Prologue
We all have that shy kid in class who keeps to themselves and doesn't utter a word. They never raise their hand to answer a question and they need try to socialize with others. Well, one day you might decide to go up to that shy kid and start a conversation. You immediately ask them their name, how old they are, and what is their interest. That shy kid isn't participating. They answer your question in one word and never show emotion. You feel uncomfortable so you leave. You leave the shy kid by themselves and you go and talk to your band of friends.
Half way through the school year, you try again to talk to the shy kid who still hasn't made any attempt to socialize with anyone. And again, that shy stays shy and doesn't say a word. You, again, run off to your friends to get away from the uncomfortable shy kid.
Maybe one day you are walking down the street to go to your house. You happen to look to your right nod happen to see someone who looks similar to the shy kid in your class. It can't be them. The person you see across the street is arguing with someone and screaming. You quickly go about your business, ignoring the screaming, anger, kid over there.
Finally it is the last day of school. You go around asking and laughing with the other students. Yu at enjoying yourself and everyone is having a wonderful time. Your mind intently goes back to the shy kid. Where is the kid? You ask some o your friends but they haven't seen the kid. They don't even notice the kid. You ask anyone and everyone. The teacher informs I you that the shy kid had died of an unknown cause yesterday. You feel horrible. You remember that day where you saw someone that looked similar to the shy kid. You think that maybe you could have prevented their death. That guilt hangs over your head a couple of minutes before one of your friends suck you into a conversation.
A lot of things happen for a certain reason. Things that you can't explain. Just because you can't explain it, doesn't mean that the cause doesn't exist. Things about those words for a few minutes. Ponder strange cases where you didn't understand it. Think. Think until your brain becomes numb. You can't think of a cause because everything isn't determined by thinking. Sometimes you have to causally go out and see for yourself. Then again, that isn't sometimes the best thing to do
We all have that shy kid in class who keeps to themselves and doesn't utter a word. They never raise their hand to answer a question and they need try to socialize with others. Well, one day you might decide to go up to that shy kid and start a conversation. You immediately ask them their name, how old they are, and what is their interest. That shy kid isn't participating. They answer your question in one word and never show emotion. You feel uncomfortable so you leave. You leave the shy kid by themselves and you go and talk to your band of friends.
Half way through the school year, you try again to talk to the shy kid who still hasn't made any attempt to socialize with anyone. And again, that shy stays shy and doesn't say a word. You, again, run off to your friends to get away from the uncomfortable shy kid.
Maybe one day you are walking down the street to go to your house. You happen to look to your right nod happen to see someone who looks similar to the shy kid in your class. It can't be them. The person you see across the street is arguing with someone and screaming. You quickly go about your business, ignoring the screaming, anger, kid over there.
Finally it is the last day of school. You go around asking and laughing with the other students. Yu at enjoying yourself and everyone is having a wonderful time. Your mind intently goes back to the shy kid. Where is the kid? You ask some o your friends but they haven't seen the kid. They don't even notice the kid. You ask anyone and everyone. The teacher informs I you that the shy kid had died of an unknown cause yesterday. You feel horrible. You remember that day where you saw someone that looked similar to the shy kid. You think that maybe you could have prevented their death. That guilt hangs over your head a couple of minutes before one of your friends suck you into a conversation.
A lot of things happen for a certain reason. Things that you can't explain. Just because you can't explain it, doesn't mean that the cause doesn't exist. Things about those words for a few minutes. Ponder strange cases where you didn't understand it. Think. Think until your brain becomes numb. You can't think of a cause because everything isn't determined by thinking. Sometimes you have to causally go out and see for yourself. Then again, that isn't sometimes the best thing to do
This is a poem I came up with
The pain is far greater
the pain is almost blinding
you said you'd always love me
a rope of love wrapped around me, a binding
But now I know the truth
You're nothing but a fake
you took my heart and played with it
and now my heart does nothing but ache
I wish to hear your voice again
I wish you had never hurt me
for now I can't even look at you
without having to turn and flee
This pain has gotten worse
I can't stand it much longer
but if I take a blade....
I can take the pain you gave me and make a different pain stronger.
The pain is far greater
the pain is almost blinding
you said you'd always love me
a rope of love wrapped around me, a binding
But now I know the truth
You're nothing but a fake
you took my heart and played with it
and now my heart does nothing but ache
I wish to hear your voice again
I wish you had never hurt me
for now I can't even look at you
without having to turn and flee
This pain has gotten worse
I can't stand it much longer
but if I take a blade....
I can take the pain you gave me and make a different pain stronger.