nessie's pov

noah wasn't here ........
pain in my heart was horrible
how many days have i been in our room crying ???
but now i was so hungry i needed to eat noah wouldn't like that i starve myself...
i went downstairs everybody had a pain look in there faces
jake had come the 30 day but he went back to la push he has extremley surprized when he found me crying so hard , he thought it was just a crush with noah ....
i went to the kitchen i eat everything from the frige and the donated blood they had
"honey i know it's hard but you'll see things will get better" my granma said hugging me

but i fetl so dizzy and sick i push her i ignore her hurt face and run to the sink and throw up

my dad and mom where with me in a flash
after i finish throwing up

"angel whats wrong" my dad ask appresive
"i don't know "i said
maybe am too sad i thought i didn't say it so i wouldn't worry mom

my dad nodded but said

"i don't think that is nessie mmaybe carilse should check you"

ok i thought i didn't had the energy to say it i miss my noah

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after grampa run all his studies
it was funny to me i throw up once and they get all worry but well i had never throe up in my life

carlisle said
"nessie i think , well in know you are pregnant"

my dad and mom gasp

i touch my stomach i was having a baby of noah my heart filled with joy ....

but then jake step into the house he run to hug me
"o babe i was so worried im glad you are ok now "

o shit jacob and my baby was of noah but noah wasn't here i miss him how could i tell him but jake he is going to be so hurt what was i going to do

but although i had to resolve all this problems my heart felt such a warm that make the problems small ,insignificant

but i still miss noah will he ever know he will be a father????