She had walked these same halls for what felt like her entire life, but today they seemed different, smaller somehow, but still all consuming. Maybe it was the fact that she was leaving, so purposely, so absolutely, so finally,that made it all seem so strange. There was no coming back after this,ever. There was no "I'll see you tomorrow" or "Have a good weekend" or "we'll catch up later". This was it for her,for them all really,but no one wanted to say it.
it was the scariest two syllable word they'd ever heard,known, wanted to say but couldn't. She'd written it over and over in yearbook after yearbook,and it killed her a little more each time, as the faces became more familiar, and the memories more concrete. It still not real though, not if they didn't say it.They could write it in every color ink imaginable, and it would still be just a word to them. As she stood frozen in this sickeningly comfortable world, she knew all of this, knew this was the end.
She knew that if she could get her legs to move,and stop her tears from blinding her, she would walk away from here and never look back, but did she want to? That was the question. That was the problem. She needed to be able to leave, to walk away, to never look back, to be okay without these people,this place.
But what she wanted more than anything, was to stay for one more day.to have one last chance to be ready to say, the one word so many feared. She did not have another day or another chance,and so she forced her legs to move, and wiped her flooding eyes.
She took a deep breath, steeling herself for the moment, and forced herself to walk out those doors and away from this life. Gaining a certain strength in this. She finally whispered one final word, the one so many feared, "Goodbye". and then she was gone, a bittersweet smile battling the tears.
it was the scariest two syllable word they'd ever heard,known, wanted to say but couldn't. She'd written it over and over in yearbook after yearbook,and it killed her a little more each time, as the faces became more familiar, and the memories more concrete. It still not real though, not if they didn't say it.They could write it in every color ink imaginable, and it would still be just a word to them. As she stood frozen in this sickeningly comfortable world, she knew all of this, knew this was the end.
She knew that if she could get her legs to move,and stop her tears from blinding her, she would walk away from here and never look back, but did she want to? That was the question. That was the problem. She needed to be able to leave, to walk away, to never look back, to be okay without these people,this place.
But what she wanted more than anything, was to stay for one more day.to have one last chance to be ready to say, the one word so many feared. She did not have another day or another chance,and so she forced her legs to move, and wiped her flooding eyes.
She took a deep breath, steeling herself for the moment, and forced herself to walk out those doors and away from this life. Gaining a certain strength in this. She finally whispered one final word, the one so many feared, "Goodbye". and then she was gone, a bittersweet smile battling the tears.
look in the mirror please
if you dont you wont find the beuty
thats hiding in you
you say your ugly you cry all night
you slam the door on my face one night
when i tried helping you out
look in the mirror i know you are beutiful you just got to beileve in your self.
but you probaly wont why cant you see the beuty thats waiting to arrive
the boys would want you oh carolyn i hope u relize that .
this is no joke you are beutiful in my eyes but in yours ur a monster
why cant you see what eye see
i hope someday you will believe me.
if you dont you wont find the beuty
thats hiding in you
you say your ugly you cry all night
you slam the door on my face one night
when i tried helping you out
look in the mirror i know you are beutiful you just got to beileve in your self.
but you probaly wont why cant you see the beuty thats waiting to arrive
the boys would want you oh carolyn i hope u relize that .
this is no joke you are beutiful in my eyes but in yours ur a monster
why cant you see what eye see
i hope someday you will believe me.
Solitude,
Somewhere in my mind.
Where I can rest my head,
And let go of all the pain.
Back on my feet,
To make my place again.
Recharge my soul,
So I can live once more.
What happened to being a child?
When getting high meant too much sugar.
When breaking the rules was staying up past bedtime.
When saying "I love you",
Was only intended for your mom,
And the pressure of it never set upon you..
Looking up at the clouds,
I only see dark gray.
When they use to be white,
And full of life.
And I'd pick out shapes and smile.
Now it's dark.
Only dark,
And I feel I've lost my way.
"Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep,
If I should die before I wake..-"
Die? Before I wake..Sounds good to me.
Somewhere in my mind.
Where I can rest my head,
And let go of all the pain.
Back on my feet,
To make my place again.
Recharge my soul,
So I can live once more.
What happened to being a child?
When getting high meant too much sugar.
When breaking the rules was staying up past bedtime.
When saying "I love you",
Was only intended for your mom,
And the pressure of it never set upon you..
Looking up at the clouds,
I only see dark gray.
When they use to be white,
And full of life.
And I'd pick out shapes and smile.
Now it's dark.
Only dark,
And I feel I've lost my way.
"Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep,
If I should die before I wake..-"
Die? Before I wake..Sounds good to me.
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I miss you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
Lost in the cold world
Do you miss me?
I miss you
Does another little girl love you?
I kinda hope so
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I am sorry for leaving you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
Do you hate me?
I don't hate you
Mommy says to get over you
But I cry and say I want you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
Do you still cry for me?
I still cry for you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I never wanna grow up
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
Do you still cry "Mama" for me?
Because I still cry "Baby" for you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I'm sorry for dropping you
I'm sorry for losing you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
Mommy bought me a new one
But she still isn't as fun like you
Santa will you bring her back to me?
Will you wrap her in a bow all nice and pretty?
Clean her up and make her nice?
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I pray every night for you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I know you will come back to me soon.
Baby Doll
I miss you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
Lost in the cold world
Do you miss me?
I miss you
Does another little girl love you?
I kinda hope so
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I am sorry for leaving you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
Do you hate me?
I don't hate you
Mommy says to get over you
But I cry and say I want you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
Do you still cry for me?
I still cry for you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I never wanna grow up
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
Do you still cry "Mama" for me?
Because I still cry "Baby" for you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I'm sorry for dropping you
I'm sorry for losing you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
Mommy bought me a new one
But she still isn't as fun like you
Santa will you bring her back to me?
Will you wrap her in a bow all nice and pretty?
Clean her up and make her nice?
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I pray every night for you
Baby Doll
Baby Doll
I know you will come back to me soon.
i always thought, and i always knew
i would end up here with you
i was a restless wanderer on a distant path
you were a lonely dreamer with a broken laugh
i would go anywhere the road would lead
my hopes and dreams is all that i would need
i don't need a house or fancy cars
i would rather sleep underneath the stars
you didn't have much to call your own
but what a lovely smile on your face shown
you said your chance at love had past you by
i told I'm here so don't you cry
our lives were like the pieces of a broken heart
now that we're together what a life could start
there was magic in the air that night
everything was moving at the speed of light
you were like my Juliet and i your romeo
you love me i love you that's all i need to know
no longer will you dream of love that's true
no longer will i wander my search has led to you