One month ago the girl I loved left to star in a big movie. I am lost without her and feel like I have nothing left, I am happy for her because she wanted this role so bad; but without my flower I am not alive. All of my friends have tried to cheer me up; but I tell them until she comes back nothing will make me happy, and in reply they say you know she won’t be back for 11 more months. I know this but a year without her right by my side will be extremely hard to deal with; but maybe I should go back to before her audition so you can feel what I went through. I mean after I get her back from her disappearance she has to leave again; so reliving my pain should be a fun ride.