I dont watch it as much as I used to... Ive seen it a toal of 7 times and the last time I watched it was a month or so ago... When I saw it in theatres I was so happy but when I got home thats the first time since his passing that I really cried for him, I was bawling. The last time I watched it on DVD I cried during the whole thing, all I could think about was how he might have spent his last day.... who did he talk to, what did he say to his children and what did they say to him, what was he thinking, what was he expecting for that day....
Just knowing that the days & weeks before he passed he was with his children & rehearsing for his tour, it breaks my heart, and also cuz he never had the chance to say goodbye.... Thats one reason why I dont watch it as often as I used to, it just makes me so sad and thats all I can think about. I dont really listen to This Is It the song that much, cuz it reminds me of the end credits of the movie... I know whats gonna happen but I hate knowing its gonna end, especially with Earth Song, Man in the Mirror & This Is It being the last few songs, theyre hard to listen to sometimes
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