Poems by Irena

Is anybody out there?
I know that I am not the only one
Can anybody see me?
Or am I invisible as well

No one sees me,
No one hears me,
No one helps me,
I’m invisible

Will someone ever find me?
Or has the world forgotten?
Pushed, Stabbed, Stepped on
I will endure

No one sees me,
No one hears me,
No one helps me,
I’m invisible

No, I will keep going on
I know that there is
That special someone out there
Someone who sees me

Come find me fast!
Come hold me tight!
I don’t know how much longer I can hold
Come find me
I know you’re there

I knew that it would be hard
I just never knew that it would hurt like this
I paid the price, now I’m scarred
Please forgive me, I had to leave
You had to be safe, you deserved a life

Running, running, running from my past
No turning back now
When will I find the courage?
Bags under my eyes and still I hide
When will it stop
Is it too late to turn back now?

Tell Mom and Pops
I said hi
Took your advice
It’s time for me to fight

Sorry I left you
Sorry I hurt you
Please forgive me
I’ll meet you someday
I’ve never seen your face
You grew up without me
We’re as close as family
I’m sorry I left you

No more running
No more hiding
No more sleepless nights
It’s time to fight

Rain, Rain, Go away
Because of you the pain will stay.
Slit my throat,
Cut out my heart
Leave me here,
Tear it apart
Poison tears
Stream down my face
My heart beats at a steady pace
As I try,
To stand again
Alone and standing,
In the rain
I don't need you anymore
Is what I think while tears pour
I hate you like I hate my life
But love is what cuts like a knife
Love is death and death is you
Its pain stains like a black tattoo
Those memories come back again
And bind me it the ropes of pain
Crimson blood streams down my head
Like a long, silk ribbon, tied by a thread
To a platinum bullet, a hole in my skull
Now just a memory that's faded and dull.

~OfmiceandDes

So I wrote this when I was depressed, please don't take any of this seriously. And don't judge, thank you cx

Drowning in a darkness,
Of deep despair .
Believing the lies I hear,
And seeing the truths not there.
See the rays of sunlight,
They shine upon your scars.
Reaching for that broken smile,
Among the hidden stars.
Hearing the tear drops,
Falling from your eyes.
Believe my hidden Secrets,
And tell my stolen lies.
Bring me to the surface,
Give me air to breathe.
Let me see the sorrow,
Upon my broken dreams.

~OfmiceandDes

\\What makes us human?//

。Peace 。

『 Is there such a thing as peace?
If there is... Tell me why we fight
Tell me why we cry
What is the notion of peace...
When there is no such thing?

Why do we hope for peace...
When we all started to war?
Is it because we are foolish?
Or, is it, because of our total weakness?

Tell me why if you who say know all, know all
Why our hearts yearn for something nonexistent?
We say we want peace
But refuse to listen to others.

Is it human nature?
Is that why peace is so far away?
Is it because we are selfish and cowardly?
Or is it simply the cause of our own contradictions?

Tell me why we have no peace.
Or simply, does it have no answer? 』

Time will say nothing but I told you so,
Time only knows the price we have to pay;
If I could tell you I would let you know.

If we should weep when clowns put on their show,
If we should stumble when musicians play,
Time will say nothing but I told you so.

There are no fortunes to be told, although,
Because I love you more than I can say,
If I could tell you I would let you know.

The winds must come from somewhere when they blow,
There must be reasons why the leaves decay;
Time will say nothing but I told you so.

Perhaps the roses really want to grow,
The vision seriously intends to stay;
If I could tell you I would let you know.

Suppose the lions all get up and go,
And all the brooks and soldiers run away;
Will Time say nothing but I told you so?
If I could tell you I would let you know.

—W.H. Auden

I'm a hopeless romantic
For him I still care,
Have my heart crashed every time I fall
Even though it's not fair...

I'm a hopeless romantic
Keep thinking he's th one
Even when he turns away,
Leaving me behind, wishing he wasn't gone...

I wanna be a lovesick fool
Don't trust anyone with my heart
Not caring to impress him,
Not missing him when we're apart...

I wanna be a lovesick fool
Live my own life, do it my way
Sing and dance with my friends
Not caring for what he'll say...

But I'm still a hopeless romantic
My heart still breaks, but I always get up
Promissing to be a lovesick fool from now on,
Swearing I will never again give a f*ck...

I keep living, falling, trying to find someone
To be, with me,
A lovesick fool and a hopeless romantic.

Here comes the pain that's in my heart,
Here comes the goodbye,
Here comes the silence I'll hear from you,
It never being the same as it was yesterday
I'm sorry it had to be this way, I wish it didn't
But in the end I had to decide,
Please forgive me

Here comes the love that is lost between us
Here comes the change
Here comes the tears that will fall down
I'm sorry it had to be this way, I wish it didn't
But in the end I had to decide,
Please forgive me

Here comes the last time I'll ever see your face
Here comes the sleepless nights
Here comes me wishing things would be the same
Please forgive me

Whenever I see a playground, it's August of 2003,
And I'm playing around, doing what I do best.
But that is not my story.
My story is struggling to make friends,
Being rejected, and often bullied.
I was the peculiar one, the nerd, the ugly duckling,
The stray dog that nobody wanted, and the klutz.
I begged and begged to be home-schooled.
But my attempts at begging were rebuffed.
One girl had taken it too far,
Pushing me beyond the limit, crossing the line.
"I've had enough," I finally said. "I'm sick of this!"
So, I pushed her into the closet door,
But I didn't hurt her. I would never do that. It's wrong.
Guess who got in trouble. Me. Facts were learned,
And all bullying stopped for the year.
Now, I'm not longer aloof or insecure.
I have friends, and I've come out of my shell.

Blessed are we
On our darkest of night
Blessed are we
When we hit Her morning light

Blessed are we
As wind whispers our names
Blessed are we
As we learn through our mistakes

Through time after time
We learn our love
Time after time
As She is sent from above

Blessed are we
As we live our lives
Blessed are we
Our tears are clear as the sky

Blessed are we
When we are done
Blessed are we
When we are bright as the Moon and the Sun

She watches us
To make sure we're safe
From the dangers unfolding
As the sun sets

You hold a mask of betrayal,
as your summer air scented body feels as if it might fall, you've reminded yourself again and again that you're no more than another face to me.

You hold roses in your clenched hands,
you told me each petal is for every lie of mine you forgave, and now our lovely mess of trust is beginning to fade.

Promised me you'd build yourself a grave, in the middle of Autumn where we first met and never thought you'd get to say good-bye.

The night welcomes you into arms you call innocent, it wants you to follow it down to the sea, the night in which you used to hide from.

I want to scream 'I'm sorry'
I can't say anything,
nights before, I let your roses die.

The look of betrayal that lingers upon your face, underneath the love that's obvious in your eyes,
'I'm okay' you say,
and just like that, the night took you.

Alone i sit,
reminiscing about the past,
stuck in the present and
wondering what the future has in store for me!

i have been on this road before, many times,
all alone and none to care for,
but now things are different, things have changed;

walking the line between sanity and insanity,
carefully balancing this little existence of life,
fear, pain, happiness, frustration, anger, dreams, love and worry,
all hidden beneath these sleepless eyes;

scrambling through this barbed wire (of life),
searching for a light in the darkness,
screaming and fighting, weighed down
by life’s many complications and expectations;

as the night approaches, the storm has passed, for now,
i try to sleep, i try to rest, as i lay quietly,
while my dreams nurse me back to health,
to fight another day;

so into the long night’s dream, I trudge along,
with no one else in sight,
looking for stars in the dark,
as i hold on to fight another day;