She was getting more frantic by the second. It had been a month and a half since Bart’s funeral, and there was still no sign of Chuck. Blair had people looking for him everywhere, but to no avail.
She was so upset about Chuck that Blair couldn’t eat, sleep, or concentrate on anything but him. Blair knew that he needed her; she just now had to find out where he was. It physically hurt her that Chuck was in so much pain.
She was so lost in her own thoughts, that she didn’t even hear the ding of her own elevator lift. Blair saw the door open, and out stepped Nate. He had an odd look on his face, and Blair knew that he had news of where Chuck was.
She clutched at her thumping heart. “What is it, Nate?”
He sighed, “Chuck called me today.”
Blair was shocked. Why would he call Nate over her? She figured he would call her when he was ready, not Nate. Didn’t she mean anything to him anymore?
Blair gulped nervously. “Did Chuck tell you where he is?”
“He did, Blair. But he made me promise that I wouldn’t tell you. Chuck said he doesn’t want to see you.” Nate told her remorsefully.
Blair sank down on the sofa and Nate put a comforting arm around her.
“I’m sorry, Blair. It’s all going to be okay.”
She looked at him with a vacant expression. “Why? Why is he doing this to me?”
Nate grabbed her hand. “Don’t you see? Chuck’s trying to push you away because he doesn’t think he deserves your love.”
Blair let that sink into her mind, and it calmed her down a bit.
“Did he say anything else, Nate?”
He looked away very quickly. “Not really, no.”
“You’re lying. What did Chuck tell you?”
“Nothing.”
“Don’t bullshit me, Nate Archibald. Just tell me.”
Nate sighed, “No, Blair. It’s only going to hurt you more.”
“Just fucking tell me!”
“Fine.” Nate snapped. “Chuck said that he didn’t want anyone to come looking for him, because he has enough whores and drugs to keep him entertained for a while.”
Nate instantly regretted telling her. Her face crumpled and she started sobbing.
He rubbed her back, until Blair’s sobs faded into hiccups. Her mind was whirling. She had to be strong for Chuck’s sake. Blair kept repeating it over and over again inside of her head.
“Where is he?” Blair asked her voice raspy from crying.
Nate rolled his eyes, and blew out a breath of air. “Are you going to go after him?”
“Yes.”
“He’ll kill me if I tell you, Blair.”
“I won’t tell him that it was you.”
Nate surrendered. “France. Chuck is in France. You remember that hotel we stayed in a couple of summers ago, with Chuck and Serena?”
Blair nodded.
“Well, Bart owns that hotel and that is where Chuck has been spending most of his time.”
Blair steeled herself on what she had to do. She was going to go to France, and bring Chuck back. “Okay. Thank you for telling me.”
“I don’t know if you should go after him, Blair. He obviously needs more time.”
Blair vehemently shook her head. “Don’t you think he’s had enough time trying to destroy his life? I’m going to go to France, and see him. It won’t be like I’m checking up on him. I’ll just tell Chuck that I came to see my father, and that he was on the way back home. So it’s really like I’m just stopping to say hello.”
Nate let out a chuckle. “Chuck will never believe that.”
“Well, I don’t care!” Blair yelled. “I need to see Chuck, and convince him that I love him. I’ve got to try and save him from himself, Nate.”
He understood that. “Just be careful, Blair.”
“I’ll do my best.”
XOXO
“So you’re really going to do this, Blair?” Serena asked, as she was helping Blair pack.
“Yes, Serena. I don’t know what’s going to happen when Chuck sees me, but we’ll get through it.”
“Whatever he says or does, just don’t give up on him. I have a feeling Chuck’s going to be pretty pissed off.” Serena warned.
“He’ll be furious. It’s nothing that I can’t handle though. We’re two of a kind Serena; I know I’ll be able to get through to him eventually.”
“Good luck, B.” Serena whispered.
Blair smiled gratefully at her. “Thanks, I think I might need it.”
XOXO
Blair was standing directly outside of the hotel that Chuck was staying at. Her flight had been long and tiresome, but she was finally here. She was extremely nervous now that she was about to see Chuck for the first time. It had been such a long time. Her shaking hand grasped the door, and she stepped inside of the hotel.
Blair walked up to the front desk, and a receptionist spotted her.
“How may I help you?” She asked sweetly.
“I’m looking for Chuck Bass.” Blair responded.
“Is he expecting you?”
“No.”
“Well, let me just call his room and see if it’s alright with Mr. Bass.”
Blair waved her hand in the air to stop her from dialing Chuck’s number. “No, please don’t. I’m a friend of Chuck’s, and it’s a surprise visit. You don’t want to ruin the surprise, do you? Please.”
After fifteen minutes of pleading, the receptionist had finally given in. She now had Chuck’s room number and the key to his room. She walked up the plush steps of the carpet to get to his room. A minute later, she was outside of his room, and suddenly terrified to go in. Blair leaned her head against the wood paneling of his door, and took deep breaths trying to calm herself.
Blair wondered, if he would throw her out when he saw her? The sparks were soon going to be flying. This is what she came here for though, and there was no turning back now. She just hoped he didn’t have anyone in there with him.
Blair opened the door to his room, and stepped inside. She spotted Chuck, fast asleep on his bed. He looked absolutely horrible. He had deep black circles under his eyes, his hair was in disarray, and he smelled to high heaven. She would have bet money that Chuck hadn’t showered in about a month.
She looked around his cozy room, and saw liquor bottles and drugs in every corner. This just wasn’t going to do. Blair heard him snoring softly, so she knew that he wasn’t going to be waking up anytime soon.
She brought all the alcohol she could find into the kitchen and poured it down the drain. She then gathered all of the drugs he had laying around. There were pills and lines of coke all over the table. Blair disposed of them in the bathroom.
If she thought Chuck was going to be mad before, he was liable to be furious now. She tidied the room up, while waiting for him to come alive again. He must have been on an all night binge, because he was out cold.
There was a soft tapping on the door, and Blair jumped. She quickly treaded across the carpet quietly, trying hard not to wake Chuck up. She opened the door, and there stood two scantily clad hookers. They barely had any clothes on. Mostly just plumes and plumes of feathers were everywhere.
Blair felt her mouth drop open, but quickly closed it. “Yes?” She questioned.
One of the hookers stepped forward. “We’re here to entertain Mr. Bass for the evening.”
The other prostitute giggled.
“Mr. Bass doesn’t need your form of entertaining anymore. He has me for that. So go find some other poor victim.” She slammed the door into their stunned faces.
It felt quite good to do that, Blair thought. She turned around, and noticed that Chuck was sitting upright in his bed, glaring at her like he hated her. Oh boy. It was time for the confrontation.
“Chuck.” Blair said softly.”
“What the fuck do you think you’re doing here?” Chuck asked very angrily.
She pasted a fake smile on her face. “I’ve come to see you.”
“Well you’ve seen me, so you can show yourself out immediately.” He said harshly.
Chuck wasn’t going to make it easy on her apparently. “Nobody has heard from you, Chuck. I’ve been so worried about you. Why haven’t you called me?”
Chuck stood up shakily and walked over to Blair, until he was only about an inch away from her face. “I told you not to come looking for me. I don’t want to see you.” He growled at her.
Blair felt his breath on her face, and she could smell the scotch on his breath. She looked into his eyes.” That’s fine.” She said in an unsteady breath, when it was everything but fine. “I think you should know that I got rid of your hookers.”
“You what!?” Chuck asked in a rage, his eyes almost popping out of his head.
“I’m not finished yet, Chuck. If you thought that was bad, just wait. I also got rid of all the booze and drugs you had in here.”
Chuck’s nostrils expanded, as he tried to take deep calming breaths. He could barely see, he was so angry. He looked around his room then, and true to her word, all of his things were gone.
“You bitch! Get the fuck out of here and leave me alone!” Chuck roared.
“No.” Blair said simply.
“I told you to get out. Do you want me to have you thrown out?” He asked in all seriousness.
Blair smirked. “Look, we both know you’re not going to throw me out.” She looked at Chuck, but he said nothing. “I’m not leaving France, until you decide to come back to New York with me. I’m not going to go without you. So if you decide to stay here Chuck, you’ll be stuck here with me for a while. I’m not going to give up on you Chuck Bass and you know why.”
“Because you love me, right?” Chuck asked mockingly. “That means nothing to me. You were just a fuck, Blair. Nothing more. Get that through that your head.” In all reality it meant everything to Chuck, but he felt like he had to push her away. Before he destroyed her too.
Blair’s heart clenched at his words, and she just wanted to break out bawling.
She stared at him glumly. “I know what you’re doing Bass, and it’s not going to work.”
“I’m not doing anything, Blair. It’s the truth.” He saw the pain flicker in her eyes. I’m not going back to New York, there’s nothing there for me now. Most of all you, Blair. I don’t want you.”
“Say whatever you want, Chuck. I’m not giving up on you, and I never will. You will come back with me, when all is said and done.” Blair said, as she grabbed his hand.
Chuck tore his hand out of her grasp, when all he wanted to do was clutch at it. “You’re wasting your time.”
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
“Well it’s my time to waste. Right, Bass?” Blair walked to the door, and opened it. Before she closed it behind her, she said, “I’ll be back tomorrow, and just so you know, I don’t consider helping you as wasting time. I always get what I want, Chuck. And what I want is you.”
TBC
A/N: So what did you think of chapter 2? I know Chuck is being very hostile towards Blair, but I just had to show the depth of Chuck’s grief and pain. Blair is not going to give up on him. If you enjoyed this chapter, please leave me a review.
She was so upset about Chuck that Blair couldn’t eat, sleep, or concentrate on anything but him. Blair knew that he needed her; she just now had to find out where he was. It physically hurt her that Chuck was in so much pain.
She was so lost in her own thoughts, that she didn’t even hear the ding of her own elevator lift. Blair saw the door open, and out stepped Nate. He had an odd look on his face, and Blair knew that he had news of where Chuck was.
She clutched at her thumping heart. “What is it, Nate?”
He sighed, “Chuck called me today.”
Blair was shocked. Why would he call Nate over her? She figured he would call her when he was ready, not Nate. Didn’t she mean anything to him anymore?
Blair gulped nervously. “Did Chuck tell you where he is?”
“He did, Blair. But he made me promise that I wouldn’t tell you. Chuck said he doesn’t want to see you.” Nate told her remorsefully.
Blair sank down on the sofa and Nate put a comforting arm around her.
“I’m sorry, Blair. It’s all going to be okay.”
She looked at him with a vacant expression. “Why? Why is he doing this to me?”
Nate grabbed her hand. “Don’t you see? Chuck’s trying to push you away because he doesn’t think he deserves your love.”
Blair let that sink into her mind, and it calmed her down a bit.
“Did he say anything else, Nate?”
He looked away very quickly. “Not really, no.”
“You’re lying. What did Chuck tell you?”
“Nothing.”
“Don’t bullshit me, Nate Archibald. Just tell me.”
Nate sighed, “No, Blair. It’s only going to hurt you more.”
“Just fucking tell me!”
“Fine.” Nate snapped. “Chuck said that he didn’t want anyone to come looking for him, because he has enough whores and drugs to keep him entertained for a while.”
Nate instantly regretted telling her. Her face crumpled and she started sobbing.
He rubbed her back, until Blair’s sobs faded into hiccups. Her mind was whirling. She had to be strong for Chuck’s sake. Blair kept repeating it over and over again inside of her head.
“Where is he?” Blair asked her voice raspy from crying.
Nate rolled his eyes, and blew out a breath of air. “Are you going to go after him?”
“Yes.”
“He’ll kill me if I tell you, Blair.”
“I won’t tell him that it was you.”
Nate surrendered. “France. Chuck is in France. You remember that hotel we stayed in a couple of summers ago, with Chuck and Serena?”
Blair nodded.
“Well, Bart owns that hotel and that is where Chuck has been spending most of his time.”
Blair steeled herself on what she had to do. She was going to go to France, and bring Chuck back. “Okay. Thank you for telling me.”
“I don’t know if you should go after him, Blair. He obviously needs more time.”
Blair vehemently shook her head. “Don’t you think he’s had enough time trying to destroy his life? I’m going to go to France, and see him. It won’t be like I’m checking up on him. I’ll just tell Chuck that I came to see my father, and that he was on the way back home. So it’s really like I’m just stopping to say hello.”
Nate let out a chuckle. “Chuck will never believe that.”
“Well, I don’t care!” Blair yelled. “I need to see Chuck, and convince him that I love him. I’ve got to try and save him from himself, Nate.”
He understood that. “Just be careful, Blair.”
“I’ll do my best.”
XOXO
“So you’re really going to do this, Blair?” Serena asked, as she was helping Blair pack.
“Yes, Serena. I don’t know what’s going to happen when Chuck sees me, but we’ll get through it.”
“Whatever he says or does, just don’t give up on him. I have a feeling Chuck’s going to be pretty pissed off.” Serena warned.
“He’ll be furious. It’s nothing that I can’t handle though. We’re two of a kind Serena; I know I’ll be able to get through to him eventually.”
“Good luck, B.” Serena whispered.
Blair smiled gratefully at her. “Thanks, I think I might need it.”
XOXO
Blair was standing directly outside of the hotel that Chuck was staying at. Her flight had been long and tiresome, but she was finally here. She was extremely nervous now that she was about to see Chuck for the first time. It had been such a long time. Her shaking hand grasped the door, and she stepped inside of the hotel.
Blair walked up to the front desk, and a receptionist spotted her.
“How may I help you?” She asked sweetly.
“I’m looking for Chuck Bass.” Blair responded.
“Is he expecting you?”
“No.”
“Well, let me just call his room and see if it’s alright with Mr. Bass.”
Blair waved her hand in the air to stop her from dialing Chuck’s number. “No, please don’t. I’m a friend of Chuck’s, and it’s a surprise visit. You don’t want to ruin the surprise, do you? Please.”
After fifteen minutes of pleading, the receptionist had finally given in. She now had Chuck’s room number and the key to his room. She walked up the plush steps of the carpet to get to his room. A minute later, she was outside of his room, and suddenly terrified to go in. Blair leaned her head against the wood paneling of his door, and took deep breaths trying to calm herself.
Blair wondered, if he would throw her out when he saw her? The sparks were soon going to be flying. This is what she came here for though, and there was no turning back now. She just hoped he didn’t have anyone in there with him.
Blair opened the door to his room, and stepped inside. She spotted Chuck, fast asleep on his bed. He looked absolutely horrible. He had deep black circles under his eyes, his hair was in disarray, and he smelled to high heaven. She would have bet money that Chuck hadn’t showered in about a month.
She looked around his cozy room, and saw liquor bottles and drugs in every corner. This just wasn’t going to do. Blair heard him snoring softly, so she knew that he wasn’t going to be waking up anytime soon.
She brought all the alcohol she could find into the kitchen and poured it down the drain. She then gathered all of the drugs he had laying around. There were pills and lines of coke all over the table. Blair disposed of them in the bathroom.
If she thought Chuck was going to be mad before, he was liable to be furious now. She tidied the room up, while waiting for him to come alive again. He must have been on an all night binge, because he was out cold.
There was a soft tapping on the door, and Blair jumped. She quickly treaded across the carpet quietly, trying hard not to wake Chuck up. She opened the door, and there stood two scantily clad hookers. They barely had any clothes on. Mostly just plumes and plumes of feathers were everywhere.
Blair felt her mouth drop open, but quickly closed it. “Yes?” She questioned.
One of the hookers stepped forward. “We’re here to entertain Mr. Bass for the evening.”
The other prostitute giggled.
“Mr. Bass doesn’t need your form of entertaining anymore. He has me for that. So go find some other poor victim.” She slammed the door into their stunned faces.
It felt quite good to do that, Blair thought. She turned around, and noticed that Chuck was sitting upright in his bed, glaring at her like he hated her. Oh boy. It was time for the confrontation.
“Chuck.” Blair said softly.”
“What the fuck do you think you’re doing here?” Chuck asked very angrily.
She pasted a fake smile on her face. “I’ve come to see you.”
“Well you’ve seen me, so you can show yourself out immediately.” He said harshly.
Chuck wasn’t going to make it easy on her apparently. “Nobody has heard from you, Chuck. I’ve been so worried about you. Why haven’t you called me?”
Chuck stood up shakily and walked over to Blair, until he was only about an inch away from her face. “I told you not to come looking for me. I don’t want to see you.” He growled at her.
Blair felt his breath on her face, and she could smell the scotch on his breath. She looked into his eyes.” That’s fine.” She said in an unsteady breath, when it was everything but fine. “I think you should know that I got rid of your hookers.”
“You what!?” Chuck asked in a rage, his eyes almost popping out of his head.
“I’m not finished yet, Chuck. If you thought that was bad, just wait. I also got rid of all the booze and drugs you had in here.”
Chuck’s nostrils expanded, as he tried to take deep calming breaths. He could barely see, he was so angry. He looked around his room then, and true to her word, all of his things were gone.
“You bitch! Get the fuck out of here and leave me alone!” Chuck roared.
“No.” Blair said simply.
“I told you to get out. Do you want me to have you thrown out?” He asked in all seriousness.
Blair smirked. “Look, we both know you’re not going to throw me out.” She looked at Chuck, but he said nothing. “I’m not leaving France, until you decide to come back to New York with me. I’m not going to go without you. So if you decide to stay here Chuck, you’ll be stuck here with me for a while. I’m not going to give up on you Chuck Bass and you know why.”
“Because you love me, right?” Chuck asked mockingly. “That means nothing to me. You were just a fuck, Blair. Nothing more. Get that through that your head.” In all reality it meant everything to Chuck, but he felt like he had to push her away. Before he destroyed her too.
Blair’s heart clenched at his words, and she just wanted to break out bawling.
She stared at him glumly. “I know what you’re doing Bass, and it’s not going to work.”
“I’m not doing anything, Blair. It’s the truth.” He saw the pain flicker in her eyes. I’m not going back to New York, there’s nothing there for me now. Most of all you, Blair. I don’t want you.”
“Say whatever you want, Chuck. I’m not giving up on you, and I never will. You will come back with me, when all is said and done.” Blair said, as she grabbed his hand.
Chuck tore his hand out of her grasp, when all he wanted to do was clutch at it. “You’re wasting your time.”
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
“Well it’s my time to waste. Right, Bass?” Blair walked to the door, and opened it. Before she closed it behind her, she said, “I’ll be back tomorrow, and just so you know, I don’t consider helping you as wasting time. I always get what I want, Chuck. And what I want is you.”
TBC
A/N: So what did you think of chapter 2? I know Chuck is being very hostile towards Blair, but I just had to show the depth of Chuck’s grief and pain. Blair is not going to give up on him. If you enjoyed this chapter, please leave me a review.
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