It was fitting that I should find out this horrible news via Fanpop. Links popped up in updates and my universe quickly crumbled. Here is, roughly, my stream of consciousness during the moments I found out that my favourite show had been cancelled:
Denial
Bitch, please. This happens every year. This ain't for reals. Nah. Its just a joke or something, right? Right?! And then it hit me...
Anger
What the fuck?! How could they do this?! Why would they do this?! Bleep bleep bleepidy bleep bleep bleep!!!!! There isn't any reason to cancel the show! Ratings are high enough. Core fans still love the show. I love the show! Its my show! They can't take it away from me, those damned assholes! Why would they do this to me?! Which led to...
Bargaining
It will be fine. It'll get picked up by another company and they'll keep making it just like before. Or maybe when they see how much the fans still want the show, they'll change their minds and keep it going! It'll all work out. Everything will be fine! I hope... Which naturally led me into...
Despression
Its over. Its done. Its never coming back. Everything I loved has been destroyed. Its all over. I'm sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Might cry a little. Just gonna sit here and stare out the window for half an hour and do nothing. What is the point of doing anything when they just cancel your favourite tv show without even asking if that was ok with you? I'm just gonna sit and be sad. Very sad.
And the stage I haven't made it to yet is...
Acceptance
Recently, another one of my favourite shows, 'Chuck', also got cancelled, but it had always been on the verge of cancellation, and I am somewhat accepting of its impending doom. I eventually accepted the end of 'Boston Legal', and 'Scrubs' managed to kinda fizzle out and make it a little easier to let go of.
But this is 'House MD.' This show, as weird as it sounds (well, maybe not to y'all around here, because we are all nuts on Fanpop), has been an extremely important part of my life ever since I finally got to watch an episode (2x23 'Who's Your Daddy?') on tv. The back-story is that my parents always watched something else whenever 'House MD' was on, so my brother and I never got to watch it. So, one fateful day, we got to watch it and I fell in love. Hard.
I've never loved a tv show to the extent that I love 'House MD.' Nothing has ever come close. And I knew this day would come. Every show comes to an end (except 'Coronation Street', right?! Why can't 'House MD' be like 'Coronation Street'? I'd watch 50 years of Dr Gregory House!) and I knew I'd have to let go of 'House MD' someday, and yet I am no more prepared for this news than if I had heard it 4, 5, 6 years ago.
I'm not a crier. I don't cry in tv shows or movies that often/ever. But I cry like a baby every time I see Taub sitting on that bench crying over Kutner's death in 5x20 'Simple Explanation.' My family think I'm nuts. But, for whatever reason, I have a phenomenally strong emotional attachment to the characters in the show and the experience of watching the show in general. The show brought me here, to Fanpop, where I have met some really neat-o people who have shared their own insane House-love with me, and have let me share my insane House-love with them. Fortunately, while the show is kicking the bucket, this place doesn't have to die along with it. And that is pretty cool.
At the end of the day, people have real problems. Poverty, abuse, violence, illness: these are real problems. I mean, it is ok to take time to acknowledge the end of an era and get upset about the demise of what I would suspect is an institution for a lot of us here. So just thought I would share my soul's pain with all of you, like we have done so many times before when a character has died or an storyline has suprised us. Feel free to comment with your own reaction stories or stories about how you discovered the show or had an inappropriate emotional reaction. ♥
That's all folks!
