I Love You! Is what the title means.
"But...Dad. I love you!" I said though my sobbing.
"I’m sorry baby girl... you've got to promise to be strong for your mother...Luke....and Pricilla..." He was so weak I had never seen him like this.
"No... No I can’t promise that... You will make it though this... PLEASE dad!" I was crying harder now.
"Amelia you have always been strong even...when you were a baby....." He cleared his throat. He was holding back his tears."Please do this for me."
"Fine... I promise." My voice was horse.
My mother came in and interrupted us.
“Honey I need some time to talk to your father.” She was cold, emotionless and pale. She had puffy eyes. I could tell she had been crying. When I didn’t move she made it clear by saying.
“Alone… Please” Her voice kept braking.
With a tear streaked face I kissed my father’s head and left the room. I wasn’t escaping anything when I left and I knew that. I still felt relieved though. How was I supposed to deal with everything? Ugh! Life was so not fair. I turned to look at my sister and brother. They were sitting there eyes wondering and dead.
I went over and began to comfort my little sister the best I could.
“Hey…It’s okay. Don’t worry…” She was sobbing.
If I hadn’t made that promise I would have been balling myself. I only let one tear slip.
I turned my mother just came out of the room and it was like it happened so fast but in slow motion at the same time. My mother fell to her knees outside the door. My big brother and little sister run to either one of her sides. I just sat there. I wasn’t processing anything. I just sat there allowing one more tear drop than promising myself no more tears. I would be strong from here on out.
The funeral was taking place but I felt as though it was a bad dream. That any second my father was going to come into my room and wake me up for breakfast. That I would wake up but it never happened. I never woke up. This nightmare was still happening and I was carried further and further away from reality.
It took me so long to post this and write. I hope you like it. It will get better I promise so give it a chance.
"But...Dad. I love you!" I said though my sobbing.
"I’m sorry baby girl... you've got to promise to be strong for your mother...Luke....and Pricilla..." He was so weak I had never seen him like this.
"No... No I can’t promise that... You will make it though this... PLEASE dad!" I was crying harder now.
"Amelia you have always been strong even...when you were a baby....." He cleared his throat. He was holding back his tears."Please do this for me."
"Fine... I promise." My voice was horse.
My mother came in and interrupted us.
“Honey I need some time to talk to your father.” She was cold, emotionless and pale. She had puffy eyes. I could tell she had been crying. When I didn’t move she made it clear by saying.
“Alone… Please” Her voice kept braking.
With a tear streaked face I kissed my father’s head and left the room. I wasn’t escaping anything when I left and I knew that. I still felt relieved though. How was I supposed to deal with everything? Ugh! Life was so not fair. I turned to look at my sister and brother. They were sitting there eyes wondering and dead.
I went over and began to comfort my little sister the best I could.
“Hey…It’s okay. Don’t worry…” She was sobbing.
If I hadn’t made that promise I would have been balling myself. I only let one tear slip.
I turned my mother just came out of the room and it was like it happened so fast but in slow motion at the same time. My mother fell to her knees outside the door. My big brother and little sister run to either one of her sides. I just sat there. I wasn’t processing anything. I just sat there allowing one more tear drop than promising myself no more tears. I would be strong from here on out.
The funeral was taking place but I felt as though it was a bad dream. That any second my father was going to come into my room and wake me up for breakfast. That I would wake up but it never happened. I never woke up. This nightmare was still happening and I was carried further and further away from reality.
It took me so long to post this and write. I hope you like it. It will get better I promise so give it a chance.
