Chapter 18
we were talking about leaving and then jacob said"Well we all cant go that would mean bella's all alone"
"Ill watch her"i said and tanya's thoughts
edward do you really think thats a good idea
"Like i would trust you"he said showing me picturesof bella in his head
you hurt her so badhe showed me pictures of when i left ans sam found he i flinched
"Stop what ever you are doing"tanya said to him,jacobs thoughts changedso you dumped bella for this bloude bim-bow
"What ever you say let me go cheak on her"he said and left to there room,that bothered me so much i had so much jelously right now,How could she love a dog?i have to tell her how i feel,but i might have hurt her to much,she might never love me
"Edward,be good"alice said and kissed me on the head,all of the dogs are out side changed and waiting for jacob
jacob was coming out of the room and was thinkinggosh i hope the stupid bloodsuckers dont mess wih vics head any more she looked really upset earlier,Stubid bloodsucker all ways messin with my girls
"Come on vamps show us where to go"he said and ran out side and changed
i looked at the photos on the shelf there was bella smiling next to jacob and vickie was on his sholders,next was one of vickie swimming,next was bella and her mom on lawn chairs and in bathing suits,next was jacob holding bella,next was 2 big wolfs with vic and that was it i turned around to see bella yarning
"Bella im sorry this is all my fault"i said and couldnt keep my mask off so she seen all the pain on my face
she flinched
"Edward its not your fault she's crazy"she told me
"But if i would have never left you would not have gotten hurt and fell in love with him"
i said she went and got a Monster out of the fridge and shook her head
"It not your fault,and i dont know what to tell you about the other stuff"she said and sipped the drink
"Bella do you know why i left?"i asked her she looked at me
"Ya,cause you didnt want to petend to be human any more and you didnt love me any more"she said looking down at her drink
"I lied"i said and she choked and her drink
"Why the hell would you do that?"she asked me,her voice a little mad,i was shocked,jacob has her sayng hell
"Cause i didnt want to hurt you anymore,and the more things that happened to you stacked against us as a couple and now i see i was wrong"she looked at me with shocked eyes i step foward
"if i wouldn't have left i could have been there when that dog wasn't and protected you from her"i said and she walked over to me and stood in front of me
"Edward cullen dont say stuff like that,i moved on like you wanted me too,i fell in love and dont call him a dog"she said to me with anger i bent down and kissed her,she pulled back
"I love you"i said she looked at me
"I would slap you right now but it wouldn't do you any good it would hurt me more,and dont ever kiss me again"she said,that hurt so much i could kill him but it would hurt her even more
"Bella i love you so much,what you just did hurt like hell"i said she just looked at me
"I felt hurt when you left me in the woods and said hurtfull things and back off or ill tell jake"she said and flinch and chuckled
"What is so funny?"she demanded getting really mad
"That you think jacob could hurt me"i said and laughed,she walked away
"Edward why did you stay?did you just stay to tell me you loved me,well i loved you along time ago not anymore,now i love alice and dont want her to leave cause she is one of my best friends"she said and took another sip of her monster,she doesn't love me any more but she loves my family,thats so unfair,i will always wait for her,if he breaks her heart ill be here for her,ill allways love her for ever
"Bella i love you and always will,and if he ever breaks your heart or dont want to be with him,i all ways be here for you"i said with a warm smile
"Why?edward move on,come on go with tanya she is so in love with you and you dont even look at her,thats rude and what makes you think i would choose you anyway if jake broke up with me??"she asked me and i looked way
"Bella im sorry please forgive me?"i asked her she has all this anger and its all coming out at me
"Edward im glad you left or i would never have fell in love with a person who can age with me and my daughter,i forgive you and thank you"she said and smiled,gosh i love that smile it was so hot,i just wanted to run and kiss her
"Now edward will you move on and ask tanya out?"she asked me
"ill try and move on but im not so sure on the tanya part."i said i know she's in love with me but...i never thought of anyone like that but bella
"come on just block out her thought it wont be that bad"she said and walked to her room,i followed and i seen vickie's face
"she gotten so big since i seen her last"i said and looked around the room bella laid on the bed and put her arms around vickie
"i know she has the most cutest little curls"she said i smiled
"you dont mind if i stand here do you?'i asked her
"nope but you have to stand right there"she said and closed her eyes
i looked around the room and on the floor was a raper,it was a condom raper
she has sleep with him and there not even married GOSH i got to get out if this room before i think what they have done,gross,i could kill him
i walked out of the room and sat on the couch and waited
3 hours later
Jacob was just walking in with Seth,seth was thinki hope bella wont be mad,i really hope she under stands
"You imprinted on a baby."i said and said it with alot if distaste
"Shut up"seth said with angeri cant beleave i imprinted on a baby not to add bella's baby
"Seth dont let it get to you he's like over a hundred and he went out with a 17 year old"Jacob said and laughed
"But she's just a baby"seth said"what if bella hates me and never wants me to come around her anymore"seth said with hurt in his voice
"i dont know,i cant tell you how she will react"jacob said walking in to his room,then came out
"Like my room it nice and big,dont you wish you never left her"he said and when and got bella's monster and finshed it
"Yes i with i would have never left her and she knows that,just so you know"i said and smiled at him,he looked at me with shocked eyes
"Bella would never leave him,she told me that one of the reasons she went and got you was to make sure he never got hurt and she really wanted to see alice"seth said i winced
"She did?"jacob asked
"Duh"he said and laughed"jake your so dumb"seth added
"Well eat that bloodsucker and get out of my house"jacob told me and smiled
i walked out and ran home to find alice danceing with jasper in the living room to taylor swift
"What's all this about?"i asked why are thay so happy
"alice thought bella would hate her for leaveing but..."jasper said but got cut off by alice
"i had a vision and she still loves me!!"alice said with exsitement,japer was always happy when she was
we were talking about leaving and then jacob said"Well we all cant go that would mean bella's all alone"
"Ill watch her"i said and tanya's thoughts
edward do you really think thats a good idea
"Like i would trust you"he said showing me picturesof bella in his head
you hurt her so badhe showed me pictures of when i left ans sam found he i flinched
"Stop what ever you are doing"tanya said to him,jacobs thoughts changedso you dumped bella for this bloude bim-bow
"What ever you say let me go cheak on her"he said and left to there room,that bothered me so much i had so much jelously right now,How could she love a dog?i have to tell her how i feel,but i might have hurt her to much,she might never love me
"Edward,be good"alice said and kissed me on the head,all of the dogs are out side changed and waiting for jacob
jacob was coming out of the room and was thinkinggosh i hope the stupid bloodsuckers dont mess wih vics head any more she looked really upset earlier,Stubid bloodsucker all ways messin with my girls
"Come on vamps show us where to go"he said and ran out side and changed
i looked at the photos on the shelf there was bella smiling next to jacob and vickie was on his sholders,next was one of vickie swimming,next was bella and her mom on lawn chairs and in bathing suits,next was jacob holding bella,next was 2 big wolfs with vic and that was it i turned around to see bella yarning
"Bella im sorry this is all my fault"i said and couldnt keep my mask off so she seen all the pain on my face
she flinched
"Edward its not your fault she's crazy"she told me
"But if i would have never left you would not have gotten hurt and fell in love with him"
i said she went and got a Monster out of the fridge and shook her head
"It not your fault,and i dont know what to tell you about the other stuff"she said and sipped the drink
"Bella do you know why i left?"i asked her she looked at me
"Ya,cause you didnt want to petend to be human any more and you didnt love me any more"she said looking down at her drink
"I lied"i said and she choked and her drink
"Why the hell would you do that?"she asked me,her voice a little mad,i was shocked,jacob has her sayng hell
"Cause i didnt want to hurt you anymore,and the more things that happened to you stacked against us as a couple and now i see i was wrong"she looked at me with shocked eyes i step foward
"if i wouldn't have left i could have been there when that dog wasn't and protected you from her"i said and she walked over to me and stood in front of me
"Edward cullen dont say stuff like that,i moved on like you wanted me too,i fell in love and dont call him a dog"she said to me with anger i bent down and kissed her,she pulled back
"I love you"i said she looked at me
"I would slap you right now but it wouldn't do you any good it would hurt me more,and dont ever kiss me again"she said,that hurt so much i could kill him but it would hurt her even more
"Bella i love you so much,what you just did hurt like hell"i said she just looked at me
"I felt hurt when you left me in the woods and said hurtfull things and back off or ill tell jake"she said and flinch and chuckled
"What is so funny?"she demanded getting really mad
"That you think jacob could hurt me"i said and laughed,she walked away
"Edward why did you stay?did you just stay to tell me you loved me,well i loved you along time ago not anymore,now i love alice and dont want her to leave cause she is one of my best friends"she said and took another sip of her monster,she doesn't love me any more but she loves my family,thats so unfair,i will always wait for her,if he breaks her heart ill be here for her,ill allways love her for ever
"Bella i love you and always will,and if he ever breaks your heart or dont want to be with him,i all ways be here for you"i said with a warm smile
"Why?edward move on,come on go with tanya she is so in love with you and you dont even look at her,thats rude and what makes you think i would choose you anyway if jake broke up with me??"she asked me and i looked way
"Bella im sorry please forgive me?"i asked her she has all this anger and its all coming out at me
"Edward im glad you left or i would never have fell in love with a person who can age with me and my daughter,i forgive you and thank you"she said and smiled,gosh i love that smile it was so hot,i just wanted to run and kiss her
"Now edward will you move on and ask tanya out?"she asked me
"ill try and move on but im not so sure on the tanya part."i said i know she's in love with me but...i never thought of anyone like that but bella
"come on just block out her thought it wont be that bad"she said and walked to her room,i followed and i seen vickie's face
"she gotten so big since i seen her last"i said and looked around the room bella laid on the bed and put her arms around vickie
"i know she has the most cutest little curls"she said i smiled
"you dont mind if i stand here do you?'i asked her
"nope but you have to stand right there"she said and closed her eyes
i looked around the room and on the floor was a raper,it was a condom raper
she has sleep with him and there not even married GOSH i got to get out if this room before i think what they have done,gross,i could kill him
i walked out of the room and sat on the couch and waited
3 hours later
Jacob was just walking in with Seth,seth was thinki hope bella wont be mad,i really hope she under stands
"You imprinted on a baby."i said and said it with alot if distaste
"Shut up"seth said with angeri cant beleave i imprinted on a baby not to add bella's baby
"Seth dont let it get to you he's like over a hundred and he went out with a 17 year old"Jacob said and laughed
"But she's just a baby"seth said"what if bella hates me and never wants me to come around her anymore"seth said with hurt in his voice
"i dont know,i cant tell you how she will react"jacob said walking in to his room,then came out
"Like my room it nice and big,dont you wish you never left her"he said and when and got bella's monster and finshed it
"Yes i with i would have never left her and she knows that,just so you know"i said and smiled at him,he looked at me with shocked eyes
"Bella would never leave him,she told me that one of the reasons she went and got you was to make sure he never got hurt and she really wanted to see alice"seth said i winced
"She did?"jacob asked
"Duh"he said and laughed"jake your so dumb"seth added
"Well eat that bloodsucker and get out of my house"jacob told me and smiled
i walked out and ran home to find alice danceing with jasper in the living room to taylor swift
"What's all this about?"i asked why are thay so happy
"alice thought bella would hate her for leaveing but..."jasper said but got cut off by alice
"i had a vision and she still loves me!!"alice said with exsitement,japer was always happy when she was
Well, alot of you know that there is a downloadable "Bella's Lullaby" in the Links tab or a person from LiveJournal has it. Well, the question is... Is it the real thing? Well, in the book, Bella's Lullaby is described as a complex piece (with Edward's hands drifting into the ebony and ivory keys). Then the song ends in a meloncholic chord. Well, if you have heard the downloadable version, it does sound complex and it has a meloncholic chord at the end of it. But notes are still played after it... So, is it the real Lullaby? I'm not sure. It is a beautiful piece and whoever wrote it is amazing! What do you guys think?
PS. Alot of people on youtube have videos saying Yiruma's, "River Flows In You" is the Lullaby, but that is not true. Bella's Lullaby is composed by Carter Burwell (announced from MTV, StephenieMeyer.com, Summit). But we all wish they had kept Rob's version :)
PS. Alot of people on youtube have videos saying Yiruma's, "River Flows In You" is the Lullaby, but that is not true. Bella's Lullaby is composed by Carter Burwell (announced from MTV, StephenieMeyer.com, Summit). But we all wish they had kept Rob's version :)