- I know… I’m late! Sorry…
With my eyes closed, I searched for his Ice cold lips and as I found them, he came closer to me so I could kiss him easier. After we kissed, He chuckled and I opened my eyes.
-I was getting worried! Where were you?
He pressed his lips together and said:
-Alice was not in a good mood… I needed to talk to her! You know how she gets when she’s upset! She would probably like a shopping time with you!
-Of course. I’ll talk to her about it.
Edward grinned and hugged me. After playing with my hair, He started humming my lullaby. I leaned closer to him and placed myself in his arms. I was going to sleep when Edward got me out of his hands, kissed my forehead and left. All I could feel was that he left and then sleep didn’t let me to see where he went.
My morning, started with a miserable headache. I woke up with a sudden shock when I found Edward on my chair.
-What are you doing here?!
He looked at me with lazy eyes and said:
-Do you want me to go, then?
I stretched myself and after a short silence, I said:
-No, no! Of course not… I’m just confused. I saw you going out in the midnight…
-Yes, I did.
I was looking at him with two zero shaped eyes.
-I couldn’t stay…
When he saw my face, He started:
- I was having that heart attack thing again. I don’t know what’s wrong with me…
-Oh!
Remembering the time he had this same problem, made me almost shake. It was the saddest moment when Edward’s eyes were red… I couldn’t erase it from my memory. Neither my nightmares… Nightmares were my best friends now… They were always with me.
-Do you want to come over for the afternoon?! Charlie is in a good mood and Emmet and Jasper will come back from hunting. And you can spend some quality time with Alice.
He said Jasper's name with some kind of sadness. I suddenly came out of the bad memory and said:
-I would love to. I’ll ask Charlie! Why didn’t you go hunting by the way?
His teeth clenched and then he said:
-I’m not thirsty… I had two mountain lions last week. That should be enough for me!
We both chuckled and he left from the window to go change. After I had my breakfast and I cleaned up the mess Charlie had made while toasting bread, I went out of the house with my bag. Edward was there, standing with a new shirt which made him look like a super model as if he never did!
-You look lovely!
I half-smiled and said:
-oh! Really?! You too!
Before sitting in his car, he kissed my forehead and then I rushed in his car. School passed very fast. Except, in the cafeteria which I saw that new girl looking to Edward, while he chuckled.
-what are you laughing at?
-That girl's thoughts. She's jealous of you!
I pressed my lips and tried to be patience as I could feel that girl’s eyes on us. As same as always Edward just played with his food and I couldn’t eat though because of my headache. I called Charlie and told him I was going to be with Alice and other members of Cullen family. I could tell that he was comfortable when I was with Alice. Edward was right! Alice was really upset and it was jasper's job to cheer her up with his ability. Esme kissed me on the cheek and welcomed me with a big hug.
Jasper was sitting on a sofa, looking at me with a smile. Alice came downstairs to meet me while I could read her sad eyes.
-Bella!
She ran toward me and gave me a short hug. Emmet and Rosalie were standing in the room, and Rosalie was looking at me with her eyes, almost burning me.
-We’ll go to Seattle.
I frowned when Alice spoiled the time we would have together.
-Thanks for predicting!
They all laughed and I felt Edward’s hand on my shoulder. Alice held my hand and said:
-Let’s go!
I smiled. Edward came after me and while he kissed me, he said:
-Don’t do anything silly or dangerous! Ok?
I nodded and Alice got me to his yellow porche. I could feel her happiness every time she looked at the yellow car and it made me happy too.
-OK, So…
She started the engine and headed out of the house. I really needed new shirts and probably a new pair of jeans. She turned on the radio and till the half of the way, we didn’t talk.
-Jasper wants to go.
I frowned, turned my head and looked at her curiously, waiting for the rest of what she knew.
With my eyes closed, I searched for his Ice cold lips and as I found them, he came closer to me so I could kiss him easier. After we kissed, He chuckled and I opened my eyes.
-I was getting worried! Where were you?
He pressed his lips together and said:
-Alice was not in a good mood… I needed to talk to her! You know how she gets when she’s upset! She would probably like a shopping time with you!
-Of course. I’ll talk to her about it.
Edward grinned and hugged me. After playing with my hair, He started humming my lullaby. I leaned closer to him and placed myself in his arms. I was going to sleep when Edward got me out of his hands, kissed my forehead and left. All I could feel was that he left and then sleep didn’t let me to see where he went.
My morning, started with a miserable headache. I woke up with a sudden shock when I found Edward on my chair.
-What are you doing here?!
He looked at me with lazy eyes and said:
-Do you want me to go, then?
I stretched myself and after a short silence, I said:
-No, no! Of course not… I’m just confused. I saw you going out in the midnight…
-Yes, I did.
I was looking at him with two zero shaped eyes.
-I couldn’t stay…
When he saw my face, He started:
- I was having that heart attack thing again. I don’t know what’s wrong with me…
-Oh!
Remembering the time he had this same problem, made me almost shake. It was the saddest moment when Edward’s eyes were red… I couldn’t erase it from my memory. Neither my nightmares… Nightmares were my best friends now… They were always with me.
-Do you want to come over for the afternoon?! Charlie is in a good mood and Emmet and Jasper will come back from hunting. And you can spend some quality time with Alice.
He said Jasper's name with some kind of sadness. I suddenly came out of the bad memory and said:
-I would love to. I’ll ask Charlie! Why didn’t you go hunting by the way?
His teeth clenched and then he said:
-I’m not thirsty… I had two mountain lions last week. That should be enough for me!
We both chuckled and he left from the window to go change. After I had my breakfast and I cleaned up the mess Charlie had made while toasting bread, I went out of the house with my bag. Edward was there, standing with a new shirt which made him look like a super model as if he never did!
-You look lovely!
I half-smiled and said:
-oh! Really?! You too!
Before sitting in his car, he kissed my forehead and then I rushed in his car. School passed very fast. Except, in the cafeteria which I saw that new girl looking to Edward, while he chuckled.
-what are you laughing at?
-That girl's thoughts. She's jealous of you!
I pressed my lips and tried to be patience as I could feel that girl’s eyes on us. As same as always Edward just played with his food and I couldn’t eat though because of my headache. I called Charlie and told him I was going to be with Alice and other members of Cullen family. I could tell that he was comfortable when I was with Alice. Edward was right! Alice was really upset and it was jasper's job to cheer her up with his ability. Esme kissed me on the cheek and welcomed me with a big hug.
Jasper was sitting on a sofa, looking at me with a smile. Alice came downstairs to meet me while I could read her sad eyes.
-Bella!
She ran toward me and gave me a short hug. Emmet and Rosalie were standing in the room, and Rosalie was looking at me with her eyes, almost burning me.
-We’ll go to Seattle.
I frowned when Alice spoiled the time we would have together.
-Thanks for predicting!
They all laughed and I felt Edward’s hand on my shoulder. Alice held my hand and said:
-Let’s go!
I smiled. Edward came after me and while he kissed me, he said:
-Don’t do anything silly or dangerous! Ok?
I nodded and Alice got me to his yellow porche. I could feel her happiness every time she looked at the yellow car and it made me happy too.
-OK, So…
She started the engine and headed out of the house. I really needed new shirts and probably a new pair of jeans. She turned on the radio and till the half of the way, we didn’t talk.
-Jasper wants to go.
I frowned, turned my head and looked at her curiously, waiting for the rest of what she knew.
Blood!
alone in the dark i cannot breathe
where is my heart its locked inside of me
somewhere i cant go on.im scared yeah i feel all alone
where did you go my only love
yes time moves on without me.
im not as strong as you want me to be
you tell me you dont want me
and that you must leave.
oh i fall on my knees
yeah i i cannot breathe
was it not enough to want you
forever and a day
i am sorry that you feel that way.
for i will love you yeah till the end of time.
even then i will.in my world you will still be mine.
ive cried myself out .im numb of the pain
null and void practicaly insane
yeah i hear voices all the time
only yours my love and only in my mind
can you hear me screaming out to you
i love you forever i will be here waiting for you
where is my heart its locked inside of me
somewhere i cant go on.im scared yeah i feel all alone
where did you go my only love
yes time moves on without me.
im not as strong as you want me to be
you tell me you dont want me
and that you must leave.
oh i fall on my knees
yeah i i cannot breathe
was it not enough to want you
forever and a day
i am sorry that you feel that way.
for i will love you yeah till the end of time.
even then i will.in my world you will still be mine.
ive cried myself out .im numb of the pain
null and void practicaly insane
yeah i hear voices all the time
only yours my love and only in my mind
can you hear me screaming out to you
i love you forever i will be here waiting for you
