited.” *Shudders the thought*
Key points in this chapter for me were:
I love how Jessica treated Bella after the whole “man on the street” incident, did Bella really think Jessica would buy that line that she may have known that guy?
And out of all the characters Jessica annoyed me the most, but she really saved this chapter for me. To me she really was a stand up gal for even putting up with someone who basically ignored her for months.
Then there’s the bedroom scene. Bella returns home from the movie with Jessica, runs up to her room and Stephenie Meyer does an excellent job of illustrating the pain & sorrow Bella is feeling, through words. “I lay in my bed a few minutes later, resigned as the pain finally made its appearance. It was a crippling thing, this sensation that a huge hole had been punched through my chest, excising my most vital organs and leaving ragged unhealed gashes around the edges that continued to throb and bleed despite the passage of time. And yet I found I could survive. I was alert, I felt the pain-the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head-but it was manageable. I could live through it. Whatever it was that had happened tonight-and whether it was zombies, the adrenaline, or the hallucinations that were responsible- it had woken me up.”
What gets me the most is that it’s like a couple hundred of pages before we even see the name Edward in print. This book makes me an emotional mess, but I warned you all, I will not be bubbly during New Moon, well not until Chapter 17 at least…
I truly look forward to reading your comments on this depressing chapter.
JUST 21 more days and 20 chapters to go till NEW MOON!!!!!!!! :)
