After going to Blair's house Chuck seemed lost. He acted as if he had not just poured his heart out to the only girl he’s ever loved. He didn’t want to show pain. After all he was Chuck Bass.
"Getting in pretty late, huh?" Serena appeared in the doorway. Chuck smirked. That was one of the many reasons Serena despised him. He smirks when he’s wrong, right, bored, love struck, out of place, etc. she always wanted to ask him why he smirked so much but she knew she’d get some sort of stupid remark. "Were you at Blair's" Serena asked glaring at him. He had to turn away. "Sorry Sis but if you'll excuse me I have some-" she rolled her eyes and went back to her room. All she wanted to know was what happened between him and Blair she didn’t care about anything else....
It was morning and her salty dried up tears stained her pillows. She wasn’t crying because Chuck left she was crying because she didn’t know what else to do. She understood why they couldn’t be together, and he was right but she still wanted to at least feel his touch again. Her phone beeped. It read: ONE NEW TEXT MESSAGE
She opened her phone up and read the text from Gossip Girl 3 times before laughing. It was about none other than Little J. It brightened Blair's day.
She sat down next to Serena on the steps before school started. Serena immediately grabbed Blair hand and squeezed. "I don’t want to talk about it." Blair said quickly wiping away a tear with her free hand. "Okay." Serena said so blankly with no expression she knew Blair SERIOUSLY didn’t want to talk about it, or she would have asked as many questions as her mind would allow."OH GREAT!" Blair whispered as Chuck walked up the steps, his feet directly next to her hand Serena had just cradled. He didn’t even look at her. He passed right by and he didn’t even make eye contact. Blair felt like her nightmare had happened all over again.
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Chuck knew he should have said something to her. But there’s no good way to start a conversation after what he had just told her. He was actually confused by his own words in the matter. "I'd rather wait," he knew that wasn’t true. He wanted her. He wanted her more than any other girl that has ever crossed his path. But he was scared. Scared to have a girlfriend. He wouldn’t know what to do and especially wouldn’t enjoy taking her feelings into consideration before he did anything. But he wished they could have a monogamist relationship in the meantime. But that’s not just something you blurt out over brunch. He didn’t know where to go from here. He didn’t know he could even ever fall in love. But he did he really did.
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"B, you need to practice." Serena said spiraling her long blonde hair around a pencil.
"Practice what? Saying 'I love you Chuck Bass' a million times. It’s not going to help. We are just who we are. We can’t change that." Serena sighed and got off Blair bed. "I don’t like seeing you sad, B. It makes me feel helpless. The happiest I had ever seen you was the week of the Debutante Ball. I didn’t know what was different but now I realize. It was-" she shivered "CHUCK!"
Blair looked at the floor and pulled her pair of good Gucci Sandals out of their box. She trailed her finger down the gold string. She remembered how Chuck used to touch her in all the right places at all the right times. She longed for his touch. She wanted it. No, she NEEDED it. But telling him she loves him in his words "Would be the start of something then it would be the end." And for now just for now they would be, whatever they are...
