I had nothing else to say to him. I didn't speak unless he ask something and when he did I pretended like I didn't hear it. I ended up falling asleep again and when I woke up I heard a pow and felt my shoulder that had been shot tiwce now. Then I looked up at him. I saw him have the gun to his head.
No don't do it I said.
Why? I hurt you I should hurt myslef. He saaid.
No you shouldn't please don't I told him.
I was breathing really heavy and I was trying to get words out and I couldn't.
Please dont do this. I said.
You will regret it I told him.
No, I'm gonna do it. He said.
Then I watched as he pulled the triger, I started bawling when he fell to the ground. I couldn't help it, I should have stopped him. I could have done something. I pick up my phone off the floor and called Police Gray.
He's dead. I said.
Okay. he told me.
Before I knew it Policemen and even swat stormed in with there guns pointed. I started crying even harder. Once the Ambulance people got me onto a strechter I started getting so sleepy and I feel asleep before they even loeaded me into the amblance.
We I woke up I was at the hospital and all of the Cullens were there and even Cody was there. Once I saw everyone I just broke down and started crying. They knew what I was crying about even if they couldn't read my mind. Once I stopped crying we started talking like everything was normal and I was happy I didn't want to talke about it. That was in the past and I didn't want to go back and visit it.
I stayed 4 days in the hospital and then I went back home. It was great being back home I was finally getting some rest but not goos enough because I kept having night mares of that horribly night over and over every night and it was drivig me crazy. I finally stopped having the night mares when one of the cullens or Cody was with. Once I finally started getting good sleep I was sleeping all the time, and man was it great. My shoulder was bandage and in a sling for the time being. I didn't know when I could take it out of the sling or bandage but I knew the time would come.
Cody and I went back to school a week later and I got a lot of weird looks and people that I didn't know ask me How are you, and I would just reply fine. It was weird. I finally went back to see all of my swim friends and they all gave me hugs while they were wet. I didn't relize how much I missed them till I saw them.
No don't do it I said.
Why? I hurt you I should hurt myslef. He saaid.
No you shouldn't please don't I told him.
I was breathing really heavy and I was trying to get words out and I couldn't.
Please dont do this. I said.
You will regret it I told him.
No, I'm gonna do it. He said.
Then I watched as he pulled the triger, I started bawling when he fell to the ground. I couldn't help it, I should have stopped him. I could have done something. I pick up my phone off the floor and called Police Gray.
He's dead. I said.
Okay. he told me.
Before I knew it Policemen and even swat stormed in with there guns pointed. I started crying even harder. Once the Ambulance people got me onto a strechter I started getting so sleepy and I feel asleep before they even loeaded me into the amblance.
We I woke up I was at the hospital and all of the Cullens were there and even Cody was there. Once I saw everyone I just broke down and started crying. They knew what I was crying about even if they couldn't read my mind. Once I stopped crying we started talking like everything was normal and I was happy I didn't want to talke about it. That was in the past and I didn't want to go back and visit it.
I stayed 4 days in the hospital and then I went back home. It was great being back home I was finally getting some rest but not goos enough because I kept having night mares of that horribly night over and over every night and it was drivig me crazy. I finally stopped having the night mares when one of the cullens or Cody was with. Once I finally started getting good sleep I was sleeping all the time, and man was it great. My shoulder was bandage and in a sling for the time being. I didn't know when I could take it out of the sling or bandage but I knew the time would come.
Cody and I went back to school a week later and I got a lot of weird looks and people that I didn't know ask me How are you, and I would just reply fine. It was weird. I finally went back to see all of my swim friends and they all gave me hugs while they were wet. I didn't relize how much I missed them till I saw them.
hey twi-fans, after seeing New Moon in theaters we all want 2 see it again right? well now there is a release date for the New Moon DVD: March 24, 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the prediction date not an official one, it is positive that it will be released early 2010. it is said that it may be early cuz of the demand!!!!!!! right now some sites have New Moon available for pre-order!!!! so as of today-November 26, 2009-we have 119 days till New Moon is on DVD!!! oh and 217 days till Eclipse is in theaters!!!!
Preface
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the heart which will stop beating soon, the heart which was the reason for me to live, the heart which she had given to me to keep safe just like how I had given her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the heart which will stop beating soon, the heart which was the reason for me to live, the heart which she had given to me to keep safe just like how I had given her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
Okay so I was just looking through my pictures, and I found this:
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what you think- does it help at all??
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what you think- does it help at all??
Okay so here's a little game that I found. Just like the real bingo, but for when you say one of the comments -and you've probably said one of the comments more then once lol.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure you can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so popular if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my friends just don't understand lol). How many do you think you can fill, comment below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what you think please.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure you can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so popular if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my friends just don't understand lol). How many do you think you can fill, comment below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what you think please.
So these are, by far, my favorite quotes from the first 3 books. (I haven't read breaking dawn yet :P)
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I love you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I love you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD