*by Stephenie Meyer*
TWILIGHT - chapter 21 - PHONE CALL
I held the phone to my ear. My joints were frozen with terror - I couldn't unbend my fingers to drop it.
I knew I had to think, but my head was filled with the sound of my mother's panic. Seconds ticked by while I fought for control.
Slowly, slowly, my thoughts started to break past that brick wall of pain. To plan. For I had no choices now but one: to go to the mirrored room and die. I had no guarantees, nothing to give to keep my mother alive. I could only hope that James would be satisfied with winning the game, that beating Edward would be enough. Despair gripped me; there was no way to bargain, nothing I could offer or withhold that could influence him. But I still had no choice. I had to try.
I pushed the terror back as well as I could. My decision was made. It did no good to waste time agonizing over the outcome. I had to think clearly, because Alice and Jasper were waiting for me, and evading them was absolutely essential, and absolutely impossible.
I was suddenly grateful that Jasper was gone. If he had been here to feel my anguish in the last five minutes, how could I have kept them from being suspicious? I choked back the dread, the anxiety, tried to stifle it. I couldn't afford it now. I didn't know when he would return.
I concentrated on my escape. I had to hope that my familiarity with the airport woulf turn the odds in my favor. Somehow, I had to keep Alice away....
I knew Alice was in the other room waiting for me, curious. But I had to deal with one more thing in private, before Jasper was back.
I had to accept that I wouldn't see Edward again, not even one last glimpse of his face to carry with me to the mirror room. I was going to hurt him, and I couldn't say goodbye. I let the waves of torture wash over me, have their way for a time. Then I pushed them back, too, and went to face Alice.
The only expression I could manage was a dull, dead look. I saw her alarm and I didn't wait for her to ask. I had just one script and I'd never manage improvisation now.
"My mom was worried, she wanted to come home. But it's okay, I convinced her to stay away." My voice was lifeless.
"We'll make sure she's fine, Bella, don't worry."
I turned away; I couldn't let her see my face.
My eye fell on a blank page of the hotel stationery on the desk. I went to it slowly, a plan forming. There was an envelope there, too. That was good.
"Alice," I asked slowly, without turning, keeping my voice level. "If I write a letter for my mother, would you give it to her? Leave it at the house, I mean."
"Sure, Bella." Her voice was careful. She could see me coming apart at the seems. I had to keep my emotions under better control.
I went into the bedroom again, and knelt next to the little bedside table to write.
"Edward," I wrote. My hand was shaking, the letters were hardly legible.
"I love you. I am sorry. He has my mom, and I
have to try. I know it may not work. I am so very, very
sorry.
Don't be angry with Alice or Jasper. If I get away
from them it will be a miracle. Tell them thank you for
me. Alice especially, please.
And please, please don't come after him. That's what
he wants, I think. I can't bear it if anyone has to be hurt
because of me, especially you. Please this is the only
thing I can ask you now. For me.
I love you. Forgive me.
Bella.
I folded the letter carefully, and sealed it in the envelope. Eventually he would find it. I only hoped he would understand, and listen to me just this once.
And then I carefully sealed away my heart.
TWILIGHT - chapter 21 - PHONE CALL
I held the phone to my ear. My joints were frozen with terror - I couldn't unbend my fingers to drop it.
I knew I had to think, but my head was filled with the sound of my mother's panic. Seconds ticked by while I fought for control.
Slowly, slowly, my thoughts started to break past that brick wall of pain. To plan. For I had no choices now but one: to go to the mirrored room and die. I had no guarantees, nothing to give to keep my mother alive. I could only hope that James would be satisfied with winning the game, that beating Edward would be enough. Despair gripped me; there was no way to bargain, nothing I could offer or withhold that could influence him. But I still had no choice. I had to try.
I pushed the terror back as well as I could. My decision was made. It did no good to waste time agonizing over the outcome. I had to think clearly, because Alice and Jasper were waiting for me, and evading them was absolutely essential, and absolutely impossible.
I was suddenly grateful that Jasper was gone. If he had been here to feel my anguish in the last five minutes, how could I have kept them from being suspicious? I choked back the dread, the anxiety, tried to stifle it. I couldn't afford it now. I didn't know when he would return.
I concentrated on my escape. I had to hope that my familiarity with the airport woulf turn the odds in my favor. Somehow, I had to keep Alice away....
I knew Alice was in the other room waiting for me, curious. But I had to deal with one more thing in private, before Jasper was back.
I had to accept that I wouldn't see Edward again, not even one last glimpse of his face to carry with me to the mirror room. I was going to hurt him, and I couldn't say goodbye. I let the waves of torture wash over me, have their way for a time. Then I pushed them back, too, and went to face Alice.
The only expression I could manage was a dull, dead look. I saw her alarm and I didn't wait for her to ask. I had just one script and I'd never manage improvisation now.
"My mom was worried, she wanted to come home. But it's okay, I convinced her to stay away." My voice was lifeless.
"We'll make sure she's fine, Bella, don't worry."
I turned away; I couldn't let her see my face.
My eye fell on a blank page of the hotel stationery on the desk. I went to it slowly, a plan forming. There was an envelope there, too. That was good.
"Alice," I asked slowly, without turning, keeping my voice level. "If I write a letter for my mother, would you give it to her? Leave it at the house, I mean."
"Sure, Bella." Her voice was careful. She could see me coming apart at the seems. I had to keep my emotions under better control.
I went into the bedroom again, and knelt next to the little bedside table to write.
"Edward," I wrote. My hand was shaking, the letters were hardly legible.
"I love you. I am sorry. He has my mom, and I
have to try. I know it may not work. I am so very, very
sorry.
Don't be angry with Alice or Jasper. If I get away
from them it will be a miracle. Tell them thank you for
me. Alice especially, please.
And please, please don't come after him. That's what
he wants, I think. I can't bear it if anyone has to be hurt
because of me, especially you. Please this is the only
thing I can ask you now. For me.
I love you. Forgive me.
Bella.
I folded the letter carefully, and sealed it in the envelope. Eventually he would find it. I only hoped he would understand, and listen to me just this once.
And then I carefully sealed away my heart.
i was in the car fast alseep. when Phil and Renee were in the front. i was going to meet my sister Bella and her husband Edward also Renessmen. i woke up "hey Karina were almost there" said Phil. I rolled my eyes. i saw a white house. i saw Bella and Edward there i got out of the car and ran to them "BELLA EDWARD!!!" i scream. i ran to them and gave them a hug. i saw a girl with brown hair "renessmen." i said "yes" she said i gave her a hug. "wow you're so grown up are you like 13 or what?" "i'm 17" she said "come one the rest are dying to see you" she said."hi hi" i said "AHHH KARINA" yelled Alice "hi" i gave them a hug
in the mood to be random again. *sighs*
I wrote a Article Last week on how Twilight found me, saying that the Cover did in fact haunt me.
but since i finally cave in and read. i realize that the Haunting is not over.
I'm Obsessed it's true, but this is turning scaryyyyy
I'm a disney fan okay, majorly and well..i was watching "101 Dalma.." you know, anyways, i was watching it to get my mind off of Twilight for once...
and something just jumped up in my face i thought i would share.
one of the Charaters is named Jasper.
the "Call" that the dogs do at night to send a message, is called
TWILIGHT Bark.
yeah...am i going insane? i think so..only i put in "21" with Jim surgess okay..and at the end of the movie he did something completely crazy he said a line from the Book.
"so, do i Dazzle you?"
I decided to turn off the TV and go to bed..sad thing is, the only thing i dream about is Edward.
should i be scared? O_______o
I wrote a Article Last week on how Twilight found me, saying that the Cover did in fact haunt me.
but since i finally cave in and read. i realize that the Haunting is not over.
I'm Obsessed it's true, but this is turning scaryyyyy
I'm a disney fan okay, majorly and well..i was watching "101 Dalma.." you know, anyways, i was watching it to get my mind off of Twilight for once...
and something just jumped up in my face i thought i would share.
one of the Charaters is named Jasper.
the "Call" that the dogs do at night to send a message, is called
TWILIGHT Bark.
yeah...am i going insane? i think so..only i put in "21" with Jim surgess okay..and at the end of the movie he did something completely crazy he said a line from the Book.
"so, do i Dazzle you?"
I decided to turn off the TV and go to bed..sad thing is, the only thing i dream about is Edward.
should i be scared? O_______o
Okay so I'm not one of those fans who wants the film to be exactly like the book-no offence to anyone- because I know thats just not going to happen.
But I was watching the new Twilight trailer and saw this:
Don't you think it's a little weird that all three cars are there, I thought the Cullens didn't want to bring any attention to themselves.Now I know all movies aren't like the books they're based on, Harry Potter is a great example of that. But I thought the Cullens wanting to keep themselves inconspicuous was an obvious fact that ran through the book.
I know other people have noticed changes in the movie too- like Bella having her jacket at the restaurant, and that they've changed the name of the restaurant.
I just wanted to know what other people felt about this. Either way I'm still going to see the movie, I can't wait. But does anyone think these changes will affect the experience?
But I was watching the new Twilight trailer and saw this:
Don't you think it's a little weird that all three cars are there, I thought the Cullens didn't want to bring any attention to themselves.Now I know all movies aren't like the books they're based on, Harry Potter is a great example of that. But I thought the Cullens wanting to keep themselves inconspicuous was an obvious fact that ran through the book.
I know other people have noticed changes in the movie too- like Bella having her jacket at the restaurant, and that they've changed the name of the restaurant.
I just wanted to know what other people felt about this. Either way I'm still going to see the movie, I can't wait. But does anyone think these changes will affect the experience?
So Like now EVERYONE in my school is reading twilight when I read it like before they even started to film the movie. So what what's my point? Well, my point is that before before Breaking Dawn came out, when some was reading the books it was like you would talk to them and you would talk like you've been friends forever when you've just meet the person. Now I see someone reading twilight and I eathier get tried of seeing them or get sick. Ok maybe not get sick but still you can't talk to the person like you used to talk to them, all enthusiastic and excited! And for me most of the time the real exciting stuff is in the movie and the people who read the books nowa days don't know alot stuff about the movie. I believe that the people on the fansites are the REAL CRAZY fans, because if you ask anybody else what Spunk Randsom means, they wouldn't know. Anyway i just feel like it's so not exciting anymore....