Preseny day
How did you control yourself Jasper asked. I looked at my son who struggled with this part of being a vampire and said It took all my control. I don’t know why maybe because in some way we were soul mates and I loved her with everything I had. It came close many times. I don’t know how you and Edward did it but yall have so much self control Emmett said. I looked at my usually humorous son and all I saw was wonder and wishful thinking. Esme was standing beside me now and whispered in my ear ‘I love you’. Esme loved me with every understanding and passion that she could. I love you always i told her. Our eyes locked and we were in our own little world. She knows this still hurts me and she stands by me while I speak of my first love. She ceases to amaze me. Did you stay to meet Diana Rosalie asked.
I hunted deer in a near by meadow after I ventured into famailer territory. My father’s farm.Their still were familiar faces their but their was a different vibe about it. I didn’t see my father .A good thing I don’t think I could have handled meeting him that particular moment. I was fixing to cut into Diana’s family farm when I saw my mom’s rose garden. It was beautiful as always though a little unkept. The longer I stood there sadness crept in. if my heart was able to stop it would have because there in the center on the garden was a wooden cross.
Rebecca Cullen –mother,wife, and friend,
1635-1664
It was then when my body was shaking that I realized I was crying. It was the first tears I shed as a vampire. I cried until I could take no more. My mother died just a year after my disappearance. What it most have cost her to lose her only son. My hatred for my father grew. Not only had he cost me my life with Diana but he cost my mother her life and me a mother. I broke out of the past as I heard my daughters crying. Carlisle you must have been heart broken Bella cried. Im sorry Rosalie and Alice said in a low voice. I was but I had to get back to Diana before she could think the worse. So I gathered myself and my thoughts and headed toward to the orchard. Diana was seated under the tree by the pond we called ours. She must have been waiting because she broke into a grim smile when she saw me. I was beginning to think none of this was real.That you were still gone she whispered. Its very real and its still a nightmare though it seems like a good one I told her as I took her in my arms. A good Nightmare? My Nightmare ended last night when you snuck through my window Dinah said. I had come back to convince you to move on. That it was ok to move on and love someone else I whispered into her hair. Their wasn’t a hole lot of convincing last night was there? Or just not the convincing you had in mind Dinah said with a look of embarresment. She hid deeper into my chest and I had to stop from losing control.
How did you control yourself Jasper asked. I looked at my son who struggled with this part of being a vampire and said It took all my control. I don’t know why maybe because in some way we were soul mates and I loved her with everything I had. It came close many times. I don’t know how you and Edward did it but yall have so much self control Emmett said. I looked at my usually humorous son and all I saw was wonder and wishful thinking. Esme was standing beside me now and whispered in my ear ‘I love you’. Esme loved me with every understanding and passion that she could. I love you always i told her. Our eyes locked and we were in our own little world. She knows this still hurts me and she stands by me while I speak of my first love. She ceases to amaze me. Did you stay to meet Diana Rosalie asked.
I hunted deer in a near by meadow after I ventured into famailer territory. My father’s farm.Their still were familiar faces their but their was a different vibe about it. I didn’t see my father .A good thing I don’t think I could have handled meeting him that particular moment. I was fixing to cut into Diana’s family farm when I saw my mom’s rose garden. It was beautiful as always though a little unkept. The longer I stood there sadness crept in. if my heart was able to stop it would have because there in the center on the garden was a wooden cross.
Rebecca Cullen –mother,wife, and friend,
1635-1664
It was then when my body was shaking that I realized I was crying. It was the first tears I shed as a vampire. I cried until I could take no more. My mother died just a year after my disappearance. What it most have cost her to lose her only son. My hatred for my father grew. Not only had he cost me my life with Diana but he cost my mother her life and me a mother. I broke out of the past as I heard my daughters crying. Carlisle you must have been heart broken Bella cried. Im sorry Rosalie and Alice said in a low voice. I was but I had to get back to Diana before she could think the worse. So I gathered myself and my thoughts and headed toward to the orchard. Diana was seated under the tree by the pond we called ours. She must have been waiting because she broke into a grim smile when she saw me. I was beginning to think none of this was real.That you were still gone she whispered. Its very real and its still a nightmare though it seems like a good one I told her as I took her in my arms. A good Nightmare? My Nightmare ended last night when you snuck through my window Dinah said. I had come back to convince you to move on. That it was ok to move on and love someone else I whispered into her hair. Their wasn’t a hole lot of convincing last night was there? Or just not the convincing you had in mind Dinah said with a look of embarresment. She hid deeper into my chest and I had to stop from losing control.
My eyes were opened when I first saw you,you made my heart skip a beat,I heard nothing but yours...your heart,Never have felt the way I feel about you in a century,I want you around me,but I'm in a dilema...you need to know
Chorus: Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist,every move you make,every step you take,every word you say,every breath you take makes my heart ache,Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist
I couldn't stop thinking about you,so oh,oh I revealed who I was,i could not hide, they say that's what happens when "two hearts collide" and I didn't believe until I experienced it,Does not change the fact that oh Bella you need to hear
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But now looking since you are mine,I guess you could say we are doing fine but Im still reserved ,you think Im obsurd for saying I have to be careful but the fact still remains...
(Chorus)
Chorus: Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist,every move you make,every step you take,every word you say,every breath you take makes my heart ache,Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist
I couldn't stop thinking about you,so oh,oh I revealed who I was,i could not hide, they say that's what happens when "two hearts collide" and I didn't believe until I experienced it,Does not change the fact that oh Bella you need to hear
(Chorus)
But now looking since you are mine,I guess you could say we are doing fine but Im still reserved ,you think Im obsurd for saying I have to be careful but the fact still remains...
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i have been with Edward for 2 years and i don't feel like our relationship is going anywhere, all we do now is have sex and that's mainly it. we were better of friends than boyfriend and gorlfriend i mean before we got together we used to talk, hang out and everything. i miss it.
but resantly Edwrad has been distint i mean he comes knocking for me at 1 0 clock in the morning asking me do i want to go out. i can tell if he does that one more time Charlie is going to hit him, so for his benefit he better not do that again.
why do people change?
it's really bugging me. i see him all the time flirting with other girls, but if he caught me flirting with an another guy he would go mad and get all jealous.
why does he care? i mean if he can flirt with other girl's i'm sure i can flirt with other guys.
he is really starting to get on my nerves.
Do i love him?
Should i dump him?
i guess i'll find out soon enough. This is his last chance.
Bella's pov
Charlie had been prety bad for weeks but i just put it down to it being the winter man flu, until carlisle told me...
"Bella dont freak out but Charlie ain't good." Edward told me before i spoke to Carlisle, probible to worn me to keep my emotions locked up since i was only a year old, my power still cept me bizzy.
Renesmee came walking not skipping
towords me witch was diffrent for her, so something must have been up with Charlie.
"Mum just do as dad says... you need your strength to keep calm for Charlies sake no one elses."
"can somebody just tell me what is going on already, you've been telling me to keep calm for Charlies sake but i'm starting to freak out because i don't have a clue what is wrong with him."
"Mum breath, calm down." Renesmee tried to calm me but the longer it toke for sombody to tell me what was wrong with my dad, I was getting wears.
Charlie had been prety bad for weeks but i just put it down to it being the winter man flu, until carlisle told me...
"Bella dont freak out but Charlie ain't good." Edward told me before i spoke to Carlisle, probible to worn me to keep my emotions locked up since i was only a year old, my power still cept me bizzy.
Renesmee came walking not skipping
towords me witch was diffrent for her, so something must have been up with Charlie.
"Mum just do as dad says... you need your strength to keep calm for Charlies sake no one elses."
"can somebody just tell me what is going on already, you've been telling me to keep calm for Charlies sake but i'm starting to freak out because i don't have a clue what is wrong with him."
"Mum breath, calm down." Renesmee tried to calm me but the longer it toke for sombody to tell me what was wrong with my dad, I was getting wears.