He had been feeling so...weird around Wally. But they were best friends! Or at least used to be. Wally had totally nounced ( as apposed to announced) their friendship as over four days ago. But the team had definatly noticed and Robin couldn't keep the other boy off his mind. He wanted to explain to Wally why he'd been ignoring and avoiding him. But Robin didn't know that himself. It had just happened. And here he was, weeks after it all began, crying because he was an idiot.
“Why didn't I just hide it?”
The emotions that stirred inside were too complicated to understand.
“Why did he have ask?”
He'd never be able to live without Wally's friendship. Even if he was avoiding the older boy.
“Why can't I just make things right?”
His mind went into overload and there seemed like no real answer. Accept to apologize. But apologize for what? What would he say? Wally I'm sorry for avoiding you but I've been feeling really odd and I don't know how to explain it? Wally would laugh in his face. And then he'd be even more broken. No. He had to do something else. But if he and Wally weren't friends, why would he go back to the mountain?
“I'm sorry Bruce.”
There was no real point. At least, not anymore. So Robin did what Robins do best; disappeared. But not just from the mountain. No, he also disappeared from Wayne Manor, Gotham Academy, and from the world. Because he needed to get away.
Wally was freaking out! Robin was gone! Robin was gone! It wasn't possible. Robin had always come back; always. But the little bird didn't return. And he hadn't returned for a week. Batman hadn't shown up either, delegating missions over to Aquaman. Something was definatly wrong in the Wayne household. And Wally was going to find out what it was. Because without his little bird beside him, there was no point in trying missions (he'd messed them all up without Robin there to watch his back or even to yell at him!) and there would be no point to any of his missions if Robin wasn't there to nag him, to laugh at him, to let loose the cackle that scared friend and foe alike. No point because he wouldn't be able to see Robin's smile ever again, never be able to visit late at night and see his blue beauties. Never be able to tell him how sorry he was for not trusting he had a good reason for avoiding Wally. Never be able to tell him how sorry he was to let him go.
Robin whimpered sadly as he curled into a ball. His head rested on a warm lap and his sunglasses were lost somewhere in the darkness.
“Don't worry,” she whispered. “I'll be here.”
“But I feel so...terrible Raven! I don't know what to do!”
A hand stroked his hair and he peered into brown eyes as soft as chocolate. Purple hair dripped down her head, falling to her mid-back. She puled him close and just stared at him.
“You came to me right? Well I will help you. I will be with you from here on out. And everything will be okay. I know, as both Raven and Rachel Roth, that it always turns out okay if you have someone beside you. And I'm not leaving your side.”
Robin whimpered again, tears streaming down his cheeks. He buried his head into Raven's lap and sobbed fearfully. Everything felt wrong, seemed wrong, and probably was wrong. With five little words, five heart-shattering words, with one fight, one stupid fight, his world had been stripped away and traded for a new one. Hell was playing around with him and Robin, already going through it once, didn't know if he had the strength to push through for a second time.
“Why are you avoiding me?!”
The shouting daggers arose from the depths of hell.
“Why don't you answer me?!”
Daggers that found their targeted mark.
“We're no longer friends!”
Daggers that ripped his heart and had killed the living joy inside of him.
“Robin.”
Raven spoke his name quietly. Robin turned his head, tears still falling from his wounded eyes.
“Don't cry for a lost love. Things will get better. They always do.”
Robin stared at her. Lost love? Was that what Wally was? Did Robin love Wally like that? Yes. The realization hit him fast and hard after Raven had spoken the words. But Wally obviously hadn't felt the same. No. Robin turned away again, more hurt and tears in his eyes. There was no possible way in heaven or hell that Wally could love him. No way at all. Because if Wally loved him, he never would have let him go.
