Anger is the Best Remedy for Love- Chapter Two

What had come over her last night? Had she really stripped down to only her bra and panty set the other day? Blair couldn’t help the smirk that came over her face though as she remembered the shocked expression on his face. Chuck looked like someone had slugged him in the face and totally taken h off his guard and he also looked like he had never seen her before in his life. It had felt good to get the upper hand on him. And she knew that he hadn’t really wanted her last night, he just hated for anyone to walk out on him. Nothing had changed last night though because she still hated him as much as she ever did. She would never get along with Chuck Bass, that was a given.
Serena noticed the smirk on Blair’s face and questioned her about it. “What are you thinking about, B?”
Blair snapped out of the haze she had been in and tried to concentrate on the present. She focused on Serena’s face and let her smile slowly fade. “Oh, I’m just thinking about something that happened to me last night, S.”
“What?” She asked anxiously. Serena was always up for a good piece of gossip.
Blair didn’t want anyone to know about what had happened last night. “Oh, it was nothing that would interest you Serena. It was just some little thing that happened.”
Serena looked suspicious but said no more on the matter. “Did you go out to a club last night, Blair?”
She nodded. “Yeah, I did. I went to this place that I thought no one would find me because I just wanted to be by myself.”
“So did you have fun?”
“I did.” She was almost surprised to admit but she found that it was true. “I had a really great time last night and I think that it could have been because I didn’t have to perform to anyone’s expectations of me and Nate wasn’t around. Our relationship is not working at all.”
Serena took a sip of her low fat latte before asking, “Do you still love him?”
“No.” The word came so easily to her lips and she knew that she was speaking the truth. “I did at one time but now I know that I don’t. I haven’t for a really long time even before I found out that the two of you had slept together. I want to break up with him but I don’t want to be alone either.”
Serena blanched at the mention of her and Nate. “You should end your relationship then because it’s not fair to either one of you to string the other along. You’re both only going to wind up hurt.”
A confused expression appeared on Blair’s face. “How are we going to hurt each other if we’re not in love anymore?”
“It’s possible, Blair. I just don’t want you to get hurt anymore than you already have.”
“I know what this is about. You still have feelings for Nate, don’t you Serena? It wasn’t just a fuck to you and I know it wasn’t to him. Nate still loves you, Serena.”
Serena shook her head rapidly. “I don’t have any feelings for Nate other than friendship. I just think that you should end the relationship if there are no more feelings between you.”
Blair looked down at the floor and stared at her Chanel flats. “I’m not like you, S. I’m scared to be alone. I’m not strong, determined, and unafraid like you are. I wish that I was more than anything.”
Serena looked at her in pity. She hated that Blair was so insecure about everything. “Blair, you need to learn that you are every one of those things there just hidden deep inside of you. You have to unleash yourself to find them, Blair.”
She knew that what Serena said was true, but she also knew that she could never be like her either. “I guess it would be wise if I went and talked to Nate about everything. This is something that we should discuss.”
Serena nodded in agreement and hugged Blair goodbye. “Blair, just believe in yourself. You need to do that for me, okay?”
She bit her lip and nodded but she wasn’t going to make any promises to that.

XOXO
She made her way to Nate’s home and when she entered the foyer, she heard more than one voice coming from the living room. Someone was there with Nate and of course that someone was no other than Chuck Bass. Blair grimaced and moved over to the side of the wall so that couldn’t see her. She decided to listen to their conversation for a few minutes before making her presence known. She really hadn’t wanted to see Chuck so soon after last night.
Nate was rolling his head around in his hands and tearing at his hair. “I don’t know, Chuck. I really still have no idea of what I should do.”
“Do you still love her?”
“No, I wish I did. A part of me will always love Blair but it’s only like a friend now. But we just have so much history and I can’t just break up with her. I know she doesn’t love me anymore either, so it may just be best if we stayed together until a better opportunity comes along for either one of us.”
She gasped behind the wall at his words and quickly covered her mouth before she alerted them to her presence.
Chuck grinned evilly. He wanted Nate to break up with Blair but for what reason he couldn’t say. All he knew was that he had seen her in a completely different light last night and part of that had thrilled him. Of course, he still hated her but there were obviously parts of Blair Waldorf that he didn’t know. “If you don’t love her Nathaniel, I would say to finally cut the bitch loose.”
At this point Blair’s mouth dropped open and she knew that she was going to make a fool out of herself but she would not be treated like that from that asshole. She walked quickly and methodically from her hiding space and crept up behind Chuck. Nate looked worried at seeing her and she put a finger up to her lips to tell him not to say anything. She took her huge Prada purse and brought it over her head before slamming it down on the top of Chuck’s head.
“What the fuck?!” He growled before turning around and spotting Blair with her purse raised high over her head again ready to smack him with it. He massaged the back of his scalp where her bag had hit him. She must have had a bowling ball in there. He grabbed her wrist just as she was about to swing it towards him and managed to duck just in time.
“What the hell is your problem, Waldorf?”
Blair struggled to free her arm and swing at him again. “My problem?” She asked furiously, “Is the fact that you telling my boyfriend to dump me. Who the hell do you think you are, Bass?” She pulled her arm free from him at last and took one final swing, hitting him square in the head. He groaned and pushed her over to Nate.
“Nathaniel, please get your crazy bitch of a girlfriend away from me.”
At his words, Blair started to charge towards him again but Nate intercepted her before she got very far.
Chuck continued to rub his head while a welt starting to appear. “What the hell do you have in there, Blair?” His tone was amused now that she was away from him.
“Many things.” She snarled. “But I do have a can of mace in there for predators. Would you like me to show it to you?”
Chuck’s grin slowly faded and he looked at her in astonishment. “No, that’s okay Waldorf. I think I’ve seen enough of your inner bitch for one day.”
Nate sat chuckling on the couch and she rounded on him. “What the hell are you laughing at? Is it because your troll of a best friend asked you to break up with me? What is your problem, Nate?”
Nate quickly stopped laughing and sat with his mouth sat in a grim line.
She shook her head in exasperation. “You told me yesterday that you didn’t want to break up with me but now everything is different. If you want too, just say the words! I won’t stop you.”
Nate continued to stare moodily at her but said nothing. She almost wished that he would say the word and then she would be able to get rid of him. But she certainly wasn’t going to be the one to break up with him, so she supposed that she would be stuck a little while longer with him.
She turned away from Nate; she couldn’t stand to see his face any longer. She saw Chuck and moved over to where he was standing. “What the hell was the point of that, Bass? Why are you telling my boyfriend to break up with me?”
Blair expected to find him glaring at her but instead he was grinning in amusement. “I just had to tell my best friend that he would be better off without you. I think you’ve weighed him down enough with all of your shit and he deserves better than that. Anyone can do better than you, Waldorf.”
She shook her head in anger. So they were back to this again. Last night hadn’t changed anything but she still didn’t expect for Chuck to treat her so hostile. She should have figured it though. “You are such a bastard! I hate you.”
If anything his grin just got wider. “It didn’t seem that way last night when you were stripping for me and were on top of my lap.”
Her mouth fell open in shock. “Chuck!”
Nate came out of his stupor. “What the fuck are you talking about, Chuck?”
Chuck turned his attention away from a stunned Blair to Nate. “Oh, nothing much Nathaniel. Blair just decided to dance for me last night and strip. I was at this club that I go when I want to be alone and I’ll admit that isn’t often due to the fact that I always have a line for female company at my bedroom door.”
She snorted with disgust.
Chuck continued, “Anyways, Blair came to this club last night and I think that she knew I was there. Why else would she go?”
She wished that he would just drop dead on the spot. Never mind. She wished that she could be the one to murder him. “Chuck, I had no idea that you were there. I went out by myself because I wanted to get away from everything and I certainly didn’t want to meet you there. Obviously fate isn’t very kind to me because I had to put up with you for the whole evening. And what could be worse than that?”
“Sure, B.” Chuck said mockingly.
She became even madder. “Don’t call me that! Only people that I like can call me that and you most definitely do not fall into the category.”
“Are you sure, B?”
Blair gritted her teeth together in anger. “There isn’t a doubt in my mind, Chuckles.”
His face blanched rather suddenly and he glared at her.
Nate stood and made his way over to where they were standing. “Is this for real? You really stripped for him last night, Blair? Why would you do that?”
She sighed dramatically. “Because he told me that I was a cold hearted bitch, that was too prim and proper and I wanted nothing more than to prove him wrong, Nate. It was a challenge and I never back down from a challenge.”
Chuck shook his head. “It wasn’t a challenge.
“It was a fucking challenge, Chuck. You issued it and you can’t take it back now.”
Nate interrupted their argument. “You never stripped for me, Blair. But yet, you do it for somebody that you hate. I really don’t understand you sometimes.”
She pasted a fake and sugary smile on her face. “What can I say? You obviously don’t inspire me to strip for you. Actually, you’re the one that is rather cold Nate. Maybe it’s due to the fact that you wish I was Serena.”
Chuck choked with laughter while Nate looked back stunned at her. “I don’t want Serena, Blair.”
“Save it, Nate. I know you do and it doesn’t bother me. We both know that we don’t want each other anymore.”
Nate didn’t deny that he wanted Serena anymore but he did change the subject. “I still don’t understand. I’ve been your boyfriend for many years and you’ve never done that for me but you do it for the man that you absolutely detest.”
“How many times do I have to tell you? It was only a challenge and it certainly didn’t mean anything to me. It was nothing so just get over it. And maybe the reason that I’m not more open with you sexually is for the fact that you cheated on me with my best friend. Did you ever consider that? It actually disgusts me to touch you because I know that you would rather be with Serena. And how would you like that if I did that to you? Would you like it if I slept with your best friend?”
An awkward silence filled the air as Chuck looked at her in amazement and a little bit of excitement. She suddenly realized what she had just said and her face turned red with embarrassment. “I take that back. Sorry. I don’t know what I was thinking but you know what I meant, Nate.”
Nate looked at her sadly. “You’ve changed Blair. I don’t even know who you are anymore.”
“Me? What about you?”
“Blair, you have to take some of the blame too. Everything wasn’t perfect in our relationship even when Serena wasn’t in the picture. You’re as much to blame as I am.”
She knew that was true. She turned her head to gaze at Chuck and she became unnerved. He was starting at her with such intensity and it burned through her skin. She quickly moved her eyes away from his. “Nate, you know I never thought there would be anyone that I could hate more than Chuck.”
Chuck snorted with disdain.
She ignored him though and continued, “And I don’t. But in this moment I hate you more than I’ve ever hated Chuck. I’ve had enough of your shit. Both of you.”
She saw the look of surprise on both of their faces and that excited her. It was about time. She spun on her heel and quickly made her way out of his house. Screw Nate.

XOXO
They hadn’t talked since their argument five days ago. She had never gone so long without talking to Nate. Some of the things that she had said to him were very harsh but he had deserved it. Blair was so sick and tired of being compared to Serena all the time. She had to go and find him and just end it once and for all. They were only making each other miserable by staying with each other.
School had already let out for the day but she hadn’t seen Nate come out, so she figured that he still might be here. She walked around the courtyards and was just about to give up when she heard his voice coming from the outside of a different courtyard. It sounded like he had someone with him and she only hoped that it wasn’t Chuck because she didn’t want to see him ever again.
She stepped behind a pillar to see who Nate was with and felt her stomach drop when she noticed that it was Serena. Nothing ever changed, everyone always preferred Serena to her. Why? What was so wrong with her? Serena had been the one to run away, she had been the one to sleep with Nate, she was the one who had mistakenly killed someone and not to mention the fact that she had been best friends with Georgina at one point. But yet everyone obviously thought that Serena could do no wrong.
She peeked her head out from behind the pillar and saw Nate grab Serena’s arm, but she couldn’t hear what they were saying to each other. And she was thankfully for that at the moment because she seriously doubted that she would have liked what they were discussing.
Blair wasn’t ready for what she saw next. Her stomach clenched with disgust and she felt the urge to heave. Right now there was nothing she would rather do than stick her fingers down her throat but she wouldn’t do that. She wouldn’t give them the satisfaction of doing this to her. She continued to watch as Nate kissed Serena and she was fully expecting Serena to pull back or slap him across the face. That never happened; instead Serena threw an arm around his neck and pulled his face down to hers to deepen the kiss. The urge to vomit only grew at seeing this. She turned away from the scene that set the tale for her life and ran as fast as she could on the street. She had no idea where she was going, she just knew that she had to get as far as possible from the image of the two of them doing this to her. They had done it to her again and she had absolutely no one to turn too. Just like always. When she felt a stitch in her side from running, she stopped and came to a halt in the middle of the street. She stood there alone for what felt like hours but was actually probably only moments. Blair finally knew where she had to go. It was the only way and he was the only person that she could turn to now.

XOXO
Blair knew that it was a mistake as soon as she got there. With her heart filled with dread she reached out to knock on the door to suite number 1812. As soon as she knocked, she heard the telltale sign of giggling inside the room. That figured. Of course Chuck was with a woman. When wasn’t he?
He still hadn’t answered the door. He was ignoring her, just like always. She wouldn’t have minded it any other day but today she wasn’t going to stand for it. She pounded harder on the door this time.
A groan sounded from within the room before the door swung open to reveal a much disarrayed Chuck. His hair was in every direction, most likely from some woman’s fingers coming through it. He only had a pair of silk pajama pants on and he was bare chested. For a moment, she was distracted by the hair on his chest and the stripe of hair continued down to the middle of his stomach before disappearing into the waistband of his pajamas. A blonde woman was hanging off one of his shoulders and she looked at Blair like she didn’t obviously belong here. Which she didn’t.
Chuck’s face showed surprise. “What are you doing here?”
She gathered her courage and pushed her way past him and the woman. “Get rid of the slut.”
“Hey!” The woman protested.
Blair smiled at her. “Oh, I am sorry. I should have said whore. Get rid of the whore, Chuck.”
Chuck bit his lip to keep from laughing at her. He knew that he was making her uncomfortable and that was something that thrilled him. He walked the woman to the door and explained that he had to talk to Blair. He had just opened the door when she asked, “Are you going to call me?”
He grimaced and Blair laughed out loud. “Uh, no.” He slammed the door in her face.
He walked over to where Blair was and he didn’t bother putting on a shirt and that unnerved her a little bit. “What do I owe this pleasure too, Waldorf?”
She closed her eyes tightly for a minute and swayed on the spot. She shouldn’t have come here, she had known that from the start but she had done it anyways. “You’re disgusting.” She exclaimed referring to the woman that had just been there.
His face tightened with anger. “Is that what you came here to tell me?”
“Do you have to pick up woman every night, Bass? What the hell kind of life is that?”
“A pretty damn good one if I do say so myself. What the fuck do you want, Blair? I don’t want to listen to any of your shit.”
Her bottom lip shook as she plopped down on the couch. He noticed it but didn’t say anything. “I didn’t know where else to come. You were right last week when you told me that I didn’t have any friends and that I basically had a shitty life. You were absolutely right.”
He sat down next to her. “Blair, you can’t take what I say seriously. This is what we do. We argue and insult each other, don’t take it to heart.”
She lifted her eyes to his and they connected. “You were right.” She whispered again. “I saw Nate today.”
Chuck sighed. “Blair, I don’t want to listen to the problems you two are having. I’m not your confidant or anything, go tell Serena.” He grabbed her arm to usher her outside but her next words stopped him.
“I saw Nate kissing Serena today and she didn’t stop him. They betrayed me again.” The words came out in a rush of shuddering breath.
He grabbed her arm and forced her to look at him. “What?”
She nodded her head quickly. “I saw them, Chuck. They were together again. I don’t even care and that’s the problem. I just hate the fact that everyone chooses Serena over me. Why?”
He ignored her question and muttered something that sounded a lot like, “That fucking bastard!”
She looked up at him again and noticed that he looked pissed, that was probably because she was there. “I’m sorry that I came here and ruined your evening. I just didn’t know where else to go.”
“Wait. You don’t have to go, Blair.”
She stalled her progress across the plush carpets of the floor and basically crumpled onto the floor. He sat down next to her again.
“Can I ask you a question?”
He nodded.
“Besides the time that you tried to rape Serena, did you ever sleep with her?”
He groaned at her question. “I did not try to rape Serena; I was only trying to get with her. And no, I’ve never slept with her. I wouldn’t turn her down if she wanted too but I’ve never outright pursued her.”
“You must be the only one that hasn’t slept with her. I am so sick of been compared to Serena my whole life. I just want to do something for once that she is not involved in.”
Blair stood up and walked over to the window, Chuck followed her. He touched her back lightly. “Don’t worry about Serena, Waldorf. You know that you are better than her and that’s all that matters. It doesn’t matter if people don’t like you because no one likes me but I don’t care.”
She turned around to face him. “I think we’re more alike than I would like to admit, Bass.”
“Perhaps.” He responded.
A sudden idea occurred to her and as crazy as it was, she wanted to do it. “Maybe some angry sex would be good for us?”
A puzzled look came over his face. “Angry sex is always good, Waldorf. But who the hell would we have that with?”
She shook her head at his stupidity. “With each other.”
His eyes widened and his mouth dropped open. “You can’t be fucking serious.”
She touched his bare shoulder and he tried to pull away but she wouldn’t let him. “Why the hell not? We both hate each other and who would be better to have angry sex with? And I want to prove to you that I am not the cold fish that you think I am. I will prove you wrong. What do you say?”
He felt like pounding his head against the wall. “No, Blair.”
“Why? It’s not because of Nate, is it? He’s probably fucking Serena as we speak, so you definitely don’t have to worry about that. And when have you ever turned down a willing woman?”
Chuck started to move away from her. He had to put as much distance between them as possible. “I have turned down plenty of women Blair; you just know nothing about me. And I do not screw my best friend’s girlfriend. And why the fuck would you want to have sex with me? We hate each other, remember?”
Blair slipped in under his arm and touched his chest. “Maybe I want to experience the legendary Chuck Bass once in my life.”
He watched her as she moved her mouth closer to his until their lips were inches apart. “Ready?” She challenged before her mouth swept over his. The reaction was instant. The heat exploded between them and sizzled in the air. As she moved her mouth over his, she realized that she had never been kissed like this. She had absolutely never felt like this before and what was even worse, it was the devil that was kissing her.
Just as she was apart to part her lips and slip her tongue into his mouth, he pulled away from her. “No, Blair. Don’t do this.”
Her arousal burst like a bubble and she had to fight back tears. He didn’t want her. “I understand completely. You don’t want me, just like everybody else. I’m sorry.” She whispered the words and went to move past him but he placed his hands on her waist.
“I don’t want you?” He asked it in almost amusement. “Then what do you call this?”He brought one of her hands down to his bulging erection that was trying to escape the suddenly tight constraint of his pajama pants.
Her heart soared and she began to stroke him through the pants. His head rolled back in pleasure. “Blair.” He groaned. “You don’t know what you’re doing. I’m not going to be able to stop much longer.”He panted as her hand continued to glide over him.
“Then don’t.” Blair wrapped her arms around his neck. “Make me feel alive, Chuck. Make me feel like no one else has ever been able to do.”
Chuck looked deeply into her eyes with his own penetrating gaze before slamming his mouth back down on hers. Blair whimpered with pleasure as she wrapped her legs around his waist. He picked her up as he slammed her into the wall. He tugged at her dress and was frantically trying to rip her panties off of her. His mouth continued to eat at hers and the pleasure was almost painful it was so good. Blair snaked a hand down his chest and rolled one of his nipples between his fingers and he moaned. She bit his bottom lip as she continued to swirl her tongue around inside his mouth. Just as he had finally got her panties off and she was pulling his bottoms down, something else happened. There was a knock at the door.

To Be Continued…

A/N: I had a lot of fun writing this particular chapter. The ideas just kept flowing and that is why it is so long. Thoughts?