Begining is kind different, and this article is longer, but story is still about the same.I hope you would like it
Cuddy came back to her work. She went down to the first floor, when elevator doors opened she saw lots of going to clinic, coming and leaving hospital, life was boiling, day was running like other days, like nothing changed. No matter what kind of tragic you could have nothing in the world wouldn’t changed, nothing noticed anything, just people in your round.
Some people are happy some are sad, people have their own tragic and problems, they share it just with close friends and families. Cuddy had her own problems, and some of them she could share with her close friends and family.
Now her problem or tragic was Rachel ill, her baby was sick and Cuddy needed someone to share her problem. She had her boyfriend, which is very kind and sensitive, caring, but now he was left, he wasn’t in town and now she was alone just by herself. Before Lucas she was kind of ok being alone, she always needed to have person like Lucas, but she hadn’t and she lived with that, now it was worse, when you used to have someone and you lost it you start feeling very lonely and broken.
Cuddy never thought that Lucas are that guy, that person, but he was close and she thought that maybe he is, just maybe she doesn’t feel it, maybe cause she never felt that feeling before, maybe she doesn’t know what she supposed to feel, or maybe she just wanted that House would be that person.
It was mystery, mystery for her heart and for her mind, more mystery cause she still hallucinating about House, about man she shouldn’t be in love, man with who she would never have any romantic relationships, man who would never could be sensitive and caring like Lucas.
She was hallucinating him, but in her dreams he was different, she was hallucinating man, who she would like House to become. But deep in her hart she knew that he would never be like that. But she still never lost her faith, she never stop hopping, believing, dreaming, cause deep in her heart and mind she was still in love with that man, and she knew that she will always be.
Now when her boyfriend left her, no matter that maybe even just for few days, she still needed person to be with her, and she wanted that could be House. Still no matter what she wanted him to be around, be with her, when she needed.
Cuddy was going slowly from elevator to her office, step by step, in her minds was just her baby, now she could thought just about her biggest love, her little girl. Now nothing matters just her, maybe even she couldn’t believe that in this moment she could think just about her, not about Lucas, not about House, but about Rachel. Now Cuddy believe that her baby is her biggest love, no matter how much she would love Lucas, or House, they would never be so important like her baby.
It was weird, she wasn’t her real baby, but she filed empty places in her life. With that her love triangle story she noticed that she could choose live without love, she could live lonely, not loving and not being loved, but now she couldn’t imagine her life without that little creature, her little baby, small girl who changed her world.
Dean of medicine came back to her work, she came back to her office, sit in her work chair, and she become dean of medicine again, no problems, no personal life, no other minds, just work, just medicine, just files, cases, hospital, her employees.
She came back to her work, start working with files, with her computer, like nothing happened, like nothing changed.
Lisa was emotional woman, it was hard for her to leave work behind doors, but Dr. Lisa Cuddy was strong woman, she could handle with a lot of problems, with all crap in hospital, with all House’s shit.
Cuddy start working, doing her job, like all other days before, she is responsible, rational, great boss.
Working hard and thinking just about her work about her responsibilities, all this time , working, she never thought about Lucas, about House, and she was working herself not to think about her baby too, she was real professional, she was proud of herself, and if someone would knew, they would proud of her too.
But when after hard working day she finally finished her all day jobs, when clock reached 5 pm, when she sign on the last file, she stooped being cold fish administrator, dean of medicine, she was Lisa gain, caring mother came back, and her heart start beating fast of worried again.
Cuddy turned off her computer, turned light off, closed doors, and now Lisa was running to elevator, was rushing to her girl, to her little baby, to be her mother, to care of her, to worry of her.
She pushed button to right floor with shaking hand, she was shaking in elevator waiting until she could see her baby again, she ran to her baby room, and just when she cross door she felt happiness, felt relieve seeing her baby again, being with her again.
Lisa sit in chair next to bed, she took her little baby hand and felt how tears coming again. Her baby still looked very weak, she looked better than before, or maybe she just wanted to believe that she is going better. Lisa knew that House and his team doing their best, she knew that they won’t let her baby to die, to feel pain, not for little baby, not for her baby. She was boss, and House care of Lisa somehow, maybe little, but she knew that House’s feelings, no matter what it would be, won’t let him not to help her baby.
Lisa was sitting in chair next to her baby, and she decided to spend night in there, she knew that she couldn’t fall asleep in her bed, far away from her baby.
When she finally fall asleep in chair, she spend long hours watching her baby, worried of her, she even thought that she wouldn’t fall asleep at all, to worried, but her bode, her minds was just too tired, she was working a lot, was thinking hard, she needed to get rest. Finally she fall asleep.
Lisa opened her eyes slowly, it’s dark in everywhere, she almost can understand that her eyes is open, now she not really could see anything. She is sitting in chair not moving, waiting and hoping that her eyes just need to focus in the dark, and she will start see something.
It’s very silence too, but she is enjoying that, good silence, not annoying, there’s no silence sing. She is relaxing in chair, in that silence, until her eyes start focusing to the dark, and now she almost can see things in the room, but still not clearly, especially things far from her.
She turned her head to her baby, she can see her, but it’s obvious that someone are in bed, she is still sleeping. When Lisa look around in room again, something different, maybe it’s cause dark, but her minds is still not calm.
:-“ Hey, sleepy beauty...”, she heard silent voice, but not scared, she can recognise it. Lisa turn her head to voice side, and now she can notice some kind figure in chair by the window. This lovely voice belongs to him. “- What are you doing there..?”, her voice doesn’t sound friendly, she didn’t wanted to speak unfriendly, but it came natural. Figure stand up and came to her, he came enough close to recognise detail of face. She can see him smiling, “- Someone is in bad mood..”, his voice sound lovely, friendly, she can see him start smiling more widely, “-Am I in bad time...?”, he start moving closer and suddenly she felt speechless. He is not limping, OMG. “- I’m dreaming...”, she force herself to speak, but she felt her voice shaking. “- Correct. That’s my smart girl.”, he came very close, and now he was standing by her knees. She felt speechless again, why in her hallucinating he is not limping, she never felt uncomfortable about his leg and cane, his limping made him unique. OMG he becoming more and more different from real House.
“- Something wrong darling....?”, he was looking at her with his blue eyes, even in dark she could see how beautiful they are. “- Why you are not limping...? if you are my hallucination when do what I want”, she could hear how sad and angry her voice was, she shouldn’t be angry, it’s her dream, she should he happy in her dream. “- Cause with cane I couldn’t do that...”, he took her hand and helped to stand, he put his left hand on her waist, and in his right hand left her hand. They start dancing.
First she was forcing, but latter she start liked it, she closed her eyes and relaxed, she snuggled to him, and his hand hugged her tight, she put her head on his shoulder.
“- We shouldn’t dance...I shouldn’t enjoy this...my girl sick...”, they was still dancing very slowly, but she was convincing herself that she shouldn’t do that. “- Shhh.. just relax..” his voice was softly, lovely, musical, suddenly he start hum nice melody and she relaxed completely. That was exactly what she needed now.
Cuddy came back to her work. She went down to the first floor, when elevator doors opened she saw lots of going to clinic, coming and leaving hospital, life was boiling, day was running like other days, like nothing changed. No matter what kind of tragic you could have nothing in the world wouldn’t changed, nothing noticed anything, just people in your round.
Some people are happy some are sad, people have their own tragic and problems, they share it just with close friends and families. Cuddy had her own problems, and some of them she could share with her close friends and family.
Now her problem or tragic was Rachel ill, her baby was sick and Cuddy needed someone to share her problem. She had her boyfriend, which is very kind and sensitive, caring, but now he was left, he wasn’t in town and now she was alone just by herself. Before Lucas she was kind of ok being alone, she always needed to have person like Lucas, but she hadn’t and she lived with that, now it was worse, when you used to have someone and you lost it you start feeling very lonely and broken.
Cuddy never thought that Lucas are that guy, that person, but he was close and she thought that maybe he is, just maybe she doesn’t feel it, maybe cause she never felt that feeling before, maybe she doesn’t know what she supposed to feel, or maybe she just wanted that House would be that person.
It was mystery, mystery for her heart and for her mind, more mystery cause she still hallucinating about House, about man she shouldn’t be in love, man with who she would never have any romantic relationships, man who would never could be sensitive and caring like Lucas.
She was hallucinating him, but in her dreams he was different, she was hallucinating man, who she would like House to become. But deep in her hart she knew that he would never be like that. But she still never lost her faith, she never stop hopping, believing, dreaming, cause deep in her heart and mind she was still in love with that man, and she knew that she will always be.
Now when her boyfriend left her, no matter that maybe even just for few days, she still needed person to be with her, and she wanted that could be House. Still no matter what she wanted him to be around, be with her, when she needed.
Cuddy was going slowly from elevator to her office, step by step, in her minds was just her baby, now she could thought just about her biggest love, her little girl. Now nothing matters just her, maybe even she couldn’t believe that in this moment she could think just about her, not about Lucas, not about House, but about Rachel. Now Cuddy believe that her baby is her biggest love, no matter how much she would love Lucas, or House, they would never be so important like her baby.
It was weird, she wasn’t her real baby, but she filed empty places in her life. With that her love triangle story she noticed that she could choose live without love, she could live lonely, not loving and not being loved, but now she couldn’t imagine her life without that little creature, her little baby, small girl who changed her world.
Dean of medicine came back to her work, she came back to her office, sit in her work chair, and she become dean of medicine again, no problems, no personal life, no other minds, just work, just medicine, just files, cases, hospital, her employees.
She came back to her work, start working with files, with her computer, like nothing happened, like nothing changed.
Lisa was emotional woman, it was hard for her to leave work behind doors, but Dr. Lisa Cuddy was strong woman, she could handle with a lot of problems, with all crap in hospital, with all House’s shit.
Cuddy start working, doing her job, like all other days before, she is responsible, rational, great boss.
Working hard and thinking just about her work about her responsibilities, all this time , working, she never thought about Lucas, about House, and she was working herself not to think about her baby too, she was real professional, she was proud of herself, and if someone would knew, they would proud of her too.
But when after hard working day she finally finished her all day jobs, when clock reached 5 pm, when she sign on the last file, she stooped being cold fish administrator, dean of medicine, she was Lisa gain, caring mother came back, and her heart start beating fast of worried again.
Cuddy turned off her computer, turned light off, closed doors, and now Lisa was running to elevator, was rushing to her girl, to her little baby, to be her mother, to care of her, to worry of her.
She pushed button to right floor with shaking hand, she was shaking in elevator waiting until she could see her baby again, she ran to her baby room, and just when she cross door she felt happiness, felt relieve seeing her baby again, being with her again.
Lisa sit in chair next to bed, she took her little baby hand and felt how tears coming again. Her baby still looked very weak, she looked better than before, or maybe she just wanted to believe that she is going better. Lisa knew that House and his team doing their best, she knew that they won’t let her baby to die, to feel pain, not for little baby, not for her baby. She was boss, and House care of Lisa somehow, maybe little, but she knew that House’s feelings, no matter what it would be, won’t let him not to help her baby.
Lisa was sitting in chair next to her baby, and she decided to spend night in there, she knew that she couldn’t fall asleep in her bed, far away from her baby.
When she finally fall asleep in chair, she spend long hours watching her baby, worried of her, she even thought that she wouldn’t fall asleep at all, to worried, but her bode, her minds was just too tired, she was working a lot, was thinking hard, she needed to get rest. Finally she fall asleep.
Lisa opened her eyes slowly, it’s dark in everywhere, she almost can understand that her eyes is open, now she not really could see anything. She is sitting in chair not moving, waiting and hoping that her eyes just need to focus in the dark, and she will start see something.
It’s very silence too, but she is enjoying that, good silence, not annoying, there’s no silence sing. She is relaxing in chair, in that silence, until her eyes start focusing to the dark, and now she almost can see things in the room, but still not clearly, especially things far from her.
She turned her head to her baby, she can see her, but it’s obvious that someone are in bed, she is still sleeping. When Lisa look around in room again, something different, maybe it’s cause dark, but her minds is still not calm.
:-“ Hey, sleepy beauty...”, she heard silent voice, but not scared, she can recognise it. Lisa turn her head to voice side, and now she can notice some kind figure in chair by the window. This lovely voice belongs to him. “- What are you doing there..?”, her voice doesn’t sound friendly, she didn’t wanted to speak unfriendly, but it came natural. Figure stand up and came to her, he came enough close to recognise detail of face. She can see him smiling, “- Someone is in bad mood..”, his voice sound lovely, friendly, she can see him start smiling more widely, “-Am I in bad time...?”, he start moving closer and suddenly she felt speechless. He is not limping, OMG. “- I’m dreaming...”, she force herself to speak, but she felt her voice shaking. “- Correct. That’s my smart girl.”, he came very close, and now he was standing by her knees. She felt speechless again, why in her hallucinating he is not limping, she never felt uncomfortable about his leg and cane, his limping made him unique. OMG he becoming more and more different from real House.
“- Something wrong darling....?”, he was looking at her with his blue eyes, even in dark she could see how beautiful they are. “- Why you are not limping...? if you are my hallucination when do what I want”, she could hear how sad and angry her voice was, she shouldn’t be angry, it’s her dream, she should he happy in her dream. “- Cause with cane I couldn’t do that...”, he took her hand and helped to stand, he put his left hand on her waist, and in his right hand left her hand. They start dancing.
First she was forcing, but latter she start liked it, she closed her eyes and relaxed, she snuggled to him, and his hand hugged her tight, she put her head on his shoulder.
“- We shouldn’t dance...I shouldn’t enjoy this...my girl sick...”, they was still dancing very slowly, but she was convincing herself that she shouldn’t do that. “- Shhh.. just relax..” his voice was softly, lovely, musical, suddenly he start hum nice melody and she relaxed completely. That was exactly what she needed now.
Sorry i havent updated anything it is just because this fanfic kinda sucks and i am thinking about quiting.
Bur here comes another chapter PLZ tell my what you think, it is okay if you think it sucks to;D
House and cuddy were sitting in the hot tub at houses home.
House ; so what did you want to say??
Cuddy ; it is about the kiss i was feeling emotion...
What??
House was looking at cuddys lips with dreamy eyes all he wanted to do was to kiss her again like they had did last ninght at her house.
House ; Nothing!
Cuddy ; okay,, as i was saying only reason why we kissed was because i was feeling emotional because of joy and you actually let your human side show for a moment.
what?? cuddy asked again
House ; Nothing it is just..
house went to cuddy and kissed her..
i will continue later plz comment
Bur here comes another chapter PLZ tell my what you think, it is okay if you think it sucks to;D
House and cuddy were sitting in the hot tub at houses home.
House ; so what did you want to say??
Cuddy ; it is about the kiss i was feeling emotion...
What??
House was looking at cuddys lips with dreamy eyes all he wanted to do was to kiss her again like they had did last ninght at her house.
House ; Nothing!
Cuddy ; okay,, as i was saying only reason why we kissed was because i was feeling emotional because of joy and you actually let your human side show for a moment.
what?? cuddy asked again
House ; Nothing it is just..
house went to cuddy and kissed her..
i will continue later plz comment
House to Cuddy point of view (House's POV):
You're hopelessly lost, because today
The world seems a bit too big for you
I was pretty sure I've seen it all
Until you came, opened up my heaven
And ironically my hell
I get torn down
You're glad to get torn down with me
Well that's something I've never seen
It seems that I'm a bit wrong about the world
As of toady
Because you came and showed me wrong
You take me down, you bring me up
Well, at least you made a change
Despite the things you cannot see
Despite the world attire
And despite the truths you wish to change
You hide well, that i have to admit
But I can see right through you.
You're hopelessly lost, because today
The world seems a bit too big for you
I was pretty sure I've seen it all
Until you came, opened up my heaven
And ironically my hell
I get torn down
You're glad to get torn down with me
Well that's something I've never seen
It seems that I'm a bit wrong about the world
As of toady
Because you came and showed me wrong
You take me down, you bring me up
Well, at least you made a change
Despite the things you cannot see
Despite the world attire
And despite the truths you wish to change
You hide well, that i have to admit
But I can see right through you.