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posted by zutaradragon

Don't put your life in someone's hands
they're bound to steal it away
no matter how I try, it always remains the same
it cuts like a knife
when you tell me get a life
for I real I will never find love

is it possible for true love
the power's in your hands
you must live your own life
before it's all thrown away
before it's cut away with a knife
everything stays the same

since everything's the same
perhaps there is no love
the hearts have been slashed with the knife
and mine lies in my hands
so no one can take it away
and so I control my life

Since I control my own life
I refuse to be the same
I won't be swept away...

Fluffuls and her story

posted by zutaradragon

long ago, when i was 3, me and mother went into the store. it's my earliest memory, going into that store. mother said "u can pick one toy. u've been really good this past year. u didn't complain and u didn't cry." i should explain. that past year they didn't have any money 4 any christmas gifts or...any gifts at all. father has spent it all away on stupid shit. mother just got some money and we'd gone 2 the store. i didn't expect her 2 say anything. i didn't cry or complain when i didn't get anything. i didn't think we'd gone 2 the store 4 me....i thought we were just getting stuff....but...

I Don't Understand/Just Because...

posted by zutaradragon

I don't understand...
    why I hate
    why I lie
    why I trust
    why I try
    why I cry
But most of all...
    why we fight
    why kill
    why we hate
What I understand most is...
    why I stay by myself
    why I can no longer feel
    why I'm now numb to what happens
    why I won't show my pain
    why I can't not write

Just Because I lie...
    doesn't mean I don't cry
    don't think I don't try
    still count me as here
Just because I lie...
    I still try
    I don't even know I do it
    I still wanna be here
Just because I lie...
    I can still trust
    I still have a heart
    I still have dreams
Just because I lie~don't think I do it on purpose, don't think I haven't tried to stop.

SBS ultimate soundtrack

posted by zutaradragon

ok, so these r, quite simply, the songs that sound like my life. i'm putting the name of the band/singer, then a list of songs underneath it. more may b added l8er, this is just what i thought of in one sitting. this is also not going 2 have and SussieXBlackheart songs cuz this is a soundtrack 4 the past, not the future.

2Pac (or on a 2Pac cd):
wake me when I am free, when your heart turns cold, can u c the pride in the panthers? if there be pain, a river that flows forever, the rose that grew through concrete, in the event of my demise, sometimes i cry, lady liberty needs glasses, family tree,...

Kem's story

posted by zutaradragon

i guess u could say tht i once was a good boy. mostly because i was beat into being good. i used 2 give a fuck, now i give a fuck less. i was given the death penalty because they finally caught me...i should explain.

u c, my parents...me and Meshrew's....well, meshrew was the prince and got everything. he was pampered and they told him he was gonna b great and....what didn't help....he was. at everything. being number 2 sucks once in a while, being in constant second place...will put u in a state of rage which most will never know because they're good at sometime. since i was useless compaired...

Dear Agony

posted by zutaradragon

I know you won't let go of me
You're my greatest faceless enemy
Though all you do is hurt me
I guess misery loves company...
And you won't let me leave you lonely....
Though sometimes you speak so soothingly....
I almost don't want you to leave me....
I'll suffer very slowly....
Because you know just what to say to me.....
To keep me here, knowingly.
Because this is just the way it must be.

I have no choice
Because your voice...
It keeps me here...
So I can not fear.
The most difficult thing...
Is the ring ring in my ear...
Telling me to let go
That I don't belong here...
But I feel instantly drawn
To the bloody...

Short Poems

posted by zutaradragon

~Life After Death?~
is it possible to live after death?
I guess so...
memories never truly die
but will anyone remember...
such an insignificant speck?

~Anyone Care?~
Does anyone care?
Truthfully...
probably not
even if they say they do...
people don't always...
mean what they say

~Love Struck~
Love
Adoring, smiling, electric
my heart
quickly
fell
to the floor

~Black~
Makes me think of night
with no stars, no moon in sight
in the emptiness of space

~Hate~
Boiling, Jumping, Pounding
restless in the heart
of me

SussieXBlackheart Soundtrack

posted by zutaradragon

i hope this idea doesn't back fire. *looks around* better do this while they aren't looking...if u didn't know, i'm Grace. i've desided 2 make a soundtrack 4 them from the start 2 now...

~Begining~
*NSYNC~I Thought She Knew, I'll Be Good For You, That Girl, Something Like You, Somewhere Someday, Falling, You Don't Have To Be Alone, I Drive Myself Crazy
BackStreet Boys~Shape Of My Heart, More Then That
98 Degrees~Invisable Man, Was It Something I Didn't say? I Wanna Love you, If She only Knew, Take my Breath Away, The Love You've Been Lookin' For, I Wanna Love You, Fly With Me
2Pac~What Of A Love...

my room

posted by zutaradragon

my chandelier

my room looks exactly like the 7th chamber in the Edger Allan Poe story Masque of the Red Death. for those of u who haven't read the story i recommend it, but here's the parts that describe it.

"...a tall and narrow Gothic window looked out upon a closed corridor which pursued the windings of the suite. ...The seventh apartment was closely shrouded in black velvet tapestries that hung all over the ceiling and down the walls, falling in heavy folds upon a carpet of the same material and hue. But in this chamber only, the color of the windows failed to correspond with the decorations. The panes...

Hope Uncharted

posted by zutaradragon

hope, for me, is a place uncharted
and extremely over grown.
the world, it has chilled me,
frozen my very soul.

my little hope bird, it is gone
forbidden and forewarned.
all my faith and trust,
it flew away in the storm.

the fire, it can not warm me,
i do not feel the cold,
the sun doesn't shine,
my heart is numb.

and this is why,
my hope bird has died.
because the world has chilled me,
my heart can not ache,
nor can it brake.

the lie of a life
I'm suppose to live,
but, no one can give
an explanation.
so i ask, Why?

why do we need
to belong in a group?
why can't i be me?

so this is why
hope for me is a place uncharted,
and my hope bird is gone.
i hope you understand...

Short Poems

posted by zutaradragon

~Dreamer~
i used to be a dreamer.
but i noticed something...
all the dreamers end up...
with a broken heart.

~Happiness~
Happiness
Brightness, grin, smile
it's something...i haven't felt in a while.

~Honesty~
Honest
true, truthful, truth
honesty is hard to find, you gotta be a sleuth.

~True Love~
if you can feel it with your heart
if you can see it with your eyes
if you feel it every night
if you settle every fight
if you always see a light
if you can ever find it...

~Love Circle~
Summer, like, love
like, love, hold hands
love, hold hands, hug
hold hands, hug, kiss
hug, kiss, smile
kiss, smile, over
smile, over, left...

Short Poems

posted by zutaradragon

~When Love Comes~
when love comes
i shall watch.
when it leaves,
i shall follow.
and it shall turn back
and it will push me down.
so i'll get up,
and i'll dust off my clothes.
i'll continue to follow...
until it eventually stays with me,
or until the day that i die.

~Light~
before the darkness creeps in,
then...the light is is fin.
when the light is low,
darkness is undertow.
watch, as it creeps in slow,
like a most feared foe.

~Tempt me~
tempt me,
push me.
hate me,
love me.
kick me when I'm down,
then give me the crown.
it's amazing how many people care...
after you're gone.

~The Day That I Die~
the best day of my life...

Red Sky

posted by zutaradragon

(Chours)
red sky when u say goodbye
red sky makes me cry forever
red sky when i feel the pain
red sky makes me see...no...end
red sky when u say goodbye
red sky seems 2 last forever
red sky when u feel no pain
red sky when u said...the...end

i can't help this conection i feel
i thought u felt it 2
i guess i let my heart get the best of me
i guess i was wrong...
when i believed it when u said u felt it 2
u said it'd last forever
but forever's come and gone.
i guess it has an end i didn't know about...
but my pain will last forever because...

(Chours)

i thought u said u loved me...
with every single kiss...
i thought we came closer
a happiness and bliss.
but then u went away
u left me standing in the rain
tear that never dry
everyday i'll cry
maybe u can follow the river back
it's a pain that just won't ever....see...an....end

(Chours X2)

Prophecy of the Blood Flower

posted by zutaradragon

I've always thought this was nothing but a story...but the older I get, the more I believe. There's an ancient story....that's more then a story for me. A story from my village...passed from our ancestors. Our village was all descendents of Egypt, even though we lived in the middle of no-where here in the US. I know what you're thinking.... “You're way to pale to be descended from Africa!” but there's much more to it then that. I'll let you read the ancient scrolls....which survive in my hidden library....and perhaps Kem and Meshrew would remember the story....though I doubt it, with how...

Top Songs not found on my Soundtrack

posted by zutaradragon

ALL Disturbed and Breaking Benjamin

3 Doors Down:
It's Not My Time, These Days, She Don't Want The World, Runnig Out of Days, Better Life, Down Poison

Aqua:
Cartoon Heros, Around The World, An Apple A Day, Halloween, Back From Mars, Goodbye To The Circus, Aquarius, Cuba Libre, Bumble Bees, Back To The 80's, Doctor Jones, Lollipop (Candyman) Be A Man, My Oh My, Roses Are Red

Backstreet Boys:
The Call, Shape Of My Heart, Get Another Boyfriend, I Promise You, More Then That, Time, It's True, Yes I Will

Black Eyed Peas:
Boom Boom Pow, Rock That Body, Imma Be, I Gotta Feeling, Party All The Time

Cascada:...

all my pets.

posted by zutaradragon

ok, so sinse i don't have all of them up on the list on the rp forum on the Ghost Rider RP spot i figure a list in in order. this list is growing as new animals show up needing help. this is my list as of now. this doesn't include the many fish and bugs i also have. (beings as i have a whole room made into an aquarium and another whole room for bugs i didn't feel like figuring names 4 all of them as well)

Cats:
Nefrew~means beauty. she's a silver Egyptian mau with a small chain collar that has the Eye of Osiris on it.
Abi~means To Desire. a bronze Egyptian Mau with a small chain that has the Eye...

I Am.../If In Life

posted by zutaradragon

i am lonely and sad...
i wonder how no one notices or sees the tears
i hear open mouths and...
i see open hands
i want to help them, but can't because
i am lonely and sad.

i pretend not to care but...
i feel the pain, whether you know it or not.
i've touched the flame, and...
i fear i have burned, but...
i cry...whether you care to notice or not.
i am lonely and sad

i understand you don't care about me...
i say i don't care about what you say but...
i dream of the day the line is true.
i try to make you understand and
i hope you will but...until then...
i am lonely and sad

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
what if I...

Short Poems

posted by zutaradragon

~The Gun~
we all have one...
if it slips, you're done.
some carry it deep within.
for some, it's just beneath the skin.
we all own one,
let it slip, you're done.
sound like fun?
then just shun...
everyone.
you'll see the result...
it's always the same.
it will always end...
with a bang!

~Truth~
before the lie seeps in,
truth is soon at it's fin.
the lies bury the truth deep.
and the truth...doesn't always seep...

~When You Left~
the day was long and dreary
you have left me weary
my eyes are often teary
so let me say one last thing...
i take back everything I've said

~Nightmare~
my dream
fear that i fight
a nightmare

~Love...

I Believe/Final March/The Dead

posted by zutaradragon

I believe in the power of love
the influence of music
the fact that words can't hurt you
the evil we all poses
the fact that some things won't stop, even if they should;
war, fighting, killing

but the fantasy that love always will come isn't true.

I believe in the strength of hate
I believe in the light at the end
I believe in a life after death
Memories, flowers, smiles

and I believe in the fact that no one can set you free...they can only help

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
the headstone says
the fresh flowers bloom
the still and silence
lose and loneliness
words on my tongue
"another soldier is gone forever"

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
nothingness
fear in the air
screams of lost souls, wings always beating
heat of the flames melting me
the hate and bitter loneliness
I'm in Hell

Kem's Story 2, when Meshrew laughs

posted by zutaradragon

Have you ever wondered what it'd be like to have someone who looks exactly like you around you at all times? Unfortunately, I don't have to wonder. My name's Kem Senef, Black Blood in Egyptian. Some may say having a twin is like having 2 of the same person. I say it's more like taking one person and taring him in half. My twin is Meshrew Hesep, Evening Garden. Sounds angelic compared to my name, doesn't it? You have no idea...Our parents may as well have just been his, it would have saved me a lot of pain in the long run.
I HATE my brother because he was treated like...