(end of chapter 2)
I was in the forest running and I kept falling down trying to chase edward no matter how fast I ran I kept losing him then it started raining I was all wet but I didn’t give up cause I knew if I didn’t chase him my life would be useless I kept running and finally I caught him I went to talk to him but then Jacob came and grabbed me by my wrist and dragged me away from him no matter how hard I hit him he just kept running and saying some nonsense about edward and his family being dangerous. I woke up crying it was 3:00 AM I wanted to sleep but I couldn’t 3 hours passed I got up and got ready to go to school I was really hungry so I had pancakes and decided to walk to school. while I was walking I thought about edward I really didn’t want to think about him cause it hurt too much but I couldn’t help it I didn’t had anything else to think about , I was trying to imagine what he was doing right now he could be hunting ,be with another vampire perhaps Tanya Alice told me how much she loved edward that made me very angry and jealous I stopped walking and leaned on a tree I couldn’t walk anymore cause i couldn’t breath it was like I had no longs whenever I think about them this happens its like I'm being ripped in two pieces when I heard someone behind me some part of me wished it was edward when I turned around I frowned it was Jacob I hate him so much I think its because of the dreams I was having he always tried to take me away from edward
-hi
Jacob said with a grin I didn’t like him but some part of me did, god what's wrong with me I wish I didn’t have that some part its making me crazy!!!
-hi
I said coldly trying to avoid that some part
-are you ok? Your white
-yeah I'm great just walking to school
-I thought your school starts at 8:00 AM
-yeah I didn’t feel like driving so I wanted to walk slowly
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After chit chatting with jake I started walking again when I got to school the parking lot was full, so I hurried to class.
At lunch break I sat with Angela and Jessica they were talking about this sale at port angels .Angela asked me if I wanted to go with them but Jessica wasn’t happy with that Idea and I really wasn’t in the mood to hang out with them so I said no.
After school I went to la push again and sat on the edge of the cliff thinking about my life about edward, Charlie ,Renée , jake ,myself………………………… my head was spinning I stood up but my feet slid of the edge and I was falling I screamed then a hot hand caught me and turned me around it was jake.
-oh god um ,um thank you
I said panting
-y-your welcome
-I thought I was really going to die !! I never thought jumping from here is that scary i………………
-have you been planning to jump of this cliff?
Jake asked what have I told him I recalled are conversation ,ooooh I think I told him too much
-no , no why should I ever do that ??? I mean I'm not crazy!
And he might come back some day I added in my mind
-OK
He said suspicious
-I, um I should go now , bye
And I ran to the street and walked back to home when I got home I went and took a shower and cooked fried fish fore Charlie and called him at worck to see what took him so long
-hi dad where are you
-hey Bella, there was an animal attack and some hikers are missing were trying to find out some clues I will be home in one hour okay?
- sure be careful
-always am bye
-bye
Then I hung up the phone and went to my room I was thinking about today when an idea popped in my mind it wasn’t a very good idea but still it might work I took my phone out of my pocket and called edward I was hoping he would answer when a musical voice said
-hello?
This wasn’t edward or any of his family members it was a females voice
-could I talk to edward?
-sure, edward honey phone!!
Did she call him honey then she laughed and there was a kissing sound WHAT????? Edward was kissing another vampire???
-hello?
Edward said I couldn’t take it so I throw my phone at the wall and it broke in two pieces I was so shocked I was here sitting not able to move on crying all day and there he was sleeping around with female vampires I was so furious that I didn’t know what to do?
When the phone down stairs rang I thought it was Charlie but then a musical voice said
-Bella Bella can you hear me? Sor…………
I screamed at the phone and throw on the ground I was subbing so hard that my legs gave out and I fell on the ground then the phone rang again didn’t that stupid thing broke I answered the phone still subbing but it wasn’t edward
-hello
I said still subbing
-hey bells its Jacob………..
I really wasn’t in the mood to talk to jake I screamed again subbing harder I was hanging up the phone when jake said
-Bella r you okay?
He asked worried
-NO!!!!!
I screamed and hung the phone I got up and throw everything on the ground I broke every glass dish the table and lots of other stuff that the house looked like a junk yard then I fell on my knees and started crying that I couldn’t breath all I could think about was how much I hated edward then the door flew open and jake and his friend sam came in they were both shocked when they saw what I did to the house
-Bella are you okay what happened did you do this????????????
-get out !!!!!!
I shouted and punched the floor with my two hands and I kept saying get out , get out
- Bella please stop we want to help!
Sam said worried that I lost my mind I wasn’t thinking I just opened my moth and started shouting
-you want to HELP huh how can you help me??? No one can help me!!!!!
Tears raced down my cheek
-is it about edward or the cullens? Bella we know what they are just tell us! please
They both asked I wasn’t thinking and opened my big mouth again
-yes it is why do you care?
I said and then added in a whisper
-I want to be alone and die