long ago, when i was 3, me and mother went into the store. it's my earliest memory, going into that store. mother said "u can pick one toy. u've been really good this past year. u didn't complain and u didn't cry." i should explain. that past year they didn't have any money 4 any christmas gifts or...any gifts at all. father has spent it all away on stupid shit. mother just got some money and we'd gone 2 the store. i didn't expect her 2 say anything. i didn't cry or complain when i didn't get anything. i didn't think we'd gone 2 the store 4 me....i thought we were just getting stuff....but i slowly walk away, drawn 2 the toys. i walk past all the other bears, drawn 2 one. an Emo Care Bear...something most kids hated. that's y they only made them 4 one day and stopped....trying 2 get rid of the ones they had. most kids feared it.....but i'm not most kids....and i grabbed one without hesitating. i ran 2 mom and she looks at me* "did u look at everything?" i nod, lying. i didn't need 2, i knew this was what i wanted. she smiles and pays 4 it and, as soon as we leave, i open up the box and hug it* "what'll u call her?" mom asks. hmmm....that i didn't think of...
"Fluffuls!" i declare, grinning. she messes up my hair and smiles
"good name" she replies, and we walk home. she makes her a jacket and boots when we get back and i've never forgotten anything about the story since it happened.
"Fluffuls!" i declare, grinning. she messes up my hair and smiles
"good name" she replies, and we walk home. she makes her a jacket and boots when we get back and i've never forgotten anything about the story since it happened.
I believe in the power of love
the influence of music
the fact that words can't hurt you
the evil we all poses
the fact that some things won't stop, even if they should;
war, fighting, killing
but the fantasy that love always will come isn't true.
I believe in the strength of hate
I believe in the light at the end
I believe in a life after death
Memories, flowers, smiles
and I believe in the fact that no one can set you free...they can only help
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the headstone says
the fresh flowers bloom
the still and silence
lose and loneliness
words on my tongue
"another soldier is gone forever"
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nothingness
fear in the air
screams of lost souls, wings always beating
heat of the flames melting me
the hate and bitter loneliness
I'm in Hell
the influence of music
the fact that words can't hurt you
the evil we all poses
the fact that some things won't stop, even if they should;
war, fighting, killing
but the fantasy that love always will come isn't true.
I believe in the strength of hate
I believe in the light at the end
I believe in a life after death
Memories, flowers, smiles
and I believe in the fact that no one can set you free...they can only help
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
the headstone says
the fresh flowers bloom
the still and silence
lose and loneliness
words on my tongue
"another soldier is gone forever"
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nothingness
fear in the air
screams of lost souls, wings always beating
heat of the flames melting me
the hate and bitter loneliness
I'm in Hell