Bella Swan : "There's so much here that I don't understand..."

The room was silent , no-one spoke a word as i entered the room.
Tanna laid silent in the deepth of my hair.
A chilled palm rested on my shoulder, i turned.
"I can take her, if you want bell" Rose offered.
i tightened my grip on my baby. no i wanted to keep her, i needed something to hold on to, now with Edward.
"no it's ok Rose, i need her" i moaned silently.
I heard low groans and murmurs from Carlisle.
I scuffed my feet accross the floor.
I glided past Alice who seemed all healed, well that one down, one to go.
edward came into sight.
I lost all breathe, and stength in my legs, i felt esme's...

"hey bella, wake up ,bella" Alice whispered while she shook me awake lightly. i woke from a deep sleep, i tried to shake off the exhustgin off my eyes. I just wanted more time, i felt like i was back at school, early mornings. but i dont why it was such a surprise anyway, being a mother of a 4 month old, really gets you up at all hours.
"im sorry, Bella, but i was going to do the shopping for you. what do you need? what do i get?? i haven't been shopping a long time." she chuckled. This was the first time she has smiled the since port angles trip. I dont remember much. only because i was knocked...

Waking to his side. what more can be said.

A light knock sounded from the door a few feet away.
"Bella"i knew this voice, my best friend, Alice.
"Yeah come in" i groaned. I still felt hazy from the night before. man i have a lot of explaining to do.. how my heart will need a excuse.a pretty good one. but what the hell, wow i feel like a rebel, noew i feel like a loser for jsut thinking that...
Alice stepped throught the door so gracefully, she put angels to shame, i rocked back, she was soo beautiful, she dressed in a caress voilet jumpsuit, it clung to every perfection of her body, oh my envy....

ok i really cant remember who i promised chapter 14 to, so this is that person, that will remember, im soo sorrryyy!!!!

anyhoo!
JACOBS POV!

I wasnt listen to the argue, i jsut knew that i ran, i ran the whole distance that was between me and where bella lied.
This was like de ja vu.
her hair parted on her neck, there for the first time, i have ever notice, the block letters.
SPELLED OUT HIS NAME, HIS NAME.
i stopped still. i froze, stunded. how could i be such a fool, how did i ever feel that i could ever heal the parts of her heart that was broken.
She would hold on forever if she was allowed....

i woke with the sun lieing on my legs, and alone,
i rolled to see jacobs side empty, but what could i expect, this was the morning routine, the way it was was since our marriage five months ago.
he had his werewolf duties along side sam.I dont know why this morning felt different to every other.i had a feeling today was different, like for some reason today is a day i was going to remember and jacob wasnt there to see what it was.
It was early 9.00, and i was shocked to see the sun, out , instead of the gloomy clouds as always.
I had hoped to raise Tanna in Pheonix, in the sun and the heat,...