Vicky’s POV:
I was drunk then. I had drunk 10 cans of beer, but I didn’t want to stop drinking. I wanted to be drunk to forget everything. But the more I drank, the more I felt hurt and remembered what I had seen, what I had done. Yesterday, I went to One direction’s house to apologize Zayn for what I had said and say that I wanted to be good friends again. But Zayn was not at home, so I had to wait for him in his room. I walked around the room and saw a lot of his photos. When I was about to take one of the photos he was talken in the X-factor, a pack of paper dropped onto the table. Those were his drawings and his diary. I was so curious that I opened some of his drawings.
When I saw them, I almost broke out into tears beacause all the pictures he draw was Bella : Bella on the roof of the house lying beside him, Bella under the moonlight holding his hands, Bella praying under a meteor shower, Bella with his cats, Bella on the bed being kissed by him, Bella ….All his drawings were of Bella.
“Why? Why? Why? Why do you have everything while I have nothing. When we were 10 years old, Bella gained the award of beauty contest for children in our city. When we were 13, Bella had the highest mark of the entrance exam of our school – the best school in our town. She is also taller and thinner than me. She has everything and now even the boy I love falls for her too. She damages all my life.” I thought.
I wanted to tear all the drawings but I couldn’t. I wanted to kill her but I couldn’t either. I opened Zayn’s diary and read it:
“02/02: Today I went shopping with Bella and other boys. She seemed to love the Christian Louboutin heels so much. But when Niall asked to buy it for her, she refused. Bella is a very kind girl. Her character makes me love her more and more…
02/03: I went back to the shop and bought the heels. Just imagine Bella in this pair of shoes made me smile all the time. One day without Bella. I miss her. I draw her again. Bella…Bella…
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02/10: Last night I dreamt about Bella. I kissed her in my dream.
02/11: I tried to call Bella but she didn’t answer my phone. Where are you, Bella? Are you okey? I need you to be here with me. Shouting at me is okey, I just need to see you.
02/12: Today I went shopping and saw Vicky. She had dinner with me and told me she loved me. I was so confused. I told lie to her. I told that I had to care about my career but it was a lie. I only love Bella. Noone else. Just her.
02/13: I am going to Bella’s house. I am crazy about her. I can’t help missing her. Tomorrow I will give her the shoes. She will smile when she sees it. Her angelica smile. Bella, I want this girl…..”
The more I read Zayn’s diary, the more I wanted to tear it into millions of pieces. I cried my eyes out. I threw the diary and drawings back to their position. I wiped my tears away and ran out of the room. I ran back to my house in tears. I hated my life. I hated Bella. Why did she come to my life and make it become a disaster? At that moment, I decided to do the most terrible thing I had ever done in my whole life. I decided to make some cheat sheet and put them into Bella’s stationery tray. I wanted her to lose everything and be ashamed in front of everyone.
But Mihrap – a bitchy slut- unmasked my evil act. I thought Mihrap hated Bella so much. I couldn’t understand why she did that. They were both bitches that damaged my life. They shoud go to the hell. I had many evil plans to make their lives as bad as me. I used to be naïve and good but it was they that made me become worse and worse like that. It was not my fault.
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