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posted by zutaradragon
long ago, when i was 3, me and mother went into the store. it's my earliest memory, going into that store. mother said "u can pick one toy. u've been really good this past year. u didn't complain and u didn't cry." i should explain. that past year they didn't have any money 4 any christmas gifts or...any gifts at all. father has spent it all away on stupid shit. mother just got some money and we'd gone 2 the store. i didn't expect her 2 say anything. i didn't cry or complain when i didn't get anything. i didn't think we'd gone 2 the store 4 me....i thought we were just getting stuff....but i slowly walk away, drawn 2 the toys. i walk past all the other bears, drawn 2 one. an Emo Care Bear...something most kids hated. that's y they only made them 4 one day and stopped....trying 2 get rid of the ones they had. most kids feared it.....but i'm not most kids....and i grabbed one without hesitating. i ran 2 mom and she looks at me* "did u look at everything?" i nod, lying. i didn't need 2, i knew this was what i wanted. she smiles and pays 4 it and, as soon as we leave, i open up the box and hug it* "what'll u call her?" mom asks. hmmm....that i didn't think of...
"Fluffuls!" i declare, grinning. she messes up my hair and smiles
"good name" she replies, and we walk home. she makes her a jacket and boots when we get back and i've never forgotten anything about the story since it happened.
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4 Ravana and Sam while we look after them, and 4ever 4 Celia and Ben
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ok, so sinse i don't have all of them up on the list on the rp forum on the Ghost Rider RP spot i figure a list in in order. this list is growing as new animals show up needing help. this is my list as of now. this doesn't include the many fish and bugs i also have. (beings as i have a whole room made into an aquarium and another whole room for bugs i didn't feel like figuring names 4 all of them as well)

Cats:
Nefrew~means beauty. she's a silver Egyptian mau with a small chain collar that has the Eye of Osiris on it.
Abi~means To Desire. a bronze Egyptian Mau with a small chain that has the Eye...
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i am lonely and sad...
i wonder how no one notices or sees the tears
i hear open mouths and...
i see open hands
i want to help them, but can't because
i am lonely and sad.

i pretend not to care but...
i feel the pain, whether you know it or not.
i've touched the flame, and...
i fear i have burned, but...
i cry...whether you care to notice or not.
i am lonely and sad

i understand you don't care about me...
i say i don't care about what you say but...
i dream of the day the line is true.
i try to make you understand and
i hope you will but...until then...
i am lonely and sad

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what if I...
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~The Gun~
we all have one...
if it slips, you're done.
some carry it deep within.
for some, it's just beneath the skin.
we all own one,
let it slip, you're done.
sound like fun?
then just shun...
everyone.
you'll see the result...
it's always the same.
it will always end...
with a bang!

~Truth~
before the lie seeps in,
truth is soon at it's fin.
the lies bury the truth deep.
and the truth...doesn't always seep...

~When You Left~
the day was long and dreary
you have left me weary
my eyes are often teary
so let me say one last thing...
i take back everything I've said

~Nightmare~
my dream
fear that i fight
a nightmare

~Love...
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I believe in the power of love
the influence of music
the fact that words can't hurt you
the evil we all poses
the fact that some things won't stop, even if they should;
war, fighting, killing

but the fantasy that love always will come isn't true.

I believe in the strength of hate
I believe in the light at the end
I believe in a life after death
Memories, flowers, smiles

and I believe in the fact that no one can set you free...they can only help

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the headstone says
the fresh flowers bloom
the still and silence
lose and loneliness
words on my tongue
"another soldier is gone forever"

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nothingness
fear in the air
screams of lost souls, wings always beating
heat of the flames melting me
the hate and bitter loneliness
I'm in Hell