My eyes unfocused, I was reminiscing that night that I proposed to Bella. I remember how in love we were, or at least how in love I thought we were. Was I ready for this to happen? I didn't know.
"Edward? Be honest, if you don't want to marry me, then tell me, but I would really appreciate it if you said something."
I focused back on her, realizing my mouth was open. I was determined to make this sound right.
"I'm not saying no, but are you sure you want to?"
I watched her expression as she thought. I needed to understand her.
"I definitely want to. I mean, I love you, I've had experience dating, and I know when something is wrong, but I can tell you do love me. So, of course I want to marry you. But, do you want to marry me?"
"Let me think about this for a little bit."
I sat on the sofa, looking down at the floor. I wanted to marry her, but we hardly knew anything about each other. If I were to agree to this, than we would need to know more about each other. I wanted to know everything about her, just to know her. What she liked, what she hated. Everything. So if I said yes, then the wedding bells would be back on. I knew how she felt and I knew how I felt, so the answer was obvious.
"I thought the guy was supposed to propose, not the other way around,"I said breaking the silence.
She looked at the ground.
"I know I love you, but isn't this going too fast for you?"
"No, this is at the perfect pace,"she replied without looking up.
"Well then."
I pulled her chin up and I could see how bad she was feeling, she thought I was going to say no. I grabbed her hand and towed her away so she was standing just inches from me. I made sure she was watching me, keeping her hand.
"Elizabeth Martin,"I said as I slid down onto one knee. She gasped.
"I love you and you love me. I want you forever and ever, and I promise to love you every second, of every day of forever. And I need you to answer this question. Will you marry me?"
She smiled from ear to ear. I reached into my pocket and pulled out the velvet box.
"Of course, Edward Cullen, yes I'll marry you."
I opened the box and pulled out the ring. Surprisingly, when I slid it on, it fit perfectly.
"This ring was the one my father gave to my mother. And I want you to have it."
Then I got up and pulled her closer. Then I pressed my cold, hard lips to her nice, warm, soft lips. I felt good, even better than when Bella had said yes. I remembered back to when I had watched Liz sleep that one night. About how I wanted her to become a vampire. I realize now how selfish that was. I would let her choose what she wanted to be. I wouldn't stand in her way, no matter how hard. I broke away from the kiss. The look on her face reminded me so much of Bella.
"It's nothing against you, but I don't want to hurt you, which could very easily happen,"I thought about how I called Bella love, I didn't want to repeat that so I decided on,"honey."
She wouldn't notice the pause.
"I know, you have super strength and all, but I did enjoy the kiss."
"As did I. But tomorrow, I want to ask you every question I can think of, no matter how stupid, I want you to answer as best you can and honest."
"Okay, but why tomorrow?"
I looked over to the window. She must not have noticed time slipping away.
"Oh."
"I'll let you sleep now. For the wedding, I want you to decide."
"Okay,"she said as she plopped on the bed.
I kissed her again, the raging fire in my throat, unsatisfied. I left the room. I would be back, but I wanted to get some fresh air. Maybe snack on a squirrel or something.
"Edward? Be honest, if you don't want to marry me, then tell me, but I would really appreciate it if you said something."
I focused back on her, realizing my mouth was open. I was determined to make this sound right.
"I'm not saying no, but are you sure you want to?"
I watched her expression as she thought. I needed to understand her.
"I definitely want to. I mean, I love you, I've had experience dating, and I know when something is wrong, but I can tell you do love me. So, of course I want to marry you. But, do you want to marry me?"
"Let me think about this for a little bit."
I sat on the sofa, looking down at the floor. I wanted to marry her, but we hardly knew anything about each other. If I were to agree to this, than we would need to know more about each other. I wanted to know everything about her, just to know her. What she liked, what she hated. Everything. So if I said yes, then the wedding bells would be back on. I knew how she felt and I knew how I felt, so the answer was obvious.
"I thought the guy was supposed to propose, not the other way around,"I said breaking the silence.
She looked at the ground.
"I know I love you, but isn't this going too fast for you?"
"No, this is at the perfect pace,"she replied without looking up.
"Well then."
I pulled her chin up and I could see how bad she was feeling, she thought I was going to say no. I grabbed her hand and towed her away so she was standing just inches from me. I made sure she was watching me, keeping her hand.
"Elizabeth Martin,"I said as I slid down onto one knee. She gasped.
"I love you and you love me. I want you forever and ever, and I promise to love you every second, of every day of forever. And I need you to answer this question. Will you marry me?"
She smiled from ear to ear. I reached into my pocket and pulled out the velvet box.
"Of course, Edward Cullen, yes I'll marry you."
I opened the box and pulled out the ring. Surprisingly, when I slid it on, it fit perfectly.
"This ring was the one my father gave to my mother. And I want you to have it."
Then I got up and pulled her closer. Then I pressed my cold, hard lips to her nice, warm, soft lips. I felt good, even better than when Bella had said yes. I remembered back to when I had watched Liz sleep that one night. About how I wanted her to become a vampire. I realize now how selfish that was. I would let her choose what she wanted to be. I wouldn't stand in her way, no matter how hard. I broke away from the kiss. The look on her face reminded me so much of Bella.
"It's nothing against you, but I don't want to hurt you, which could very easily happen,"I thought about how I called Bella love, I didn't want to repeat that so I decided on,"honey."
She wouldn't notice the pause.
"I know, you have super strength and all, but I did enjoy the kiss."
"As did I. But tomorrow, I want to ask you every question I can think of, no matter how stupid, I want you to answer as best you can and honest."
"Okay, but why tomorrow?"
I looked over to the window. She must not have noticed time slipping away.
"Oh."
"I'll let you sleep now. For the wedding, I want you to decide."
"Okay,"she said as she plopped on the bed.
I kissed her again, the raging fire in my throat, unsatisfied. I left the room. I would be back, but I wanted to get some fresh air. Maybe snack on a squirrel or something.
