but now the world is cold and dark.
when you held me close i could feel the warmth of your heart.
but now all i feel is the rain you left me standing in.
you said it was like we were flying to forever; you'd never let me fall.
but i guess your true words were carried with the wind.
and now all you've left me,
are bittersweet memories of you.
and now i know that when you come again,
i won't be smiling at the window.
for what you've done to me,
you need to feel.
you need to know what it means,
to lose your first love.
how the world stops turning.
blurring your visoin.
yet making it clear by erasing feelings for you.
and soon you'll realize,
that i will have moved on.
then you'll want me back.
but you want what you can't have.
because now the bittersweet memories have gone.
and i have stopped caring about you.
The years have passed
The moments flown by
Yet I still find myself here
starting to cry
The grass neatly trimmed
and the tombstone shines
Flowers' scents intoxicating
mixed with that of the pines
Dirt and mud disappeared
from your resting place
Finally I may kiss the ground
without having a mess of my face
There are other survivors
traveling this lonely road
Trying to move on
is as painful as letting go
My heart goes out to those
missing someone right now
Sometimes it's too hard living
When we forget how
But we share this common bond
Me and you
We keep catching and releasing
Not taking the same chances we used to
Different are the circumstances
but the results remain the same
Death showed a higher hand
and won the biggest pot in the game
But we must share with each other
We must not sink below the sorrow or the guilt
We must not reach ground zero
Else our lives won't be rebuilt
The moments flown by
Yet I still find myself here
starting to cry
The grass neatly trimmed
and the tombstone shines
Flowers' scents intoxicating
mixed with that of the pines
Dirt and mud disappeared
from your resting place
Finally I may kiss the ground
without having a mess of my face
There are other survivors
traveling this lonely road
Trying to move on
is as painful as letting go
My heart goes out to those
missing someone right now
Sometimes it's too hard living
When we forget how
But we share this common bond
Me and you
We keep catching and releasing
Not taking the same chances we used to
Different are the circumstances
but the results remain the same
Death showed a higher hand
and won the biggest pot in the game
But we must share with each other
We must not sink below the sorrow or the guilt
We must not reach ground zero
Else our lives won't be rebuilt
You said...
You said
you would
try to make
this up.
You said
you wanted
me by your side.
You said
I would be happy,
I would be
happy this time.
You said.
You said
you wanted
the fresh start
for us,
you said
you wanted us
back,
you wanted
me back.
You promised.
You said
you would
try,
you said
that things
would be better
this time,
you said
I would feel
better
from now.
Remember,
you said.
No more tears,
you said,
no more
empty words,
remember?
You said.
You said
you wanted
a fresh start
for us.
You said,
no more pain,
you said,
no more.
And no more lies
now I say,
sell them
some where else.
Broken promises,
that's all
you gave,
no more pain,
that's what
you said.
THe world is cruel,
when we are young we ride above the clouds in the bubble of innocence
but as we age we begin to sense the pain behind our parents faces
we see then that really, not everyone is nice.
we begin to understand that "your not invited to my birthday party" is the deadliest threat we can make
and that one day someone will hate me for who I am and someone will hate you for who you are,
because your not a cheerleader
because I am a cheerleader
because I have brown eyes
because you have white skin
because I have two dads
because you have one mom and no dad
because your grandparents were Chinese
because I'm Jewish
And why will people do this?
Because the world is a cruel place.
None of these things are true about me, they are simply examples of the stupid things people will judge you by.
when we are young we ride above the clouds in the bubble of innocence
but as we age we begin to sense the pain behind our parents faces
we see then that really, not everyone is nice.
we begin to understand that "your not invited to my birthday party" is the deadliest threat we can make
and that one day someone will hate me for who I am and someone will hate you for who you are,
because your not a cheerleader
because I am a cheerleader
because I have brown eyes
because you have white skin
because I have two dads
because you have one mom and no dad
because your grandparents were Chinese
because I'm Jewish
And why will people do this?
Because the world is a cruel place.
None of these things are true about me, they are simply examples of the stupid things people will judge you by.
you seek for spark of hope.
Your life held by
darkness thoughts,
anchor is
some place else.
Bad luck follows you
like a hook,
won't let you go,
won't leave you alone.
You smile today,
and cry whole eternity,
like that's your fate,
disturbing thoughts
to lie inside of you,
to take away everything
that you hope for.
Devil is calling your name,
leaves you not,
you don't see the angel on
your shoulder,
trying to give you a strength.
You long for life
that you don't know of,
you seek for peace,
trying to get away
from misty forest
that stains your heart
into black.
sorry for hateing you
sorry for everything
wish i could retrace my steps that day
now your gone moved away
i wish i could stand face to face with you
and say sorry for hurting you sorry for everything ive done
i hope your not dead i hope your alive if you are hear reading this my friend im sorry so sorry
i understand my friend if you will not forgive me i chose to be mad at you when you tried to apolagize
just know this friends are forever
i will keep you in my head if i forget ill still have you in my heart
and hopefully you will keep me in yours now your gone you wont see me but you have raised me up higher than the mountains
youve raised me up to more then i can be
i was strong when i was on your sholders
i am sorry carolyn kellar for what has happend
sorry for everything
wish i could retrace my steps that day
now your gone moved away
i wish i could stand face to face with you
and say sorry for hurting you sorry for everything ive done
i hope your not dead i hope your alive if you are hear reading this my friend im sorry so sorry
i understand my friend if you will not forgive me i chose to be mad at you when you tried to apolagize
just know this friends are forever
i will keep you in my head if i forget ill still have you in my heart
and hopefully you will keep me in yours now your gone you wont see me but you have raised me up higher than the mountains
youve raised me up to more then i can be
i was strong when i was on your sholders
i am sorry carolyn kellar for what has happend
I move a hundred steps
to fix my pace
but all your love
inflicts my grace
falling
running
trying to get clean
but the confort
your love
it captures me
I move behind the lines
to hide from the new
to hide from from addiction
to hide from you
falling
running
trying to hide
but the meledy
the sound
it drags me back
I move between the beats
to cover my sins
but everytime your near me
The bottle of gin slowly didapears
falling
falling
sweeter than life
your love is a drug
your love is my high
to fix my pace
but all your love
inflicts my grace
falling
running
trying to get clean
but the confort
your love
it captures me
I move behind the lines
to hide from the new
to hide from from addiction
to hide from you
falling
running
trying to hide
but the meledy
the sound
it drags me back
I move between the beats
to cover my sins
but everytime your near me
The bottle of gin slowly didapears
falling
falling
sweeter than life
your love is a drug
your love is my high
