I'd never felt so dead before
So cold, so pained, unbearably sore
I never thought I'd hurt like this
Without you here, your murderous kiss
Without your hand to envelope mine
Without your voice, deep, divine
Without your dark, concealing eyes
Without your words, your venemous lies
I'd never thought of myself this way
So alone, every night, every ending day
I always saw my reflection next to yours
But I'm in darkness, behind closed doors
Without your speech, always mysterious
Without your smile, making me delirious
I thought you'd stay forever, you'd care
But now all I remember is your hateful stare
Times.
There are times when you feel lonely.
Times when you can't talk to your best friend, because she won't take it seriously.
Times when you can't talk to your mum,
because your scared she'll bring it up again.
Times when the people who would usally distract you only make you feel worce without knowing it.
Times when the one person you can talk to is ast asleep at 00:45.
These are the times when you just cry.
(Please forgive any spelling or grammer mistakes.)
First thought.
The first time I saw you,
was only a glance.
I was a fool, you know,
taking a chance.
Thoughts of you and me
Filled my dreams,
only to be ripped
at the seams.
So I'll lay here,
My haert in tatters.
In hope that one day
You might see
Me.
There are times when you feel lonely.
Times when you can't talk to your best friend, because she won't take it seriously.
Times when you can't talk to your mum,
because your scared she'll bring it up again.
Times when the people who would usally distract you only make you feel worce without knowing it.
Times when the one person you can talk to is ast asleep at 00:45.
These are the times when you just cry.
(Please forgive any spelling or grammer mistakes.)
First thought.
The first time I saw you,
was only a glance.
I was a fool, you know,
taking a chance.
Thoughts of you and me
Filled my dreams,
only to be ripped
at the seams.
So I'll lay here,
My haert in tatters.
In hope that one day
You might see
Me.
March Madness
By
Jeremy Gould
31 Days will come and go
Through each I'll remember
a past life
of everlasting strife
Each day I'll dismember
a little bit more of my soul
4 Weeks, one lasting memory
will arrive to do its worst
to tie me down
I'll lose more ground
my heart will nearly burst
my mind will agree
1 month will rear its ugly head
I'll return to solitary confinement
a prisoner in hell
it's just as well
'cause if I would break my last commandment
then I'd be better off dead
We're down to the final 4
the grief, the pain, the mourning, the sadness
which shall win this brutal war?
Welcome to my March Madness
By
Jeremy Gould
31 Days will come and go
Through each I'll remember
a past life
of everlasting strife
Each day I'll dismember
a little bit more of my soul
4 Weeks, one lasting memory
will arrive to do its worst
to tie me down
I'll lose more ground
my heart will nearly burst
my mind will agree
1 month will rear its ugly head
I'll return to solitary confinement
a prisoner in hell
it's just as well
'cause if I would break my last commandment
then I'd be better off dead
We're down to the final 4
the grief, the pain, the mourning, the sadness
which shall win this brutal war?
Welcome to my March Madness
have
fears
when i have fears that i may cease to be
before my pen has glean’d my teeming brain,
before high piled books, in charact’ry,
hold like rich garners the full-riper’d grain;
when i behold, upon the night’s starr’d face,
huge cloudy symbols of a high romance,
and think that i may never live to trace their shadows,
with the magic hand of chance;
and when i feel, fair creature of an hour!
that i shall never look upon thee more,
never have relish in the faery
power of unreflecting love
then on the shore of
the wide world i stand alone,
and think till love and fame to nothingness do sink.
"posthumous and fugitive poems"
john keats [1795-1821]
when darkness is no less than everything
you've built become undone
there's no fight and no flight
disaster leaves your passion overrun
it's time to let go
it's time to carry on with the show
don't mourn what is gone
greet the dawn
and i will be standing by your side
together we'll face the turning tide
remembrance can be a sentence
but it comes to you with
a second chance in tow
don't lose it, don't refuse it,
cause you cannot learn a thing
you think you know
a new light is warm
shining down on you after the storm
don't mourn what is gone, greet the dawn
and i will be standing by your side
together we'll face the turning tide
we grow old with time
yet young with years
never to give up to fears
but we are never fine
yet we always sing
we live on this earth for all our lives
always experiencing something new
like emotion or sights
there is never peace always pain
and life goes on with time
as we grow so do our souls
without life the would be no time
and without time we would mot have pain
and without pain there is no soul
and with no soul there is no life
"i still live i still think i still have to lice for i still have to think.... Fredrick Nietzsche" he also said " he who has a why to live can bare almost any how"
yet young with years
never to give up to fears
but we are never fine
yet we always sing
we live on this earth for all our lives
always experiencing something new
like emotion or sights
there is never peace always pain
and life goes on with time
as we grow so do our souls
without life the would be no time
and without time we would mot have pain
and without pain there is no soul
and with no soul there is no life
"i still live i still think i still have to lice for i still have to think.... Fredrick Nietzsche" he also said " he who has a why to live can bare almost any how"
The Amulet
by
Jeremy Gould
The bands of gold remind me
of the way you held my hand
so tightly
so comfortably
like you never would let go
Nobody ever wants to let go
including me
Perhaps it's just we don't know how
The design is striking
just like you were
with every breath
with every movement
I could watch you for hours
and never be tired
of seeing you
of being near you
The cold chill that comes
and tickles my neck
every time I put on
that lovely amulet
takes me back to you
The only place I want to be
The only person I care to see
Missing you here with me
by
Jeremy Gould
The bands of gold remind me
of the way you held my hand
so tightly
so comfortably
like you never would let go
Nobody ever wants to let go
including me
Perhaps it's just we don't know how
The design is striking
just like you were
with every breath
with every movement
I could watch you for hours
and never be tired
of seeing you
of being near you
The cold chill that comes
and tickles my neck
every time I put on
that lovely amulet
takes me back to you
The only place I want to be
The only person I care to see
Missing you here with me
here is a poem... my therapist wants me to find ways to talk about my feelings....
i have felt sad before,
but this is so much stronger.
i feel like i am drowning,
deeper and deeper in to the black cold water.
i can not scream,
i can not swim to the surface.
i am to lost,
the sadness has consumed me,
as i slowly fade away.
the monster is consuming me,
where has the real me gone?
is she lost?
or did the moster take her over,
and leave me for dead.
no one understands the monster,
no one but those who live consumed by it.
deeply consumed like me.
i have felt sad before,
but this is so much stronger.
i feel like i am drowning,
deeper and deeper in to the black cold water.
i can not scream,
i can not swim to the surface.
i am to lost,
the sadness has consumed me,
as i slowly fade away.
the monster is consuming me,
where has the real me gone?
is she lost?
or did the moster take her over,
and leave me for dead.
no one understands the monster,
no one but those who live consumed by it.
deeply consumed like me.
this is a lyric (a type of poem) that i wrote as an assignment for language arts class and i chose to write one about my grandpa who has passed away because he was very sick, anyways tell me what u think. btw i got an A for this one :]
sadness is knowing i will never hear my grandpa's voice again
it feels like he left this world all too soon
sadness is watching a movie that we both loved
it reminds me of all the happy times we used to spend together
like the days when you would pull me in my wagon
sadness waits for me after i do the things we used to do
sadness is the endless tears flowing down my face
it brings me to tears when i remember all our wonderful times
those are my sad, sweet memories of you
sadness is knowing i will never hear my grandpa's voice again
it feels like he left this world all too soon
sadness is watching a movie that we both loved
it reminds me of all the happy times we used to spend together
like the days when you would pull me in my wagon
sadness waits for me after i do the things we used to do
sadness is the endless tears flowing down my face
it brings me to tears when i remember all our wonderful times
those are my sad, sweet memories of you
i'm so confuses right now.
how i feel.
if its real or in my head.
if you like me or is our fate just friends.
if you do would you tell me.
or keep it from me.
afrade that i dont feel the same.
i hope that if you do that you'll tell me soon.
i'v falln hard for you.
you dont have to tell me now but soon if you do..
we'er spending christmas together
so that would be the perffect time to do so
to tell me that its not just in my head that you like me back
that you want me that way i want you.
okay this is just some free writting
plz tell me what u think about this
is it any good?
is it bad?
well thanks for the support lol =)
how i feel.
if its real or in my head.
if you like me or is our fate just friends.
if you do would you tell me.
or keep it from me.
afrade that i dont feel the same.
i hope that if you do that you'll tell me soon.
i'v falln hard for you.
you dont have to tell me now but soon if you do..
we'er spending christmas together
so that would be the perffect time to do so
to tell me that its not just in my head that you like me back
that you want me that way i want you.
okay this is just some free writting
plz tell me what u think about this
is it any good?
is it bad?
well thanks for the support lol =)
i beleive in love like kids beleive in magic.
i beviele that there is someone for everyone out there.
i believe when i find him that i'll know he's the one when i see him.
that time will stop for what feels like forever.
i believe that when you lose love that they stay with you for as long as you need them.
that the world a little better when theres love.
that if people just love a little they'd be happy.
that if people had love they would look at life differint.
that everyone every where needs love nomatter how old or how young.
okay so this is just alil free writing i'm not really sure if its good or not so comment and tell me plz =)
i beviele that there is someone for everyone out there.
i believe when i find him that i'll know he's the one when i see him.
that time will stop for what feels like forever.
i believe that when you lose love that they stay with you for as long as you need them.
that the world a little better when theres love.
that if people just love a little they'd be happy.
that if people had love they would look at life differint.
that everyone every where needs love nomatter how old or how young.
okay so this is just alil free writing i'm not really sure if its good or not so comment and tell me plz =)
IN
YOUR
HOUSE
BY
JEREMY
GOULD
That first day you let me in
I knew I'd always want to stay
I've never felt more welcome
That safety will never go away
I found peace in your house
Everything seemed so clear
Possibilities on every wall
I wanted to stay there forever
I could've always answered your call
I saw my future in your house
But in a flash you were gone
I lost my future wife
But I gained something new
A hard lesson in life
I left my heart in your house
YOUR
HOUSE
BY
JEREMY
GOULD
That first day you let me in
I knew I'd always want to stay
I've never felt more welcome
That safety will never go away
I found peace in your house
Everything seemed so clear
Possibilities on every wall
I wanted to stay there forever
I could've always answered your call
I saw my future in your house
But in a flash you were gone
I lost my future wife
But I gained something new
A hard lesson in life
I left my heart in your house
The pain I can control
The pain that makes me whole
The pain that stops and brings some tears
The pain that erases all my fears
The pain that I inflict with this knife
The pain that might be last in my life
The pain that brought me to my knees
The pain that woahed me full of pleas
The pain that made me see the light
The pain that is bringing me home tonight
The pain that is wrong and bitter
The pain that makes me feel fitter
The pain that my friends say is wrong
The pain that makes me feel so strong
The pain that makes my friend sad, and cry
The pain that makes her want to die
The pain thats not just pain to me
The pain that makes everyone see
The pain that thats tearing me apart
The pain thats ripping apart my heart
The pain that I'm addicted to
The pain I can't give up. Not even for you...
The pain that makes me whole
The pain that stops and brings some tears
The pain that erases all my fears
The pain that I inflict with this knife
The pain that might be last in my life
The pain that brought me to my knees
The pain that woahed me full of pleas
The pain that made me see the light
The pain that is bringing me home tonight
The pain that is wrong and bitter
The pain that makes me feel fitter
The pain that my friends say is wrong
The pain that makes me feel so strong
The pain that makes my friend sad, and cry
The pain that makes her want to die
The pain thats not just pain to me
The pain that makes everyone see
The pain that thats tearing me apart
The pain thats ripping apart my heart
The pain that I'm addicted to
The pain I can't give up. Not even for you...
Pain is my only gain,
Pain is my friend,
Pain so deep and cold,
I feel at home with the dark pain,
I love pain pain is my friend,
Pain will bring back my love,
Pain will give me life once again,
Pain so deep and cold,
Is the only way i can have,
My love and my friend,
Pain is the worlds friend,
Pain shows us if we do wrong,
Pain shows us who we are,
Pain is not only in the dark,
But in the light as well,
Pain is so deep and cunning,
Pain can show me who i am,
Pain shows the world who we are,
Pain is my only friend,
Without love theres pain,
Without anyone theres pain,
With out the sun with out the moon,
Theres pain so as you can see,
Pain is with us and always will be,
Pain will never leave its a marriage,
It's a soul and a part of you,
That will never leave,
Pain is my friend and it is your too....
Pain is my friend,
Pain so deep and cold,
I feel at home with the dark pain,
I love pain pain is my friend,
Pain will bring back my love,
Pain will give me life once again,
Pain so deep and cold,
Is the only way i can have,
My love and my friend,
Pain is the worlds friend,
Pain shows us if we do wrong,
Pain shows us who we are,
Pain is not only in the dark,
But in the light as well,
Pain is so deep and cunning,
Pain can show me who i am,
Pain shows the world who we are,
Pain is my only friend,
Without love theres pain,
Without anyone theres pain,
With out the sun with out the moon,
Theres pain so as you can see,
Pain is with us and always will be,
Pain will never leave its a marriage,
It's a soul and a part of you,
That will never leave,
Pain is my friend and it is your too....
FAR FROM THE DARK
BY JEREMY GOULD
Here I am
spitting in the face of adversity
There you go
closing the door on our destiny
Sat up all night
as my mind swelled up with fear
I was alone again
with nothing to stop the tears
I walked outside
as the moon rose
The night became foggy
Silence as I froze
Life's my partner
My partner in crime
But with every thought of you
I wish to die
Lived through hardships galore
Searching for the slightest spark
Trying to get closer to the light
Just to be far from the dark
BY JEREMY GOULD
Here I am
spitting in the face of adversity
There you go
closing the door on our destiny
Sat up all night
as my mind swelled up with fear
I was alone again
with nothing to stop the tears
I walked outside
as the moon rose
The night became foggy
Silence as I froze
Life's my partner
My partner in crime
But with every thought of you
I wish to die
Lived through hardships galore
Searching for the slightest spark
Trying to get closer to the light
Just to be far from the dark
Love
By Jeremy Gould
Love
Sweet love
You found me
Replaced misery with joy
Erased pain flying away forever
Never returning to my body
No more deadly sins
Gone for good
Thank you
Love
Love
Jealous love
I feel empty
Her eyes looking away
She's finding some other heart
She thinks it's more valuable
I wasn't good enough
She left me
But why
Love?
Love
Greedy love
You left me
Alone in the rain
To comfort someone else's fear
You took everything with you
Brought back the pain
Now I cry
Fuck you
Love
By Jeremy Gould
Love
Sweet love
You found me
Replaced misery with joy
Erased pain flying away forever
Never returning to my body
No more deadly sins
Gone for good
Thank you
Love
Love
Jealous love
I feel empty
Her eyes looking away
She's finding some other heart
She thinks it's more valuable
I wasn't good enough
She left me
But why
Love?
Love
Greedy love
You left me
Alone in the rain
To comfort someone else's fear
You took everything with you
Brought back the pain
Now I cry
Fuck you
Love
There I was, sitting in my room
contemplating life's cruel jokes
when the phone startled me from my trance
Yet another fantasy broken
But I was glad to hear from you
in your time of sheer distress
I've been so upset with your troubles
Your voice was such a quiet caress
You began to apologize
for mistakes not your own
I helped nurture your mind
You gave me everything from your soul
I invited you over to chat
A request you graciously accepted
So we had a few beers
That night could have never ended
But when it seemed we had enough
and the sun began to rise
We both knew we could not go back
Our feelings we could not disguise
That night was our night
and nothing will take that away
Locked together in eternal harmony
We talked through the night, and then you stayed
You, my good friend, my best friend
always played
I asked for your hand
and then you stayed
contemplating life's cruel jokes
when the phone startled me from my trance
Yet another fantasy broken
But I was glad to hear from you
in your time of sheer distress
I've been so upset with your troubles
Your voice was such a quiet caress
You began to apologize
for mistakes not your own
I helped nurture your mind
You gave me everything from your soul
I invited you over to chat
A request you graciously accepted
So we had a few beers
That night could have never ended
But when it seemed we had enough
and the sun began to rise
We both knew we could not go back
Our feelings we could not disguise
That night was our night
and nothing will take that away
Locked together in eternal harmony
We talked through the night, and then you stayed
You, my good friend, my best friend
always played
I asked for your hand
and then you stayed
