Chapter 12

B|POV

I knew what my subconscious wanted. It wanted Edward. I walked over to his house and knocked on the door.
Carlisle and Esme were on a trip visiting Emmet and had only left a few hours ago. Edward was home alone. I knocked lightly in case he was asleep. After about 5 minutes he came to the door- his eyes swollen, tired. Like he’d been crying. “can i come in?” i whispered. My teeth chattering. He nodded and moved aside. I entered his house- i heard the door close behind me. “Are you alright?” he whispered as i rubbed my arms to get friction to warm me up. “Just cold” i said. I realised I’d been walking the streets in only my dress. He disappeared for a minute then reappeared with a blanket. “Take a seat” he motioned towards his sofa. I did so- he dropped the blanket around my shoulders and went to sit in the armchair opposite me. The fire was on so i let it warm my legs. Edward didn’t talk – he just stared into the fire. A remote expression on his tired face. “What time did you leave?” i said- trying to get him to talk to me. He looked towards me then back at the fire “10ish.” He whispered. Then a tortured expression covered his features “i saw you leave with Tyler” he said and then looked down. His voice hurt me more than anything else- his words sounded pained. I looked down- tears rushing from my eyes... putting my head in my hands “why do you care?” i choked out. He got off the arm chair and came and kneeled in front of me- so close that i could feel his breath on my arms. He grabbed my hands and pulled them away from my face. But held them gently in his. He looked desperate- loving. My face was covered in mascara i could see from the reflection of his eyes what a mess i was. What the hell was i doing? A tear rolled down his cheek. “I love you” he whispered in a thick voice. I held his hands tighter wishing for his words to be true. He raised his hand and rubbed my eye. I knew a black eye would be forming. When Jake had found out about me and Tyler. It wasn’t pleasant. I was lucky to have walked away. “What has he done to you” he whispered brokenly- his hands scaled my arms i winced when he reached a bruises. His eyes more and more tormented each time he did so. “We’re over” i whispered. He looked up. “You know how i feel about you. “He whispered his hands on my knees “never let anyone treat you like that Bella. Ever! I won’t watch anyone hurt you i can’t” he whispered raising his hands to his face. I noticed some scars near his wrists. I’d never seen them before i grabbed his hand. “What are these?” i whispered running my fingers over the irregularities in his skin. He hung his head in shame. “Accident” he whispered. I was truly sobbing now and i put two hands either side of Edwards’s perfect face. I looked at him in the eyes – “you can tell me” i whispered. “I found out you loved me too. All this time” he whispered. “Or you did love me”i couldn’t believe it. He’d hurt himself, i was so enraged “oh Edward!” i said sobbing wrapping my arms around him. We both stood up as i sobbed into his chest. He placed his hand against my hair “im so sorry” i said brokenly. What had i done- I’d hurt him so much. He was the best thing in my world, the most important thing in my life. I couldn’t even handle the guilt that washed over me. He stroked the hair at the back on my head “shah its okay, its ok” he whispered. His voice thick he pressed his lips to my hair. I rubbed his back and he held me. I hadn’t processed it in my mind yet what on earth i was actually doing. The only thought in my mind was that he was touching me. It felt familiar- warm. Not in the way it felt with Jacob, it felt like his arms where made for me. His hand stroked cheek and then pulled my face up to look at him. We didn’t say anything just stared into each others eyes. tears flowing relentlessly down my face. He looked at me with a peaceful expression and whipped away my tears with his thumb- and kissed my forehead. “You’re the most important thing to me.” He whispered “you always have – and you always will be”. I didn’t really think about anything else in that moment. I wanted him. All of him. I reached my hands around his neck and entwined my hands into his hair. He looked at me in confusion i reached up and pressed my lips to his. He pulled away quickly but placed his forehead against mine. “What are you doing?” he whispered i didn’t know what else to say in that moment. It was late- and i knew nothing would have to be decided tonight “i love you Edward” i whispered. And with that he kissed me again. I couldn’t believe how different it was kissing him to anyone else. Every touch was unlike everything else. He kissed me tenderly- lovingly, his hands tracing my face. It felt like nothing else to kiss him. As if i was finally breathing after my lungs had been submerged for too long- like i had been stuck in traffic. And now i was home. His arms wrapped around my body lingering softly on my on the small of my back. My hands knotted into his hair. He pulled me tighter to his body – and as soon as he did it i realised it was not close enough, all i could smell, all i could see, all i could feel all i hear- all i could taste was Edward. He lifted me up so i could reach his lips better- and i wrapped my legs around his waist. His lips left mine and kissed my cheek down to my jaw line- travelling down to my neck. He then started moving and went up stairs to his room. I pulled his face back to mine- i needed to be closer to him. I wanted him so much - his lips whispering with mine we were in his room now – he pulled away from me and placed me on his desk chair. ”i want you to see something” he whispered. He disappeared for a minute- then reappeared with what looked like a photo frame in his hand. “I had it fixed” he whispered softly. He placed it in my hand a picture of me and Edward a few Christmas’s ago. The one that was broken from before. I looked up at him tears welling in my eyes “thank you” i whispered my voice thick. He sat on the bed with his arms out and i climbing into them, “i love you “he whispered as i was climbing on top of him. He was still sat up his face inches from mine i wrapped my arms around his neck as he pulled me down onto the bed. And we let the long awaited passion overwhelm us.

I woke up the next day. In Edwards bed. I couldn’t really anything at first. He was lying behind me his arms holding my tightly to his body his head resting on my shoulder even though he was asleep. I could feel his soft breathing against my neck i reached out and took my phone from the bedside table it was 9am. His hands scaled down my body above the sheet and he pressed his lips to my shoulder “morning” he whispered. I turned round to face him “morning to you too” i said kissing his face. He looked at me for a long moment “you are so beautiful” he whispered i blushed and looked down as i did so kissed my hair. “Im just going to the bathroom. Don’t move.” He said and climbed out of bed. I looked out of his window into my own room. The place was a mess- it reflected my life before last night i guess- chaotic. Harsh- and now it was ok. Everything was fine. I was with Edward. And i loved him. His phone buzzed on the bedside table “Edward! You’re phones going off” i shouted. “Who is it?” he called. I looked on the screen. It was a text. Tanya mob. It said i love you too. But i will never get with you until you ditch Bella. Sorry love you Tx.
I dropped the phone on the bed and the tears escaped. He was thinking about getting back with that bitch…?


Thanks for reading. I want to give a huge thanks to megantee – who helped/ basically wrote this chapter and the next one too. You’re a legend Luvvie. You should check out her stories they are epic!
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