I wrote this when I was still figuring out who I am and when I was clearly lost, about 2 years ago. Here goes:
Fake friends
I'm tired of pretending
That I'm always happy
When I'm some times
NOT!
I've got fake friends
Who call themselves
My friends
When they're NOT!
Friends are true,
They don't lie,
They don't pretend
And they're there 4 u.
My friends aren't true,
They do lie,
They pretend every day
And they aren't there 4 me.
How can 1 be happy
When they're pretending
And hiding
From reality.
No 1 is gonna kill u
When u stop pretending
They'll have 2 except u
As u'll have 2 except them.
I know it will be hard
2 turn away
From the fairytale life,
But I don't wanna pretend anymore.
Don't know where I'll go
If I don't have
These fake friends,
That makes me scared.
My world seems so small,
Though I know many people,
Did many things
And enjoyed it without my fake friends.
What I want is real friends,
Not fake ones,
Real friends is what I want,
I hope we'll meet soon.
So goodbye pretending world,
This is real life,
My life
And goodbye fake friends.
Fake friends
I'm tired of pretending
That I'm always happy
When I'm some times
NOT!
I've got fake friends
Who call themselves
My friends
When they're NOT!
Friends are true,
They don't lie,
They don't pretend
And they're there 4 u.
My friends aren't true,
They do lie,
They pretend every day
And they aren't there 4 me.
How can 1 be happy
When they're pretending
And hiding
From reality.
No 1 is gonna kill u
When u stop pretending
They'll have 2 except u
As u'll have 2 except them.
I know it will be hard
2 turn away
From the fairytale life,
But I don't wanna pretend anymore.
Don't know where I'll go
If I don't have
These fake friends,
That makes me scared.
My world seems so small,
Though I know many people,
Did many things
And enjoyed it without my fake friends.
What I want is real friends,
Not fake ones,
Real friends is what I want,
I hope we'll meet soon.
So goodbye pretending world,
This is real life,
My life
And goodbye fake friends.
who am i to you ? who am i to you? i gave my life time to you.. so who am i to you? what you think about me? what you think about me? i am always thinking about you..so what you think about me?
what do you do for me ? what do you do for me? i will do anything for you .. so what do you do for me?
do you ever loved me? do you ever loved me?
i am always loving you.. so do you ever loved me?
do you ever ask question about me? do you ever ask question about me? i am always asking about you..so do you ever ask question about me?
please answer my question.. please answer my question ...i am always answering your question even for your heart beat.. so please answer my question my love..
She Doesn't Know
By Cody Herman
Through the window I stare next door
When is she coming out
She's the only one I adore
But then why do I doubt
Her hair is golden like the sun
Shining bright and strong for all to see
She looks at me and I'm undone
I didn't foresee that she was the one for me
Why do I hesitate
It wasn't too long ago
My heart beats at a faster rate
But she doesn't know
The power she has over me
I putty in her hands
She just couldn't leave me be
Her wish is my command
When will I find the courage
To tell her how I feel
Am I able to break this bridge
Will I stand or I kneel
I can't do it
I'm afraid she'll say no
I need to get a grip
She still doesn't know
By Cody Herman
Through the window I stare next door
When is she coming out
She's the only one I adore
But then why do I doubt
Her hair is golden like the sun
Shining bright and strong for all to see
She looks at me and I'm undone
I didn't foresee that she was the one for me
Why do I hesitate
It wasn't too long ago
My heart beats at a faster rate
But she doesn't know
The power she has over me
I putty in her hands
She just couldn't leave me be
Her wish is my command
When will I find the courage
To tell her how I feel
Am I able to break this bridge
Will I stand or I kneel
I can't do it
I'm afraid she'll say no
I need to get a grip
She still doesn't know
You said...
You said
you would
try to make
this up.
You said
you wanted
me by your side.
You said
I would be happy,
I would be
happy this time.
You said.
You said
you wanted
the fresh start
for us,
you said
you wanted us
back,
you wanted
me back.
You promised.
You said
you would
try,
you said
that things
would be better
this time,
you said
I would feel
better
from now.
Remember,
you said.
No more tears,
you said,
no more
empty words,
remember?
You said.
You said
you wanted
a fresh start
for us.
You said,
no more pain,
you said,
no more.
And no more lies
now I say,
sell them
some where else.
Broken promises,
that's all
you gave,
no more pain,
that's what
you said.
THe world is cruel,
when we are young we ride above the clouds in the bubble of innocence
but as we age we begin to sense the pain behind our parents faces
we see then that really, not everyone is nice.
we begin to understand that "your not invited to my birthday party" is the deadliest threat we can make
and that one day someone will hate me for who I am and someone will hate you for who you are,
because your not a cheerleader
because I am a cheerleader
because I have brown eyes
because you have white skin
because I have two dads
because you have one mom and no dad
because your grandparents were Chinese
because I'm Jewish
And why will people do this?
Because the world is a cruel place.
None of these things are true about me, they are simply examples of the stupid things people will judge you by.
when we are young we ride above the clouds in the bubble of innocence
but as we age we begin to sense the pain behind our parents faces
we see then that really, not everyone is nice.
we begin to understand that "your not invited to my birthday party" is the deadliest threat we can make
and that one day someone will hate me for who I am and someone will hate you for who you are,
because your not a cheerleader
because I am a cheerleader
because I have brown eyes
because you have white skin
because I have two dads
because you have one mom and no dad
because your grandparents were Chinese
because I'm Jewish
And why will people do this?
Because the world is a cruel place.
None of these things are true about me, they are simply examples of the stupid things people will judge you by.
you seek for spark of hope.
Your life held by
darkness thoughts,
anchor is
some place else.
Bad luck follows you
like a hook,
won't let you go,
won't leave you alone.
You smile today,
and cry whole eternity,
like that's your fate,
disturbing thoughts
to lie inside of you,
to take away everything
that you hope for.
Devil is calling your name,
leaves you not,
you don't see the angel on
your shoulder,
trying to give you a strength.
You long for life
that you don't know of,
you seek for peace,
trying to get away
from misty forest
that stains your heart
into black.
why did you cheat on me?
why did I deserve that?
I loved you so much, I still do,
and if you asked for me back,
I would probably come.
that's because I love you,
and you've got a hold on me,
why did I have to see you,
with another girl in your arms,
your a cheat that's all I can say!!
I loved you and you just threw it away,
but that's it im done with you now,
im not trying anymore,
I could of been the best thing you ever had,
you don't know what you have got until you loose it,
your a cheat and that's all I can say,
now its time for me to go my own way.
why did I deserve that?
I loved you so much, I still do,
and if you asked for me back,
I would probably come.
that's because I love you,
and you've got a hold on me,
why did I have to see you,
with another girl in your arms,
your a cheat that's all I can say!!
I loved you and you just threw it away,
but that's it im done with you now,
im not trying anymore,
I could of been the best thing you ever had,
you don't know what you have got until you loose it,
your a cheat and that's all I can say,
now its time for me to go my own way.
sorry for hateing you
sorry for everything
wish i could retrace my steps that day
now your gone moved away
i wish i could stand face to face with you
and say sorry for hurting you sorry for everything ive done
i hope your not dead i hope your alive if you are hear reading this my friend im sorry so sorry
i understand my friend if you will not forgive me i chose to be mad at you when you tried to apolagize
just know this friends are forever
i will keep you in my head if i forget ill still have you in my heart
and hopefully you will keep me in yours now your gone you wont see me but you have raised me up higher than the mountains
youve raised me up to more then i can be
i was strong when i was on your sholders
i am sorry carolyn kellar for what has happend
sorry for everything
wish i could retrace my steps that day
now your gone moved away
i wish i could stand face to face with you
and say sorry for hurting you sorry for everything ive done
i hope your not dead i hope your alive if you are hear reading this my friend im sorry so sorry
i understand my friend if you will not forgive me i chose to be mad at you when you tried to apolagize
just know this friends are forever
i will keep you in my head if i forget ill still have you in my heart
and hopefully you will keep me in yours now your gone you wont see me but you have raised me up higher than the mountains
youve raised me up to more then i can be
i was strong when i was on your sholders
i am sorry carolyn kellar for what has happend
