Chapter 15- The End
Over the next few days I revolved everything I did around Andrew. I didn't sleep at all. I knew that if I did and woke up and found that he was dead that I would never, ever forgive myself and I would blame myself. Tom and Abby stayed because they were worried about me. I couldn't blame them. I must have been acting obsessive.
I sighed as I around at everyone as we sat in Lily's living room by the fire. It was silent other than the quiet even breathing of Lily, Abby, Tom and I. Andrew wasn't really breathing anymore. It was slightly surreal. He was dead.... I felt the tears coming, but I held them back. I had been emotionally preparing myself to this for the past few days. As soon as Doctor Cullen had left I'd started to prepare myself. I knew I couldn't though. I'd wanted a child for so long now that the fact that he was most likely gone now was heart wrenching. I felt the sobs errupting from my chest. I saw the others looking at me. I didn't think they were worried because I had broken out crying so much the past few days.
I didn't want to face them. They would only try to comfort me. I didn't want comfort. I wanted Andrew to be alright, alive. I couldn't stand to think that he was dead. It made everything worse. I stood up. Tom stood up after me. He knew from the look on my face, he knew me the best of anyone in the world. I started up the stairs, he followed me. "Esme?" he asked, I knew what he was going to question me about so I answered.
"Yes. He's dead....." I sighed finally controlling myself. I felt oddly peaceful considering the circumstances. Perhaps it was the fact that I knew that I wasn't going to live much longer than Andrew. He was the only reason I had stayed alive this long anyway.
"Es... I'm so sorry," Tom frowned and hugged me.
"Tom...." I started to tell him that I was leaving, but I had to think it through for a moment. "I'm..... leaving. I'll probably never see you again. And I just want you to know that you've helped me so much these past few years that there is no way I can repay you. I'm sorry I can't stay. I made a vow to myself that if I was ever set free I would move West. You know why. I've told you so many times I can't count, I know it will hurt you but I can't. I know it seems like I'm being completely insensitive to the situation but I can't stand to be here. With all the memories." I hugged him back tightly. "I'm really sorry," I turned and started down the hallway.
"I don't blame you Esme," he said in a quiet voice. "I know it's hard for you. And I'll miss you but I know you need to go. You deserve it, I'll tell the others. You just leave. It'll be harder for them to understand. I love you Es. I always have...." he added awkwardly kissing my cheek. I smiled.
"I know Tom. I always knew. I'll miss you too." I hugged him again and walked down the back steps leaving him standing there. I slipped silently out the back door and started running. I knew it was going to end. I knew a cliff nearby. It was perfect. I got there quickly, I sat on the edge for a few minutes. It broke my heart to lie to Tom. I was still sobbing. I had decided on this but, it didn't seem so easy now that I was here. I sighed and stood up. I was going to face this sooner or later. I'd rather it be sooner. I put my feet over the edge, closed my eyes and jumped.
Over the next few days I revolved everything I did around Andrew. I didn't sleep at all. I knew that if I did and woke up and found that he was dead that I would never, ever forgive myself and I would blame myself. Tom and Abby stayed because they were worried about me. I couldn't blame them. I must have been acting obsessive.
I sighed as I around at everyone as we sat in Lily's living room by the fire. It was silent other than the quiet even breathing of Lily, Abby, Tom and I. Andrew wasn't really breathing anymore. It was slightly surreal. He was dead.... I felt the tears coming, but I held them back. I had been emotionally preparing myself to this for the past few days. As soon as Doctor Cullen had left I'd started to prepare myself. I knew I couldn't though. I'd wanted a child for so long now that the fact that he was most likely gone now was heart wrenching. I felt the sobs errupting from my chest. I saw the others looking at me. I didn't think they were worried because I had broken out crying so much the past few days.
I didn't want to face them. They would only try to comfort me. I didn't want comfort. I wanted Andrew to be alright, alive. I couldn't stand to think that he was dead. It made everything worse. I stood up. Tom stood up after me. He knew from the look on my face, he knew me the best of anyone in the world. I started up the stairs, he followed me. "Esme?" he asked, I knew what he was going to question me about so I answered.
"Yes. He's dead....." I sighed finally controlling myself. I felt oddly peaceful considering the circumstances. Perhaps it was the fact that I knew that I wasn't going to live much longer than Andrew. He was the only reason I had stayed alive this long anyway.
"Es... I'm so sorry," Tom frowned and hugged me.
"Tom...." I started to tell him that I was leaving, but I had to think it through for a moment. "I'm..... leaving. I'll probably never see you again. And I just want you to know that you've helped me so much these past few years that there is no way I can repay you. I'm sorry I can't stay. I made a vow to myself that if I was ever set free I would move West. You know why. I've told you so many times I can't count, I know it will hurt you but I can't. I know it seems like I'm being completely insensitive to the situation but I can't stand to be here. With all the memories." I hugged him back tightly. "I'm really sorry," I turned and started down the hallway.
"I don't blame you Esme," he said in a quiet voice. "I know it's hard for you. And I'll miss you but I know you need to go. You deserve it, I'll tell the others. You just leave. It'll be harder for them to understand. I love you Es. I always have...." he added awkwardly kissing my cheek. I smiled.
"I know Tom. I always knew. I'll miss you too." I hugged him again and walked down the back steps leaving him standing there. I slipped silently out the back door and started running. I knew it was going to end. I knew a cliff nearby. It was perfect. I got there quickly, I sat on the edge for a few minutes. It broke my heart to lie to Tom. I was still sobbing. I had decided on this but, it didn't seem so easy now that I was here. I sighed and stood up. I was going to face this sooner or later. I'd rather it be sooner. I put my feet over the edge, closed my eyes and jumped.
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I smiled at him. He looked at me and smiled his crocked smile. I got dressed fast and when I looked out the window he wasn't there. i looked to my side and there he was. Charlie must have left. "you ready?" he asked me "almost" I said I ran over to my room and got my book bag. "lets go" I said. We got to the school he steel did not say happy birthday. every body was staring at us again not that I can blame them I mean average old me with an Angel. He walked me over to the door were Alice and Jasper were waiting on us. "happy Birthday" they all yelled "thanks guys" we walked in and my angel and I had to separate tell lunch "see you then" I said then Alice and I were off to class. "I have a surprise for you" she said......
I smiled at him. He looked at me and smiled his crocked smile. I got dressed fast and when I looked out the window he wasn't there. i looked to my side and there he was. Charlie must have left. "you ready?" he asked me "almost" I said I ran over to my room and got my book bag. "lets go" I said. We got to the school he steel did not say happy birthday. every body was staring at us again not that I can blame them I mean average old me with an Angel. He walked me over to the door were Alice and Jasper were waiting on us. "happy Birthday" they all yelled "thanks guys" we walked in and my angel and I had to separate tell lunch "see you then" I said then Alice and I were off to class. "I have a surprise for you" she said......
If you have read my artical/story called Full Moon theres alot of articals caled Full Moons but make sure its by twilightfan03 thats me i have created a spot for where i will be writing full moon part 3 and the rest of my saga so be sure to join it thanks for reading and joining
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if you are wondering whats it about then its about
then its about the cullens and vampires
If you have any question ten feel free to ask me thank you for your supporting
1. Death Cab For Cutie – “Meet Me On The Equinox”
2. Band Of Skulls – “Friends”
3. Thom Yorke – “Hearing Damage”
4. Lykke Li – “Possibility”
5. The Killers – “A White Demon Love Song”
6. Anya Marina – “Satellite Heart”
7. Muse – “I Belong To You (New Moon)”
8. Bon Iver and St. Vincent – “Roslyn”
9. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club – “Done All Wrong”
10. Hurricane Bells – “Monsters”
11. Sea Wolf – “The Violet Hour”
12. OK Go – “Shooting The Moon”
13. Grizzly Bear – “Slow Life”
14. Editors – “No Sound But The Wind”
15. Alexandre Desplat – “New Moon (The Meadow)”
News broke yesterday that Twilight actor Jackson Rathbone was hurt while filming and was rushed to a nearby Vancouver hospital. It is being reported that the actor was filming one of the many intense fight scenes from Eclipse and encountered a "slight and unidentified injury." A spokesperson from Summit said, "As a precaution, he was driven to the hospital and checked out by a doctor. He's fine and is back at work on the set of Eclipse today." Ashley Greene even tweeted about Jackson coming back onto set and was happy to see he was doing better.
OMG! The New Moon soundtrack songs & artists have been announced! The highly-anticipated album comes out Oct.13, but here are the artists/ songs featured in it....
1. Death Cab For Cutie: Meet Me On The Equinox
2. Band Of Skulls: Friends
3. Thom Yorke: Hering Damage
4. Lykke Li: Possibility
5. The Killers: A White Demon Love Song
6. Anya Marina: Satellite Heart
7. Muse: I Belong To You
8. Bon Iver and St. Vincent: Rosyln
9. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club: Done All Wrong
10. Hurricane Bells: Monsters
11. Sea Wolf: The Violet Hour
12. Ok Go: Shooting The Moon
13. Grizzly Bear: Slow Life
14. Editors: No Sound But The Wind
15. Alexandre Desplat: The Meadow
Let's hope it's as good as the first one! :)
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1. Death Cab For Cutie: Meet Me On The Equinox
2. Band Of Skulls: Friends
3. Thom Yorke: Hering Damage
4. Lykke Li: Possibility
5. The Killers: A White Demon Love Song
6. Anya Marina: Satellite Heart
7. Muse: I Belong To You
8. Bon Iver and St. Vincent: Rosyln
9. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club: Done All Wrong
10. Hurricane Bells: Monsters
11. Sea Wolf: The Violet Hour
12. Ok Go: Shooting The Moon
13. Grizzly Bear: Slow Life
14. Editors: No Sound But The Wind
15. Alexandre Desplat: The Meadow
Let's hope it's as good as the first one! :)
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