how long does it take to get home? it shouldn`t take this long.

we were sat on the plaine bella was quite i was just staring at her. what was she thinking? was she mad at me? we sat there her on a seperate seat then me did she wont to touch me? i wouldn`t if i was her.
why didn`t i leave her with jacob black he could look after her he wouldn`t have done this to her. im so stupid.
she looked awfull allready what was that thing doing to her? i hated it allready it was herting her. well a little longer a little longer i kept telling my self we were nearly there. i was losing my mind.
as we walked to meet them she was quite yet again she kept her distance. it was only a short warlk ontil we saw them all stood there lookin worried. we kept warlking to them and only rose made any move to aprouche us. i shot her warning glances but she ignored me and went straight to bella and hugged her? what was happerning. i did something i hated doing. read roses mind. you have no idea do you? she wonts to keep it edward she wonts the baby and i am going to help her have it no matter what you think she phoned me and asked for my help. your not going to kill it edward.
how could i miss this? she wonted it she wonted to keep the thing that is going to hert her. why?
we reached the car bella already asleep "do you mind if i ride with rose carslie to and alice/ i need a word with you all" they looked confused "please"
"of corse we will take bella" esme said carm of corse she had no idea what was going to happen now.
i was going to kill rose.
we walked to the car silent i slid into the back seat next to her she looked scared. good.
as soon as the door was closed it began. i turned on her.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING" i roard.
"its not my choise it hers " she sounded smug
"WHAT IF SHE DIES HAVE YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THAT? WHAT IF SHE DIES!!! i was on the verge of losing it and they knew it.
"that would be most umforchinate wouldn`t it" i was going to kill her. the car stopped i pushed her out she was going to regret this. but as soon as i was in my crouch.
"EDWARD STOP THIS ISNT RIGHT SHE IS YOUR SISTER YOU CARNT DO THIS" carslie said right behind me .
"but she is going to die carslie i can hear it in everyones thought she is going to die and she" i jabbed my finger in roses direnction " is going to help her" i broke down on my knees everything i have been fighting for was going to be taken away from me and i didnt know what els to do? i felt a hand on my shoulders
"edward what am i ment to do?" carslie asked
"get it out of her i dont care what it takes just get that thing out of her now i ddont care what it costs me i dont care if she hates me i dont care if she leaves me. i care if she`s safe i care if she is alive" i got up and ran home it was only a few minutes away and i need time to carm down bella would be awake soon.
and she was she was lay on the coach in rosalies arms rosalie tellin her it would be allright that she would be safe. rosalie and not me.
i walked next to her "bella what are you doing?"
"what do you mean" she sounded so weak i had to keep carm
"i mean what are you doing you know whats going to happen dont you? what might happen to you?"
"yes" she whispered.
"then why?"
"edward this is your child our child i am not going to kill it when who knows what will"-
"exactly who knows what will happen both of you could-could" i stopped i couldn`t thinj it about her i wouldn`t.

days passed we hardly spoke i would lie next to her play with her hair but keep her from looking in my eyes. she would see what this was doing to me she already had her bulg it was only going to be a matter of a month or less then that she belived that she would servive this i hopped she was right. he might already be able to hear me so
surprise was out jacob had already heard we were back and he was here. great.
"jacobs on his way in" i told them as i watched bellas face lighten the dull a moment later. hm.
"i will go greet him" carslie said and walked to the front door."hello jacob"
xarslie sounded carm. he was good at hiding it " how are you today?"
jacob took a deap breath. the smell. and waited for the rest.
i was dissapointed it was carslie who answered the door i would much rather it was edward who answerd fangs out carslie was just so human it was hard to think that i wad going to kill him if i had the chance.
he was planning to kill us. that didn`t sound so bad for me.
"i heard bella made it back alive" he said. ha barly.
"er jacob could we do this later this isnt the best time"
was he asking to prospone the death match
"why wont he let him in?" bella asked
"bella you not in the"-
is that bella oh i love her i love her.
"why not are we keeping secrets from jacob too whats the point?"
he heard it then the sound of the routhness in her voise how it cracked. how it wasnt bellas voise anymore. he thought she was a newborn he was trying to think back to the time when they were fighting in the field with them. its not what he was expecting.
"come on in jacob" bella called more loudly for him to hear he could hear fine
edward what is she doing? alice asked i gave her a quick shrug.
i wonder if bella is thirsty jacob thought
"excuse me" he said if there was such thing as a kind vampire it would be this gental leader.
he was so true carslie was great.
he just stood there staring at her thinking about all the bella things it was nice to read what he saw ontil he really saw her her eyes her swollen face everything that i hated seeing.
bella looked up at rose and rose emedently got it she reached on the floor nd picked a bucket witch bella threw up in this was more then i could bare she was going to peaces and there was nothing i could do about it she was deing right here infront of my eyes. i calasped on to my kneess.
"sorry abput that" bella muttered she was apoligizing for deing. i groaned real quite
"bella are you alright" he came and sat by me ignoring me completly and took her haand in his "whats wrong?"
"im so glad you came to see me to day jacob" refrase im so glad you came to see me before i died i moaned again inot the blanket and bella stroked my cheeck.
"what is it?"
"help me up rose?" bella asked i snapped my head up what was she doing?
"please"
rosalie began to help her and i had to clench my arms to stop me from pushing rose and getting bella to lie back down. she was allready to weak and the mutt didn`t know about it any way. but bella wonted this so it wasn`t my choise. again.
"no dont get up" jacob whispered
"im answering your queastion" she snapped she allways talks to me like this he laughed in his thoughts.
what head i done i leaned foward ontil i was on the pillow were bella had just been a moment ago i was killing her. and everyone knew it.
i just listerned to the thoughts of someone i have hated for ages jacob black.
rosalie helped bella of the couche edward
stayed were he was staggering foward ontil his face was burried
in the cushiones. the blanket just fell to the floor at bellas feet
bella body was swollon and sticking out in a strange sick
way it strayed against her it was well to big for her shoulders and arms. the rest of her seamed thinner like the bulge was what it had sucked from her. it took me a while to understand it wasnt untill she folder her arms over it one above one bellow like she was craderling it.
but it still didnt make sense i had just seen her a month ago and she couldn`t be pregnat not that pregnat.
except she was.
i didn`t wont to think about this about him inside her the thing i hated the most taking over the body i loved.
i couldn`t listern to his mind anymore it was sick.. i just flicked back in a while later and heard something that was true that i would never disagree.
a monster just like its farther i allways new he would kill her.
my head snapped up we were both on our knees ontil i was towering him
"outside now jacob" i snapped.
he jumped up and and was taller this time
"lets do this" he agreed with me. but not for the same reasons