I shook her hand “Yeah I'm Mr. Jackson. Call me Michael, though." I said as she smiled and I asked to talk with Jessie “She's in here." Leslie said while she opened the door and I walked in, Jessie sat up on the bed “Hey, Michael. I can explain." I put my hands on my hips “How did she get here? And why is she here after I told you that you should leave her?" I asked as Jessie got out of bed and got ready “I called her and she cried for me not to leave her and she wanted to see me. So I said she can come over and she got a ticket and by six in the morning, she was here and we made love as soon as she came in the door." Jessie explained as I nodded while she looked at me with those blue grey eyes “I'm sorry, Michael. But I love her." Jessie pleaded as I got up “That's your excuse for everything you do for her." I mumbled, Jessie gave me a look “I don't use that as an excuse all the time." I got up and walked to my room as Jessie followed me in “Michael, do you hear me?" Jessie asked as I turned around “Yes I hear you. And it sounds like shit! Whenever I try to tell you to leave her. I know everyone told you too. All the things she did to you. All the ways she has hurt you. I and probably the whole fucking world has tried to tell to pack your bags and leave Leslie. But you keep saying you love her." I said as Jessie's eyes welded with tears “That's what you think? Michael. You and the whole world don't know why I say that. It's because I have a foolish heart for her. I love her after all the cruel things she's done to me. She keeps doing it. But I forgive her. Because I love her." Jessie said as I bit my lip. Oh my God. I realized that she only does the things she does for Leslie is because of her heart. Her foolish heart. Jessie doesn't know any better because Leslie keeps falling her every time Jessie gives her a chance. But I had one question in mind....What about me? All the love we made. All the comfort I've given. The caregiver of her affection. I guess I had a foolish heart too. I guess Jessie didn't love me. I guess she didn't love me, foreal. She just said what I wanted to hear. Showed me what I wanted to see. I loved her but I guess lesbians can't be straight. Ever. They can only be who they are. I got up “I'm sorry. I was just trying to get you out of her sick torture you think is love." I said as Jessie hugged me “Michael. I'm trying to get out of this relationship. But it's hard to want something and know that you're with someone else. Don't think I don't love you. I do but she needs me." I lifted her chin “You can have anything. If you just desire it a lot. Do you desire me a lot?" I asked as Jessie nodded Yes “Then..you can have me." I whispered as I pulled her closer to me by her hip and kissed her passionately, moaning. Jessie clenched my back “I love you...." Jessie moaned as I felt her and moaned softly. I put her against the wall and kissed her neck while she unbuttoned my shirt and slid it off my arms “Michael, I desire you. I desire you so desperately." I desired her too. The door opened “Shit." I said as I put on my clothes as Frank walked in “Hey, you two." I rolled my eyes as he looked around while he walked out “I was just checking on you. To see if you were doing something you weren't supposed to." Frank said as Jessie chuckled “As if we were your children." Jessie smartly remarked as I giggled as she smiled. When Frank was out, Leslie came in “Michael. Can I talk to you for a sec?" Leslie asked as I got up “Sure." I suggested as we walked out of the room.
“Have you been touching my girl?" Leslie asked, her eyes were on my pants.
“No. Why?" I asked as she nodded.
“Oh, okay. I was just asking because I found a hickey on her left boob. I don't really have sex with her that much because she's always with you. So I get some girls and make love to them instead of her." Leslie said as I nodded. That hickey was from that night we made love before all of this. Jessie was good that night. Damn!
“Yeah. It's not like you're hurting anyone, right?" I asked as she laughed.
“Yeah. I know that's right." Leslie patted my back as I walked away. My head was down and I was shaking my head.
I walked in and saw Jessie sitting on the bed “Michael? I love you." Jessie whispered as I kissed her cheek “I love you too." I whispered back as she smiled. I didn't tell her about Leslie and what she had said because I knew she would be crushed. But I had to tell her when we were together. Meaning alone with each other. At her farm, that's it!
“Jessie?" I wrapped my arm around her waist.
“Yes, Michael." Jessie answered.
“Can we go to your farm sometime today?" I asked, hoping for a yes.
“Yeah. You, me, and Leslie can watch over the animals there. Or maybe redecorate the barn. Me and you can get into some things if you know what I mean. But only for a day." Jessie said as I kissed her cheek. It backfired but I guess I can try to make it work.
“Have you been touching my girl?" Leslie asked, her eyes were on my pants.
“No. Why?" I asked as she nodded.
“Oh, okay. I was just asking because I found a hickey on her left boob. I don't really have sex with her that much because she's always with you. So I get some girls and make love to them instead of her." Leslie said as I nodded. That hickey was from that night we made love before all of this. Jessie was good that night. Damn!
“Yeah. It's not like you're hurting anyone, right?" I asked as she laughed.
“Yeah. I know that's right." Leslie patted my back as I walked away. My head was down and I was shaking my head.
I walked in and saw Jessie sitting on the bed “Michael? I love you." Jessie whispered as I kissed her cheek “I love you too." I whispered back as she smiled. I didn't tell her about Leslie and what she had said because I knew she would be crushed. But I had to tell her when we were together. Meaning alone with each other. At her farm, that's it!
“Jessie?" I wrapped my arm around her waist.
“Yes, Michael." Jessie answered.
“Can we go to your farm sometime today?" I asked, hoping for a yes.
“Yeah. You, me, and Leslie can watch over the animals there. Or maybe redecorate the barn. Me and you can get into some things if you know what I mean. But only for a day." Jessie said as I kissed her cheek. It backfired but I guess I can try to make it work.